March 15, 2011 - The Joe Rogan Experience
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Three, two... | |
| Alright, what's up? | ||
| How are you, brother? | ||
| I'm doing great. | ||
| It's great to be back. | ||
| Great to see you, man. | ||
| Congratulations on winning the title. | ||
| Appreciate that. | ||
| Fantastic achievement. | ||
| I mean, beating Gegard Mousasi, who's, you know, top flight, one of the best in the sport, for sure. | ||
| And to beat him and win the Bellator middleweight title, that's... | ||
| Got to make you feel happy. | ||
| It was surreal. | ||
| It was something else. | ||
| And when you hear the story about everything, man, it takes it to another level. | ||
| Yeah, well, this is why you're here. | ||
| We're here to talk about that. | ||
| And I guess you should probably just explain what's going on. | ||
| Well, I guess I'll just kind of take you through the order of events here. | ||
| You know, that was my 10th fight, fighting for the Bellator title. | ||
| And in all my other nine fights previously, it was never required for me to get a brain scan done. | ||
| Just due to the different states that I was fighting in at the time, the commissions there didn't require it. | ||
| In the US, it's California and New York, and then Europe requires a brain scan. | ||
| We were originally scheduled to fight in January at the Forum in California. | ||
| The same event that just happened this past Saturday night. | ||
| And so we were going to fight 2019 at the Forum in January. | ||
| And that fight got postponed. | ||
| Musasi was injured. | ||
| And we eventually got rescheduled to fight in June in London. | ||
| So I already had a brain scan scheduled. | ||
| For December to get approved for that fight in January. | ||
| But I got the news about the fight getting canceled like the week of that scan a couple days before. | ||
| So I canceled it. | ||
| I said I don't need to go get that done now. | ||
| And so fast forward, you know, I basically stayed in camp the whole year training, you know, with that fight on my mind all the way from November when I started the first camp for the fight in January. | ||
| Into the new year, waiting for the new date. | ||
| And it was March that I got the word that we were going to fight in June in London. | ||
| And so I was basically training all year and I just picked right back up into camp. | ||
| And fast forward on into... | ||
| The very beginning of May, I was already a good month into the serious camp, and I was just getting ready to fly to Brazil, Curitiba, to get into the hardest phase of camp. | ||
| I was going to be there for three weeks. | ||
| And I had to get my MRI done, you know, and I wanted to get it done before I went to Brazil, just to check it off the list. | ||
| So this was actually the week I had two good buddies of mine, Jake Mapes and Sam Alvey, were in Oklahoma training with me. | ||
| And we had a great week of training. | ||
| Everything's going really, really well. | ||
| And it's Thursday. | ||
| And so I go get my brain scan done to get that done before I went to Brazil. | ||
| And I'm in there, and we get through the whole process, and the machine is done. | ||
| It's not operating anymore. | ||
| But they haven't called me out of the room yet. | ||
| And I could kind of just sense something was going on. | ||
| So finally, they say, okay, come on out. | ||
| And the radiologist... | ||
| With really no candor or an easy, soft way of saying it was like, dude, have you seen your brain before? | ||
| There's some stuff in here you need to see. | ||
| And he, you know, pulls me into the room and shows me on the screen, he's like pointing out these, you know, look like little balls. | ||
| Obviously it looked like something was wrong. | ||
| It didn't look like a normal scan, but I'm not, I don't know, you know? | ||
| Balls like? | ||
| Like... | ||
| Shades of discoloration according to the scan itself. | ||
| You could see that it wasn't normal. | ||
| And he didn't even know what it was at the time. | ||
| And he was like, let me look this over tonight. | ||
| And I had my paper, you know, to get signed off that everything looks clear and normal. | ||
| And, you know, he was just like, you know, he asked me if I had any concussions and if I've had any issues. | ||
| And I said, no, no. | ||
| And he's like, well, this doesn't look right and you shouldn't be doing what you're doing. | ||
| I'm like, okay, so are you going to sign this paper? | ||
| And he's like, no. | ||
| And he's like, come back tomorrow and I'm going to give you some more information. | ||
| I say, okay. | ||
| So I go back Friday and he tells me that, you know, he did some research and he believes that I have a disease called cavernoma. | ||
| He kind of hits me with that. | ||
| I had no idea what Kavernoma was. | ||
| And he says, look, I'm not signing this paper. | ||
| You need to go see a specialist and get this looked at. | ||
| But as far as I know, you should not fight. | ||
| You should not be fighting. | ||
| And then the next morning I fly to Brazil for my camp, you know, to go down there for the hard sparring and everything that I like to do, you know, stuff we talked about last time. | ||
| And so I'm like going, you know, in the airport getting ready to go to Brazil for this portion of my camp, for this fight that is like the biggest fight of my life, you know. | ||
| I've already waited an extra six months for it. | ||
| I've been training for it all year. | ||
| And, you know, at this point, I'm like, just in shock of what is going on my health. | ||
| And, you know, I saw my Googling everything that I can about cavernoma and trying to understand what it is. | ||
| And basically, it's a disease where probably like, I probably got it from one of my parents, it's a it's normally a hereditary disease. | ||
| And your brain forms these extra blood vessels. | ||
| And these blood vessels grow and they can accumulate and sort of bundle up together into balls. | ||
| Almost like weeds or vines. | ||
| They wrap up together. | ||
| And these blood vessels are very prone to bleeding. | ||
| Now they don't bleed so much in an instance where it could cause a hemorrhage. | ||
| It's more like a slow, they use the term oozing effect. | ||
| So it oozes blood out over time. | ||
| Very little. | ||
| Little by little. | ||
| And as they accumulate, those balls are much more susceptible to bleeding. | ||
| And reading about it, while I'm getting ready to go, I'm flying to Brazil, I'm in the airport, I'm taking off. | ||
| There's so many extreme cases of this disease where People have to have multiple surgeries to get them removed, seizures, vision issues, people going to comas. | ||
| And then, of course, worst, worst case is even death. | ||
| And obviously, Googling and not talking to a specialist and just kind of doing my own thing is not the best way to get information. | ||
| And so I just have all these thoughts running in my head. | ||
| About, you know, what I'm dealing with in my health and like, okay, uh, now I'm going to, you know, uh, Brazil to, you know, train and spar and, and I have this fight and I'm, uh, right now I don't have anyone signing off in this paper, you know, is this going to happen? | ||
| What's going on? | ||
| Like all these questions. | ||
| And, um, so I get there and, you know, uh, At this point, the only one that knows is my girl and I'm confiding in her and I'm just talking to her and she's shocked. | ||
| I've never had any issues. | ||
| I don't even really get headaches. | ||
| I've never been knocked out. | ||
| There's never been a time in my life where I thought, Man, I should get my head looked at. | ||
| I think something could be wrong. | ||
| And so I'm talking with her, and then I have my coach, Mauricio. | ||
| He's my head MMA coach and my Muay Thai teacher. | ||
| And he goes with me down to Kutichiba, and we train there at his brother's academy, Andre Dita, at Dita's academy, Evolue Sound Thai. | ||
| And, you know, we fly Saturday, arrive Sunday, start training Monday, and I'm just like, I'm trying to train this first day, and I'm just like, what am I doing? | ||
| You know, and I'm getting hit in the head, and I'm like, man, am I slowly killing myself right here? | ||
| Like, you know, what am I training for at this point? | ||
| I'm not approved. | ||
| Like, what am I going to do, you know? | ||
| And so we talk it over, and we're like, okay, obviously, we need to get more opinions, you know? | ||
| And I'm down in Brazil for three weeks, basically all of May. | ||
| The fight was June 21st or 23rd, something like that. | ||
| And so I'm spending all of May there. | ||
| So I need to see some Brazilian doctors, some doctors down here in Koduchiba. | ||
| And so we just begin the process. | ||
| Let's get a prescription. | ||
| Do you speak Portuguese? | ||
| I'm not 100% fluent, but I can get around. | ||
| I can do pretty well on my own down there just from all the trips that I've done over the years. | ||
| So, you know, thankfully, Mauricio, his brother Dita, they have so many connections down there, you know. | ||
| Being who they are and the history that they have, teaching martial arts, you get to know everybody. | ||
| And so they were able to make things happen quick for me. | ||
| We saw a doctor, got a prescription for another MRI. Get scheduled to get that MRI done, which happens on Friday, the end of my first week there. | ||
| So I'm going that whole week, training, trying to stay positive, but I'm wondering, what am I doing? | ||
| What's going on? | ||
| You know what I mean? | ||
| I can't begin to describe the thoughts and emotions that I can't imagine. | ||
| I mean, it'd be so distracting during sparring as well. | ||
| Oh, yes. | ||
| Yes. | ||
| And, you know, they go harder down there. | ||
| To put it mildly. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| That place is known for some of the most ruthless killers to ever come out of Brazil. | ||
| 100%. | ||
| 100%. | ||
| I mean, that's shoot the box. | ||
| Exactly. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| I'm not sleeping well. | ||
| I'm, you know, I'm an emotional wreck, basically. | ||
| I'm calling my girl over FaceTime, you know, multiple times a day. | ||
| We're looking at each other on the screen. | ||
| I'm crying. | ||
| I'm confiding in Mauricio and Shanji Hiberto was also there with me. | ||
| I had an Airbnb with Shanji, so thankfully I wasn't on my own 24-7 outside of the academy. | ||
| He always stays with his family. | ||
| And, you know, I'm just like, man, when Shanji arrived that Monday or Tuesday and I tell him what's going on, I'm just like, dude, I'm a mess right now. | ||
| Like, I don't know. | ||
| You know, I'm just so uncertain of my health and what's going on. | ||
| And, you know, like... | ||
| Man, I just can't put it into words. | ||
| But I'm trying to stay positive. | ||
| I'm trying to stay positive. | ||
| And we get through that first week, get the MRI, the new MRI down there in Brazil. | ||
| So then we have the Brazilian MRI to take to Brazilian doctors. | ||
| And so then the second week, we start seeing neurologists and specialists to get their opinion and see what they have to say. | ||
