Today, Dan and Jordan check in on the modern day of The Alex Jones Show. In this installment, Alex prepares for and deals with the Chauvin verdict, reveals that maybe Bill Maher has been a good guy all along, and gets caught up in the need to whistle.
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The Maxine Waters commentary is going to be a major part of this, but where Alex begins is this pig's head and the idea of CBS doxing folks.
So I've seen that story reported in other outlets than Infowars, and I'm going to go ahead and assume that this act of vandalism towards the defense witness's former home did happen more or less as described, although Alex does still seem to be embellishing it a tiny bit, like blood all over.
To be clear, I am against this kind of thing, and I feel like it's counterproductive to the ability of trials to proceed.
According to an NBC News article, the people responsible are being sought and are, quote, accused of felony vandalism.
So there's a decent chance someone's going to get in trouble for that.
That being said, I would be remiss if I just let Alex play this game of fake outrage.
In November 2020, Roger Stone was on trial, and in case you don't remember, Alex spent a couple days on his show trying to dox potential jurors in that case.
Alex didn't even know for sure that the person he was naming on his show was actually even a potential juror in Roger's case, but he was still going to go ahead and put a target on them.
It's an interesting strategy to claim this juror that Alex was talking about as a public figure on the level of Brad Pitt or Hillary Clinton, but that was just desperation talking because he knew that Roger was guilty as shit.
If the people who threw a pig's head at that house had thrown it at the house of a juror, or if one of the jurors in the Chauvin trial was being targeted, then I wouldn't be okay with that at all.
That would fall into the same kind of category as Alex's behavior, but what did happen is a little bit of a gray area.
And again, I'm still against it, but the person whose former house it was was a witness for the defense who had already given their testimony.
You could argue that it was a retaliatory vandalism, and I suspect that's why it's being considered a felony, but I do think that that's different than trying to...
very publicly doing like six months ago yes very much so CBS also didn't dox anyone the local Minnesota Minnesota affiliate published an article that discusses the jurors broadly speaking just vaguely in in details like their age and information about their perspectives CBS This is not the same thing as what Alex did.
If Alex can show actual instances of people showing up at the jurors' homes, he should do that.
But I can't find instances or any evidence of that being a real thing.
I suspect he's just taking that defense witness story and then making up another story on top of it.
I'm a huge fan of people who have, you know, really taken to heart all of the historical lessons about intimidating witnesses being a thing that puts you on the side of good.
I think that's really, you know, history judges people for intimidating witnesses very positively.
Instead, on his show here on April 20th, he's just talking about how when he's been in trial situations, the globalists have tried, or I'm sorry, the media has tried to intimidate his journalists.
And Maxine Waters said, well, that's what civil rights looks like.
But she doesn't say a word about three million Muslims in death camps, a million Christians in death camps, a million Buddhists in death camps.
No, no, no, no, no.
She'll pick one of the 14 black men killed each year in a wrongful situation out of 350 million people, and she'll make a huge deal about that all day and act like that's all the world's problems to distract from the fact that she's a monster that sold out to China 30 years ago and de-industrialized this country.
And that she promotes Planned Parenthood that was established to kill black people.
Can you imagine if I set up a group that's mission was to, quote, kill black weeds?
See what they've done to black people and everybody else for that matter.
They just started on them, so they're farther down than us.
You think I feel strong as a human watching them brainwashed, dumbed down, drugged out, dying, killing each other?
It makes me feel like a sack of garbage.
But to people like her and the Democrats and Joe Biden that passed the laws, to if a black guy gets busted with drugs, he gets three times the sentence of a white person, to those real elitists, because they're beyond racist.
Also, incidentally, Maxine Waters has spoken out consistently about the human rights abuses in China.
On September 30th, 2020, she spoke on the House floor in support of the Uyghur Forced Labor Disclosure Act of 2020, saying, quote, The government of the People's Republic of China falsely refers to these concentration camps as vocational camps or re-education camps.
Make no mistake.
The truth is that today, in 2020, one million human beings are being held in concentration camps where they're beaten, starved and flogged.
forced to work long hours in conditions that can only be described as inhumane.
Their relatives often have no idea where they are or whether they are alive.
They're dying each day due to the cruelty of their living conditions and the brutality of the Chinese government, which executes them with impunity.
