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Aug. 16, 2009 - Project Camelot
01:11:15
Bill Ryan and Kerry Cassidy from Project Camelot interviewed by Arjan Bos
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Thank you.
Hello, this is a video interview by Willemij weten?
My name is Arjan Bos, and for those of you who don't know, Willen Wij Weten is a Dutch alternative news website, which means Do We Want To Know?
And today, August 2nd of the year 2009, we're very happy to have Bill, Ryan and Kerry Cassidy of Project Camelot with us here in Amsterdam.
Bill and Kerry, welcome.
And, as we say in England, the boot is on the other foot.
Because we're on the other side of the camera.
I think this is the first time.
Is this the first time someone's done a video interview with us?
It might be.
I don't know.
I can't.
If it has happened before...
We've had a lot of interviews, but actually not on video, I don't think.
We had radio interviews.
I had some radio interviews.
And we've done conferences, but we haven't done...
A video interview with someone like yourself?
I don't think.
And if there's someone out there saying, well, what about mine?
Then we're sorry, we can't remember it.
I would really like that area covered.
I would like to go into more personal detail than is usual in Project Camelot videos.
And also, when you're interviewed in radio interviews, it's mostly about the subjects that you cover in the Project Camelot.
And what I'm also interested in is because you put a lot out there already in your personal stories.
For example, I listened to a radio show a couple of weeks ago and in that you mentioned, Bill, that you once had an ET girlfriend.
Oh, my goodness.
And I was really wondering about that.
How did you notice?
What was it like?
Well, okay.
As we say in English, how long have you got?
because it's a long story.
I'm trying to think of how best to present the story.
It was definitely linked to an abduction experience which I had in the Himalayas.
This is something that I don't often talk about.
I did actually mention it.
With our interview with Stephen Greer that is going to be published in a few days time by the time this is out people will have had a chance to see that and Just to give some context for that the reason why I mentioned that to Stephen Greer on camera I took a deep breath and said okay, I'll tell people about my own abduction experience It's because he was saying that that most if not all of abductions were actually Faked by the American military in some way now.
This was in December 1981 and I was at 7,000 meters in the Himalayas in December in winter in northern Nepal on a mountain called Makalu on a small British expedition.
We were trying to climb it.
We didn't actually do it, but we got quite high.
And I was abducted out of my tent in the middle of the night in December.
It's not a usual abduction when they come to an apartment in Amsterdam which is all nice and easy.
I don't think any abduction is usual.
But this was quite unusual because I was floated out of my tent The temperature was probably, it was the middle of the night in December in the Himalayas at 7,000 meters.
The temperature must have been about minus 40 Celsius, maybe colder.
And when I recalled this happening, because as with almost all adoptions you don't remember, when I recalled it happening, the moment that I remember Sitting in my tent, I was lying in my tent, the three of us like sardines, there's my friend here and my friend here, and I was like that, and I was all zipped up in my sleeping bag.
And then the zip of the tent opened, and this little grey being poked his head through and looked at me, you know, like...
Like that.
That was the single most frightening moment of my whole life when I remembered that moment.
I nearly jumped right out of my chair and went through the ceiling when I remembered that.
It's like, oh my god!
You know.
And then, I mean, it was real.
You see, because you don't get shocked by an imaginary memory.
You get shocked by a real memory.
And now, this is all very complicated because I don't believe that was a malicious abduction.
I believe that something was going on Which was in some way a preparation for what we're doing now.
Okay.
And it probably was all with my agreement at a higher level, because I'm very comfortable with what's happening now.
At the time I didn't understand the experience, but I wasn't...
It's like, I don't know what's going on, what's going on, what's going on, but I wasn't...
It wasn't something that I wished hadn't happened.
I just wanted to know why it was going on.
Now, so very complicated.
At that time, one of the people I was with was a mountaineer friend of mine who, he was a small guy.
He was, I can only speak in terms of English feet.
He was about five foot two.
What's that, about one meter sixty?
Somebody?
Something like that.
He was quite a small guy.
And he had had an ET experience at that time as well.
In the same expedition, the previous day, he only told me about this years later, when he was going down the mountain from the same place, He fell into a crevasse, which is not a good idea if you're a mountaineer on your own.
Usually that's the end of the game.
That's it.
He fell into a crevasse, and the way that he told the story was, next thing I knew, I was out of the crevasse.
He'd been teleported out of the crevasse, and there were two beings there who talked with him for a long time.
And when he was telling me this story, I was becoming really freaked out because I knew that just the day after that I had my abduction experience and we were comparing our experiences.
Now, round about that time as well, I had a girlfriend who was also very small.
She is even smaller.
She's about 1 meter...
1 meter 50?
No, that can't be right.
She's about 4 foot 10.
What would that be?
That's smaller.
I mean, 1 meter 40 or something.
That's pretty small.
Yeah.
That's pretty small.
Yeah.
And...
She had a lot of very interesting psychic powers.
She was a very unusual person.
And she would always tell me, and this always kind of slightly freaked me out, because I really enjoyed being with her.
She said, you are very special.
She said, we won't always be together, but I will always love you.
And I mean, I don't know how, you know, how on earth do you respond to something like that?
And...
And she would know when things were going to happen and she'd make the phone ring and she'd be totally telepathic and once or twice I'd be really upset and she'd just look into my eyes and then the upset would disappear.
All this kind of weird stuff.
But then humans can do that too.
And one night we were in bed, just cuddling in bed.
It was about 11 o'clock at night.
And she had her back to the door, and I was looking over her shoulder, Towards the door.
And then this being appeared in the door.
Okay.
It wasn't like a classical grey being, but it looked like...
It looked very much like what Arthur Newman describes as a childlike being.
With quite big eyes, but not the kind of weird eyes.
You know, kind of large eyes and quite a round head, but also quite small.
Also unlike the being you saw in your tent.
Not like the being I saw in my tent.
The being I saw in my tent was more of the classical grey.
Okay.
You see?
Okay.
And I saw this being in my room.
It's sitting right there.
Sorry, standing right there in the doorway.
And I froze and didn't say anything, because I couldn't believe what I was seeing.
And Angie, which was her name, she had her back to the door.