| And that was the hardest week ever because multiple doctors were all saying no. | ||
| When you look at the scan right off the bat, it doesn't look good. | ||
| Do you have a picture of it? | ||
| Uh, man, actually, I don't have, sorry, I don't have one with me right now. | ||
| But, you know, you just see these gray, like, little shades of circles. | ||
| A lot of them? | ||
| Well, I have multiple, and most of them are very small, like popcorn size. | ||
| And, you know, those aren't that dangerous, at least yet. | ||
| But there is one accumulation on the backside of my, the right side of my head, you know, back here. | ||
| And that has built up. | ||
| And it looks, it looks big. | ||
| Like how big? | ||
| Probably somewhere between a baseball size, like golf ball to baseball, in between there. | ||
| It's pretty big. | ||
| But it's on the very outer rim. | ||
| So it's not... | ||
| In the middle of my brain. | ||
| It's on the outside. | ||
| So if you were to go right through my head, it could be right there. | ||
| You could essentially pull it out without having to go through too much stuff. | ||
| Is that something that might actually have to happen? | ||
| No, not now. | ||
| I'll fast forward to the doctors I end up seeing here in the States who clarify a lot of this, but But the doctors in Brazil all say the same thing. | ||
| Well, they're kind of just... | ||
| I mean, fighting already isn't good for your brain. | ||
| You know what I mean? | ||
| Getting hit in the head isn't good for your brain. | ||
| And I think just looking at it when you see it and then you know that I'm going to get hit in the head and what I do, you're automatically going to be like... | ||
| Hey, you know, there's already this extra bit of of danger that we're putting in to a dangerous situation. | ||
| Let's not let's not play. | ||
| Let's not roll the dice. | ||
| You know, let's not play that game. | ||
| And so we were getting multiple doctors saying no, you know, and even one was like, you know, they said that jujitsu could be dangerous. | ||
| That me getting my blood cut off like in a choke, you know, cutting off the circulation to my brain, that could be dangerous. | ||
| And so this week, I am literally not sleeping at all. | ||
| I am crying multiple times a day. | ||
| And I'm just like, man, what am I doing? | ||
| I'm going into the sparring, you know, and I'm training and I'm not going to get approved. | ||
| I'm not going to fight, you know? | ||
| And this has already been like a six, seven month training camp at this point, you know? | ||
| And it's for the belt. | ||
| It's my life's work. | ||
| It's everything for me, you know? | ||
| So I was just crushed day in, day out, trying to get through. | ||
| And on Thursday of that week, I'm doing MMA sparring. | ||
| I kind of had it coming. | ||
| I shouldn't have been going as hard as what I've been going, but I was trying to stay positive and stay ready. | ||
| What if I need to be ready for this fight? | ||
| It's Musashi. | ||
| I've got to be at my best. | ||
| And in reality, I was just training like garbage. | ||
| I was having my worst training camp, my worst fight camp, because of everything. | ||
| And on this day, I'm in my third round of MMA sparring and I strain my hamstring bad. | ||
| I go for like a double leg and the guy has a judo background. | ||
| He overhook like wizards me and goes for like a Uchimata, Haraya Goshi type of throw. | ||
| I'm wearing wrestling shoes. | ||
| I try to drop my hips so he doesn't elevate me. | ||
| And my legs, my knees go straight and my foot gets stuck in the floor with the wrestling shoe. | ||
| And my hamstring just snapped. | ||
| You know, like a loud, like pop. | ||
| And I just scream and I let it go and I, you know, I get thrown down and I'm just like, ah! | ||
| And I, you know, he knew something was wrong. | ||
| We stopped right there and my leg is just throbbing. | ||
| And I tried to get up. | ||
| I couldn't get up. | ||
| So I had to like walk on my hands, scoot off the mat. | ||
| I got carried out of the academy that day, could not walk, and I'm sitting down on the edge of the mat, and I'm just like, I'm bursting into tears, and I look up to Madison, and I'm like, man, it's not gonna happen. | ||
| Like, there's no way, you know? | ||
| All this is going on. | ||
| I'm not approved. | ||
| I'm training horrible. | ||
| I can't walk now, you know? | ||
| And so, you know, that was the end of week two. | ||
| All knows. | ||
| We have one more doctor to see who's like the professor of many of the doctors that I already saw. | ||
| He's very highly regarded. | ||
| One of the best doctors in the South of Brazil. | ||
| Neurospecialist, neurosurgeon. | ||
| We were so lucky to get in to see him. | ||
| You know, because he's booked up, booked up, booked up. | ||
| But we managed an appointment time for Monday of the third week, Monday night. | ||
| So, you know, I'm like, I've basically given up. | ||
| I can't walk. | ||
| I'm at home that whole weekend. | ||
| And Shanji, he had seminars on the weekend. | ||
| You know, he came down there to support me in camp. | ||
| But on the weekends, he was going off to teach seminars in different areas of Brazil. | ||
| And And so I'm laid up in this Airbnb all weekend, and I'm like, just FaceTiming my girl, and I'm like, you know, baby, like, I don't think this is happening. | ||
| I can't believe I've come this far, you know, to the title shot, this much training, you know, for the camp, like, going from November of 2018 into the end of May of 2019. That was my, that was it. | ||
| It was just this fight with Musazi. | ||
| And, you know, it took everything for me. | ||
| Like, this sounds funny, but the house, the Airbnb, the host, you know, she's like a great host. | ||
| She left so many chocolates and all this food in the house, like sweets. | ||
| And I just wanted to pig out and eat all these chocolates, you know. | ||
| I kept telling Shanji, bro, you got to eat these things. | ||
| Like, I can't look at these. | ||
| I'm such an emotional wreck right now. | ||
| You know, and I'm in the spot all weekend by myself and I'm ready to give up. | ||
| I'm like, I'm going to go eat churrascaria, you know what I mean? | ||
| And eat all these chocolates and just like, you know, because I have to diet very strict to make 185. What do you walk around at? | ||
| Around 210 to 215 is my normal weight. | ||
| That weight is kind of normal. | ||
| Most guys at 185 are around 210. But I'm already tall. | ||
| I'm already naturally pretty lean. | ||
| So I have to be very strict on my diet to get that low. | ||
| And it took everything for me to not just pig out and just like totally give in. | ||
| But, you know, Mauricio was just like, hey, we have one more doctor, one more doctor. | ||
| The whole weekend, all I did was just put... | ||
| CBD cream on my leg. | ||
| Resilient CBD. Shout out to them and my sponsor. | ||
| And I was using the Mark Pro on my leg. | ||
| What's the Mark Pro? | ||
| It's similar to a TENS unit, but it has different frequencies and you can go really deep in there. | ||
| So I'm just like, okay, let me just try to recover this thing as much as I can. | ||
| I couldn't train, couldn't do anything. | ||
| I was basically stuck at home. | ||
| And that's all I did. | ||
| And I just said, okay, Monday night, that's it. | ||
| If he says no, it's done. | ||
| And at this point, I hadn't told anything. | ||
| I let my manager, Ed, know, but we hadn't said anything to anybody else. | ||
| Literally, the only ones that knew were my girl, Shanji Mauricio, and Ed. | ||
| And so we go see this doctor Monday night. | ||
| And man, right off the bat, he kind of captivated us because he was the first one to be just chill and just like, okay, what's going on? | ||
| What brings you here? | ||
| Didn't look in any pictures. | ||
| Didn't, you know, didn't rush it. | ||
| And I tell him, yeah, you know, I got my scans. | ||
| It looks like I have cavernoma. | ||
| He said, okay, let me see your scans. | ||
| And he's like, yeah, yeah, this is cavernoma for sure. | ||
| How do you feel? | ||
| The first one to ask me, how do you feel? | ||
| And I said, well, you know, this is all a huge shock. | ||
| I've never had any problems. | ||
| I feel great. | ||
| I'm fine. | ||
| You know, I don't even get headaches. | ||
| And he's like, okay. | ||
| You know, he talks with me and he's like, let's go do an evaluation. | ||
| We do an evaluation and do some tests. | ||
| Everything's normal, like just simple, like, you know, stand on one leg and all that kind of stuff. | ||
| You know, and everything's fine. | ||
| And so we go back to the office, we sit down. | ||
| He's like, let me just see what I can find. | ||
| But I guarantee I'm not going to find anything that says head impact or trauma is going to increase the risk of your cavernoma bleeding. | ||
| And so he starts looking up, you know, journals and, you know, studies, all the things that doctors have access to. | ||
| And he literally finds nothing. | ||
| You know, there is no studies that say that getting hit in your head is going to make your cavernoma worse or cause you to bleed and something's going to happen. | ||
| He's like, look, You can bleed. | ||
| You know, you can be oozing blood at any point in time, little by little. | ||
| And it could become an issue at some point in time. | ||
| But there is no treatment. | ||
| There is no... | ||
| We're not going to do surgery like... | ||
| There's nothing that's going to happen until you have symptoms, until you show signs. | ||
| And because I can't find any studies that say getting hit in the head is going to make it worse, and because you are a normal, healthy, functioning person at this point... | ||
| I think it's fine for you to fight. | ||
| You should continue doing what you do until it becomes a problem. | ||
| And if it does become a problem, we'll go in there and we'll take it out, the big mass. | ||
| And then we'll move forward. | ||
| And so I'm just like, you know, I started getting emotional already and I'm kind of like, wow, so you'll write a letter saying this? | ||
| You'll support me? | ||
| And he's like, yeah, sure, sure, no problem. | ||
| Super calm guy. | ||
| And he was the oldest doctor we had spoken to as well. | ||
| Most experienced. | ||
| And so we get this letter. | ||
| Man, we walk out of that office, me and Mauricio, and as soon as we leave the door and we get to the elevator, man, I just burst into tears. | ||
| I just can't believe that... | ||
| There's some hope. | ||
| Like, this can still happen. | ||
| And me and Mauricio embrace, and just, we both cry. | ||
| Like, oh my god, we got the letter. | ||
| We got the letter. | ||
| So, I send the letter to Ed, and we begin the process of trying to get approved. | ||
| We get everything into Bellator, let them know they got the scans. | ||
| They send it over to the Europe Commission. | ||
| They use an organization called Safe MMA. And, you know, we kind of like, we're happy, we're positive, but at the same time, I'm still not approved. | ||
| It's still not on, you know? | ||
| But the letter is like, that was the missing piece. | ||