Some of the notable Alex-friendly folks in the House who voted nay on that include Louie Gohmert, Paul Gosar, Jim Jordan, Devin Nunes, and Steve Scalise.
Alex is making up that people like Maxine Waters don't ever deal with the issues that he wants them to deal with because that makes it easier for him to trivialize things like the George Floyd killing.
The reality is, however, that Alex is just making up everything he says.
He has no idea if Maxine Waters has spoken out publicly against the Chinese human rights abuses, but the idea that she hasn't is the only option that fits into how his content is supposed to feel.
So, you know, sometimes the world opens up a little bit.
You know, like...
I think that, you know, now that vaccines are going around a little bit more, we're getting to a point where there's a possibility of, like, meeting a friend for dinner.
If you're ever in a position where James O'Keefe is offering you an exclusive, you need to ask yourself some very serious questions about the legitimacy of the story that he's trying to give you.
Like, the Infowars itself is blackballed on the major right-wing conservative news networks, but O 'Keefe can hang out with Alex and then still be like, Fox News is like, look at the new O 'Keefe masterpiece.
Project Veritas exclusive Department of Homeland Security insider leaks quote significant event report showing suspected terrorists being tracked and apprehended on US-Mexico border.
This is the third one in a couple of weeks and they want this shut down so folks get the article out.
Also, if I were James O 'Keefe, I'd probably shy away from stories like this about terrorists and the border.
They run the risk of reminding people about that time in 2014 when he dressed up as Osama Bin Laden and walked across a stretch of the Rio Grande River, supposedly illustrating how easy it would be for Bin Laden to sneak into the country.
It was super embarrassing, and he got dunked on pretty hard, so I'd be careful about reminding people about that video.
Meanwhile, Facebook removes posts by Breonna Taylor's mother criticizing Black Lives Matter, saying they never helped her, and they're full of crap.
Wow.
So now the mother of Breonna Taylor, who was killed wrongly, and Senator Paul passed a law to try to stop the no-knock warrants being used too much, he gets beat up for passing a law to protect her.
This is shady as hell and I have zero respect for it.
A couple of quick fact checks here though.
Taylor's mother did not say that Black Lives Matter was a fraud.
She was commenting on the Louisville chapter of Black Lives Matter, which she said she also has never dealt with.
Also, there's no indication that Facebook took down her post.
It's entirely possible that she removed it herself.
There's no verification on that.
Also, Rand Paul was beaten up by his neighbor in 2017, and reports on the neighbor's trial have called it a fight, quote, over a lawn care dispute.
Breonna Taylor was killed on March 13th, 2020, so unless this neighbor attacked Rand three years in advance as retaliation for passing laws limiting no-knock warrants, then what Alex is saying makes no sense, and he's just grasping at straws.
Also...
Rand Paul's bill, S3955, was read twice and then referred to committee where it has been since June 2020.
It is a dead bill.
Rand Paul has not succeeded in doing the thing that Alex is giving him credit for, which his neighbor apparently beat him up for three years prior.
Oh, I think I could probably get a crane, and then, you know like that gag where you've got the bucket of water on the door, and you like, open it, and then somebody gets, oh, that's terrible!
I get a crane, but like a really tall one.
And then when he's walking out of his house in the morning, I just pee right on his head.
And then whenever he's not sure what it is, and he looks up, Right into his mouth.
The structure of discussing fire in this exact construction with the servant-master dichotomy was traced back to at least 1637 by the website Quote Investigator.
And the same idea and quote, but being applied to water, was traced back to 1562.
The first time this turn of phrase was credited to Washington was in 1902 in an article in the Christian Science Journal, and it's not even been consistently credited to Washington since then.
It's just another example of Alex throwing around fake quotes.
I was listening to that clip, though, and I got really excited because, you know, every now and again, I hate the doors, but every now and again, I'm in the right mood for that playing with fire.
Yeah, I always appreciate it whenever he really loses the thread while trying to do lyrics, and then he's like, what if I combine the two, and then I'll have a thing to say.
There's a certain part of me that finds it so sad that if you're a conservative, Christian, white nationalist, you can't enjoy a drag show, which is one of the most joyous places that I've...
