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Hello, ladies and gentlemen, and welcome to my ultimate downfall.
Yes, that's right.
It's not full house tonight.
Tonight, it's the fatherland old guy tour edition with me, Jim Flanders, your host.
Yes, that's right.
Just like all your favorite acts from the 70s, 80s, 90s, 2000s, way past their prime.
They're still out there kicking the boards, trying to bring in the shekels.
Brett Michaels, great example.
And I feel a little bit like that now.
But you know what?
It's fine.
This is kind of a one-off.
Coach invited me and he said, I'm on my period and I don't feel like being the host.
Can you do it?
So I said, sure, but I said, if I'm going to do it, then we're going to do it like old-time hockey.
Okay.
We're going to do it like old-time fatherland.
So that means if you didn't pay attention to the warning that Coach is going to add to the beginning of the show, this is a show for men who are fathers.
This is not for your wife.
This is not for your kids.
This is not to listen to in the car on your way to church.
Strong language, wild topics.
That is the idea.
On the edge, because this is where we men live as fathers, because it's all on the line every day.
And I believe all you guys know that.
Rolo, I don't know if he has kids or not.
I don't know him too well, but maybe he does.
But the point is, all you listeners who are fathers, you know this.
And so that means we're going to talk about some things maybe you don't want your kids to hear about.
Okay?
Fair enough.
And I'm going to say some words that you may not like.
That's between me and God.
Pull your panties out of your butt.
Okay, so some of you may be, first let me say hi to everybody.
First, I want to say hi to Coach, of course.
Hello, Jim.
Thank you for having me.
It's an honor to be on.
I feel like I've been putting a time machine back to 2017 or 2018.
All smiles here.
Oh, yeah, yeah, a little bit.
A little bit.
I had to, I don't know, I'll go around the horn first.
And your Christmas sweater, very tasteful.
Sam, I forget what I used to call you, but we'll just call you Sam.
How are you doing, Sam?
Hey, Jim.
It's good to be here, as always.
And it's Christmas season is coming.
You know, it's a short Advent this year.
Tomorrow's fourth Sunday of Advent, and we got Christmas coming the next day, Monday.
That's right.
That's right.
Well, I'm acting like I knew that when I'll talk about it in a minute.
Just pray for me.
I'll put it that way.
Will do.
Yeah.
And of course, our producer Rolo is hanging around in the background looking very suave in his red silk robe, like a Hugh Hefner robe, actually.
I wonder if he actually got it for that reason.
He is basically, have you guys seen the meme of like when you see people talking about their kinky threesome on Reddit and it's a cartoon and then it's basically like Hugh Hefner with a sexy girl cartoon and what the people who are actually having the kinky threesome on Reddit look like.
And it's like the guy from Jamiroquai and fat chick, you know?
Yeah.
Yeah.
Which is a hundred percent true.
Well, 99% true because I know of one guy who is nowhere near like that and apparently likes likes to like likes to bring in a pinch hitter into the bed every now and again.
Apparently, I had no idea, but you know, there's always an exception to the rule.
Awesome.
Poor son of a bitch.
I mean, I was just like, damn, man.
Damn.
I like that guy a lot, actually.
He was one of my favorite people in the group that I was in.
He was in, he's in my local area, roughly.
And I was like, he's such a great guy, but he's so dumb.
He's so, I said, so dumb.
Yeah, he's so dumb because he's so young.
Oh, man.
How old is he?
Like 20-something still, 29, 30?
He's 29 or 30.
He's 30.
Oh, 30 is my son's age.
I know.
And I'm like, and I'm hearing him talk to his wife.
I forget what her handle is.
I'm just going to say his wife.
And they're going back and forth.
And I'm just like, oh, geez.
Oh, it's so cringe.
Oh, I just want to, I just want to be like, can it?
No, stop.
You stop talking.
I'm going to talk for you for a minute.
And then, no, you know, or I'll be like, no, no, you guys, no, you're wrong.
Just do this.
Trust me.
It'll work.
Just what you're doing, bad idea.
No.
And like, just, oh, geez.
Now, Jim, if I, if I might, there was not another man in the pinch receiver, not a pinch hitter.
Yeah.
Jeez.
There's no such thing as a pinch catcher.
That's the problem.
Is I didn't think of a good joke, actually.
I just tried to wing it and I just, you don't hit them all, folks.
I whiffed it.
Yeah.
I was going to say it was like, actually, I wasn't all that surprised as maybe a lot of other people were, not because of any personal viewpoint I had on either of these two, but more because I have seen this before, where like the husband and wife work as like a team.
Like, like, you know, I'm trying to think, there's a term for this where like animals work in a team and when they're hunting.
And so like the guy will come in and he'll be like, how are you doing?
You know, but and then like the woman is like sliding into the side, you know, and the man and they and they, there's a whole thing.
And I don't know if this is their habit to do that.
I really feel like I should stop talking about them personally and just talk in general.
Most of the people that do this, it's like their thing, their kink is to like, they go and pick up a girl, right?
This is not unheard of.
And I am one of the very few people in this thing, whatever it's called now, that has any savoir fare.
So I have seen this.
I've experienced it where it's just like, yeah, it, it's in a way, it's kind of creepy.
It's like a very, it's a very predatory thing where they, you know, oh, Sam knows what I'm talking about.
What am I saying?
You know, exactly.
Am I, I'm 100% right.
Yeah, I think so.
I think that maybe some men can look at this sort of, oh, that's just one exciting thing.
But I think for women, they take it to heart.
And I think that those things, it's hard to live those things down.
And I think people should think about that.
You know, how would you like your children to find out about this someday?
How would you like your parents to find out about it someday?
How do you like your friends to find out about it?
You know, in addition to that, it's just wrong, full stop, you know?
Yeah, okay.
All right.
If I could too, Jim, my understanding is that it was spontaneous, unplanned, and a one-off.
It's not a lifestyle.
Thank you.
Thank you because that was the perfect way to get the fuck out of this.
I immediately come back.
I've been on for, I don't have a timestamp, I don't know, five minutes, and I'm already up to my neck in shit.
And like, how stupid am I?
Okay, so where was I?
I was saying for people who are wondering what I've been up to, I am extremely not online.
So as a result, you don't hear from me.
I may not even, people are like, wow, you're still around.
Like when I got, if I post on X, people will show up and be like, whoa, dude, you're still alive.
Yeah.
It's a thing.
Maybe it's a problem.
It makes it very difficult to build relationships in this milieu because everybody else is online all the time.
And I'm just not.
Like, I just completely disregard social media.
And then it didn't help that I was on the metaverse, which was not metaverse.
Metaverse?
The Fediverse.
Thank you.
And then my server apparently is gone.
And I hope the guy who ran it is okay.
I never got a story as to what happened.
All I know is everybody just said, yeah, it's not coming back.
I was on nobodyhasthe.biz.
And then I was like, well, I guess I could go find.
And I just didn't have the time or the interest to want to get back on the Fediverse.
So what have I been up to?
I have three kids now.
And actually, that may soon change.
I may soon go back to having two kids.
And that is because my third child is a foster child.
In the words of Johnny Cash, I picked him up from a factory.
It's cheaper that way.
Fostering, and I posted about this on the Fediverse, which is why I'm talking.
I mentioned it.
Fostering, I think, is an extremely rewarding experience.
It's also very difficult.
And I don't think it's for everybody.
But my limited experience with it has been, I found it to be rewarding, also very challenging, strenuous.
But, you know, that's also how you grow and you get stronger and you get more on your feet and your shoulders gets more square, I think.
So little backstory.
Well, okay, I'm doing that again.
Here we go.
So go ahead, coach.
Jump in.
Yeah.
Did the foster child finally start sneaking booze from the liquor cabinet?
Is that the teenager here?
The foster child is, and I'm going to call him Reinhold because it was the baby name that I wanted on our baby name list that my wife said, absolutely not.
It was one of the top 10 male baby names in like 1948, I think, in the United States.
I was like, Reinhold, that's so good.
And she was like, absolutely not.
That's so strong.
Anyway, so Ryan, or we can call him Reiny for short, is a little over a year old now.