| That was what we needed to be able to move forward. | ||
| So, I finished that last week. | ||
| Unable to really move. | ||
| You know, I can't wrestle. | ||
| I can't kick. | ||
| And my last week in Brazil, you know, I'm literally just hitting mids like this. | ||
| And I'm like, okay, trying to stay positive. | ||
| I still have like a month. | ||
| Let's get this healed. | ||
| Let's just keep sweating. | ||
| Did you get an MRI on the hamstring? | ||
| No, I didn't get an MRI on the hamstring. | ||
| It didn't have any discoloration, so it wasn't a tear. | ||
| It was like a severe strain. | ||
| But with the popping? | ||
| It didn't turn black and blue. | ||
| And so without that discoloration, I almost didn't even want to know. | ||
| I was just like, you know. | ||
| When did it start feeling better? | ||
| It didn't, really. | ||
| I actually still feel it now. | ||
| It was a situation the whole way. | ||
| But I could stand. | ||
| So I could stand and all I'm doing is boxing now at this point because I can't throw kicks and I can't change levels to do takedowns. | ||
| Um, and so that was a whole nother thing because, you know, as I'm waiting to, to hear back on if I'm going to get approved, I'm only punching mitts. | ||
| Like I might as well be doing like a cardio kick, kickboxing class, you know, without kicks. | ||
| And that was the last thing that I want to do with Musashi is just go in there and box, you know, that's not what I do. | ||
| Right. | ||
| The hardships and frustrations just continued as I'm dealing with my hamstring, but at least we had some hope. | ||
| So I finished that week, fly home, and now I'm finishing my last couple weeks of camp at home in Oklahoma. | ||
| Shanji comes to Oklahoma. | ||
| You know, Mauricio's there. | ||
| And I'm trying to put together some great training. | ||
| One of my best training partners from Curitiba, his name's Chris Cristiano. | ||
| He came to Oklahoma as well. | ||
| And, you know, everyone's aware of the situation as far as my coaches, my team. | ||
| I did not tell my parents. | ||
| I didn't want anyone to know. | ||
| I didn't want it to get out. | ||
| And so I was just dealing with it with them, you know. | ||
| And so we send everything in and we're waiting. | ||
| We're waiting. | ||
| This guy, his name is Yanni. | ||
| He's on the commission with Safe MMA. He reaches out to me like after the first week. | ||
| And he said, hey, we need to talk. | ||
| And so I give him a call. | ||
| And he's like, we got the letter. | ||
| We're looking at your scans. | ||
| We've actually created a panel of doctors to talk about this. | ||
| And at this point, it's 50-50. | ||
| I just want you to know. | ||
| We're unsure if we're going to approve this. | ||
| And I just want you to hear, you know, I just wanted to touch base with you. | ||
| Wanted you to hear from me. | ||
| We see everything, but you have to understand we're still not sure. | ||
| So bear with us. | ||
| I'm like, okay, try to get through the next week. | ||
| Um, I had some decent days with my hamstring, um, where I could shoot a little bit and work some takedowns. | ||
| But, um, if I had a good day, the next day I had to take it real light because it was just, it was so tight, so tight, so tender. | ||
| Did you get it massaged at all? | ||
| Oh, yeah. | ||
| I was doing everything, everything possible. | ||
| I mean, getting it worked on, doing hot-cold. | ||
| Like, you know, I'm pretty... | ||
| Like, anything out there that is for recovery, I have probably at my house, you know. | ||
| I'm big on really taking care of my body, so I was just trying to be as smart as I could and just get through it. | ||
| And... | ||
| We come to this point now where the fight is two weeks away, and I don't know if it's on or not. | ||
| I'm just trying to put together as good of training as I can, stay as positive as I can, but at the same time, I'm just like, man, I need the yes. | ||
| I need to be able to focus. | ||
| How are you staying conditioned when you barely can use your leg? | ||
| Man, it was really hard. | ||
| I was heavier. | ||
| I was walking around heavier than what I normally would for my fights. | ||
| By this time, I'm normally below 205 in the 200 to 205 range. | ||
| That's where I like to get to just off pure diet and off training. | ||
| And I was still 210 to 212. It was hard. | ||
| I could box, and I could box hard, and I could spar boxing, but without wrestling, I didn't feel like I was conditioned the way I wanted to be. | ||
| I couldn't sprint. | ||
| I could ride the bike. | ||
| The bike didn't put too much pressure, but I couldn't go all out the way I would like to. | ||
| Like an airdyne? | ||
| Yeah, airdyne. | ||
| Everything was not the way it would normally be done. | ||
| Now, you know, you're never 100%. | ||
| You're always dealing with something. | ||
| You know, I've had a broken nose before, cuts, rib, things. | ||
| Like, there's always something, you know. | ||
| But it was the stress of both and the uncertainty on if we would get to fight at all. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| That was really hard and for sure that's why I got hurt. | ||
| You know, that's 100% why I got hurt. | ||
| But anyways, finally on like the last day that they could give me the answer, they gave me the answer and I got the email and it said, we've approved you. | ||
| You are approved to fight two weeks before the fight. | ||
| I held off on, you know, I'm flying my family there, you know what I mean? | ||
| I have all my, like, there's the corner coaches, but I have a couple other coaches that I was, you know, going to fly out there, and I was waiting to purchase these tickets, and, you know, I had some other guys like, hey, where are you staying? | ||
| What's going on? | ||
| Like, I'm ready. | ||
| And I'm like, hey, don't book anything just yet. | ||
| Don't book anything. | ||
| Because I don't want them to buy tickets to London. | ||
| I'm not fighting. | ||
| And I'm trying to be cool and not give anyone too much of an idea of what's going on and stay positive, stay confident and everything. | ||
| Finally, we got the green light. | ||
| And I'm literally flying a few days later to London. | ||
| We left on Tuesday and arrived there Wednesday. | ||
| I got there like 10 days before, so I have one weekend before the weekend of the fight. | ||
| And, you know, at this point, it was like, okay, once we got that yes, I mean, we celebrated. | ||
| It was like... | ||
| You know, that's all I wanted. | ||
| I mean, I had already fought so hard just to be able to get to this fight, you know? | ||
| And we, you know, we go to London and my leg starts doing a little better. | ||
| And I'm like, you know, starting to just feel it like, okay, this is it. | ||
| You know, everything's coming together. | ||
| We're going to, we're going to Finish things on a good note. | ||
| And Friday, the week before the fight, I met Hodger's Academy in London, Hodger Gracie. | ||
| He opened up his doors, let us work in there. | ||
| And I'm feeling good and I overdo it and I feel my hamstring go again. | ||
| It wasn't a full pop, but it was like that stretch where it catches it and it just like... | ||
| And it's just like this pain rushed through and I'm like, oh no, I did it again. | ||
| I could feel it tighten up and lock. | ||
| I had to stop training that day. | ||
| And this is a week before the fight now. | ||
| And I'm right back to that like, I can't change levels. | ||
| I can't kick. | ||
| And I'm just like... | ||
| Once again, an emotional wreck. | ||
| My friend Cameron Shane, who's a mobility yoga guru, he's just an amazing guy. | ||
| He, you know, being that I felt the way I did, I didn't want to go back to Hajar's and try to do anything because I didn't want people to see me. | ||
| And he has these, you know, yoga connections all throughout the world. | ||
| And we found a yoga studio where my last few days, we could go there and try to do whatever we could, where no one could see, you know, as far as like other jiu-jitsu guys or MMA guys. | ||
| And man, the Sunday before the fight, we go into this yoga studio and we're trying to get a workout together. | ||
| And I'm just like, man, I break down and I just start crying. | ||
| And I'm like, guys, because I'm literally hitting mitts like this again. | ||
| I'm right back to that. | ||
| My niece was like, just punch, just to lose the weight, you know? | ||
| And I'm like, man, I need to wrestle. | ||
| I need to feel my takedowns. | ||
| I need to feel my whole game coming together. | ||
| And I just break down and all the guys come around me, you know, and they just, man, they consoled me in such a I mean, we just cut it that day. | ||
| There was no more training, but I can't begin to give as much gratitude and describe how much my team was there for me when I needed them because I was not in a good state of mind. | ||
| I was not in a good place. | ||
| I can imagine. | ||
| You're six days out in London and you literally can't use your leg. | ||
| Exactly. | ||
| The love and the inspiration and everything that they put into me, we all fought that fight together. | ||
| We all fought that fight together. | ||
| And, you know, we left that day, had a couple more days before we check into the Bellator Hotel. | ||
| The Tuesday, Wednesday is when we go to the Bellator Hotel. | ||
| Tuesday, I was able to put together a good day of training. | ||
| So it loosened up? | ||
| It loosened back up. | ||
| It wasn't, like I said, it wasn't a fool as bad as the first one. | ||
| It just hit me for a second. | ||
| But I think, like, you know, those moments... | ||
| I needed that. | ||
| I needed to combine our energies because look how that fight ended up going. | ||
| I felt like that fight before the fight was to prep me for the fight. | ||
| Going there... | ||
| Obviously, I'm a big underdog. | ||
| You know, it's in London. | ||
| Musasi has so much history there. | ||
| He's from Amsterdam. | ||
| You know, I don't know if anyone out there saw the video that Bellator put out afterwards where I said, like, you know, we did it and you could see how emotional I was. | ||
| This is why, you know. | ||
| And fast forward to when we're backstage. | ||
| Getting ready to go out there. | ||
| I always take my favorite book, Think and Grow Rich from Napoleon Hill. | ||
| I always take that. | ||
| Why is that? | ||
| It's just a powerful book for my life. | ||
| I discovered it in 2000, the end of 2007. And it's just such an inspirational book and really kind of like was the sort of the Bible for self-help books and all the other, you know, people that kind of came from that, like Tony Robbins and things like that. | ||
| Like, you know, the The motivating, the secret, all those sort of things. | ||
| Think and Grow Rich was the first. | ||
| Anyways, there's so many quotes in there and things that just have stuck with me throughout the years. | ||
| I love to read certain chapters and portions of it when I'm backstage getting ready to fight. | ||
| I have highlighted sentences and notes in it and stuff. | ||
| I'm backstage, and I open the book, and I hadn't opened it up to this point on this trip. | ||