And I didn't say a word.
And she said, don't worry.
It's all right.
I've seen them all my life.
You've got nothing to be afraid of.
And this being was behind her and I hadn't said anything.
And then this whole thing completely freaked me out.
And then I spoke to my other friend about this, Dave.
Now he was the Mountaineer guy.
And he said, I know that that happened.
And I said, how do you know?
He said, I just know.
And then that freaked me out even more.
And then I went back to Angie and I told her about the conversation I'd had with Dave.
And it was around about that time that he told me about the incident in the Himalayas.
This is a very convoluted story.
And Angie said, she said, I haven't talked with Dave about any of this, but looking into Dave's head is like looking into my own, she said.
And these two small beings with these strange abilities.
And Angie would say things to me, like an example was what I mentioned before.
She'd say, you're very special.
And we won't always be together, but I'll always love you.
And one day, we were sitting having breakfast, just like with the croissants and the coffee, and she just looked at me, and she said, the earth is a very beautiful place, and it won't always be this way.
And I've never forgotten those words.
It sends a chill down my spine every time I think about it.
And I said...
What did you say?
And she just almost ignored the fact that she'd said it, and then she just carried on eating breakfast.
And there were a number of other things which she said which I can't remember.
But round about this time, I found myself thinking...
This person is not a normal person.
Absolutely not a normal person.
No, something to say.
You have to come from a place of knowing.
Yeah, there's something really strange going on here.
And, I mean, I could spend two hours talking about all the experiences I had here.
But something which was really remarkable...
Actually, there are two more parts of this story, because I don't want to take this story away from you, because you've got a lot of stories of your own here.
But two things, other things happened that are worth recording.
The second one, which I'll say at the end, I never tell anybody, because it's so bizarre.
She attended a personal development workshop where you get in touch with some of the thoughts and beliefs that you have that limit yourself and all of that kind of stuff.
And she was very small.
She was the eldest of three sisters, but she was the smallest.
And she'd always make kind of jokes about herself.
She said, you know, I'm not really small.
People just think I'm small and so on and so forth.
And in this workshop, she realized that she had an investment in being small.
In other words, because she was small, she got to be the center of attention, she got to make jokes about herself, she got to, you know, it's what psychologists and therapists call a payoff.
And when she realized that, she grew.
And she was 26 years old, and she grew, I've got to do the calculation again, she grew two and a half inches, which is about eight centimeters, in two weeks.
Wow.
And I have a feeling that it was actually overnight, but I can't prove that.
It was definitely within two weeks.
And what happened was like something out of a comedy film.
I hadn't seen her for a little while, because she'd been doing this workshop and stuff, and I went to give her a hug, and I said, look, there's no need for you to stand on your toes.
And she said, I'm not standing on your toes.
And I said, yes you are, because you're taller.
And she said, I'm not taller, what do you mean?
And she said, look.
And I looked, and she was standing flat on her feet, and she was taller.
And then we ran around the house, seeing if she could fit into her clothes, and if she could fit into her shoes, and her shoes wouldn't fit.
So she wasn't aware of it herself.
And no, for some reason she had no idea, which is why I think this happened really suddenly.
I have a feeling this happened really suddenly.
Now, this is biologically impossible, but then you start talking with very, very high strangeness.
But she definitely grew.
We measured her.
It was midnight, and I went around phoning up all my friends saying, Angie's grown, Angie's grown.
And they said, what?
What are you talking about?
What?
It was like something out of a very, very bad comedy movie.
But that happened.
She did grow.
And I got really excited.
I said, right, you're going to keep on growing and you're going to be really tall.
But she freaked out about this whole thing because there's this human aspect of her.
And then she stopped.
She stopped growing.
It was remarkable.
And that really happened.
And the other thing that happened was the culmination of what I had earlier described as she was saying, you know, we're not always going to be together, but I'll always love you.
And one day she just left.
She said, okay, I'm going now.
She said, my purpose in your life is complete.
And that's enough to freak you out when you really love someone, you spend three years with them.
She said, my purpose in your life is complete, now I'm going.
You know, I'll always love you.
Bye-bye.
And I said, well, what's the problem?
She said, there's no problem.
She said, my purpose in your life is complete.
This is why I think this whole thing, whatever it was, connected with this abduction experience and my other friend Dave, it was some kind of a setup for this.
And I was hugely upset by this, as you might imagine.
I couldn't cope with this at all.
I had no way of coping with this.
And it was Christmas time.
We'd bought tickets for a skiing holiday.
And it's like, well, what about my skiing holiday?
And she said, well, just give the ticket to someone else.
You know, it's okay.
And I had some people staying in my house, and I was so upset.
I stayed in bed for three days.
I couldn't handle it.
I went into a personal black hole.
This was all back in...
This was 20 years ago.
This was in 1986.
And on the third day...
And this is what I don't tell anyone.
It's the most extraordinary story.
On the third day, another being appeared in my room.
Like the first one.
And you know that story, the scene in E.T., the movie E.T., you know, when he has his glowing red finger and he heals Elliot, because Elliot is upset, you know, the little boy who he befriends.
This is what happened to me.
This being appeared in my room and I've been sitting there in bed, unable to move, unable to function, couldn't handle this.
This was not intended.
The being came up to me and his finger touched me in the middle of the chest.
And then I was fine.
All the upset went away and I went downstairs and the whole thing was handled for me.
It was a remarkable story.
I don't tell people that because there's no way anyone can believe it.
I don't believe it myself, you know, but that's what happened.
And it's a very important story for one reason that Despite its unbelievability, what it shows me is that these beings who are behind that abduction and that experience and that program, whatever it was, they actually have compassion.
They really do have compassion.
This wasn't a mindless program biological robot.
This was somebody who came in, because it wasn't part of the plan that I should be so upset that I couldn't function.
So they had to fix that.
And they fixed it.
And it was a compassionate act.
And you could really feel it like that?
It just disappeared.
Everything disappeared.
Like somebody turned a switch and I wasn't upset anymore.
I wasn't upset because something was added on, like a mask.
The upset was handled because they took the upset away, which is the basis of all effective therapeutic programs.