I think that this story may or may not actually be true, or it might be greatly embellished, because I think it's really just an avenue for him to get into bashing drag queen story out.
And so, one of the things that I've noticed that he does all the time is basically he says that his reporters have captured, like, pornographic footage of kids with, like, naked men and stuff like that.
Stations complain about this, so don't show the part with the guy totally naked with glitter with children humping him.
I mean, but it's like a dude with a major schlong.
And there's kids riding him, but he's got glitter on his genitals, so it's, oh, it's covered.
I mean, this is all illegal.
And so I just couldn't imagine being a child and being around these, because it's a pack of lunatics.
I mean, they're all on drugs, they're on all sorts of crazy hormones, they're doing all sorts of insane things, and I've been around it for 15 minutes, and it made me physically...
Alex has yet to demonstrate or show any instances of jurors being doxxed or harassed, so I'm not taking him repeating that claim any more seriously than I did the first time.
There's another interesting thing here, though, which is that the media didn't say that there would be protests and fires if Chauvin was found not guilty.
Alex has played some clips from newscasts, but there are interviews with civilians in Minneapolis who are expressing that there will likely be unrest if Chauvin is acquitted.
There's a really important difference here, and it's one that I think Alex refuses to acknowledge.
If the news goes out and interviews people, and they say that there'll likely be protests if Chauvin is found not guilty, does Alex think that the news should pretend that they didn't do these interviews?
If the goal is to represent the opinion of persons on the street that they talk to, it would seem like an irresponsible level of censorship to just edit their responses to reflect what you would want them to say, but that seems to be what Alex wants to happen.
Okay, so the person being interviewed said specifically...
That if justice in this circumstance is denied when it's so overwhelmingly obvious what the verdict should be, then I'm going to help people, quote, no longer have a police precinct for a little while.
And then, if that was edited, it would be like a...
But in all these BLM events, it's like 20, 30 white people and three or four black people who they have at the front of the line, who they admit they use at the front of the line.
And then the black controllers, trained as Marxists, even say, white allies in the back because they don't want them seen.
They want it to look like it's blacks doing it.
To scapegoat the blacks while they start the race war.
So Alex seems to be hitting this note a little bit more regularly in recent days.
This idea that social justice causes are meant to incite racist backlash from white people and are orchestrated to do that by white people putting a few black scapegoats at the front of their actions.
This is a pretty outrageously racist idea, and as I've mentioned in the past, particularly on the last episode, this is very much in the same tradition as Alex's forefathers who fought against the civil rights movement.
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Apparently, Alex read it at 12 and his mind was blown, although he was still a Satanist a few years later and got a bunch of people pregnant, but honestly, the timeline doesn't matter.
Gary Allen was a longtime member of the John Birch Society, and Nun Dare wasn't his first book.
Previously, he'd written a book called Communist Revolution in the Streets, which was a scathing and very racist attack on the civil rights movement.
There are a lot of arguments made in the book that look very bad in hindsight, but one of the predominant themes in the text is the idea that black rights organizations were secretly not actually black rights organizations, but actually communist fronts, typically run by white people.
From page 33, quote, We arrive at the interesting possibility that the black Muslims were started by the communists, knowing that the majority of American Negroes felt no kinship with Soviet Russia.
By establishing a pseudo-religion based on Negro racial supremacy and annihilation of the blue-eyed devils, a revolutionary cadre could be built within the United States without the majority of people realizing its true significance.
Probably not surprisingly, Allen never actually justifies this, quote, interesting possibility, because as he goes on to say, quote, if the black Muslims were a communist setup from the beginning, it's doubtful that any but the very top oligarchy were aware.
That's some classic Infowars-style proof right there.
You understand, like, this construction that he's using is basically, in order to prove the basis for my conspiracy and the suspicion that I have, you have to assume the existence of the very conspiracy that I've failed to prove exists.
The real cause of the riots is agitation by revolutionaries, power-craving civil rights leaders, and vote-hungry politicians who are willing to trade the citizens' safety for the vote of a minority bloc.
Every group is a front.
Every event is incited by communists.
It's all very boring.
On page 48, Allen lays out what is essentially an overarching thesis.
Quote, The communists have been working for over 30 years on mass recruitment of Negroes in America.