| It was just with me. | ||
| I put it in my bag, and I got a couple hours before we go out to fight, and I always open it up. | ||
| As soon as I open it, the flap is inside in a chapter already in the last place I looked at it or whatever. | ||
| And the first thing I see is a highlighted portion that says every adversity carries with it the seed of an equivalent advantage. | ||
| That was the first thing that I saw and it hit me right there. | ||
| It was like everything that I went through in this camp to get to this fight You know, that is going to be my advantage. | ||
| That is going to be what carries me through this fight. | ||
| That's my power. | ||
| I know what I'm here for. | ||
| That's a great quote. | ||
| It's the best. | ||
| You know, every adversity carries with it the seed of an equivalent advantage. | ||
| Another one of my favorites from Napoleon Hill that I've used on t-shirts and inside a gi before. | ||
| Victory is always possible for the person who refuses to stop fighting. | ||
| That's martial arts, right? | ||
| A black belt is a white belt who never quit. | ||
| As long as you never quit, success is always possible. | ||
| Every failure just helps you learn and grow to get to your ultimate objective, your ultimate goal. | ||
| And when I saw that... | ||
| I'm writing that book down right now. | ||
| Yeah, Think and Grow Rich. | ||
| I tell all my students, all my competitors, all my guys, I always talk about that book. | ||
| And that was the first thing that I saw. | ||
| And like I said, going into this fight, all I wanted was that fight. | ||
| Trying to get approved, that whole process was just like, hey, just give me this one. | ||
| Just give me this one more. | ||
| Don't stop me this short of my dream. | ||
| My dream to fight for the belt, to fight a legendary fighter like Musashi. | ||
| Someone that's been at the top for so long. | ||
| That was how I envisioned fighting for my first big world title in MMA. I mean, I was going out there like that was the last fight of my life. | ||
| Like, it could potentially be the last fight of my life, you know? | ||
| And all this stuff with my health, like, you know, when I'm thinking about my parents and my family, you know, like, wondering, you know, am I going to get hurt? | ||
| Is this... | ||
| Am I... I'm going to do something selfishly where because I want to fight, I want this title that something could happen to me and I'm not going to be healthy, I'm not going to be the same and I'm going to break their hearts. | ||
| I had all these emotions and thoughts and I was literally kind of... | ||
| So to speak, going out there ready to die. | ||
| Ready to just let it all out. | ||
| This is it. | ||
| All I wanted was this opportunity. | ||
| And I could feel how all of that was to prep me for the fight. | ||
| Everything that we went through, that fight to get to the fight. | ||
| And my dad's in my corner. | ||
| You know, he's in my corner for all my fights. | ||
| I have the guys that went through everything, you know, that last four or five weeks before the fight to get approved with me. | ||
| And when I saw that, I looked around at them and I smiled. | ||
| I said, guys, we're gonna do it. | ||
| We're gonna do it. | ||
| It was destiny. | ||
| And I don't know if you've ever seen, but I've posted before some clips of my dad who is a professional organist, or a former professional organist, but he still plays the organ. | ||
| He's a musician. | ||
| And when I walked out for this fight, I had them play a clip of my dad playing the organ. | ||
| And, you know, growing up, when I first started training martial arts, my dad was playing the organ at that time, professionally, and that was what I did. | ||
| The time that I spent with my dad, I was at church, listening to him play the organ, and then we would go to the academy, and we would train, or we would train at home, and, you know, my father's in my corner, and, you know, this is... | ||
| This is our work. | ||
| I am who I am because of him. | ||
| I'm a martial artist because of him. | ||
| I have my brothers, the guys I've been training with for over a decade. | ||
| It was our destiny. | ||
| It was family. | ||
| We were going out there to fight as a family and walking out to my dad playing the organ. | ||
| It just really... | ||
| It took me to this place where it's like, I'm going to give everything. | ||
| I absolutely have. | ||
| Win or lose, I'm not going to stop. | ||
| I'm going to do my best, my absolute best. | ||
| And then the fight went the way it did, came down to the fifth round. | ||
| That's where that fifth round came from, was... | ||
| It was for them, you know, the love that they gave me to get me, even just to get me there, you know, because I was ready to break, man. | ||
| I was in pieces so many days in that camp. | ||
| You know, it was... | ||
| It was just a rollercoaster of emotions. | ||
| But having them, you know, my father, my brothers behind me, that's where that strength came from and everything we went through before the fight. | ||
| But that's why I was so emotional in the cage. | ||
| I mean, you'd be emotional anyways for a title fight, but, you know, it was something else. | ||
| Just to get there, you know, and have that opportunity. | ||
| And you could really, Mauricio, he's right there with his hands like... | ||
| It's a powerful moment right there. | ||
| Did it bother you that he had a lot of sour grapes after the fight? | ||
| Gagar did. | ||
| It did. | ||
| It did. | ||
| He didn't really credit you for the fight. | ||
| He was just saying mostly that you were on steroids. | ||
| This is my mom. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| Paying her respects, giving him a hug. | ||
| I mean, I understand that he felt bad because he lost, but I felt like the way he handled it was uncharacteristic for him. | ||
| I thought so, too. | ||
| We were so respectful. | ||
| After the fight, I went up to him. | ||
| Before they made the decision, I went up to him. | ||
| I shook his hand. | ||
| I said, man, it was an honor. | ||
| So much respect for you. | ||
| It was an honor to battle with you. | ||
| I thanked him. | ||
| Thank you. | ||
| And we shook hands and hugged. | ||
| But then he didn't stay after they raised my hand. | ||
| He walked right out. | ||
| We didn't shake hands again. | ||
| And then everything else, yeah, really surprised me. | ||
| I think it was just hard to fathom because, you know, this was my 10th fight. | ||
| He had already had over 50. He was a big favorite. | ||
| I just don't think, you know, he... | ||
| They were very confident. | ||
| They were very confident leading up to the fight. | ||
| And I don't think anyone imagined me to walk out of there with that belt. | ||
| Especially with one leg. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| He didn't know about that. | ||
| It hurt really bad after. | ||
| I'm sure. | ||
| But, you know, I didn't feel it. | ||
| Like, that's, when the adrenaline's pumping, you know, I didn't, it wasn't until like an hour later, I was like, whew, it's pretty tight. | ||
| Yeah, why do you think he did that? | ||
| Why do you think, I mean, he's lost before. | ||
| I've never seen him just attribute, essentially, attribute most of your success, he was just accusing you of taking steroids. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| And not a little bit of steroids, he was saying, like monkey steroids. | ||
| That's what he said. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| I don't know. | ||
| You know, his camp had a... | ||
| I felt like Musashi is genuinely like what I would call, you know, a real martial artist. | ||
| He's a martial artist and he doesn't really ever, you know, trash talk anybody. | ||
| And we were very respectful. | ||
| But, you know, his camp was... | ||
| They were saying and doing some things that were a little edgier, I would say, when we... | ||
| A little douche here. | ||
| Yeah, yeah. | ||
| Trying to be classy. | ||
| When we were at the press conference and we were going off for the face-off, you know, all this camp, we're always yelling a bunch of things. | ||
| And, you know, when we were walking up, one guy yells up to me, dead man walking! | ||
| And of course, immediately in my mind, I'm like, I have this brain disease, you know, that, you know, may or may not be an issue here in a couple days when we fight, you know. | ||
| And I have my family right there. | ||
| I'm like... | ||
| And then I have to look at him in the eyes. | ||
| But I'll never forget that. | ||
| I thought about that. | ||
| Dead man walking. | ||
| And I was just like, this guy. | ||
| And it was a lot. | ||
| It was a lot to take in to step into that cage. | ||
| But I think maybe some of the people he's around, maybe... | ||
| That doesn't cause him to say those things when he was sitting at the table with the microphone in front of him. | ||
| Did you respond to that? | ||
| No, I mean, that was right when we were walking to face off, and the press conference was basically done at that point. | ||
| So I had nothing to say to that, you know, that person yelling that. | ||
| No, but I mean, after the fight, when he was accusing you of steroids, did you ever... | ||
| No, I never had a moment to, you know, I haven't had another fight. | ||
| You never did an interview where anybody talked to you about his accusations? | ||
| No, who was it? | ||
| I did one. | ||
| Luke Thomas. | ||
| Luke Thomas did an interview with me. | ||
| I like that guy a lot. | ||
| Yeah, yeah. | ||
| And I think it was... | ||
| No, yeah. | ||
| It was before he fought Machida. | ||
| It was before he fought Machida. | ||
| And he talked to me about it in an interview about the fight and everything. | ||
| And I didn't have too much to say other than I just felt like it was a little sad because it was a great fight. | ||
| It was a really great fight. | ||
| A good fight. | ||
| Close fight. | ||
| Yeah, super close. | ||
| I feel like we kind of... | ||
| He probably thinks that he was under par and... | ||
| And I made a lot of mistakes too, and I wasn't too happy about some of the things that happened in that fight as well. | ||
| I thought I could have done a lot better. | ||
| But in a way, I felt like we kind of brought out the best of each other. | ||
| You know, his jiu-jitsu very much impressed me. | ||
| He was a seasoned pro, just like always, calm. | ||
| And, you know, then when he had his moment, he had his moment. | ||
| He started taking over, you know. | ||
| And, you know, it brought out the best of me and the heart that I showed coming back in that fifth round. | ||
| And I just felt like it was a great fight and we should be applauding each other for our performances. | ||
| And all this, you know, trash talking is really taken away from that. | ||
| Anyways, we were supposed to fight Saturday night in LA a couple days ago. | ||
| We set up the fight in November. | ||
| I signed a ballot agreement. | ||
| He went out there and got a win against Machida. | ||
| Happy to do the rematch. | ||
| And, you know, bringing this stuff back up, I'm in camp. | ||