And like I said, I picked him up from the factory because it's cheaper that way.
He's walking now.
I was spot on.
Must have been.
He is walking now.
He was born addicted to heroin.
He was actually born high because his mother was high.
And I'm telling this story, by the way.
He's not black, is he, Jim?
No.
That was what I was trying to get to.
And it was taking me too long.
So, Sam, thank you.
I was going to go before I started telling the story, I wanted to say, for those of you white people out there who think about foster care and et cetera, and just assume it's all niggers, no, because you forgot about heroin.
You forgot about OxyContin.
You forgot about opioids.
There's a lot of white people that got nailed with this stuff, fucked up their lives, and they had kids, and those kids are now in the system, or as they call it, in care.
So there's lots of white kids.
It's not like maybe it was 10 years ago where if you wanted a white child, you were going to have to be bribing people.
No.
In fact, I went to a foster parent event recently and everybody in there was white.
Some of the children were not, but it was way, it wasn't 13%.
I'll tell you that.
It was more like 5%, 1%.
You know, it was like two mulattoes and one full black kid.
Was this like a mixer where potential foster parents met with just a gaggle of potential foster kids?
No, what this was was actually, this was a benefit.
A local organization, I'm going to not get too specific because I don't know how many places of people do this.
A local organization does this every year where they do Christmas for foster parents where you and basically you show up and they give you just tons of free shit because it's like they want to make sure foster kids have a good Christmas.
I think it's kind of silly because it's like, dude, if they have foster parents, they're good.
Okay.
Like maybe do this for orphans or something.
But the thought is nice and it's a very nice event.
They feed you.
You get, there's just toys and toys and toys and toys.
And then there's raffles for nicer stuff where you can win things like a Switch or a TV, you know, or a bike.
My son won a bike.
You know, like it's very nice.
And Santa Claus shows up and, you know, and everybody there is a foster parent.
So in one respect, that's the nicest thing about it because everybody there understands, you know, your kids are crazy or whatever.
And everybody gets it.
And they're just like, hey, you know, we're all in the same situation.
We all get how this is.
But so anyway, the point is, is I wanted to tell people about this because if you have fertility problems, if you are like me and you're older and your wife says, my family's not complete, but you're concerned about the whiteness.
Now, depends on where you live.
If you live in Arizona, I can't help you.
But actually, it goes county by county, so it might not be that bad.
But still, the point is, it's a lot of white kids out there need help.
They need somebody, a good family to take them in.
This would be what the Jews call a big time mitzvah, you know, like a major good deed to do.
And I've never regretted it as fucked up as it can get sometimes.
So, Jim, I have a good friend.
He and his wife could not conceive, I believe, and looked into fostering probably, I want to say it's been over two years, and they're finally getting to the finish line.
They're super excited, lovely white girl.
And I think it's going forward, but it took it must have been at least two years for them to get.
You say when you say the finish line, you mean to have some a child place with them?
Correct.
Yep.
I don't know if your experience was different, but they were trying earnestly for a long time, and it took a long time.
Yeah.
Oh, nigga, I got fast-tracked.
Are you kidding?
Man, you must have a very clean house.
Yes, drops, by the way.
The drops are back.
Get ready, people.
Yeah, no, dude.
Ask, I'll tell you what.
I think, are you on the same, I don't even know where you are.
Are you Miles Poland of the Godcast?
You can find him on the Fediverse.
Ask him and tell him I told you to.
You can check with me.
Ask him about my house.
He's been to my house.
Okay.
You're not in the double wide anymore, right?
No, I'm not in the double, a single wide, by the way, Sam.
It was a single wide.
I'm sorry.
Single wide.
Single wide.
That's how shitty it was.
No, but my house is a wreck now.
And it always will be, I think, until me and my wife deal with our trauma.
But yeah.
So I was like, when my wife wanted to said she wanted to do this, I was, I thought, you know, what the hell?
They're going to show up.
They're going to look at this dump and they're going to be like, absolutely not.
And then my wife is going to go crazy and want to clean and I'll have a super nice house.
And that's okay.
And I can, we can do this.
Well, they showed up and they were like, everything looks fine.
And I was like, you need a smoke detector in your basement.
And I was like, fuck, okay.
Better keep a battery in it too.
Keep a fresh battery in there, Jim Pop.
Right.
No chirping here.
Now, so that then we just, then I realized I was like, they're desperate for people.
Now, there's two major, there's two ways that you can get into this.
And I don't know, coach, what your friends did.
You go through your county, the local county, and then they always, there's always different names, DFACs or CPS, whatever.
You go through them.
You can do that.
Or because it's the government in America and we do this, there's a lot of outsourcing that goes on.
So there are agencies, as they call them, where they basically say, hey, government, you just give us the money and we'll take, we'll do all the work of doing so, you know, visiting the parents and all this, setting it all up.
I've heard varying reports on whether or not one is better than another.
I would say get in where you fit in for one thing.
And two, like, don't be afraid to try different, moving to a different spot if you want.
I, cause it's hard to say.
I've heard too much varying on like you get paid more from the agency and I've heard you get paid more from the county.
It all kind of depends.
And oh yeah, by the way, you get paid.
I get paid.
Every day that I have this little boy, I get money.
Now, it's not a lot, but it's something.
Edge off.
Yeah.
And I'll tell you what, here's the other thing about that.
I am on, I'm, I'm, I'm, well, I know I can't swipe that EBT and I don't have that drop anymore.
I don't know if you guys remember on my show, swipe that EBT, when I dropped that on everybody and blew their mind.
That just popped back up again, by the way.
Not the same thing, but there was another one, a new one of a nigger doing the swipe that EBT dance in Walmart that I saw on Telegram.
Some of you probably saw it.
But no, I get wick now.
And that's awesome.
Like, that's like, I don't know, 50%, 60% of your grocery shopping right there for the month.
Boom.
All paid for by Uncle Shlomo.
And it kicks ass.
Now, there's some problems with it.
For one thing, I'm a big believer in whole milk.
I don't do the skim milk or any of that bullshit.
Fat is good for you.
That's why the Jews don't want you to have it and they tell you it's bad for your cholesterol.
So that's a problem because Michelle Obama made it to where they don't pay for whole milk anymore.
But what the fuck ever, if I'm getting all of their formula paid for, if I'm getting cereal, I'm getting vegetables, fruit, all this stuff.
So much, in fact, that it's like my family can't even consume it all.
It's kind of shameful, actually.
That like I can throw out a little cash for the good milk.
You know?
That's crazy because I think it's been totally debunked that whole milk is bad for you or that fat is like, you know, the obesity rates in America are not from all these kids drinking large quantities of whole milk.
They probably should be.
Like I'll tell you what whole drinking a lot of whole milk causes is that meme of all those football players that are sitting on the playground equipment or whatever.
You see what I'm talking about?
They're all wearing their leather jackets and they all look like thumbs, thumbs, basically.
These like big corn-fed, you know, that's what drinking whole milk gets here.
I knew a guy like I grew up drinking skim milk, Jim, because I think my mother just thought it was healthier.
You know, in the 80s, of course, saturated fat, cholesterol, all that stuff.
Like, oh, no, you want low fat as possible.
So I grew up on skim milk and I developed a taste for it.
And I used to be a skim milk supremacist.
I was like, ooh, look at your glass.
You've got all this fatty milk dripping down the side.
And then when we had kids, I was like, all right, fine, I'll sacrifice.
I'll go to 2%.
But I'm stopping there.
And then once I, oh, yeah, then I really got into the creamy goodness of the whole.
And the white race is the only race that can really drink milk.
That's right.
That's right.
I just was talking to my daughter about this the other day, actually.
But we're talking about foster care.
So side benefit there is you can get.
How old of a child can you get in a foster care?
How old do you want?
I mean, if they're under 18, it's on the board.
18.
Once they turn 18, they are now an adult and they have so-called quote, what they call aged out of the system.
Yeah.
Okay.
That's what's kind of sad, actually, is there are kids who go through the whole time.
They get put in care.
Their parents fuck up constantly, but they can never get placed or they can never find a stable placement for whatever reason.