Their efforts have usually failed because Negroes have proved to be loyal Americans, but this has not caused the communists to slacken because they see civil rights as America's Achilles heel and the Negro as the sacrificial cannon fodder for a communist-instigated revolution.
is now, which is being deployed by Gary Allen to attack the civil rights movement and Martin Luther King back in the mid-60s.
I would challenge Alex to reflect on this more or less one-to-one overlap between his rhetoric that's being used to attack social justice protests of the modern era and the rhetoric that Gary Allen used to attack social justice protests from our country's recent past.
I mean, you could, again, this goes back to slavery.
This goes all the way back to them being like, well, there's no way that slaves could ever organize on their own, so it must be white people agitating the slaves, and it's probably poor white people because they don't like us having all the money.
So Alex won't do any of this reflection, and everyone in his orbit pretends that books like Communist Revolution in the Street don't exist, because they make it too obvious that, like I said, this isn't about communism.
It never was.
That's all just a mask that they use to hide behind.
Whenever the communists was used as an excuse to blackball Jews in Hollywood, it's not like J. Edgar Hoover was like, this'll never work against black people.
His exact political philosophy is kind of tough to nail down, but libertarianism is one of the titles he's used before.
The only reason anyone would think that he's some kind of a super liberal is if they only know about his positions from listening to Alex yell about him.
Also, Alex can fuck right off with this stuff about Maher being basically like Tucker Carlson, but he knows that he needs to say some things to stay on air.
For years, Alex has used things that Maher has said and pretended they were globalist positions.
The whole thing about how the globalists wanted to crash the economy to hurt Trump, that was entirely based on a joke that Bill Maher said on one of his shows.
Alex has used Bill Maher's comments to such a prominent extent in his conspiracies that Alex had to explain Bill Maher's role in globalist operations like this.
If I believed a word that Alex said, Bill Maher should be super worried about globalist assassin squads coming to get him for betraying his contract as a ventriloquist dummy or some dumb shit.
But all of it's made up, so it doesn't matter.
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Isn't that something that he said on his last episode?
We're in a situation where parents could be accused of risk of injury to a minor by not heeding their minor children's desire for sex change operations.
At no point in time could I consider that perhaps somebody would benefit from not having their emotional life destroyed by their real identity being denied them, but it's gotta be the devil.
The whole point of a jury trial is to not have mob justice.
It's the counter to mob justice.
It's the opposite point to mob justice.
It's the remedy to mob justice.
So by trying to create mob justice inside the courtroom and convert the jury into a mob, they are completely defeating the entire point of jury trial justice.
And maybe their goal, much like with policing, will be to ultimately replace juries.
So what's going on here is that Barnes is coming on the show here towards the end, and the game that they were playing I thought was really overt.
What's going on here is, so for a lot of the show, the fear that Alex has been building up to is one of a hung jury or an acquittal, which is what the globalists want, because then there's going to be riots in the streets.
This trial is essentially an elaborate setup to get people riled up to the point where there will be riots.
That's what Alex's callers have suspected, and Alex has mirrored this sentiment back to them.
He's even said that he believes that Maxine Waters' statements were intentionally made to cause a mistrial so there will be riots.
But what if that doesn't happen?
You don't want to put all your eggs in that one basket, so here comes Robert Barnes to provide the alternative narrative.
In case things don't go the way Alex has been saying they will this whole episode.
In case Chauvin is found guilty, Barnes has the narrative in place here.
The Maxine Waters comments were essentially the creation of mob rule within the courtrooms in order to replace jury trials with mob justice.
Until the verdict is read, if you're a listener of InfoWars, you're being asked to believe that Maxine Waters comments were simultaneously an attempt to replace juries with mob justice and also a needlessly complicated conspiracy meant to cause a mistrial that will lead to riots.
InfoWars needs both of these to be true until the Yeah.
So, Infowars have these narratives established, and they're ready to push their worldview and pretend that they were right, regardless of how the jury decides.
The act of the verdict being read actually determines which of these ideas they have to accept as truth moving forward.
Like, you know, insistently saying both A and B, which are contradictory things, and then B happens, and then someone criticizes you for talking so much about A, and you're like, no, I said B. Yeah, yeah, yeah.