The charge that's associated with an incident, you remove that charge and then you're back to normal again.
It's the charge that makes people upset, so they lifted the charge off and then it had gone.
And I haven't had...
I suppose I've had a few strange experiences since then, but I haven't had anything like that.
Every now and then I kind of hope they might come back and say, hey guys, you're doing a great job.
Nothing.
You never saw her again either?
I never saw her again.
Okay.
Never saw her again.
Extraordinary story.
It's a remarkable story.
But one of the reasons why I don't tell it, well actually there are three reasons why I don't tell it.
One is a standard reason why anyone who's had a strange experience they usually don't tell their story because people start looking at them a little bit weird.
Another thing is because it's so complicated that it's hard to explain.
And the third reason, and all of these things are reasons which I hold at the same time, the third reason is that Other people have experiences that actually, I believe, are far more significant.
We interviewed Jim Sparks, you know, and God alone can understand what kind of experience he's been through.
And last night we were talking to somebody whose whole life has been about this, you know, over and over and over again.
I also don't want to be sort of attracting attention to myself as some special case here, because I don't think this is a weird story, but it's not a special case.
And, you know, I've sort of integrated it into my life, and the way I've integrated it into my life is by saying, you know what, I'm not even going to try and understand that, but it's got something to do with what I'm doing now.
And what I'm doing now is important and who I am now is important.
And this kind of goes right back to where we are now and the subject of this conversation.
And this is where I want to stop monopolizing the conversation to bring Kerry into it.
Because we have had the feeling over and over again ever since we started that we have been helped, we've been guided, we've had doors open for us, we've been assisted by hidden hands.
We don't know whether they're E.T., whether they're angelic, whatever on earth is going on, but there's no reasonable way that we could have done what we've done without some kind of help.
And the metaphor which I often use is walking towards a blank wall And then the door suddenly opens and you go through into another room.
And you can't see the door until you get there, and then it suddenly magically appears.
And that's been the experience we've had ever since the beginning.
And now I'm going to stop talking.
Okay.
Well, the energetics around you, too, it's very clear that this happens, that you must have, in whatever way, have some help.
Yeah.
But we're not the only ones.
This is the important thing.
We're not trying to be special, and I'm not trying to be special.
I experienced it myself.
Yeah, sure.
Everyone in this room, probably, has had experiences that they find hard to explain.
And some people have really weird experiences, and they don't even talk about them at all.
But the number of human beings who have had remarkable, transformative experiences is much larger than anyone would think.
I'm quite sure of it.
Yeah.
That's my very long elevator speech.
Yeah.
See what happens when you ask me a simple question?
Yeah, yeah.
It's a real danger.
Yeah, true.
I can talk for an hour.
Yeah.
Maybe in the same radio interview, I heard you also say that you had a UFO experience where you were young.
And I wondered about that.
How was it?
Did you feel it had any significance?
Well, I have to say that my experience is a little different than Bill's in the sense that since I was young, I had...
I think I had a repetitious experience going on all the time when I was young.
And I had a recurring nightmare.
In that, I would go to sleep, and then I would be walking down a path out of my front door, and it was a little path, and there was a picket fence.
I didn't live in a house that had a path and a picket fence, but this is what I would dream.
At the end of the picket fence, there would be a man standing there with, I know this sounds like a fedora, one of those hats from a spy movie and an overcoat.
Okay, like a Zorro or something.
And I thought, and I was afraid, and I would hear a sort of a buzzing sound, and then I would wake up, and I would be terrified.
And that was recurring all the time.
At the same time, strangely enough, not so long ago, I saw a video of myself with my family when I was...
I must have been, I don't know, 16 or something like that.
And...
And I just look different than everyone else.
I don't know how to explain it.
And my sister, I can tell you that this is so strange, that my sister actually turned to me and looked at the video and said, Who is that?
And I turned to her and I said, It's me!
And she's like...
She didn't remember me from then or something like that.
It was just a strange thing.
And I looked at myself.
This has happened to me before.
It happened to me when I was in school.
I was videotaped.
I was doing a speech or something.
And I didn't know who that was.
When I looked at the thing, I couldn't...
I don't know how to explain that, but it was a strange thing that would happen to me.
And I was filmed when I was a kid, you know, they were shooting movies around the school or something, just kids' things.
But, um...
So, anyway, the thing with...
But beyond that, as I was reading books on magic and things, when I was like 11, I taught myself to read when I was very, very young, before I could go to school.
My brother was going to school, and I would sit at the door and wait for him to come home so I could ask him a word.
And so I was very, I don't know, whatever, precocious you might say.
I wouldn't say that I was extraordinarily brilliant or some kind of thing like that, but I was very aware.
I guess I was fully aware when I was a kid.
I was very upset that I was a kid because I couldn't go out and just run my life.
And I didn't understand why I was put into this body and this thing that I was little and a child.
Because in my head, I wasn't that person.
I was in another place.
But besides that, I also had, I guess, you know, awareness of beings being around all the time.
So, certainly I saw UFOs later.
Okay.
When we were older, you know, I just knew about them.
In fact, I had some friends even, I went to New York and I studied acting, and a couple of friends said to me one day, they said...
Well, you're really like an ET. We were just walking down the street, and I wasn't in Camelot, and I wasn't associated with UFOs, and I wasn't studying them or any of that stuff.
And we were involved in music and art and things.
And they just turned to me and said, well...
You know, you're just like an ET or something.
And I was like, I was hurt by that.
Yeah, I reckon.
I thought, oh my God, you know, what is it I'm doing and saying that's so odd that these people are like that and saying that about me.
Then I also knew exactly what I was doing.
I knew about Eastern philosophy, and I was tested in college in a class by a person who was from India.
I wrote some kind of essay, and he read it to the class, and he said, Well, you know all about this stuff.
And I had never read a book about it at all.
But anyway, I decided that I would reach enlightenment.
It was my decision when I was like 21 or something.
I was just going to do this.
So I just got some books on...
Kundalini and so on.
And then I sat and meditated.
And I ended up meditating every day for like hours and hours for probably a month or so.
I stopped kind of going to work and everything else.
And I did.
