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Pain Of Loneliness In Prison
00:05:04
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| But you know, I told you that story earlier, Sue, when you were singing of how this old people's choir came to the prison one Christmas, and they sang, I'll be home for Christmas. | |
| I saw inmates crying because they would never be home. | |
| They were lifers. | |
| The pain of prison has never left me. | |
| I don't think it's going to leave me till heaven. | |
| It's so etched in my heart. | |
| But the good thing is just like your house. | |
| You can feel for that person who's out of their house, who's lost their home. | |
| People just say, well, the storm's gone. | |
| The flood's gone. | |
| But in Houston, nobody's hardly back in their houses yet. | |
| And you're working fast. | |
| You've got friends helping now. | |
| You, Mary Ann Markarian, the Lord. | |
| A daughter, yes. | |
| So the pain, the loneliness of pain. | |
| Give me that book right there. | |
| There's ten books that came to me in prison. | |
| This is one of them. | |
| You see, it's a mass now. | |
| Through the wilderness of loneliness. | |
| Don't try to buy it. | |
| It's out of print. | |
| You know what's the saddest story about this book? | |
| I'm going to tell it. | |
| This man, he fell off a mountain. | |
| He was a guide, a guide in the mountains, a wilderness guide. | |
| He fell and broke his spine somehow, and the pain never left him. | |
| And his wife divorced him because she couldn't live with this pain in him. | |
| So the publishers, when they found out that he had gotten a divorce, it was a Christian publisher, so they couldn't have a divorced author. | |
| So they pulled every one of these books off the store shelves. | |
| I want to read just a little bit. | |
| The pain of loneliness is one way in which God gets our attention. | |
| So see what God wants to teach you through it. | |
| When I reached page 23 in my prison cell, the times I was saying, God, where are you? | |
| Have you left me? | |
| It's like everybody walked away. | |
| When I was on top, everybody came in. | |
| He says in here, a friend comes in when the world goes out. | |
| I didn't lose any friends when I went to prison. | |
| I found out who they were, though. | |
| I want you to listen to something. | |
| Tim Hansel wrote this book. | |
| One of the top 10 books in my life. | |
| He kept journal because he fell off a mountain. | |
| He was living in constant pain. | |
| And this is from his journal. | |
| You know, they say misery loves company. | |
| Loneliness. | |
| Do you know the solution to loneliness? | |
| Find another lonely person and get together and start talking. | |
| A real friend sticks closer than a brother. | |
| God says a friend loves at all times, but a brother is born For adversity, or, as I say, trouble, warfare, or loneliness. | |
| That's the kind of friends I want. | |
| I want friends that come in when the world goes out. | |
| Listen to this from Tim Hansel's journal. | |
| I'm reading this in my prison cell, Mondo. | |
| Think of that. | |
| The loneliness was so bad tonight that it sucked all the oxygen out of the room. | |
| It was so intense it felt like it could peel the paint off the wall. | |
| Have you ever been that lonely? | |
| I have. | |
| Five years locked up. | |
| Don't feel sorry for me. | |
| I got to know Christ in the intimacy of the wilderness. | |
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God's Bond
00:00:26
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| And God said, I brought you here, Jim, not to punish you. | |
| I did that on the cross. | |
| I got even on the cross. | |
| I brought you here to get to know me. | |
| And I created and I felt and he gave me a bond with him that has never left me. | |
| He did not walk away. | |