| I've already started camp for this fight in January. | ||
| It's November. | ||
| And I get a call from, well, the same person I spoke to, Yanni from Safe MMA, says, Hey, we have a doctor. | ||
| We've continued studying your scans. | ||
| We've had a doctor look at this that didn't see it before the fight. | ||
| His name is Dr. Healy. | ||
| He's from Ireland and he really wants to talk to you. | ||
| I said, okay, have him give me a call and let's talk. | ||
| So I'm actually in Austin. | ||
| I'm training at the Onnit campus, getting great training down there. | ||
| You know, getting my camp going and I get this call from Dr. Healy and we talk and he is very adamant that I should not continue fighting and he says it's a mistake that I was approved and able to fight. | ||
| In London. | ||
| And moving forward, I would not be approved in Europe again. | ||
| So, at this point, now Europe is a no. | ||
| What is his credentials? | ||
| Why is he so respected above all the others? | ||
| What did he see in the scan? | ||
| He's a neurologist. | ||
| He sees the same thing as everybody else. | ||
| He just says that they made the wrong decision. | ||
| And somehow he didn't see it before the fight. | ||
| He didn't see the scans before the fight? | ||
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No. | |
| But why is his opinion respected above all the other doctors that approved you? | ||
| I don't know. | ||
| I don't know. | ||
| The doctor in Curchiba? | ||
| Well, he's part of this panel that Safe MMA created. | ||
| They continued talking about my scans and discussing it further. | ||
| It's a rare thing. | ||
| Cavernoma is... | ||
| I mean, it's not that rare, but it's like one in two or three hundred people have it in the U.S. And they probably don't know about it. | ||
| Exactly. | ||
| Unless they've experienced symptoms. | ||
| Unless they have symptoms. | ||
| And in Europe, it's like one in five hundred. | ||
| And so being that it's a rare disease and throw that into me doing something that not very many people do... | ||
| I don't think there's been too many cases where a professional fighter has this disease and they have to make these decisions. | ||
| And so I get that call from Dr. Healy and, you know, I'm like, and of course I've already started another camp now. | ||
| So the same things are coming up. | ||
| We're like, am I going to get approved? | ||
| I'm driving up from Austin to corner one of my guys at the border of Oklahoma and Texas for his Bellator debut. | ||
| And so I'm at Bellator like the next day. | ||
| This call I got from Dr. Healy was on Thursday. | ||
| Friday, I'm driving up to Bellator to corner one of my guys. | ||
| And so I'm there and I end up talking to Rich and I tell Rich, hey man, I just got this call. | ||
| I'm a little nervous, you know, because in my mind up to that point I thought, well, since Europe approved me, I should be okay to continue getting approved and continue fighting. | ||
| And so I'm like, man, maybe we need to go ahead and start the process now. | ||
| Let's not wait. | ||
| It's November. | ||
| Let's not wait until December to get everything into California. | ||
| I can't do another camp with all this uncertainty. | ||
| And Rich agrees, and he's like, yep, okay, I'm on it next week. | ||
| And we got Ian. | ||
| Ian Matthews, he coordinates all the medicals for Bellator. | ||
| We start getting organized, and literally a little over a week later, I'm flying out to L.A. to see doctors here and check up on everything, get new scans, and see what they say. | ||
| So I get my scans done. | ||
| I talked to a neurologist. | ||
| He is not favorable of me fighting, but the last thing he says is, you really need to see a specialist, like a neurosurgeon. | ||
| So there's neurologists and then there's neurosurgeons, ones that actually do brain surgeries. | ||
| And he says, you need to see an actual specialist. | ||
| You know, that's the last thing he says. | ||
| And so, boom, I'm right on the phone with Ian. | ||
| The guy recommended a couple people. | ||
| Ian's able to set it up where the next day I go to UCLA and I see a neurosurgeon. | ||
| His name is Dr. Wong. | ||
| The next morning. | ||
| And Mauricio's with me. | ||
| Ed's with me. | ||
| We go see Dr. Wong and he is very, very similar to the doctor I see in Brazil. | ||
| He is very calm. | ||
| He's a younger guy though, but he has a lot of experience with people with cavernoma. | ||
| He's actually, I mean, that morning he actually operated on someone Before we saw him that had cavernoma and had a bundle very similar to mine, almost in the exact same location. | ||
| It took him less than an hour to get it out, and that person walked away. | ||
| How are they getting into the brain? | ||
| I can't tell you the specifics of the surgery, but... | ||
| I mean, they're able to go in, and because it's on the outer rim, they can pull it out, and it's a very minimal turnaround as far as your recovery. | ||
| I mean, the person got up and walked away. | ||
| So this is just a large bundle. | ||
| The small bundles are not of concern? | ||
| Exactly. | ||
| The large bundle has already shown a history of a little bit of bleeding. | ||
| You know, they could see where like some blood came out and dried up. | ||
| And, you know, if that continues... | ||
| And it keeps getting bigger, then it's more pressure on your brain and more likely for hemorrhaging and things like that. | ||
| But he says that it's in the best location possible, and the fact that it's on the outer rim would be easy to get out if they needed to. | ||
| And I asked him, I said, well, should we just get this thing out now, and then I can try to get approved? | ||
| Just so it doesn't look so bad, you know, and make people feel better. | ||
| And he recommends against it. | ||
| He said, no, we're not going to do surgery until you have some symptoms or some problems. | ||
| And, you know, until then, like, live your life. | ||
| He's operated and worked with NFL players and boxers. | ||
| That have cavernoma, and they were able to continue on, no problem. | ||
| And he was very positive. | ||
| I have a letter from him on my phone, and he's talking about the percentage of something happening being less than 1%. | ||
| With it as it stands? | ||
| Yes. | ||
| Yes. | ||
| So he's giving you the full go ahead. | ||
| He's giving me the full go ahead. | ||
| And so we're very positive. | ||
| We leave thinking that that's going to be enough. | ||
| And I continue with my camp. | ||
| And it was in December. | ||
| Rich and Bellator, and let me just say, they have been super supportive. | ||
| Bellator, they organized me going out and seeing this doctor, getting into UCLA to see the neurosurgeon. | ||
| They've been really helpful and tremendous in working with me to keep this dream alive of continuing to fight. | ||
| It was a dream to become the champion. | ||
| And now, I mean, I've only done three fights with Bellator outside of my home state, outside of Oklahoma. | ||
| My last three, you know? | ||
| So, I'm at this point now where, like, I was going to fight in L.A., you know? | ||
| Which was going to be amazing. | ||
| All the friends that I have here for my career in jiu-jitsu, you know? | ||
| And already looking ahead to... | ||
| I mean, actually, I was shooting for us to fight in Japan. | ||
| They just did... | ||
| Their first Bellator Japan on New Year's Eve. | ||
| And I thought, oh, with Musashi's history in Japan, maybe we could fight there. | ||
| But they wanted us in L.A., which was fine. | ||
| But, you know, starting to see that, hey, these big arenas and, you know, really just like the big shows were right there, like at grasp, you know, putting on for my team, for my family, and, you know, for where I'm from. | ||
| Like, we're about to be there, you know. | ||
| And, you know, so, like, I was super excited, super excited for this fight. | ||
| But Bellator, they say, okay, we're going to get this into California sort of under the table. | ||
| You know, we're not going to put an official application because if they deny, you know, Now, that'll be two commissions on paper that say no. | ||
| And so, you know, they kind of put this into the Athletic Commission's hands. | ||
| Andy Foster of the California State Athletic Commission said, hey, you know, we have a guy who has this condition. | ||
| Just tell me what you guys would do with this situation. | ||
| Would he be approved or not? | ||
| And it was like mid-December. | ||
| The word came back that it wasn't going to be a no. | ||
| And so that's really why I'm here right now. | ||
| I've committed myself to getting back into grappling and jiu-jitsu right now. | ||
| I have a match lined up next month. | ||
| And I'm sure, you know, there's questions. | ||
| There already have been questions. | ||
| I had already told my students. | ||
| I mean, I had signed a bout agreement and everything for January. | ||
| And I had students buying tickets to come to L.A. to be here at my fight. | ||
| You know, and I've been like... | ||
| Like, oh, you know, we got postponed. | ||
| We got delayed. | ||
| I haven't said anything to anyone other than my... | ||
| I mean, I just told my parents a few weeks ago. | ||
| You know, I finally told them. | ||
| Do your parents have this? | ||
| Have they gotten themselves checked? | ||
| They haven't gotten scanned yet. | ||
| But the plan is for them to get checked out for sure. | ||
| And that's a big reason why I'm here today, Joe, is to create awareness for this because... | ||
| Who knows? | ||
| And it's really given me a different outlook. | ||
| We get physicals. | ||
| We go see the dentist. | ||
| We get checked up. | ||
| But how often do you think, let me get a brain scan done to know what's going on with my head, to know how my brain looks. | ||
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I've thought about doing it and I'm actually nervous. | |
| I don't blame you. | ||
| Now, man, I totally get that. | ||
| Before, like I said, I went into it so like, oh, this is just a routine thing to get approved to fight. | ||
| I fought nine times already. | ||
| Imagine who else could be out there with something either in their living a regular life or maybe in an extreme life where they're doing combat or, you know, in some sort of extreme sport where they're getting hit in the head. | ||
| But it was never required of them to get a scan done. | ||
| And they never just had an issue, so they never thought about it, you know? | ||
| And you don't really know what's going on up there until you get it looked at. | ||
| So are you officially retiring? | ||
| I'm not officially retiring. | ||
| I am sort of, I guess, indefinitely on the sidelines right now. | ||
| I am actively seeing more doctors and working towards... | ||
| Learning more about this, obviously I want to keep fighting. | ||
| This gentleman in LA, Dr. Wong, so he had done these operations on, you said MMA fighters? | ||
| I don't know if he operated on... | ||
| He mentioned boxers and NFL players. | ||
| I don't know if he operated on them. | ||
| He had seen it in them and helped them continue their careers, and he keeps a close eye. | ||