I reached Kundalini, you know, a Samadhi, what's called a Samadhi experience and merged with everything and So I did all this very consciously.
Like, I knew I was going to do it, I planned it, and I did it, you know.
So I have to say that I've had...
I would classify it more spiritual experiences.
Like, I came at the UFO thing from a more spiritual place.
But, you know, my family was camping in Lake Tahoe, and it was Fourth of July or something like that, and we were just having a camping trip and sleeping under the stars.
And I was, I don't know how old I was, maybe in my 20s or maybe 30s at that point.
And up in the sky were all these, well, they looked like stars, but then they just started moving around.
And they were all moving, and there was, I mean...
It just went on for hours.
And we were just watching it, and I said, look at all the UFOs.
I was the only one in my family who knew anything about that, and I directed their attention to that.
And then we just watched it, and it was like they were having a party, basically, in space, because all the stars were not just sitting there.
They were just all moving around and going places and zipping back and forth.
It was like they were having a huge meeting.
For everyone to see.
Well, my family.
Yeah, okay, but it was not just you who saw it.
Yeah.
It was a display.
Yeah, it was just going on and on, but they were way far up there, so they looked like stars, but they literally were zipping around.
All right.
And so that was fine, you know, that was just like normal or nothing, you know, nothing, it just seemed normal, you know, it didn't seem like a big deal.
To you, but to your family, it was extraordinary, I reckon.
Well, they didn't get all excited or anything.
I mean, we were laughing about it, just laying in our sleeping bags, kind of laughing about it and stuff.
Then, you know, but they don't consciously seem to recognize, you know, think about this kind of thing, that I'm involved in Camelot and all that.
They don't even know.
I mean, they know, you know, I've said, go to my website, blah, blah, blah.
But they don't go.
You know, they don't.
One sister isn't online at all.
And she's the one that would be, I mean, she's open to things.
She's fairly psychically aware.
My other sister has had, I think, experiences.
I mean, I think...
You know how they say these abductions run in families?
I do believe we have had that in my family.
My mother was quite interesting.
She was very aware and open to all sorts of spiritual things.
But at the same time, she also was very conventional in certain ways.
But...
So to answer your question, I haven't had any...
Other than I see light beams all the time.
I actually saw a couple last night, not last night, but the night before, before we went on stage.
They come, two of them came, they visit me for a while, and then they disappear.
And I've seen them since I was in my 20s.
All right.
And they've accompanied me to places.
And whenever I would be in a state where I'd be very upset, because I had a...
You know, I was a sort of struggling actor and lived in New York City and studied acting and I didn't have any money and I didn't always know if I could eat that day and I hated borrowing money from my parents so I wouldn't tell them and so on and so forth.
So I had some rough times and they were always, they would come and visit me.
Okay, so your initial experience in your dreams were very frightening actually.
That one, yeah, when I was a little, really little kid, and I was afraid of Santa Claus.
I know this sounds stupid, but...
When Christmas would come and people would, you know, this is when we were really young.
And they would say, oh, well, Santa Claus is going to come.
And Santa Claus came, you know, supposedly and flew in the sky, right?
Oh, right.
And so I just remember thinking to myself, oh, well, if Santa Claus, you know, if there is such a being as Santa Claus, I'm not interested in looking out the window or letting them know that I'm awake.
Because they're going to, you know.
Because they're going to do something.
But your overall feeling, after all those years, would you label it as more positive or more negative?
Well, I'm not convinced of what was going on there.
There are some other things that I've just put together recently which have to do with my labs, which is when my whole family All the kids in my family, there's four of us, were born in a certain hospital, except for me.
And I was born in a military hospital in Palo Alto, near Moffat Field, which is a military base.
And I never, I always thought, well, I'm, you know, special.
I was born in a special hospital, you know, different than everyone.
But I never put two and two together.
And just recently I've been thinking, well, isn't that interesting?
My father was a pilot in World War II. He built his own airplane.
He was, you know, quite brilliant in his way.
And I don't know what that's about.
And I'm sure my mother would have no idea.
She would say, oh, that's ridiculous.
Nothing went on.
But it was just like a weird little thing that went on there.
And so if you put that together with the guy with the overcoat and the buzzing and whatever, maybe there was something that went on early on.
Hmm.
Okay.
But who knows?
Yeah.
And maybe we can never know these things.
Well, you can, yeah, maybe you have an overall feeling if it's more right or if it's more something you don't want.
Yeah, I don't think now when I look back at it, I'm sure that this is probably an overall positive thing that I was very involved in.
But at the same time, I'm aware that there are positive and negative beings.
I have no doubt in my mind whatsoever.
And it could be that this comes from my own past of having been exposed to them on different levels.
And I'm psychically aware of a lot of things going on.
I see things.
I pretty much have kept it to myself, even now in Camelot.
This isn't the kind of thing that we talk about, even to each other, because our focus is external to ourselves and it's on other people.
It's not meant to be about us.
But it guides us, I have to say.
I mean, I will tell Bill things.
You know, that we need to do, or this or that, and because I'm getting a direct, very strong message.
And he gets this occasionally as well.
And I think that in many ways, I mean, I think we are protected on an earthly level, but I think we're very protected on an unseen level.
I think one of the things that unites us, which I've only recently really realized is unusual, is that we have no fear.
None.
None.
Absolutely none.
That's quite extraordinary.
Absolutely none.
And it's so, I mean, the idea of us having fear is so unusual that we don't even think about the fact that we don't have fear.
We just do our thing, you know.
And it's other people who point out, well, aren't you afraid?
Yeah, I have trouble understanding to some degree, some people.
And that isn't because I'm not afraid of anything.
I mean, you know, I've had times in my life where, you know, I've been alone in, you know, sort of a desperate situation or whatever.
I mean, that's when that spider appeared.
I moved to New York City from California.
Stop it.
I moved to New York City...
Spiders are a big problem.
Oh, okay.
I didn't like spiders.
But I moved to New York City when I was a kid, you know, like in my young...
I don't know, I was...
In my late 20s to study acting.
And coming from Northern California, if you know anything about that, I grew up in Northern California, and that's a certain kind of a person.
Like Northern California, we have sort of a thing about that.