And they turn 18 and then they get a kick in the ass.
And it's like, well, this is America, kid.
Go make something of yourself and like up.
So I can't bring like a full-grown woman into our, you know, if I wanted to expand my marriage and like get all these benefits and stuff.
Not under this system.
There's other ways you do that actually, legally.
I think I've heard of people doing this where like you can, if you do all these things where you basically take away all their legal rights and they're totally dependent on you, etc.
Then it starts to become closer to where because really the benefit systems in this country in terms of like food stamp and wick, et cetera, generally just boils down to how many people are in your house, how much money's coming in, you know, how many dependents, etc.
And it's just a basic formula.
It all depends on how you define dependent, how you define this, how much, how do you, what it counts as income, what doesn't, et cetera.
It's not that hard.
It's just, for one thing, white people innately resist this, which I get.
And for another, they also, you know, there's a barrier to entry because it's like, this is not for white people.
No, no, no.
Why are you here?
Right.
That's why actually doing foster care, I found kind of like it, it leapfrogs a lot of that bullshit where you're just like, excuse me, I'm a foster parent.
It's kind of actually embarrassing to me, and I'm still not 100% comfortable with dealing with it when I tell people, well, I'm a foster dad.
This is my foster kid.
And people are like, oh, oh, wow, you're like a hero.
And I'm like, no.
Thank you for your thank you for your service.
Right.
I guess this is how it feels when guys in the military get told, thank you for your service.
And I'm like, I'm really.
But actually, you know what?
I kind of am a hero because let me tell you about, let me tell you about Reinhold.
Okay.
Because he actually, this kind of fucked me up a little bit.
Reinhold, like I said, he was born high on heroin because his mom was high.
And he was immediately, they discovered this, of course.
This is inevitable.
They immediately take it away from his mother, put in the NICU because he needed to be in the NICU because he was high and he had problems.
And he was there for a week.
And during that time, that's when the county called me and said, or my wife, technically, she handles all that business.
They said, hey, we have a baby and he's three days old, whatever.
And yeah, so can you take him?
And this happened.
He was born like pretty close to Thanksgiving.
So it was like, oh shit.
And I was, I was like, they were like, but you need to come get him like today.
Like, you know, as soon as you can.
I'm at work.
Can't do it.
My wife had some things going on where I was like, was she having a problem with her car?
I can't remember where it was.
Like, she couldn't.
So it was like, we're having to move all these things around just craziness of picking up this kid from the hospital.
Like I said, I got him direct from the factory, the baby factory.
Not exactly a nine-month lead time.
Yeah.
No, no.
And that's in my experience, limited experience, and talking to other people.
This is how foster care goes.
You're going to get a call and it's going to be like, hey, we got this kid and he needs somebody to come get him.
And then you're like, I'll do it.
And they're like, great.
Can you do it like now?
That's pretty much how it goes.
You're not going to get told like, hey, we're, we have a possible candidate here or a possible candidate there.
No, none of this process gets going until child people, whatever the county, I'll just call it, until the county comes in and they say, you fucked up so bad.
We're taking your child.
And that at that moment is when the ball starts rolling.
That's when the phone calls start.
That's when the emails start, all of it.
So it's all like last minute.
It's like, so when you're, when you're a foster parent who is temporarily embarrassed of having any foster children, it's always like a waiting game and you have to be on call basically 24-7.
And it's a take it or leave it situation, right?
Like he's ready.
You got to say yes more or less now.
Exactly.
Yeah.
Well, I don't know what you mean by take it or leave it in terms of like negotiating.
What's there to negotiate?
Well, you could ask him if he's white.
Oh, okay.
Well, let's cover that because I slid by that too quickly.
Thanks, Sam.
So the white thing.
When I said that, yeah, numbers game, sure, but all you got to do is say, hey, the grandparents, okay, you know how the older people are.
They're kind of racist.
And it would just, it would make it really difficult for our family if we were to deal with that.
And we just can't handle the extra of dealing with the experience of fostering and having this cause this chaos.
You know, honestly, I'm taught the amount of I just talked is way more than you actually have to do it.
If for one, like I said, I think you maybe don't even need to say that about my grandparents are racist, but you do it as like a pro forma thing because can I say like blue eyes only?
I mean, you can do whatever you want.
That's the impression.
That's the impression that I've gotten working with my county people and talking to them.
Is I feel like you can come over and be like, however, whatever you can, you can make whatever demands you want.
And they'll be like, okay, cool.
We're in a wider area and stuff too.
So that all makes sense.
Well, of course.
But the point is, is that what they're looking at is as a numbers game.
They need to find places to put these kids.
The longer their call sheet is, the better.
So the more people they can get in and certified and background checked, I had to go through a background check.
I'll point that out.
But I don't necessarily know unless there's hard rules.
And again, it depends on your area.
If you're a felon, for example, that you can't be a foster parent.
Honestly, the way based on my experience, I kind of feel like they're going to be like, well, how long ago was that, really?
I mean, and what was the felony for?
You know, if it wasn't child molesting, they're probably going to let it slide.
I'm just, I don't know.
But I mean, like, dude, like, like I said, the whole point of this system, and they will tell you this from the start.
The whole point of the system is number one, the overarching goal is to reunite families.
That is the overarching goal.
Two is to get these kids in care with a stable family that will love them, care for them, until such time as it's time for them.
Their parents, their real parents are ready to take them back.
So because of that, like, I feel like there's a, they're not too scrupulous.
Okay.
So, yeah.
Am I wrong for thinking ahead here, Jim and mom cleaned up and now she's coming back to Claim Jr.?
I don't want to skip that too far.
It does happen.
And actually, and yeah, I said at the beginning, I might be getting back to two because, but we'll get there.
So I just wanted to say at the beginning, the experience, the visceral experience of this.
So Reinhold Reiny leaves the hospital after a week in the NICU, and we bring him home.
And he's an apparently normal baby, actually.
He's a little gaunt, but not overly so.
The weirdest thing was the heroine screwed with his nervous system to where he would just like his legs would just go rigid and or he would kick.
His legs would just, he would, he was shaking like he was doing, like he was fucking River Phoenix doing the funky chicken outside the Viper room in like 1990 or whatever that year that was.
You know what I mean?
It was, and I, and I was, I, I was, I don't, you know, at the time, I handled it coolly as a man should, but still, it touches your soul.
And I was just like, this poor baby, motherfucker.
How could somebody do this?
Well, I know how somebody could do this.
They don't only care about themselves and the drugs.
They don't think about the baby growing inside them.
But over time, that faded away.
That went away in, I'm going to say like two, three months.
By that, it was cleared up.
He doesn't do it anymore.
His legs are still super strong.
Like he'll push his heels.
Yeah, I mean, he'll push his heels down or if he tries to donkey kick you, that'll hurt.
But, and, and he's, I feel like he started walking sooner than he should have, or standing up and cruising sooner than we would have expected because his legs were so damn strong.
Um, and there were some other little things too about his health that the heroin affected.
Um, but yeah, and at the time, does he come with his own insurance, Jim, you know, sort of like put in the back pocket of the diaper or is it just like nope, he is now insurance?
Yes, sir.
Oh, absolutely.
He does.
It's called Medicaid.
That's right.
He gets Medicaid.
And you know what?
Medicaid, I've had some health care.
I'll just say I work in healthcare and I've had experience with Medicaid and various places and times.
And depending on where you go, Medicare is our Medicaid is either like good luck finding somebody to see and it's going to be Dr. Durka Durka, which is where I started out and where I got my first impressions of Medicaid, where I live now, where it's like, and maybe this is a thing all over where everybody's just like, you know what, screw it.
We'll take Medicaid.
That's fine.
Because they have to, because the whole population is, or you know, some large percentage is on it.
So that's where the money is.
And that doesn't mean that necessarily that you live in like Niggertown.
I think maybe it's just people are more poor now.
I don't know.
I mean, when I first started dealing with insurance, we just, the office, the doctor's office that I worked for, they were like, we're not taking Medicaid.
You can do that.
That's allowed.
You can just be like, we don't take Medicaid.
Sorry.
That's totally allowed.