| So I need to get scans done at least once a year or every six months. | ||
| Was that patch, the large patch in the back of your head, was that particularly troubling to him more than the other ones? | ||
| No, no. | ||
| He said... | ||
| That it was in the best location possible. | ||
| To get to. | ||
| Yes. | ||
| And because it's not deep in, it's not in an area where it could affect my cognitive functions, my memory, things like that. | ||
| What goes on back there? | ||
| Back there, I'm not 100% sure. | ||
| He made it sound like nothing too important happens there. | ||
| I know. | ||
| The back area, as far as what I've learned thus far, is more like everyday type of stuff. | ||
| It's not your memory. | ||
| It's not in a position where you could... | ||
| Violently lose your temper or have a lapse in time where you become someone else and then you come back. | ||
| All that kind of stuff happens more deep inside the brain. | ||
| Where it's at on the outside and the back is just sort of like the regular stuff. | ||
| Obviously, neither of us are neurosurgeons the way we're describing this. | ||
| The area of the regular stuff. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| So are you thinking about going in there and getting it removed? | ||
| No. | ||
| No. | ||
| It is recommended against. | ||
| Why is that? | ||
| Because why do brain surgery if I don't have any symptoms? | ||
| That's what he says. | ||
| Mm-hmm. | ||
| Because I was up for it. | ||
| I said, hey, should we just do this? | ||
| And he's like, look, it'll probably be six months to a year before I would say it's okay to go back into sparring and things like that. | ||
| You're going to be able to walk out and be fine and do your day-to-day stuff, but I don't want you getting hit in the head for a while. | ||
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Of course. | |
| And why... | ||
| I mean, it's a low-risk surgery, but why take that risk if you're not having symptoms? | ||
| The treatment or the care is always just to keep an eye on it, see how it develops, and if you start having some problems, then we're going to go in there and remove it. | ||
| But if you say that you're indefinitely on the sidelines, it seems to me that unless you get it removed, you're permanently on the sidelines. | ||
| Well, I... This is where I'm at now. | ||
| This is such a rare and unique thing. | ||
| No one really knows too much. | ||
| You know, I'm getting some people that are saying, no, no way. | ||
| And then I'm getting these other, you know, specialists and people that have really dealt with it that are like, yeah, it's okay. | ||
| I am, like I said, it's indefinite. | ||
| I just want to, I'm 36. So you're in this, I mean, realistically, athletically, this is sort of the last chapter of your career. | ||
| Oh yes. | ||
| Oh yes. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| And this is how I wanted to end it, you know, as the champ trying to Submit myself as one of the great champs of this era and defend that belt as long as possible and say goodbye. | ||
| But I still have hope. | ||
| I still have hope that if I can continue seeing more doctors and getting more knowledge, Andy Foster from the Athletic Commission has recommended another doctor to see. | ||
| I'm not officially declined. | ||
| For the California State Athletic Commission at this point. | ||
| Did Andy Foster talk to this Dr. Wong who specifically said he didn't think it was going to be a problem? | ||
| No, not yet. | ||
| But he recommended another doctor at UCLA that actually used to work on the Athletic Commission that could be a big help. | ||
| I'm right in the middle of this, so I'm just going to keep seeing more doctors and try to learn more about this. | ||
| If it's really unsafe and I'm not going to get approved ever, I finally got to a place where I can accept that and I'm going to move forward on with my life teaching and doing what I do at home and with all of my students worldwide. | ||
| But if I'm still getting people like Dr. Wong and the doctor I saw in Brazil And I can find more doctors who have experience with this. | ||
| If they keep saying that they think it's okay, and I can have hope of getting approved, I'm going to keep fighting for that. | ||
| Where can you get approved? | ||
| What states could approve you right now? | ||
| Well, that's tricky to know because, you know, as far as in the U.S., only New York and California require brain scans. | ||
| And so that's, you know, a big thing of what I want to talk about, you know, or what I wanted to bring awareness to is like, All these other states don't require scans. | ||
| So if you fight in those states, to me, it's of your best interest to, on your own, if you have the means, if you have insurance or whatever, get a scan done to see what it looks like. | ||
| But I'm hoping that through this we can figure out If cavernoma is safe or not, the more doctors I have looking at this and talking about it, bringing awareness to it, that we're going to learn and understand more of this disease and if it's possible or if it's not possible. | ||
| But I'm trying to keep the hope alive that if it's six months, a year, even two years, that maybe I can at least get one more, at least get one more. | ||
| But the thing is, them putting me in a state that doesn't require a scan doesn't necessarily mean I'm going to get approved because these other commissions have a responsibility to speak up and say, hey, we don't think it's of his best interest health-wise to compete. | ||
| And I'm not... | ||
| I'm not against the commission. | ||
| I totally understand and respect that. | ||
| Andy Foster is one of the very best in the business. | ||
| He's so ahead of everybody else. | ||
| And they opened up a time for me to come out next month and speak with them face-to-face and get to see the people that are making the decisions and learn more and understand more of their position and how they feel about it. | ||
| And I'm just trying to gather up as much information in the meantime. | ||
| Would it be possible to do that with Dr. Wong? | ||
| I hope so. | ||
| That's the plan. | ||
| And hopefully a few more. | ||
| That's what I'm working on. | ||
| That's what I'm in the middle of. | ||
| And until then, I'm just going to keep training and trying to stay positive. | ||
| Who do you have a match with, a jiu-jitsu match? | ||
| Well, it hasn't been announced yet, but I'm going to be facing... | ||
| I mean, it's about to come out. | ||
| It's less than a month away now. | ||
| February 21st, I'll be facing Roberto Cyborg in a no-gay grappling match. | ||
| He's a big fella. | ||
| Yes, yes. | ||
| What does that dude weigh? | ||
| Probably in the neighborhood of 240, maybe a little more. | ||
| Yeah, yeah. | ||
| We've had a few matches in the past, and he's a great guy. | ||
| He's a legend as well. | ||
| Just one of the best ever from my time, and it'll be fun. | ||
| And that's what I want to do in the meantime is keep myself sharp, keep competing, keep training, and hopefully get another opportunity. | ||
| But if not, at least learn more about this and hopefully inspire others to get checked out. | ||
| Even if you're not in a combat sport or doing anything risky, just like the same thing you would do to go get a checkup. | ||
| Hey, at some point in your life, it wouldn't hurt to get a scan done. | ||
| It just really opened my eyes. | ||
| To how we don't know what's going on up there. | ||
| And something could happen, you know, and you don't have an answer to it. | ||
| But if you knew what was in your brain, maybe you would have that answer. | ||
| Yeah, it seems like such a tricky situation to be in because if you do decide to do something about it, you really kind of almost have to do it now. | ||
| Because at 36, with a full year off of no sparring at all, Or he said six months to a year. | ||
| So he would have to see you a couple times, maybe do another scan and see where you're at. | ||
| Let's say six months. | ||
| Well, six months is like an ACL surgery. | ||
| Not that bad, right? | ||
| But a year is like, ooh, now we're into 37, 37 and a half. | ||
| And then you got to get in real tip-top shape again. | ||
| If you really wanted to fight again, it's funny. | ||
| I understand the doctor's position. | ||
| Why do the surgery if you don't experience symptoms? | ||
| But most people aren't fighters. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| The thing is, though, it doesn't take away the fact that I have cavernoma. | ||
| There's multiple locations, and so just removing that one doesn't change. | ||
| So it's possible the commissions wouldn't change their evaluation just based on the scan with the other areas? | ||
| Exactly. | ||
| And is there anything that mitigates this? | ||
| Is there any medication or diet or anything that you can do? | ||
| I don't know about treatment like that for cavernoma specifically. | ||
| But I did see another doctor recently through the help of Justin Wren, Big Pygmy, Dr. Amen, who's actually a psychiatrist or psychologist by trait. | ||
| And then he, you know, kind of went into studying the brain fully and he created the SPEC scan. | ||
| He's released numerous, you know, books that were New York Times bestsellers on TED Talks. | ||
| And I actually saw him just a little over a week ago. | ||
| And he has some different supplements that he recommends. | ||
| He also talked to me about using the hyperbaric chamber. | ||
| Not the hard shell hyperbaric chamber because he thinks that might be too much pressure. | ||
| But like the soft one that you can zip up. | ||
| He thinks could be beneficial. | ||
| But it's more just for... | ||
| Overall brain health, it might not really make too much difference of cavernoma specifically, but I'm going to do it. | ||
| I'm going to do whatever I can. | ||
| I want to be healthy, obviously, just for me and whether I get to fight or not. | ||
| But like I said, I'm just going to stay positive. | ||
| And in the meantime, look, I don't want to hold up the division. | ||
| Like, you know, I don't want to, you know, Bellator is being very kind with time as we're going through all of this. | ||
| But I understand, you know, there's guys out there that deserve to fight for the title. | ||
| And if they need to set up a fight to determine the new champion, you know, I understand. | ||
| You know, I'm going to be over here doing everything I can. | ||
| To hopefully get approved to come back. | ||
| But like I said, it's sort of an indefinite retirement. | ||
| I'm just working through this. | ||
| And as people see me competing, I didn't want them to think that I'm just not trying to defend my belt or whatever. | ||
| When Bellator, if they have to move forward and make another fight for the belt and people wondering what's going on with me, this is it. | ||
| This is what I'm dealing with. | ||
| And through this, I'm just hoping to Help others that might have the same condition. | ||
| Have there been any cases of people with Cavernova that have gone into remission? | ||
| I'm not sure. | ||
| I'm not sure. | ||
| I don't know. | ||
| I don't know. | ||
| The doctors didn't talk to you about that? | ||
| Mm-mm. | ||
| No? | ||