Well, it sort of starts with the culture itself, that politics is downstream from culture, and the sort of the entire safe space movement that arose out of sort of the moral panic about kindergartens and elementary schools and daycare centers in the 90s, going to, you know, all of those range of cases where a lot of stories were told by the prosecutors that ended up being false.
Created sort of a playdate culture where we weren't allowed to let our kids go out in the street and just play with random strangers.
But the reason that Alex should be mad about this is that Robert Barnes is saying that things like the McMartin School trial and stuff, there were things that were alleged that weren't true.
So if I understand Alex correctly, were he on a jury, the main thing that protects us from a mob rule system, were he considering the actual justice, he would take somebody, anybody's comment in the media, and use it as justification for his spiteful decision to exist entirely within oppositional defiance.
So now what Alex has done is he's taken these two things, he's woven them together under a similar umbrella, and he's made it feel like they're connected.
Alex has decided that the deciding factor in this case is whether or not these threats to the jury have been successful, which is already an outrageous assumption for him to make.
What this does is remove any reality of the facts of the case, or even the possibility that any of the jurors could find Chauvin guilty unless they were doing so as the result of bowing down to threats.
By framing the conversation this way, the conclusion is that the right verdict is acquittal.
That's just assumed.
And the explanation for a guilty verdict is that the jury was afraid of threats, which is nonsense.
I said this makes Alex's narratives feel like they're connected, but they're actually not if you take a closer look.
This new cleaner framing leaves out the entire thing about Maxine Waters specifically making the comments she did in order to cause a mistrial so there would be riots.
So in the conception of how Alex was talking about the verdict earlier in the episode, it was pretty clear that the globalists wanted an acquittal because their goal was to incite street riots and burning of cities.
If that is the case, then these alleged threats to the jury have to have been meant to be so over the top that a mistrial is guaranteed and the riots happen.
However, in the new framing, it appears that the globalists actually want Chauvin to be found guilty as the mob rule.
These threats are either successful, in which case the verdict is guilty, or they backfire and the verdict is not guilty.
But the reason that the threats are made are in service of achieving a guilty verdict.
If you pay close attention, over the course of one show, Alex has completely changed the primary motivation of his imaginary villains, because he's just making this up as he goes along.
Has Alex forgotten that just three years ago he was spending quite a bit of time on his show yelling about how Lana Del Rey was a witch who'd used evil spells against Donald Trump because she said in an interview that she used witchcraft against Trump?
So, one thing that I thought was really bizarre, and maybe off-putting, was where he goes immediately after this conversation about how we're elements of God's eye experiencing things for God.
We are God's vessels, God's tentacles, God's probes, God's system experiencing consciousness.
And nothing Satan can do will ever change that.
So don't let the enemy get you down.
I know it gets me down.
It's sad.
And don't let their religion of race war and their religion of worshipping black people on the surface when they're doing the opposite or killing them ever get you down.
She said yesterday, breathing through her face diaper, huffing and puffing at 82 years old, with her tenuous grasp to life, as her spirit begins its descent, To her master.
And she thanked George Floyd for his sacrifice like he was a veteran, like he was Jesus on the cross, like he was a messiah.
Pelosi announcing the globalist UN-controlled federal, and the feds are run by the UN now, meaning UN takeover of our police, just like they control our medicine and our speech and policies of our military.
We are now a conquered nation, and until we realize we're a conquered nation, we have no hope.
But if we unified against their evil, we could easily take back our government.
This is just about the Department of Justice opening an inquiry into the Minneapolis Police Department.
Alex is such a dramatic little baby that he's turned that into the UN running the country, and the only people who can stop them and take the country back are him and his buddies.
It's already been at historic highs, black-on-white crime, because a lot of black young people are buying into the lie and doing it, and it's terrible.
But they're highly impressionable, and they're being told that this is what you should do.
And I just saw a video this morning.
It's an article on Infowars.com.
We'll play next hour while we take your calls.
Columbus, Ohio.
A, quote, little black baby, the media said.
She's a big girl for 15. Looks like she hasn't missed out on any cheeseburgers.
There's a lot of details that are yet to be sorted out about this shooting, and I don't feel like I have an ability to fully assess the situation yet.
I'm going to leave that to more information to come out, time to process, and what have you.