We're like cool, we're very advanced.
That's why the 60s happened, it really happened in San Francisco.
Apple Computer and the whole thing.
Yeah, and I grew up near Apple Computer and all that.
A fancy part of the world.
Well, I don't know.
But when I moved to New York, you know, it was a complete drastic difference to hit the streets and have zillions of people, you know, everywhere and, you know, also to go in the subway and stuff.
And it was very intimidating for a young sort of blondish person, female especially.
And so in that sense, I knew fear, you know, so I'm saying...
But in terms of Camelot, it's just not even a second thought.
I don't know why.
I just know that we, in other words, and I will do and say just about anything.
I mean, we've been told, like I was just told a number of times recently that I'd be killed if I said certain things.
And I've said them.
You know, we're not stupid, I have to say.
But by the same token, it's like, you know...
You get a lot of requests, I think, from whistleblowers to get on and you determine which one you give stage and which you don't.
And it's probably all intuitive because no story is actually verifiable.
Well, more or less.
And you have to make constantly choices.
Do we give stage or don't we?
That's right.
Do you decline a lot?
Do you get a lot of requests?
I'm a whistleblower and I have a story.
We get a lot of people writing to us saying, I'm the most important person in the world.
I have this special ET experience.
And it's, I'm sorry, but it's very common.
I mean, we get zillions of emails of this type.
And I mean, just recently, I was just looking at my inbox, we've got two people writing to us saying, I want you to interview me, I've got this most important story, and it's just your typical, you know, rejection experience.
This needs a caveat, because we're not trying to minimize or marginalize anyone who's had a very important personal experience.
What Kerry's really talking about, I think, is context.
And some people, for understandable reasons, they have trouble integrating their own experience.
But it is important to say that this is worldwide.
And what happens is everyone has a special thing because it seems special to them.
But we actually get, I have to say, we do get people writing to us saying, I've got the message for the planet.
This is really what they say and what they think.
They think they are the one.
And this is a pitfall in this world that we're in.
And one of the bell ringers for us in evaluating whether or not to talk to a person is how what happens is a real whistleblower comes across very Subtly.
Very buttoned up.
Very low-key.
They rarely tell us everything in the first email.
They write to us and they say, you know, I have a couple things to talk to you about.
I wonder if, you know...
I mean, sometimes it's a one-liner.
Sometimes they'll put in one word that might be...
Like a covert way to see if we're awake and aware and whether we pick up on it.
So it's a fascinating process what goes on in terms of people communicating to us.
The other part of that is that In a sense, we're not really a website for abductees or contactees.
That's actually not our area of expertise or the area that we've decided to focus on.
We really have decided to focus on You know, whistleblowers that come out of the sort of black projects.
But on the other hand, what has happened is that some of our research searchers, some of the people that we have been attracted to interview, for an intuitive reason, have had ET experiences and contact and channeling and so on.
I really like the broadness of the spectrum you cover in your interviews.
We don't have a strategy or a plan.
See, these things come at us in a very holistic, integrated way.
Things just happen almost like there's some kind of a script being written.
In some, you know, in an esoteric sense.
And what we do is we just go with the flow.
And if we both feel, intuitively, this is exactly what Kerry said, you know, we get a message.
Sometimes, because we both get all of our mail, we both home in on the same message and saying, This message here, have you read that?
And she said, yeah, I've just read that this moment.
This person feels important and almost invariably that significant.
But I term it as, in a sense, we are following the trail of a mystery.
And we are going where the trail and the clues lead us.
And that means that even right now, we cannot tell you, we're not going to rule somebody out because you say, oh, you know, this person's in the health field or this person's in the such and such field.
We actually, there is no area that we won't go in.
But it only depends on...
If we get the push to follow the clue and to go in that direction.
So logically, there are some people who collect all the interviews with everyone who's ever talked about such and such, right?
And ever written a book about such and such.
We don't actually do that.
We don't duplicate.
What we're doing is actually following a trail So if we get one person in a certain area, but that one person is very well chosen, at least from our point of view.
Yeah, and you can feel it.
I mean, to follow you and your work is quite extraordinary, actually.
I really encourage you to...
We want to paint the big picture.
So each is a piece of the puzzle.
They're not duplicate pieces.
And I also like that you don't have the same opinion always.
Never.
It's funny because we will agree on intuitive sort of messages sometimes, but in terms of overall approach, it's drastically different.
He's more the scientific.
We say Mulder and Scully from X-Files, only he's Scully and I'm Mulder, because he's the scientist and I'm more the intuitive communicator.
And on the money thing, How does money work for you?
Because a couple of months ago, a couple of weeks ago I read on your blog that money is a problem and everybody has to make a living and here we have two beautiful people doing the most extraordinary work for waking up the planet to a certain story and What is your view on that?
Why does everything at the core of your work has to be free?
I mean, there must be some way to somehow support you more by the people that watch your videos.
I think, I might imagine that you could do better and more if you had more Less worry about money in a way.
Let me answer this first.
There are different ways to go at this, and it's an interesting question.
For me, it's about a philosophical reversal of the principle of money, which is based on exchange.
If I've got a coffee shop, I give you the cup of coffee, and then you give me...
Three euros or three dollars or whatever it is, and that's the exchange.
But I say to you, I've got the cup of coffee here, I'm not going to give it to you unless you give me the money first.
That's how it works.
I mean, or, you know, unless you agree to give me the money first.
And then it's changed.
Now, usually that's the way business is done.
And the way that things are sold on the internet, often, it's like you've got a DVD, or you've got a video, or you've got a book, and it's like, okay, you give me the money, then I'll send you the information.
Okay.
Now, what we've done is we've put it in reverse.
It's like, we'll give you all the information, and we trust that it's going to come back to us.
And maybe I'll give you the information and he gives me the money.
It doesn't matter.
It doesn't matter who gives us the money, you see.
Because it's the principle of flow.
The principle is that we give people whatever we have.
And then if the universe is playing fair, and it seems to be, then we get a return.
You may remind people more of doing that.
Because, for example, if I look at myself, I made like four or five times a small donation, and I expect maybe everybody does, but apparently it doesn't happen.