And so we didn't because they paid pennies on the dollar.
And I mean, healthcare costs are so overinflated.
It's outrageous.
And I've seen it from the inside.
I know.
And, but, like, it's one thing when it's like, this service, a fair price for this would be $100.
And so in regular insurance, how about we charge you $1,000 for that?
And the insurance company is like, cool.
We'll do that.
And Medicaid is like, yeah, how about like five bucks?
Take it or leave it.
You know, that's kind of how Medicaid works.
But all I can say is that with doing the fostering, and maybe it's my local area, I don't know.
I live in a blue state now where I didn't used to.
Purple state, I guess, technically.
But like, never had a problem getting him in, and there's no copays.
And there's, I rarely have to pay anything really, like, at all.
In fact, I don't think I've ever paid a hospital or doctor bill for Rynie or my other foster child too that we had to take to the doctor.
It's all covered, baby.
Medicaid.
There you go.
Yeah, important factor for people who are thinking about doing it.
Yeah, like they try to make it really easy for you is the point.
They're not going to just give you this child like it's 1923 and be like, okay, well, now he's your ward and good luck out there.
Something, you know, like, no, like there's government benefits.
There's all over the place.
Wick, you eventually can, depending on your situation, you might get EPT.
You might get food stamp.
You can, like I said, Medicaid is the big one, especially because there's lots of required doctor's appointments.
I avoid the doctor as much as possible.
And my wife has the same philosophy.
And so as a result, like we just, we don't do doctoring a lot.
So it's not a big expense for us.
But, you know, with the foster kids, he's not your property.
He's county property.
And they say you got to bring him to the doctor every three months, six months.
Actually, yeah, three months, three month checkups.
You got to bring them in and you got to do it.
And so it's really cool that it's like, I don't care because I'm not paying anything.
I just have to make it happen.
You know, we just have to make the appointment.
We have to arrange our lives around it.
We have to do that.
But that's a small, small thing when I just waltzing into a doctor's office and I don't pay a dime because the government's paying for it.
So, yeah, so yeah, Ryany.
Now, here's another thing I'm going to say before I obviously, yeah, we're looking at he's going to be going home in the new year.
Here's the thing: this doesn't mean what you might think it means because this, I think this is a big reason that a lot of people who might want to do fostering don't do it is because what if you have to give him back?
I get it, sucks.
Um, I'm more an emotionally stunted person, so take him nothing to me.
I'm a little, I have a little bit easier time dealing with it.
Bless them with some holy water, Jim.
I need to talk to you about that.
Put a pin in that, please, for me, because I might forget.
All right.
So, anyway, point is again, the number one goal of the foster care system is to reunite families.
It's not to take children from shitty people and then give them to another family, it's to rehabilitate the people who have failed in some way, help, give them help, build them up, turn them into productive members of society.
And then you say, Now you get to have your child back, and then they're a happy family, you know, all that shit.
Great, but here's the thing, and actually, this was something from my wife's own reading and research that she told me, and I thought it was brilliant, which was that in foster care, you're not fostering just the child, you're fostering the family.
And what this means is it's wise to attempt to develop a relationship with the birth parents.
You're going to have contact with them guaranteed, no matter what, because they're at least in the unless things go completely south, they're going to get visitation.
They're going to have visits with the child.
So, you're going to meet them.
You're going to, oh, so awkward.
Woof.
More awkward than even me at a more awkward than even me at a local pool party meetup.
More awkward than me at Warren's wedding.
Funny story.
I don't want to tell it right now.
Yeah, very awkward.
But if you do it right, and if the people are not pieces of shit, which many of them will be, you develop a relationship with them.
And then guess what?
Here's a funny thing that happens: you grow your family.
Now, it's an extended, not nuclear, it's an extended family.
Case in point.
I talked about it on the Fediverse.
I already, like I said, this is my second foster child.
My first foster child was a girl who was not a baby.
She was, I'm going to say, let's say she was nine, about around that age, right?
Not a tween, not a toddler in there.
Okay.
A lot of problems.
Sweet kid.
Oh, I love her so much.
And just because she was so happy all the time.
She had such a terrible life.
Her parents basically neglected her where they didn't let her have friends.
They didn't let her go to school.
They homeschooled her, which that meant that they just kept her in their trailer, gave her a tablet.
And yet, she had such a great positive, she has such a great positive outlook on life.
She's bubbly and happily and always smiling.
I don't understand it.
It's so great.
I love to see her.
And that's the thing.
I still see her.
What ended up happening with her was they discovered that she had some relatives that the county was not aware of because her mother had said that all her relatives were dead.
Well, she meant they were dead to her because this woman is a real piece of shit.
And of course, she cut them off because she was like offended that they didn't like her doing drugs and being an idiot.
And so they found these people and we talked to them and we liked them.
And we all went to court and we're like, you know what?
This is her blood.
I mean, because her, this was, she got plugged back into her extended family where she had grandparents that she had aunts and uncles and all these people who knew that she existed but had never met her.
So she immediately moved into this like huge loving family network, like something that I've never had.
I was so envious because it was like all these people and she got to meet her great grandmother.
Okay.
Like this is something that if time had not worked out in the right way, she might never have been able to because the lady would be dead.
But she wasn't.
She was still alive.
Her great-grandmother.
How many people got to meet their great-grandmother?
You know, I'm lucky enough I got to meet one set of great grandparents and one, yeah, and my great, my other great-grandmother on the other side.
And then, yeah, amazing.
So amazing.
Don't remember it at least.
Yeah, there might be a picture of you in old great granny's arms or something like that.
But yeah.
Well, if you're a baby, yeah, but when you're older, you get to remember it.
It's incredible.
So, but the point I'm making here, as I'm in a long way, is that we still keep in touch with these people.
I know where they live.
They know where I live.
I have their phone number.
They have my phone number.
And, you know, not every weekend, not every month even, but like every couple of months or so, they'll say, hey, can she come sleep over at your house?
And we'll say, okay, well, let's do it.
The last time, actually, what ended up happening was we said, can my daughter, Chicken, go sleep over at your house instead?
And they said, fine.
So what the point is, is that the foster child leaving your home and going to people that they are blood related to is not necessarily the end.
If you do it right, you now have a wider network of people that you can talk to, have a relationship with as deep as you want.
I'm terrible at it to where maybe I, but these people live kind of far away.
So that doesn't help.
But like, you know, you'll see the child again.
You're another one of their relatives now.
And it's like being an aunt or an uncle, I guess, except, you know, you were their foster parent.
And he's young enough, Jim, too, that I assume you don't have the extreme connection to him of many years.
And plus, he's young enough that he's not necessarily going to come out with the scar tissue of being separated from his foster family or return.
You know, he's going to probably have an easier adjustment due to his young age.
He's a year old.
He's not going to remember any of this shit.
So he's going to, his parents have been working the program.
I've met both of them.
Took me a little while to warm up to his mom.
His dad, I liked right away because he reminded me of people that I've met in the thing where he's kind of spurky.
But, you know, and plus, as like a man thing, I could tell a story about that.
But the point is, got to know them a little bit, dealing with them on and off, you know, meeting them at visits and things.
And they've been working the program and they're genuine.
And they really are trying hard to get this child back and do it right this time.
And this woman, this is Reiny's her fourth and she doesn't, and she doesn't have any kids at home.
Okay.
They've all been taken away from her.
Yeah.
So is she trying to reassemble the team or she's starting with Reiny?
I just heard a story about her, one of her children, I want to say her third.
She's caught up in a bad situation where it's like the, it was like the dad has custody of the child, but there was some kind of fuckery with how the child was declared who it was.
So the child has the incorrect last name and he wants the child to have his last name.
And if he doesn't get that, he's not letting her see the child ever.
And it's $500 and she's a waitress at Sizzler.
Okay.
I guess it's a miracle that they're one, both alive, two still together, and three, ostensibly clean and passing drug tests to be able to get to the point where they can get them back.
Talk about Christmas miracles.
Yeah, I mean, you can tell.
I'll give, you know, you can tell.
I mean, yeah, they're doing piss tests and stuff like that.
Sure.
But you can also just tell.