I wanted to play this clip, however, to demonstrate how open and shut things are for Alex, and how coverage of this story begins by discussing how impressionable black youth are, and how they're being taught to attack white people.
The actual details of this case are secondary and not nearly as important as how explicitly racist Alex and his show are.
Like, for all their screaming about pedophilia, it's fine if teenagers get killed, though, because they're black and that means they're bigger or whatever.
It's a populist program to just put out very sophisticated information, but also simple truths at the same time, believing that if you up the level of information, that ups the level of understanding, not dumb the information down.
But that said, when I do this governmental briefing style, PowerPoints and guests and just go over documents, that is extremely effective, not just with like General Flynn, but I can tell you prime ministers, world leaders, they had CIA boardrooms two weeks ago in our SPARS 2025-2028 report because it was done in a briefing format.
They were taking lines completely out of context, making completely false assertions.
Anybody who actually read it without just already pre-deciding that Alex was right would come away from that like, this doesn't say what you say it says.
Yeah, that's kind of interesting, though, because once you find out the FBI was listening to Joe Biggs on Antifa protests...
You realize, like, oh, these people are morons.
You know, like, I could buy that the CIA had meetings on it, because I don't know if I trust any of them to do a fundamental Google search at this point.
Let me just give you the big enchilada, then I'll go to your phone calls.
The globalists with their money have got the universities, the banks, the medical system, the media system, the World Council of Churches, almost all the churches are just country club feel-good groups.
I don't care if it's Protestant, Catholic, it doesn't matter.
They've got Hollywood, they've got the EU, they've got radical Islam.
In Orthodox Islam, they've got Israel, they've got South Africa, they've got everybody.
But it's still men and chivalry and to operate at that level, some form of honor.
Even though it's predatory.
And so the globalists want to intimidate it, attack it, cause race riots, to selectively demonize the military and police with these purges to get control of them.
Well, I mean, it's an interesting progression because he was, like, sort of getting more and more comfortable with talking about himself as a prophet over the last six months or so.
Let's go to the calls and let's see if we can talk to a fucking dumb racist.
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Mainly, I want to get this out of the point.
It's overwhelming to finally talk to you because for decades people have been telling me I was...
Too volatile and paranoid because I've been telling them about all this stuff, except the pedophile stuff.
I didn't have your connections, but about the we're all slaves and China's evil and how everything's propaganda against the white man and everybody thought I was...
I'm talking about all the way back to the 90s and everybody was just telling me I was...
Well, what they do is they brand freedom and guns and private property as the white man, and then communism as the black man.
And they go, the black man's good, the white man's bad, but it has nothing to do with white men and black men.
It's all branding.
Does that make sure?
Does that make sense?
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Yeah, and it's been, I mean, even in commercials, you know, the white man's always an idiot, and I was always showing people how, you know, it always shows people.
Like, abusing white men and women hitting them, and it was just always just...
Also, if Alec has a problem with the character trope of the dumb husband, he's gonna really hate when he learns about all the other historical characters of people who weren't white.
In terms of just explaining a little bit of this, one of the reasons there's such a large number of husbands and fathers who are kind of idiots is because it's the easiest way to make Yeah.
comedic premises that are required for a sitcom to work.
Most of the situations the characters get into probably wouldn't happen, or if they did, they would be resolved in way less comical ways if one of the characters in Yeah.
make every show like Father Knows Best, but guess what?
White people have had it so fucking pathetically easy for so goddamn long that the idea of one appearance in movies or film where the white guy is the bad guy is like, how could anybody do this?
But I'm just saying, I wouldn't be who I was if I wasn't put in the hospital and broken legs and broken arms and subdermal hematomas and stabbed and everything else I did.
I really want to thank black people for what they did to me.
It's like the last Republican stronghold in Brooklyn.
So what they're doing is they're sending people from Clarksville, other places in Brooklyn, to come in and try and take Bay Ridge over and make it a liberal town.
Also, what they're doing is they're shutting down restaurants.
They're shutting down all the restaurants and letting illegal immigrants sell products in the street, which is crazy to me.
For our next episode, I am going to go back to 2003, because that way, over my birthday weekend, I can spend my time in the past as opposed to focusing too much on the present.