And if I was reminded more often in a video, at the end of a video, for example, to make a donation, then I probably would have done it more often.
Yeah, our cameraman is very pleased that you just said that, because this is his advice to us.
It was his idea, so it was his idea.
Yeah, thank you very much.
That's why I'm bringing it up.
But for me there's a point here as well.
You see that it's a little bit...
It's like that also becomes part of the process that we don't think about.
It's just like, okay, this is like an article of trust.
We just trust it's going to work that way, and then it does.
And...
The philosophical backdrop for wanting to do it that way is because the information is not ours to sell.
It's not ours.
You can't have copyright on this stuff.
People who think, well, I own this information, and I own the words in this interview, and I own my experience, and you can't have it.
This is very, very small, limited human thinking, which is a very old paradigm.
We're only acting as a channel for this information, as a way of getting this information out.
It's not ours.
So how can we sell something that doesn't belong to us?
Maybe you shouldn't think about it.
I thought about something yesterday and I want to bring that into the world with this interview.
I thought it maybe would be nice to make a kind of A tribute to Bill and Kerry from all kinds of whistleblowers they had, all kinds of people that watch your videos.
In Holland, we do that a lot.
For example, the tsunami hit here.
We had 16 million people and there was one TV show and we raised about 100 million euros for that.
Maybe that's an idea.
Maybe someone will pick it up, maybe not.
That's just an idea I have.
Thank you.
Well, I have to say that our philosophy on this is a little bit different.
We're both aligned in the sense that this material needs to be free at the outset.
What it's about is that what we We talked about it yesterday, which is the idea of people not having access, whether it's to information or truth or secrets.
And so the last thing we want to do is put a barrier there between the people and the truth that we want to get out there.
So we want that to get out there and thank God for the Internet because it is there.
It is a medium that allows us to do that.
So we were completely in agreement from day one Everything was going to be free, okay?
That's beautiful.
And that has to happen.
In fact, we've been offered to do a television show, you know, like on regular TV. Okay.
Although it didn't actually happen, you know, this was a year ago.
And even then, we were saying to the producers, but you do understand that our videos are going to be free on Camelot.
I mean, it has to be that way.
Now, on the other hand, we are, at least I am more practical because I'm a filmmaker in the sense that if we, what we don't do is package DVDs and what we need to do is do that because, and those would go for sale because there is a labor and a cost to actually produce that.
Now there's a labor and a cost to produce what we do.
Definitely.
But we are kind of, like I said, guerilla filmmakers.
And we are going on the paradigm that if we put it out there, it will come back.
And we do believe that.
And it has worked.
Although I have to say, for the first two years, I had a small inheritance from my mother passing, and we're self-financed.
And then the last year, Bill's mother passed, and we had a small amount of money from there that kept us going.
And then we also started asking for donations.
I think it was a little, about a year, now it's been almost a year and a half ago.
And our Avalon site, we started charging for subscriptions a dollar or whatever you want, or five dollars a month.
But that hasn't actually been all that successful.
People didn't want to pay so much for, you know, being on a forum and so on.
But we tried to convey to them that what that subscription was going to do was go into the Camelot work that, you know, sort of the information works.
Sort of fuels everything else, right?
Because anybody we interview is going to help raise the level of consciousness and also for the Avalon side of things, which is the side which has to do with finding safe places, preparing for the future in sort of a nuts and bolts way.
And we do have another site that we're We're looking to do which is called Project Light Warrior and we are going to help people develop themselves because beyond developing your own safe place and getting into groups and networking there's a side that is more spiritual about preparing for the days to come on That you need to become as enlightened as you can be and become as much of a spiritual warrior as possible.
And there we've got Yoda on the wall there.
Exactly.
To remind us of...
Because we are going to face...
What we're facing is much more of a spiritual experience.
It will manifest physically here on the material realm, on the 3D. But the real sort of nuts and bolts battle, if you will, Will happen for the hearts and minds of humanity.
And so that is what we want to help in the future to equip people along those lines.
There is a spiritual war going on.
It's just that right here and now on this planet, this seems to be one of the front lines.
That's one way to put it.
So, I mean, you can't put a price on that.
You can't say, well, you know, we really must educate people.
We must make them become aware.
You know, we must encourage them to do so.
So, that's where the, you know, there'd be no barrier to entry, no matter what.
Now, we have been approached.
Some people don't want to look at our videos because It's hard to stream and it takes time and we've had all logistical things go on.
And so they want to purchase a DVD or even to hand it out to family and friends.
And in that sense, we've actually been pretty remiss because we can't lay out the money it costs to To pay for, you know, I don't know, thousands of DVDs to be printed and then put it on our site and sell it and all this kind of thing.
We actually are very, we're very bad in that area and we know it.
So, in a sense, we could be more sort of proactive in funding our work than we are.
I think many people would really like to support you in that way.
Well, thank you.
But the principle of funding Would always be adding value, not saying, we're not going to tell you unless you pay us.
The information would always be available.
But for instance, the advantage of a DVD, for instance, is that the quality is higher.
For me...
The same thing on Avalon is that we, even though we charge the subscription, you can see everything that's available on the site for free.
You just can't post.
So it has to be...
It's just really important to us.
Another analogy is going into a new relationship, which is that if you go into a new relationship thinking, what am I going to get out of this?
It's probably not going to work.
If you go into a new relationship thinking, okay, this is a wonderful opportunity to give something, you know, to give love, and then maybe I'll get love back.
But if you go looking for love because you need something, it probably won't work.
You need to flip it around in the way that I tried to describe a couple of minutes ago.
Yeah.
And that's basically the way that I think we both live our lives like that.
It's like we're trying to give something, and we're not trying to make ourselves be special.
It's just because it's a job and it needs to happen, and we're not the only ones.
We're part of a huge team of people who are doing this, each in their own way.
Probably related to your not having fear, you don't experience fear.
I wondered about that too, that you're in a field where it's very easy to get frightened, and apparently you don't feel that.
And I think that, in a way, if you can look at your own shadow, you can look at the shadow of the world, and apparently that's what you're very good at.
But is there a way in which Your personal lives are being mirrored in the events taking place in Project Camelot?