| Mm-mm. | ||
| You didn't ask that? | ||
| No. | ||
| That would be the first thing I would ask. | ||
| Has anybody ever made this go away? | ||
| Yeah, I don't think that's possible. | ||
| It just is what it is. | ||
| Yeah, I mean, there's... | ||
| I wish I should have brought in the pictures. | ||
| I have several little spots all over. | ||
| Yeah, I'd like to see it. | ||
| All over. | ||
| They're actually in my car. | ||
| Where's your car? | ||
| Right outside. | ||
| Go get it. | ||
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We'll wait. | |
| Okay, I'm sorry. | ||
| No worries, man. | ||
| Go wait. | ||
| No worries. | ||
| Gotta see it, right? | ||
| I mean, how often do you get a chance to look at a dude's brain? | ||
| I'm scared to go into my brain, dude. | ||
| I bet there's like pitchforks in there and shit. | ||
| All sorts of... | ||
| Like, sometimes I wonder... | ||
| I was Googling it. | ||
| There's something called a gamma knife surgery. | ||
| Gamma knife surgery? | ||
| Yeah, that might... | ||
| Is your girl going to go get it for you? | ||
| Okay. | ||
| Jamie just found you an option. | ||
| Well, I don't know. | ||
| Hey, I'm no doctor here. | ||
| He's a doctor. | ||
| He just sidelines as a producer. | ||
| Without cutting open directly, I think it's some sort of radiation treatment. | ||
| Oh. | ||
| It looked crazy. | ||
| Gamma knife treatment? | ||
| I need to bring you to some witch doctor. | ||
| I mean, I can't imagine what you're going through, man, and what you have gone through. | ||
| Oh, Jesus Christ. | ||
| And then you go into a machine like this. | ||
| What the fuck? | ||
| Okay, so folks that are just listening to this, it says brain stereotactic radio surgery at the Mayo Clinic, and it looks essentially like an MRI machine. | ||
| And they got this guy bolted down, his head is kind of screwed into this fucking harness, so I guess he can't move. | ||
| And they roll you into this machine, and what does this machine do? | ||
| I think it then does this. | ||
| I saw this picture in another video of it where I guess radiation just hammers your head. | ||
| I'm planning on going to this place, the Mayo Clinic. | ||
| They're going to make you smarter. | ||
| That's what's going to happen with that. | ||
| You're going to get superpowers and shit. | ||
| How dope would that be if you came out? | ||
| If you came out of that and you could read people's minds, would you tell? | ||
| I wouldn't tell anybody. | ||
| I don't think I would either. | ||
| If I came out and I'd read people's minds, I'd just shut my mouth and just let all these assholes lie to me. | ||
| That's a crazy looking machine, man. | ||
| The harness on the head. | ||
| Holy shit, that looks uncomfortable. | ||
| Go to that lady. | ||
| That lady right there with the white thing. | ||
| She looks so uncomfortable. | ||
| Look at her. | ||
| She's like, going out my head. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| Are you girls at the door? | ||
| Okay. | ||
| Alright, here we go. | ||
| We got the scans of Raphael's brain. | ||
| Dun, dun, dun. | ||
| So this is a treatment for cavernoma? | ||
| I was looking up cavernoma, yeah, and this popped up. | ||
| I don't know. | ||
| I'm sure since he's gone to see multiple doctors for it, that there's multiple treatments that are going on. | ||
| This seems to be one treatment for a variation of it. | ||
| That's interesting. | ||
| When you looked up, I just started digging down a hole, and this is what I found. | ||
| The fact that you can do that while producing a podcast is quite shocking, sir. | ||
| Kudos to you. | ||
| These are just the pictures. | ||
| Obviously, they look better on the disc. | ||
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| Oh, shit. | ||
| I can see it from here. | ||
| Wow, dude. | ||
| That's crazy. | ||
| Okay, folks. | ||
| Well, I'm looking... | ||
| Let me hold this up so people can see, particularly this one. | ||
| Is there any glare? | ||
| That's the one on the outside of the right. | ||
| That is a fucking big-ass spot on your brain. | ||
| Yeah, you can see there's a few in there, but that's the big boy. | ||
| But yeah, all in all, that doesn't look good. | ||
| And that's what I saw when I was on my way to Brazil going to train. | ||
| Especially, you're going to shoot the box. | ||
| That would freak me the fuck out. | ||
| You can see the little ones that are around, but they weren't too concerned of those yet. | ||
| It's the big one and a little bit of this one here that's more on the inside. | ||
| It's not big, big like that one, but... | ||
| No, all of these are on the outside of the brain. | ||
| No, just this one. | ||
| Some of them are inside the brain. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| The inside of the brain is what would scare the shit out of me. | ||
| That's crazy to look at, man. | ||
| It's gotta be weird looking at the inside of your head and seeing all the stuff that makes you you. | ||
| All your personality, your memories, all your skills, all your knowledge. | ||
| All in there, and it's got weird spots on it. | ||
| Fuck, man. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| That's crazy. | ||
| It's heavy. | ||
| It's still heavy, but I'm... | ||
| You should put that on your Instagram. | ||
| Well, this is my coming out party, I guess you could say. | ||
| Fuck, man. | ||
| That spot's creeping me out. | ||
| But this is a hereditary thing that the extreme ends are you live with this and it's never a problem your whole life. | ||
| The other side is it's a problem right from the beginning and you have to have multiple surgeries and bad things happen. | ||
| People go into comas. | ||
| Seizures, even death. | ||
| And so, you know, you could have this and not have any idea about it, obviously, just like me. | ||
| And so in so many ways, the fact that I fought, you know, helped me. | ||
| because it was required for me to get this done. | ||
| And thankfully, I found out now before anything happened, but I want to learn more and try to understand this and see, you know, because so many people say, I mean, look, I can show you the doctor letter from Dr. Wong I can show you the doctor letter from Dr. Wong and look at the percentages that he's talking about here of, You know, 0.25%, you know, I don't know if you want to read it. | ||
| So his concern is that Well, he doesn't have a concern. | ||
| The Athletic Commission's concern is that the European Commission has rejected you, and then California is taking the opinions of a panel of doctors, some pro, some con. | ||
| But you think that this Dr. Wong guy is the one who knows the most about it? | ||
| He's the first one that I found. | ||
| He's definitely the one that I've talked to that is the only one I've talked to that's actually been in there, seen it. | ||
| Done surgeries on people and help people continue their careers that have it. | ||
| And you said boxers and football players? | ||
| Yes, NFL players. | ||
| He mentions that in his letter. | ||
| What about jujitsu? | ||
| Are you concerned at all that jujitsu with the, you know, the heart? | ||
| No, no. | ||
| I mean, of course, there's us accidentally butting heads or an elbow or something. | ||
| But no, but believe me, that day that a doctor did say that, you know, a choke or a strangle Would be dangerous. | ||
| And I had the thoughts running through my mind of never being able to do jiu-jitsu again. | ||
| You're such a geek guy. | ||
| You want to choke like this. | ||
| I'm totally... | ||
| Well, I'm both. | ||
| Well, you're both, for sure. | ||
| I've done a lot of that, too. | ||
| I know, but you automatically went... | ||
| Look at these hands, man. | ||
| That's from Gi. | ||
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| This thing in my hand. | ||
| What is that? | ||
| It's like a ruptured tendon or something. | ||
| I don't know. | ||
| It just burst and you just left it that way? | ||
| Yeah, basically. | ||
| It was like almost 10 years ago. | ||
| Someone broke my grip and it popped. | ||
| But for me, it's like I train with my dad. | ||
| You know what I mean? | ||
| We roll together. | ||
| My family teaching. | ||
| All my students... | ||
| But jujitsu, that's going to be there forever. | ||
| It took a lot of soul searching and talking and just sort of meditating and getting to a place where, because working so hard to get to this point, You know, and seeing those big shows and finally, you know, going to start getting paid well, you know what I mean? | ||
| Like working up to that point. | ||
| Yeah, you're the champ now. | ||
| Yeah, I just got a new academy and definitely was thinking that, you know, the championship fight paychecks were going to help pay off the investment that I put into the school, you know, and just different things that I, you know, have worked so hard for, but I felt like it was kind of getting taken away from me. | ||
| And I had to really process and talk to all my loved ones and And I've gotten to a place where I know I'm going to be fine if I never get to fight again. | ||
| I still have so many things to be grateful for. | ||
| Life is amazing. | ||
| And I just want to now... | ||
| You know, learn more and hopefully through this experience help others that may have this condition or something else if I can just help people get a scan, you know, and just know and be able to rest assured that they're okay or learn to find out that maybe they have something that they need to take care of in their brain. | ||
| Now is this a condition that will require you to get regular evaluations to make sure it's not progressing? | ||
| Yes. | ||
| So how often do you have to do that now? | ||
| I think at least once a year, if not every six months, just to see if there are growing or new bundles come together or whatever. | ||
| I'd really like to know if people have cured it or if anyone has ever gone into a period of remission where those things went away. | ||
| Yeah, I've never seen or heard anything like that. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| And they don't know what causes it. | ||
| It's just some sort of strange genetic issue. | ||
| Yeah, I think it's hereditary. | ||
| And I believe it's, from what I've read, it's more common in the Hispanic community. | ||
| And that's the doctor that I saw in UCLA. He said that in... | ||
| He brought up being there in LA that he's seen a lot of Hispanics with it, boxers. | ||
| But they were able to continue fighting. | ||
| So I wonder how that worked. | ||
| And that's what I'm trying to learn about and figure out and see if it's safe or not. | ||
| I don't want to do anything dangerous to my health. | ||
| But if it's possible and it can be done in a safe way, I definitely... | ||
| I just now feel like I'm tapping into my MMA black belt level now. | ||
| So if doctors come to a new, more in-depth understanding of this disease and what the consequences or the risks are, it may be possible that they would say, you know what, we were a little bit hasty or we didn't have all the facts. | ||
| Now that we do, we feel like you could fight. | ||
| I think so. | ||
| That's what I'm hoping for. | ||
| That's what I'm trying for. | ||