Like when I met these people, I was like, yeah, these people are a little more on the side of being.
I'm not going to say they're winning winners, but they're like, they're not losers.
Okay.
And they could do it.
My foster daughter's parents were, may Hitler forgive me for saying it, white trash.
Okay.
I don't know how else you describe it.
I don't know if there's a Nazi approved way of describing white people who are just shitty.
And we all know what that is.
Sam, is there an official old school Nazi way of dealing with the white trash?
No, I don't know.
I mean, just to say they're a product of this Jewish society, you know, it's sad to hear.
Yeah, yeah, they're victims.
Okay, but this only goes so far.
I'll tell you why.
Here's my metric for that real quick, Jim, is if you have trash in your front yard, and I'm not talking about like a broken down tractor or like a couple pickup trucks that don't work or might have the engine removed.
If you've got literal trash, cans, bottles, plastic, garbage bags that raccoons have gotten into.
If you've got trash in your front yard, I've seen a lot of this, then unfortunately, you know, the name fits.
I got trash in my front yard.
Nailed that.
Go pick another.
Yeah, we'll pause the show.
It's a struggle.
Okay.
Not right now.
Not right now.
Except for the stuff that I have put out for this crap.
But I've been dealing with that in the past.
I get it.
In rural areas, sometimes, you know, you got to go to the dump.
You don't have trash service or whatever.
But yeah, you got to at least consolidate it.
Consolidate it in a pile and not have the raccoons and the coyotes getting into it.
It's like so many times the way that my life has worked out in the way that my life is.
It's like, just imagine, like you have a lattice, you know, put together and then like it looks good, but then it starts unraveling over here at one corner and it's unraveling over at another corner and it starts unraveling.
So you're running around and you're just shoring it up here and there and here and there and you're just trying to keep it all together.
And so it's going to start looking ugly, but at least it's still there, right?
That's, that's my life.
So anyway, the point I was trying to make about my foster daughter's parents was that her dad, quick example of him, has basically officially told the social worker that he's not willing.
He's like, I'm not going to do this shit.
I don't care.
Keep her.
I don't need to see her again.
Whatever.
Yeah.
And I kind of see where he's coming from a bit because he's a roofer.
And his thing was meth, obviously, being a roofer.
Big problem, by the way, especially for roofers.
I'm not sure why.
Must be really hard work.
You can't work on a hangover.
You got to supplement the hangover with the meth.
Well, even if you weren't drinking, I think it's just something about the strenuousness of the work and the fact that roofs are so expensive that it's just like it encourages them.
It's like, if you just smoke some meth, we can get this thing knocked out and then we can go do that one.
Then we can go do that one.
And then we can go do that one.
It would be making bank dog.
You know, it's my guess.
And from some stories that I've heard about roofers that it's a problem.
And, but yeah, but it's sort of like he just didn't give a shit.
And the mother is like bullshitting and like trying to come up with excuses.
And yeah.
And they're just like, and I met them and I was, I was like, these people are just so shitty.
And, you know, meanwhile, Rhines, Reinhold's parents, like, I was like, okay, they're not me.
They're not in my social strata, but they're good people.
They just fucked up.
You can look at in their eyes and tell that they're sincerely trying to do the right thing and get their kid back.
I hope.
I mean, I've gone around with this a bit with my wife because my wife is still kind of, this is my fault.
I've never really been able to get her to go full Nazi.
She's still pretty much racist Republican.
She still has the attitude of like, well, if you're on drugs, like that's on you.
That's your fault.
And I don't have any sympathy for you because I don't do drugs.
Why are you doing drugs?
When a more national socialist position, which I'll say I'm a national socialist, I bought into the program.
Is like, yes.
We have to take care of our people.
Yes, there's personal responsibility involved.
Sure, absolutely.
But everybody's human.
We all fuck up.
We all slip.
We have to be there to help other people if they're willing to be helped because, I mean, I don't know the whole story of how these people both got hooked on pills.
It was pills, I'm pretty sure.
Like, you know, it's probably the same as so many of these other people, a back injury or, you know, couldn't sleep or borrowed some for a bad migraine.
And the next thing you know, you know, they fell into it.
And heroin especially is one of those drugs that has been known to be like this for forever.
I don't know if any of you guys ever read Junkie.
Sam is probably the only one who ever could have.
Do you ever read Junkie?
I don't recall that one, but I think that people get hooked on pills and then the pills are so expensive, they turn to heroin because it's cheaper and easier to get.
Story often told.
William S. Burroughs wrote this book called Junkie.
Okay.
You know who William S. Burroughs is.
Maybe.
Yeah.
Now, he's a faggot.
He's a communist, unrepentant heroin user.
However, I think when he wrote Junkie, and he also wrote a book called Queer, he wrote these books as like pulp novels in the 60s.
So he was like a beat writer.
Yeah, he was associated with them.
I don't think he hated.
He thought Jack Kerouac was a faggot and he didn't like it.
He even said that.
He was one of those gay guys who's like, I like to fuck men, but I'm not a faggot.
You know what I mean?
So anyway, the point is those two books are great reading.
I think Nazis should read them because they're not like pro.
I mean, they kind of are, but they're really more of just like a straight up story of what it's like to be this kind of person.
Anyway, point is, I feel like we have to, we can't just do the Republican thing of being like, well, that's on you, man.
Like, just don't do drugs.
Nathan Reagan said so, you know, like people can get caught up in this and these drugs worm their way into your entire nervous system, altering it in a way where you're like wrapped in a wet blanket and you're fighting your way out as hard as you can and it's tightening up around you anyway.
You know what I mean?
Like it it now there's a lot of scamming.
Drug addicts are scammers.
Yes, they're scammers.
They will lie anything to get you as long as you believe them so that they can get more drugs or money to get the more drugs, whatever.
Yes, you need to have discernment, but we need to help these people because these people are nice people.
These bad things that they've involved themselves in, yeah, they bear responsibility for it.
But that doesn't mean that we then sort of just say, well, we're not going to help you because fuck you, because I didn't do drugs and I'm not on welfare.
And fuck you, you know, which was basically the way I used to be 20 years ago.
There's a difference between white drug addicts and non-white drug addicts.
White drug addicts are truly people with just a problem, you know.
But non-whites act totally different on drugs.
Important difference.
You're right.
We're talking about white people here.
Well, but that's why we should help them.
Somebody might say, well, why not help the black drug addicts too?
Because it's a totally different dynamic.
Yeah.
There is no or you want to you want to give them a shot at least once.
You know, you extend the benefit of the doubt for the first attempt.
And then if they rob you or, you know, show up.
Totally strong.
At a certain point, you got to cut that.
Like I said, discernment.
You know, as George W. Bush famously said, fool me once, shame on you.
Fool me, fool me twice, won't.
Too much who.
Yeah.
So, and here's the thing I have learned, and I'm not an expert, but I feel like I learned this lesson dealing with my foster daughter's parents and how it, how it ended up, which was that these people eventually will reveal themselves.
Like they will eventually be like, it's not worth my time to keep this mask on.
I'm lazy.
I don't feel like doing it.
I don't, you know, and I'm tired.
I just want to be on drugs.
Can you just please either give me money for drugs or fuck off?
You know, eventually, like all of the bullshit will go away and it will be revealed.
Now, you should be able to suss it out before that.
But so, yeah, all of that is basically me saying that these relationships with your foster children can continue in the future, even if they leave your care and they go to the people that they are related to by blood, as they should.
So, yeah, like his parents are doing well, and it's looking like we're going to go back to court soon and next month.
And basically, they're going to be like, you know what?
We're going to accelerate the timeline.
I don't think he's going to go back to them completely right away.
I think it'll be more like they get to keep him.
Right now, we have him on overnight visits where twice a week he goes to their apartment and he stays with them overnight.
And we pick him up the next day.
Ends up being more like, call it a 16-hour visit.
Give him a good bruise check when he gets home.
Sorry.
It's unavoidable when you have to change their diaper.
I'm going to see.
You know, but and so we'll probably, I don't think it's going to be they get him back.
That's what my wife thinks.
I think it'll be more like longer visits, like they'll get him for a weekend or something.