Well, I'm not sure how to answer that.
I mean, I'm not sure what the question is in a sense.
But in general, I would say that what happened with Camelot is that we actually We met each other as friends and started on this journey and decided to do Camelot just like that when we went to Tintagel in England.
You know, the Homer of King Arthur.
We were inspired by the idea of a round table in which there is no hierarchy.
Everyone's equal.
There's no special person sitting at the head of a round table.
We decided that was going to be sort of our motto for what we were creating.
And the other thing was that we had very little money.
And I had this, like, little consumer-grade camcorder that was going to be our interview tool, right?
And so we both, we came from that grassroots idea, and we stuck with it.
But it also became all-consuming, I have to say.
I reckon.
Yeah.
For at least the last, maybe, three years, up to a certain point, maybe more recently it changed, but basically we would work, you know, all the time.
Like, I mean, you know, until 8 or 9 at night, and if there was something going on, then we would work later.
And, you know, I mean, it was the kind of thing where it's like a startup company, in a sense.
We, you know, it was a labor of love.
We were involved in it all the time.
It is in every aspect of our lives.
So it, in many ways, and this is still the case, I mean, most of the time.
About, I don't know, nine months ago, then Bill got in a relationship, you know, because we were both single also.
This was a weird thing that happened was that we, when we formed Camelot, didn't have families and people depending on us.
And children and jobs.
So we were both totally free, and we both sort of said...
I've got this skill set.
He's got this skill set.
What if we put them together?
We both wanted to see disclosure.
We both said, what we'd like to see in the world, let's create that.
And so we started out doing that.
We had no idea we'd be successful at it.
We didn't even know what we were doing.
But people and things, it just came at us.
And we also said, oh, let's...
You know, let's interview Dan Burish, because people don't seem to understand what he's all about.
And we love going in, well, I love going into controversy.
You're quite successful at that.
Yeah.
So, I mean, but we didn't know if people would say, get out of here.
No, I'm not doing it.
Who are you?
Why should I listen to you type of thing.
But wildly, we seem to disarm the people very easily, and they bite us toward their houses, and, you know, they would tell us their stories, and then they would break into tears, and, you know, Bob Dean, I mean, he never broke into tears in his life in front of a camera until he was with us.
And that was, I have to say, that's a compliment, you see, because the trust gets established.
But to answer the original question, because it kind of diverged, is to say that, really, Camelot became 24 Hours.
Yeah.
We're running almost out of time.
I would like to ask you the question, what is the most extraordinary video or photo you saw in your life?
Oh, I don't know.
What do you mean by extraordinary?
Do you mean something outside that we haven't done?
Something inspired us?
Or are you talking about what we've seen and what we've done?
What you've seen from witnesses from other worlds or NASA pictures of Mars?
Have you ever visited an underground base or seen some physical evidence of black projects?
Something like that.
Oh, interesting.
Let me start while you think.
I don't know whether you've seen these photographs yet.
Have you seen the photograph of the car being dematerialized?
Yes.
Yes.
That was quite interesting.
This was somebody who came up to us at a recent conference.
He does not want publicity for this yet.
With a series of photographs Which showed very clearly a car disappearing into some kind of a portal in a whole series of events that he could barely understand.
And he didn't want this information out because his colleague who was with him at the time, who actually took the photographs, then received one of those visits that you're not meant to enjoy very much when he was in America.
But that's just a little...
I mean, this is just one weird phenomenon.
That kind of thing probably happens in laboratories in Los Alamos all the time, as far as we know.
We have no idea.
So they have to experiment like...
But it was quite fun to see it in a picture.
Well, I would say that...
I think it's called the SDS-40 or whatever that...
There's a video out there.
SDS-48.
Shot by NASA in which you actually see them shooting at, you know, you see them fire at a UFO. I would say that as far as all the footage I've seen, all the crazy photographs, and I've taken some photos of UFOs too, by the way.
It's on our site under shorts.
A lot of people don't see that.
But I interviewed, it was one of my earliest interviews.
Before Camelot.
And I interviewed a lot of researchers, a lot of people, Jim Mars, Rich Dolan, and so on.
But I actually knew to shoot at the sky.
I clicked pictures of a whole series of UFOs.
And they made a design for me.
It's quite extraordinary.
If you go to the site, you'll see it.
And then I did have that sighting in Switzerland, Lake Geneva, this whole video on YouTube.
But I would say the SDS, them shooting, because I think that that was, I mean, there's evidence that there is something going on here between the earth and between the beings out there and what they think they're doing.
And that's not...
I don't know how old that is, but it's not from the 50s or something.
No, that's 1990-something.
So they're still trying to shoot at the things.
So as much as, with all due respect, Bob Dean says, you know, we found out we couldn't shoot at them.
We're still trying.
So maybe we're succeeding once in a while.
I really don't know.
But there's something going on.
Let me just...
Add something as a comment to your question about interesting videos or interesting photographs.
People send us photographs all the time.
Some of them really are quite interesting, but I think that's not the point.
Because, in my opinion, we're way beyond trying to prove to the world that these phenomena exist.
And I say over and over again, I love the analogy that we're like fishermen on a South Sea island.
A little island and we catch the fish and we go in our boats and, you know, and that's our world, a little island.
And we don't think there's anyone else in the world.
All we see is the sea, all around us.
We're the only people in the world.
And every now and then, we see a metal bird, or somebody, some crazy person says that they see a metal bird, or some crazy person climbs a tree and says that they see a big metal ship on the horizon, you know, and everyone thinks that they're crazy.
And then we run around trying to prove whether these things are real or not.
It's like, of course they're real.
The real questions are, you know, Who's in that metal bird?
And where are they going?
And why are they flying over our island?
And what are those people in that metal ship?
And why are they sailing towards us?
Or why are they ignoring us?
Or, you know, are they trying to help us?
Are they friends?
Are they people like us?
Does this mean that there are other people in the world?
Is there another island out there in the sea somewhere?
Who knows?
You know, they're much much much bigger questions rather than trying to prove this stuff exists.
It's a given that these phenomena are real.
We don't have to prove anything.