| And this Mayo Clinic thing that you said you're going to visit, are they supposed to do that same thing to you? | ||
| That crazy Bruce Banner thing? | ||
| I don't know. | ||
| I don't think so. | ||
| I should ask them to do it just for the fun of it. | ||
| Just find out what they can do. | ||
| Yeah, I'm just going to keep trying to see the best people that I can. | ||
| And so is there a guy, like a nationwide guy, like one person that stands out that's a cavernoma expert that you should see or have you seen basically those guys yet? | ||
| Not that I know of. | ||
| I mean, the Mayo Clinic was definitely brought up. | ||
| UCLA, which I've already been. | ||
| There is another doctor that works at UCLA that now specializes in pediatric neurology. | ||
| So, you know, he deals with kids now. | ||
| But he was on the Athletic Commission. | ||
| He was on the board. | ||
| He's one of their doctors for like 10 years. | ||
| And we just found out about him. | ||
| And I'm trying to get in to see him. | ||
| As well, to get more light on people that actually have, you know, sort of experience dealing with combat athletes that may have this condition. | ||
| And... | ||
| You know, just get more knowledge and see what's possible, what's safe for me. | ||
| And like I said, if I don't get to fight again, I'm now in a good place to be able to accept that and move forward. | ||
| But I'm hoping that I do, even if I'm 40, even if it takes that long and I can just do one more so I can... | ||
| I can say goodbye, you know, on my own terms, you know, and have one more ride with my family, with my team. | ||
| You know, if that's what it takes, that's what I'm going to do. | ||
| I just would love to have one more, at least, if it's safe. | ||
| You've got to take some... | ||
| Good feeling out of the fact that you were able to overcome that camp because that seems like probably one of the most trying times of your career I mean that that's to do go through all that to find out about that while you're flying to Curitiba blow your hamstring out get through all that stuff and still Be Gagor Monsasi to win the title. | ||
| I mean that it is that is an amazing accomplishment Thank you. | ||
| Thank you, but it wasn't just me. | ||
| That's you know, that's a what I really wanted to get out there like If it wasn't for my loved ones, man, there's no way. | ||
| There's no way I would have got through that. | ||
| They gave me the strength. | ||
| They uplifted me when I needed them. | ||
| I felt like it was all of us. | ||
| And I just wanted to make them proud. | ||
| I wanted to be the one that made them world champion coaches. | ||
| My Muay Thai MMA coach, Mauricio, He is so good, so special. | ||
| And I wanted him to be able to say, I've coached someone to be a world champion. | ||
| You know, he deserved it. | ||
| I wanted to be the first Hiberto Shujutsu MMA world champion representative. | ||
| You know, it was family. | ||
| You know, we did that together. | ||
| And, you know, I'm just forever, ever grateful for them. | ||
| And you did it against arguably one of the toughest guys in Bellator, if not in the world, in that division. | ||
| I mean, Gegard Mousasi had beaten Chris Weidman. | ||
| He's beaten so many top guys. | ||
| He's, in my opinion, one of the greatest middleweights of all time. | ||
| I mean, he's just a phenomenal fighter. | ||
| I was actually really bummed out when he went over to Bellator. | ||
| Because, you know, I saw the negotiations go south, and I was really hoping that he was going to stick around. | ||
| I wanted to see him fight for the title. | ||
| I wanted to see him versus Robert Whittaker. | ||
| I wanted to see him versus Yoel Romero. | ||
| So your accomplishment was even more impressive, considering that you beat that guy. | ||
| Thank you. | ||
| I appreciate it, man. | ||
| I'm bummed, man. | ||
| I'm bummed for you, but I'm also... | ||
| I'm also happy that you were able to pull off what you pulled off. | ||
| And you have your health. | ||
| And you can still compete in jiu-jitsu, which you obviously are incredibly accomplished at that as well. | ||
| And think about how we were supposed to fight in LA first. | ||
| Who knows if I would have gotten improved there. | ||
| And then this doctor from Ireland somehow missed it. | ||
| He wasn't a part of the panel and the discussions before the fight. | ||
| It really was destiny that I was able to do that fight. | ||
| And I'm just so grateful. | ||
| That it happened. | ||
| And obviously, I'm very happy that I won. | ||
| But either way, the where I had to dig to be successful in that fight and the experience, the journey, learning so much about myself and the ride that we did. | ||
| I mean, we had this dinner the night before the fight and after the weigh-ins and everything with all my most cherished loved ones, you know. | ||
| And they didn't know. | ||
| They didn't know. | ||
| Most of them didn't know. | ||
| Just a couple of them. | ||
| And everyone took a minute to say something special about the process and, you know, me getting to this point and, you know, they're my wrestling coach and jiu-jitsu. | ||
| Salah was there. | ||
| You know, all these people, my parents, my girl, like, they all said something special about The family that we have, us being together, and then me, you know, getting to that moment. | ||
| And everyone cried, you know. | ||
| Everyone took a minute and everyone cried. | ||
| And, you know, that is something that will live with me for the rest of my life. | ||
| I'm just so grateful that it happened and we got to be there. | ||
| Because there's so many factors where maybe it wouldn't have happened. | ||
| If we would have fought in LA the first time, who knows if I would have gotten approved. | ||
| But it went to London and somehow this doctor didn't see it. | ||
| Does the party think it might be better if he didn't fight again? | ||
| Even if the doctor did approve it, does part of you think, why risk this? | ||
| I can't say that I haven't thought that. | ||
| But I feel like with the ones that are saying that it's okay, it's just confusing. | ||
| It's confusing. | ||
| I've been very confused for months. | ||
| But that's why I just want to learn more. | ||
| And Joe, I hope... | ||
| Here very soon you get a scan done, too. | ||
| You know, I hope everyone out there does. | ||
| No, I really should. | ||
| I think we all should. | ||
| I think you're absolutely right. | ||
| I think that's very good advice, especially coming from someone like you that just experienced this incredible turnaround in your life, this big twist of fate. | ||
| So Bellator is aware of where you stand. | ||
| Have they talked to you about stepping down and about having a new title fight or are they prolonging it and waiting to see with more results and more different doctors weigh in on us? | ||
| We had a good conversation yesterday. | ||
| I got together with Scott and Rich and we all sat down and you know once again they're being super supportive Scott's like, man, keep fighting this thing. | ||
| Keep seeing more doctors and let's learn more and see what's possible. | ||
| And they've been very generous with the time and not saying anything to anybody. | ||
| And they were okay with me taking more time. | ||
| But I told them that I felt like this was the best route because I'm I'm also sort of pleading to anyone out there, if you have a lot of great minds on the show and a lot of great minds listening to this show, if there's some doctors, some neurologists, some neurosurgeons out there that have experience and would like to get involved in this process, Please reach out. | ||
| I would love to hear it. | ||
| But they're supportive. | ||
| And they're willing to wait a little longer. | ||
| Or they were. | ||
| And I said, hey, I want to put this out there now. | ||
| And so, who knows? | ||
| I'm kind of giving them the green light if they want to do something different here coming up in the spring and set up another title fight. | ||
| In my opinion, it should be Salter and Musashi for the 185. Salter has definitely earned his shot. | ||
| He just got a big win. | ||
| And if they did that, I would think those are the two most deserving people to fight for a vacant title. | ||
| But, you know, like I said, I'm just going to be over here. | ||
| This is what I'm doing. | ||
| I just want to let everyone know this is what I'm going through and what I'm working on. | ||
| And I hope to be back in a healthy way that everyone's confident with and, you know, rest assured. | ||
| But if not, you know, then I will have to be saying goodbye officially at some point. | ||
| But I believe that there's some things for me to still do with the company. | ||
| With Bellator, Scott was open with the idea of me being some sort of ambassador. | ||
| And in the meantime, all the other MMA fighters out there that are fighting... | ||
| That I've never had a scan done in places that don't require it. | ||
| You know, hey, please get checked out. | ||
| Get checked out. | ||
| And just know, you know, whether it's this or something else, you don't know, you know. | ||
| And, man. | ||
| Don't take your health for granted. | ||
| Don't take your health for granted. | ||
| Well, listen, brother, you handled all this with grace and dignity like a true champion. | ||
| And I'm honored that you could come on here to tell everybody about this. | ||
| And I think you probably did a lot of people a really good service. | ||
| I'm sure there's many, many people that are listening to this right now that are probably going to go out and get scanned. | ||
| I hope so. | ||
| And hopefully will prevent some tragedy from happening. | ||
| But best of luck to you and everything and your jiu-jitsu matches and your new academy. | ||
| Tell everybody where that is. | ||
| Sure, yeah. | ||
| So we just opened up a new location in Oklahoma City. | ||
| Closed down the other one. | ||
| It's a big upgrade. | ||
| 10,000 square foot. | ||
| Just beautiful, beautiful place. | ||
| There's still some work to be done. | ||
| Over this next month, but man, we're so excited. | ||
| And just to see my students smiling and happy and excited about the new location and the new beautiful mats and everything is just really, it's been my focus to help get me through a lot of this. | ||
| How do people find it? | ||
| OKBJJ.com. | ||
| Yeah, we're on the north side of Oklahoma City. | ||
| 405-466-5255 is our number. | ||
| We should let people know it's not just okay. | ||
| It's Oklahoma. | ||
| That's why it's okay. | ||
| It's fucking awesome jujitsu. | ||
| That's a good point. | ||
| You're like, how good is your martial arts? | ||
| That's okay. | ||
| We're okay martial arts. | ||
| Yeah. | ||
| Okay for Oklahoma. | ||
| That is on the license plate, actually. | ||
| It'll say, Oklahoma is okay. | ||
| And I'm like, come on, we can do better than that. | ||
| Yeah, that's definitely, you can do better than that. | ||
| But anyway, brother, thank you and best of luck to you. | ||
| Thank you so much for this opportunity. | ||
| Thanks for being here, man. | ||
| Appreciate it. |
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