Am I right, Jim, that it sounds like you are sanguine about him going back eventually or near term and Wifey is much more concerned about them and not willing to give up Reinhold?
Absolutely.
I'll put it this way.
I don't think it's that my wife is concerned about them at all.
It's just that, well, the social worker came to visit the other day where we got the update on what's going on and how the county is feeling.
And the social worker said, well, how do you feel about that-based wife?
And she was like, well, you're taking my baby.
And it's not an unfair way for her to feel.
Because again, we literally had him from, well, not the moment he was born.
More or less.
More or less, the same way it went with my son.
He was in the NICU, and we didn't get to really see him very much until he was out.
And then he became our boy.
Same idea.
We brought him home from the hospital.
He was ours.
He was our baby.
And he's been that way for an entire year.
I can't even believe it's been a fucking year.
Honest question, Jim.
Are you slightly tantalized by the idea of simplifying your life and having one less head under the roof?
One fewer, excuse me.
100%.
Amen, brother.
Don't blame you.
Dude, dude, my life is so much harder with this extra baby.
Like the line between two kids and three kids, that is the dividing line.
Like one kid, two kid, that's like one group of parenting.
And that's like, frankly, I don't want to say easy mode parenting, but I'll just put it like this.
One to two is like, okay.
Once you cross that line to three, real shit, nigga.
Like, that's when the shit gets real.
You can't do man-to-man anymore.
Zone defense to use a horrible football metaphor.
We, of course, advocate for as many as you can safely and responsibly raise, but I will agree one, two, more or less, no sweat.
Adding the third was by far the most difficult one for us.
Yeah, I forget how many kids do you have?
I can't remember.
Three.
Same as, yeah, toward the end of the defense.
Yep.
That's third one was a slightly traumatic delivery.
And that was when my wife said the cupwood.
And I said, I was there.
I witnessed it.
Don't blame you.
Thumbs up.
Yeah.
Sad, but true.
Look, I think, like I said, if you make it to three, you have crossed into an entirely different zone of parenting where it's like, that's the real shit.
And so if even if it's only three, it doesn't have to be eight or five.
Just doing three gets you in the club as far as I'm concerned.
And all I can say is, is like, I don't know, some of us are able to do it and some of us aren't.
Our friend, the Irishman, he's got like four kids.
And I was like, how does this guy do it?
I can't even imagine.
This is insane.
How did all of these children come out of this tiny woman?
How did he do this?
Like, and just, and they're so, and they were so chill about it.
I would, you know.
It will definitely test you to the limits of your mental stability and your financial stability.
Yeah, you had a lot of kids, didn't you, Sam?
I can't remember.
Seven.
Seven.
Well, then why am I talking all of this shit?
At least not bullshitting.
Oh, no, it's it's very, very hard.
And it was very hard for my then wife.
I think it did kind of break her in a way.
But, you know, we're past all that now.
The oldest one is 35 and the youngest one is 17.
So, you know, the number one, two, and three are superstars in my book.
Four, five, and six have yet to find their way in the world.
You know, when people are in their young 20s, sometimes they got to, you know, make some mistakes and wander around a little bit.
But the youngest one, he's, I think he can be a superstar too.
That's great to hear, man.
I knew you had a lot of kids.
I just couldn't remember.
I'm sorry.
But yeah.
So, all right.
I appreciate you.
You didn't actually confirm that I wasn't bullshing, but I think you did.
No, no, you're right.
It is very hard.
It's a different way of life.
You know, if you lived on a block and every family had seven or eight kids, it would just be normal.
The things you're dealing with would just be the normal things.
But you have expectations that, hey, I get to watch a TV show or, hey, I want to go do something, something.
Well, when you have five, six, seven, eight kids, you know, it's you have a different lifestyle.
It is, uh, it is not easy, but there is a certain joy about having family together.
But, you know, this life is nothing about it is guaranteed and nothing, no one has a perfect life without trauma, without sadnesses, without failures, but with also success.
And that's just life.
And you have to see how to how to navigate that.
And by having an easy life, I think you don't, you don't find, you don't test yourself.
You don't find how far you can go and struggle and succeed and fail and all those things.
And heaven forbid, parents listening with two don't get the, I would be crestfallen if I didn't have my little buddy.
And honestly, I wish I had another little buddy or another little gallon.
Even one having one, having one child is very, very hard.
I don't want to take that away from anybody.
Somebody might have one child and how hard it is and how difficult it is to get enough sleep and to keep taking care of the child and to help them develop the way you want to see them develop.
That's it's there's nothing easy about it.
There's nowhere at any point that it's easy.
All right.
Look, I'm just going to say, I'm not looking down on people that only have the one child.
Maybe there's good reasons for it.
But like, I don't know.
Maybe it's wrong.
I mean, because honestly, like chicken, the first child, she that was not easy, but I don't know, man.
Like, I'm just going to say, like, you do, if you have zero, if you have one or two kids, then you get the medal, right?
You get above three, you get three, you get like the oak leaf cluster because that's extra.
Okay.
Yeah.
Like just saying I've done one, I've done two, and then felt at a place where I was like, okay, we've got this.
The machine is going.
It's working.
It's not perfect, but we've got it.
We've got a schedule.
We've got a routine.
We've got our dynamic.
I've got it.
Yes.
And then my wife was like, I want another.
Let's do fostering.
I wish I could have seen your face.
Say what?
Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.
Actually, I tend to be pretty stone-faced.
So I think I was able to just be like, okay, well, like.
Confucius say, yeah.
Well, you could play stupid and save fostering.
What's that?
Yeah.
One thing I'm never going to get away with with my wife is playing stupid because she knows better, even though I can, you know, I could say I don't remember.
She'll believe that because my memory is terrible.
But yeah.
Anyway, I guess I'll have wrapping up the fostering discussion.
I wanted to say I think I've addressed the concerns that I had going into it and that I figure a lot of other people would have going into it.
Overall, has it been hard?
Yes.
Don't take my example of being completely sanguine about letting these children go as it's probably, you know, the goal is for you to let them go.
It's probably going to be hard.
I mean, honestly, I'm kind of, I'm looking forward to giving the baby back because I don't think I can do this three.
I'm going to just give the oak leaf cluster back.
I can't do it.
I don't think I can.
I'm too old.
I don't, I'm too, I'm, maybe I'm just weak.
I'm not up to it.
That's fine.
I, I'm not out to be the Hitler.
I'm, I really, I just, I just want to be doing my thing over here and I'll, I'll have a middle management position.
I don't, I, I, I don't have it in me.
God didn't give me that.
I can't make it happen.
But at the same time, I'd be a little sad to see him go.
Because one thing I forgot to mention about Reinhold is he was a, he is a happy baby.
Like always laughing, smiling.
Um, I love him for his little Calvin and Hobbes smile that he has.
I don't know.
Remember Calvin and Hobbes, that cartoon?
Calvin Hobbes for many years.
When he smiled, his smile was like a triangle, right?
You know, and with the long end on top and then the little point at the bottom.
And I swear, this baby, he had like the Calvin and Hobbes smile.
And it got me every time when I saw it.
And I was just like, he was always smiling, always happy.
Now, that didn't, okay, always.
Yes, babies cry, they fuss, etc.
But what I mean, his default was like, he's happy.
And I just thought, here's this baby who has so many reasons to say that he got dealt a bad hand in life.
And later on, he might think that when he's an adult or even an older child, but like, as a baby, he's just happy to be here.
He's happy to be alive.
And I'm going to miss that smile.
He just started walking.
Just started walking.
And it's like, I'm watching him take his first steps, which I didn't get really to see with my other kids because I worked at night.
Yeah, that's a special moment.
And that's, I was like, you know what's the funniest thing about it?
You guys back me up since this is the first for me.
Is how what's funniest for me is how it's this like moment where all of a sudden it just starts happening.
And then it's like All that, all that machinery, all the wiring has been put in.
It's ready to go and it goes.
Now they're walking and they're, and they kind of can't believe it at first, but only for a second.
And then they're just like, I'm walking now.
Like, this is what I'm doing.
I'm walking.