It's like, I don't need to go out there and prove to you that there are cars in the street.
You know and I know.
I'm very grateful you come from that place, because that's actually what you can feel where you're coming from in this work, and that's very valuable, in my opinion.
Yeah.
And people send us photographs of, look, I just saw this Thing in the sky, you know, and it's a little kind of thing.
You magnify it with all the little pixels and you can see something.
It looks like a disc.
It's like, okay, there are 50,000 pictures like that.
We don't need any.
I mean, of course it's cool to have a picture, but that's not the point.
That's not the point.
And I think that that's where we're trying to take it, is there's this English phrase that's called pushing the envelope.
We're not trying to, you know, to analyse documents from, you know, is Truman's...
Signature on this 1947 document, real or not.
Well, there are people out there doing that, and that's fine.
It's not to put that stuff down.
Evidence is great.
In fact, we were told by Jake Simpson, he said, don't ever take any evidence, hard evidence, if anyone hands it to you, because actually that's why you're safe.
In other words, what we do is witness testimony.
We are not so much interested in documents you can fake, photographs you can fake, even photographs that are good.
I mean, Billy Meyer really has the corner on the best photographs probably in the world still to this day.
And we believe Billy's story.
We don't think he's a hoaxer, for the record.
However, we don't think he's the only contactee out there either.
So, you know, I mean, there are pictures.
And I think, you know, as time goes on, we're going to see more and more pictures.
And I'd love to have more pictures of different beings and so on.
And I think that's all wonderful.
But it's like they are there.
They're out there.
And in fact, the truth is out there.
It's not a problem.
You can get the truth.
All you have to do is know what resonates, and you'll be there.
And you can probably see it with your own eyes from time to time.
It's our thinking that needs to change, and then the truth will come when we're ready for it.
And so we're not trying to convince anyone of anything.
We're not trying to present proof.
Some people write to us saying, well, you know, how come this person says this and that person says that?
And they can't both be writing.
And we say, look, we know that.
That's not the point.
The point is that we're trying to...
Let me phrase this correctly.
We're trying to support people in their own growth process in becoming more awake and more aware to change their paradigm, to change the way they look at the world.
To allow these things to change so that this new world that we all want to experience, or that many people want to experience, it starts in our own concepts.
It starts in the way that we see things.
And what we're doing is really trying to present a new way of looking at the world.
And it's a little bit like if you're zoomed very close in on this object, which is my hand, and you're just a centimeter away from it, you can't...
You don't know what you're looking at.
You've got to step way back, and then you see it's a hand, and then you pull back again, and then you see it's an arm, and then you pull back, and then you see that it's a body, which is me, and then you pull back again, and then you see us in this room, and then you pull back more, and then you see Amsterdam.
And we have to pull this camera back.
We have to zoom out really far.
And what we're trying to do is we're trying to encourage people to see what we call the bigger picture.
And the bigger picture involves other planets, it involves what's happening on this planet at a control level, it involves other times, it involves ancient civilizations, it involves such a huge range of things that if you look at any one of them too close, you're not going to see the big picture.
And that's really...
Why we've gone after this breadth, because the breadth comes automatically when you pull back and see the bigger picture.
They go together.
And that's really what we're trying to do.
So we're not trying to prove anything.
We're trying to encourage people to look upon the world in a different way.
And the people who thank us...
Okay, go ahead.
This is my last word here.
The people who write to us to thank us, and that's the energy that keeps us going.
Earlier on we talked about money.
I mean, it's wonderful to receive a donation, but it's even more wonderful to say, hey, you know what?
You changed my life.
That's the energy that gets me up in the morning, ready to work hard.
Yeah, I have to say that's true.
And the people who write to us saying, look, you changed my life.
They don't say, you know, you convinced me that this document was real or you produced a really interesting photograph.
They say you helped me look on the world and look on my place in the world in a different way.
Now I see life differently and that's the important thing and that's what's at stake here.
And this is what we're trying to help people to do, and all of us, yourself included, in this conversation, and all the people who laid on this conference that we've just been at yesterday, and many other people who will watch this video and then pick up that ball and then run with it in their own way, in their own mission, in their own job, because they're also special.
We're all part of a team here.
That's my closing words here.
How about that?
That's beautiful.
Yeah, I would say that we're also presenting the evidence We're putting the testimony out there of human beings that you can watch, that you can see and read their facial expressions and really get into the emotion as well as the drama of this play that we're involved in here.
And I think that that's also the power of video.
In some ways Camelot came into being because of the power of video and the internet and getting that out there.
In other words, if you read the transcripts, I think you missed something.
It's really vital that people begin to develop their own sense of knowing.
And you can only do that using all the senses.
So if you can't be here in the room with us, we hope that whatever we convey on the video will be a great substitute for that, such that you will be able to kind of go there and be there with us, with the witness.
For your own discernment.
And I think that people do get that sense.
And what happens is they need to develop discernment.
That's the key thing that I think maybe Camelot can contribute to, is laying it out there in such a way that they begin to discern.
Where's the person telling the truth?
Where's the person telling maybe the truth as they know it, but it might not quite be right?
Or where is the person giving disinfo, not because they intend, because we don't think any of our witnesses are giving intentional disinfo, but where are they actually selling something that they've bought a bunch of false information on?
And this is part of the big picture because there is a lot of falsehood out there.
And what happens is nobody tells the whole truth and nothing but the truth because they don't have the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
It's so multi-dimensional, this experience we're having.
Nobody knows at all.
The truth on this level could be false on this level because you're not seeing a whole lot of different things.
And as Richard Hoagland says, the lie is different at every level.
Nobody knows it all is too big.
No human being knows it all.
So this is why it's so important to have sort of the wide view.
I'm very grateful that you give us the wide view.
In a sense you're a vehicle to fine-tune everybody's own discernment on a much different level than we were able to do without your work.
So I want to really thank you for doing that and putting your lives out there on the line.
Really great, great work.
I hope that we will be able to enjoy much more of you and of the most broad picture imaginable.
That's right, absolutely.
And that we will all see today, that we all know who we are, where we came from and where we're going to.
Thank you very much for this interview.
Thank you.
That was a lovely ending.
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