And they fall on their butt and they're like, I'm supposed to be walking.
It's their entire mode of life has changed.
They just accept it.
And they're, that it's, it's the new normal.
They walk now.
Am I wrong about this?
That's because I saw that and I couldn't believe it.
It's like the age of exploration.
I mean, yeah, just the curiosity.
And you can't imagine the brain development that happens when they're not stuck in a crib or in your arms or on the floor, crawling notwithstanding.
And they just about the biology.
I don't have to.
It's astounding.
It's astounding.
And it's why so many people do so much research into this is to like, can we figure out a way to do this so that Jews can live 200 years instead of 100?
Jim, real quick, I had to look it up.
At one point in the past, my wife had looked into fostering.
I actually don't remember what life stage we were in and whether that was a serious intent of hers or not.
But it looks like the top result is adoptuskids.org.
And if I don't know if this is good advice or bad advice for the audience, but look at those photo.
If you look at those photos, yes, you can filter by age, race, gender, etc.
And I'm at risk of getting a little bit weepy here looking at all of these.
Oh, 1,078 results.
And I'm only looking at 15 of these white kids needing a home.
Okay.
All right.
I don't know chapter and verse on adoptuskids.com.
So I'm not, I can't comment on that.
I'm going to just say my scam alert is kind of going off on this.
Here's why, here's what I'll say.
Do not, do not, do not think of foster care as a way to adopt through the back door or at a discount.
This is frankly why my wife was so interested in fostering was because she figured instead of throwing out cash to adopt a child, buying a child, like, I don't even know if you can do it anymore because the gays are buying all of them now.
But I know, like, but you know what I mean?
Like adopting, actually adopting a child, like, is it.
She wanted to rent a child.
Yep.
That burn is expensive.
Well, rent to own.
And then you're up, right?
Maybe, you know, a kind of a, I'm trying to think there's like some kind of government program where it's like, I don't know, it's in a weird way, it's like homesteading, maybe, where, you know, it's like, well, if you live on the land and you work it, then I guess we'll let you own it for free, you know?
And so a lot of people, frankly, I'm going to say a lot of women, figured that the way to adopt a kid without blowing out cash is to go through the foster care system.
Here's the problem.
Again, the, and they tell you this at the beginning, and they don't say why, but this is why, is because of this adopting shit.
The goal of the foster care system is to reunite families, is to reunite the child with his biological parents.
That is the goal.
And it should be because we don't want a foster care system that's oriented towards stealing children from parents who got a traffic ticket.
And the next thing they know, their kid is gone and then it goes to some rich fucking Pajites or something.
You know what I mean?
We don't want that.
No, we want a system that is oriented towards the opposite, that is oriented towards pointing in the direction of reuniting kids with their birth parents.
And that you have to push harder to get it to go in the opposite direction of giving the kid to the foster parent.
A little moral hazard there of foster parents kind of secretly hoping that the biological parents stay junkies or disappear or whatever.
Well, maybe.
Maybe, except like, I don't have any control over their lives.
I mean, I don't know.
I had a thought about like a short story.
You could go like slip some heroin and like the driver's side door.
Yeah.
Stuff like that.
I had that idea of like writing a short, like a short horror story about doing that of like deliberately ruining somebody's life so that you can keep their kid.
Yeah.
And I bet I wouldn't put that past people to actually do that in real life.
It's probably happened.
Probably has.
But excuse me a minute.
I'm sick.
So my throat is not 100%.
But yeah, I know an example of a family that has been going through the adoption process with their foster child for five years.
And it because the system is oriented again towards reuniting families, it was like a push-pull constantly where the parents would be like improving, improving, improving.
And oh, they fuck up.
Oh, now it's back.
Now we're going to get the, no, no, no, they're doing better again.
You know, just constant back and forth and back and forth and back and forth.
And it, believe it or not, it takes a lot for a kid to do what they call a, at least where I live, call TPR, termination of parental rights.
Takes actually a lot to do a TPR on a kid on a fan on a parent on parents.
So, yes, you can do it.
It happens where you get to keep them.
I'm sorry.
Better wrap this up.
It happens, but don't count on it and expect that that for every dollar that you didn't spend, you're going to have to walk an extra mile to get there.
Fair enough.
Yeah, please, somebody else talk.
Well, hey, Jim, we're at an hour 15.
Please, sir.
I hope you don't run your foster home the way you're running this first hour, but please, sir, may I have a potty break, Dad?
I got to go.
I got to go, Dad.
Can we pull over?
Low energy individual.
You're having a hard time tonight.
Let the drop stuff for me.
Yes.
Let's take a break.
I was waiting for it.
I figured we were.
Well, Rolo's putting the time stamps in there.
And we're like, hey, you know, a deal's a deal.
Jim's driving the train.
Absolutely.
We are at your mercy.
But even the slaves occasionally have biological necessities that must be.
I don't see the chat.
Well, you telegram boomer.
Yeah, there's Rolo's, Rolo's been giving us timestamps and everything.
I mean, it's fine.
They are right there.
Sam's Sam.
Please, Jason.
Take a break.
It's all right.
We do go over sometimes anyways, but I just thought it, you know, maybe we should say, hey, let's take a break.
All right.
So going into the break, I got my voice back enough to say this.
Going into the break, I believe the break music is mine.
Yeah, indeed.
And just like the Fatherland is back for one night only.
Guess what else is back?
Guess who else is back for one night only?
That's right.
The superstar of the fatherland, break music time.
Amazing.
You millennials, or not millennials, you Zoomers may not be able to handle this, but you should sit and listen to it.
But if you can't, go ahead and walk away.
It's Charlie and his orchestra.
That's right.
The famous Nazi propaganda swing band that was hijacking shortwave radio transmissions in Europe.
And I can't remember what track I dropped.
Oh, oh, oh, I can tell you in a second.
Yeah.
It's up here in the chat.
I picked a good one.
I picked a good one.
Oh, here it is.
Making Whoopee.
Making Whoopi, that classic of the era.
And Charlie does his own version of it.
It's one of my favorites.
Had to bring Charlie back.
Was this an American, Jim?
Sorry, I'm sorry to ask just real quick.
Was this an American who was hired by the Germans to make propaganda music?
I can't recall from the brief history of Charlie, as I remember it, is no, he was not an American.
He was actually a guy who learned English.
Okay.
And you can tell he has an accent.
And yeah.
And funny story.
I remember looking into it back in the day, and he ended up as like a croupier in some neutral country in Europe.
And like, like Monaco, I think he was like a croupier in Monaco.
And like, that was like, and there's just nothing.
He just kind of vanishes from like nobody knows much else about what happened to him.
But he didn't get hung at Nuremberg or anything like a lot of other guys did.
You know, what's funny is very briefly, when I went to Ghost and I said, I want some Charlie, I never kept any of it.
People had sent it to me over the years.
I lost it.
It's all on YouTube now.
Like, I got some of this off of YouTube back then, but now it's like all on there.
And I can't believe it.
I was like, they're letting all this Nazi shit on YouTube.
I don't understand.
Yeah, YouTube has really loosened up.
There's a lot of, you find a lot of skinhead stuff on there now and everything.
Really?
Interesting.
Interesting.
Yeah.
So I found this huge playlist.
Guys, just look for search Charlie and his orchestra on YouTube.
And there was like more than just Charlie.
There were other guys doing the propaganda swing songs where they did the trick.
Charlie's trick.
And I wanted to find a track where he did this.
And I make and whoopee is not that.
He gets right into it.
I decided to go with that because it just hits faster and you get it.
But like what they would do is they would broadcast this music on shortwave.
And the idea was that like enemy troops in range would be in board in their tent, whatever, tuning in the radio.
And oh, here's some music.
We'll listen to it.
And so the first like couple of bars sounds like somebody is just doing the song.
And then all of a sudden he's like, Mr. Churchill, you murder lots of people.
You know, like, whoa, what?
What the fuck?
You know, all of a sudden, it's Nazi propaganda hitting you.
And I thought that was so brilliant.
And just the idea of like the Nazi parody song being an actual tradition that goes back all the way was so cool.
So anyway, I hope you guys enjoyed it.
Let's all take a break and come back and hit it.
USA have asked Eddie Cantor to write a new version of his famous old-timer, Megan Whoopi.
In one of his latest programs at the air, he sang the following song: Another war, another prophet, another Jewish business trick.
Another season, another reason for making whoopee.
No, no, no, I like fatherland cruise because that's what I feel like still.
Don't feel like, you know, near me, there's a local theater and they host concerts all the time and they post their signs everywhere.
And it's always like, I mean, from the 50s to the 2000s, acts showing up and they're still around and they're still doing their bullshit.
Like Brett Michaels, for example, Poison, you know, he shows up a lot.
Other ones, like all these bands that aren't going away because new music sucks and everybody is old and just wants to listen to the old classics.
And yeah, but you know what?
No, I'm not going to feel like that because, well, I'm not doing this for money and it's just a one-time thing right now.
Jim, I'd even say that I did this for you, but that wouldn't be true.
I did it for the audience because we get a lot, not daily, but once a week, once every two weeks of a listener who said, hey, guys, you know, love the fatherland and only discovered you later on, didn't know that the spirit continued, etc.
That's 100% true.
And I just thought, you know what?
Sure, there was a part of it.
I said, I bet you Jim would love to be back in the captain's chair.
And I'm still behind the same damn ATR 2100 from my, from the fatherland days, big guy, although the windscreen has been chewed by a dog, so it's hanging out my hand.
Look at that.
I know.
See that?
Holy shit, man.
That looks like a bicycle helmet.
You can see why a dog would be tempted to chew on that thing.
You probably get a pack of like 10 of those for $5 on Amazon.
It still fits on there.
See, I understand.
I understand that you're in reduced circumstances, but your house looks nice.
Thank you.
And come on.
Like, give me a break here.
All right.
New windscreen.
It's on the list here.
Yep.
You know, it's funny to me.
I will make one comment on air about the current goings on, which is I have been proven right.
And I'm glad to see that TRS Radio finally agreed with me that they need a program director.
Right.
I always said they need a program director.
And it's, I guess it's probably 50% Sven, 50% Borzoi.
But I don't know, maybe it's 75% Borzoi.
But when he started talking about, well, we can't have this on the air and we can't, I was like, holy shit.
This is exactly what I said.
You need a program director.
This is radio.
This is like, this is real life.
This is like a business.
This is entertainment.
Yes.
Yes, I get it.
We all want to preserve, what is the 14 words?
I'm sorry.
I'm blanking on the 14 words.
We must hope the existence of our race for white children.
Yes.
This is existing for people and a future for white children.
Yes.
Also.
But at the same time, guys, for those of you who enjoy listening to Borzoi, but don't quite get him, I'm with you.
Guy's intelligent.
But let me boil this one down for you because I've got it.
When he says, like, if you're listening to it, it's for you.
Okay, last last psychiatrist.
What he's really saying is if you're sitting and listening to a podcast, it's entertainment.
Now, you could say, oh, well, it's I'm getting the news.
Yes, news, it's an entertainment.
If somebody could read you the news in an extremely boring way, you wouldn't want to listen to it.
Somebody's like, news, news time, and like, here comes the news.
And then you, you love it and you listen to it.
It's entertainment.
And that has always been the problem that TRS radio has had.
And I don't know how to solve it, which is.
You become the new program director.
Oh, no.
No, no.
100%, Jim.
Oh, no.
I mean, for one thing, I could make some changes on the margins to fix things.
For one thing, like, love Nike motherfucker still doesn't have an RSS feed.
And it's like he's doing it like to give me the finger.
And I'm not even around anymore.
Get with the program.
I don't understand how people can operate without an RSS feed because when I've ever gone to a website to listen to a podcast, it's like it shuts off if your phone screen, you know, goes dark or if you switch an app, then it stops playing.
I can't deal with this.
Yeah.
I mean, you just got me.
You're about to knock me off.
I want to talk about the guy watching the FTN on his television.
No video, just like watching a blank screen for three hours.
For fuck's sake.
Streaming generation.
Yeah.
The point is, like, I don't know.
I lost it.
Thanks, Coach.
I don't know.
Where was I?
It doesn't matter.
You're going to say Sarah.
That's the collapse of NJP.
Yeah.
Or Rolo, Rolo said he really wants the learned elders of Zyklon back on the network.
He said that that was the finest show in podcast history.
Oh, yeah.
But kicked off.
I don't know if they didn't even know why.
I didn't even bother subscribing to their RSS because they do one podcast every six months.
Honestly, the first two or three that I listened to, I was like, this is not good.
They're not good.
They quit, apparently.
Yeah.
Couldn't keep the band together.
I heard Bierman was on there, wasn't he?
And he was like the funniest one.
He was apparently the nigger in the wood pile in some sense.
Too bad because legalized drunk driving was genius.
I died when I heard that.
Have you heard that?
No, I tried it once or twice and couldn't deal.
He did this song.
Sam will know what I'm talking about.
Coach, I don't know.
Have you ever heard the song The Big Rock Candy Mountain?
Of course.
He did a parody song of the Big Rocky.
Yeah.
He did a parody song of the Big Rock Candy Mountain, but it was called When We Legalize Drunk Driving.
And it was probably the funniest thing that I've heard ever.
Well, no.
But let's top five.
It was genius.
Too bad.
Too bad.
Anyway, I'm all over the place now.
I'm sorry.
Second call.
Let's just talk about this briefly.
Part of the reason I'm in such poor sorts is, of course, because I'm 75 years old and I have dementia.
Part of the other problem is that I have been sick for the last month.
Like, I have this cold slash flu slash, I don't know what that I cannot shake despite all of the things that I throw at it.
Yes, Netipot.
I'm still a believer in Netty Pot, love NetiPot.
It's like, I don't know what's going on.
Did you get a shot of penicillin in your ass?
No.
Yeah.
The anti-doctor guy is like sick for a month.
Maybe you have a bacteria.
They won't do that for you anymore.
They won't do that for you anymore.
You go to them and you're like, hi, I'm sick.
And they're like, well, you're not that sick.
We're not giving you any antibiotics.
No.
No, you know what?
Here's the thing.
I'm about to go.
I'm going to probably do this tomorrow.
I think they're probably open tomorrow.
I'm going to go to tractor supply and I'm going to get myself some fucking iver melting.
Okay.
I'm going to get the horse paste.
And I'll tell you what.
I had COVID a while back and my wife had it.
And she had it worse than I did.
She was half dead.
And I was like, wife, I am going to tractor supply.
I'm buying the horse paste.
You are going to eat it because fuck this.
And she's like, okay.
I went to tractor supply, got the horse paste.
And you know what's funny?
Like you go to the medication, veterinary medication section, fully stocked, fully stocked, fully stocked.
Ivermectin, I bought the last two packs.
It was dead.
Everybody knew.
Everybody knew.
Nobody wanted to say, but everybody knew.
And I tell you what, I did that on myself.
I did it on her.
And we both got better.
And it worked.
It worked.
Now, I haven't tried the hydroxychloroquine.
It probably works also.
The ivermectin I was most impressed by for the fact that it was a Japanese guy got the Nobel Prize for discovering it.
And it wasn't just for whatever the Jewish media says it's for.
I can't remember.
It's like an anti-mike, something not related.
Dewormer.
DeWormer.
No, no, no.
I'm talking like higher level, like one level up.
They were like, it's like an anti-fungal.
Yeah, anti-fungal.
Yeah, no, no, antimicrobial would, no, antimicrobial would be too on point.
I think it was like an antifungal is what they said.
But anyway, the point was, you know, this shit got buried.
And I was really disappointed in how so many people in the online Nazi movement is what I'm just going to call it now because I don't know what the fuck else to call it.
Decided that talking about COVID was gay and you were gay if you talked about it.
Frankly, I thought that was kind of a bitch move.
It was always a tone-deaf and wrong take.
Distraction from racism.
Yeah.
Distraction from the Jews.
Yes, yes.
And I even if a lot of it was dumb.
Yeah.
I don't want to go too much into it because it's on, I like these guys.
I'm just going to say it was a bitch move.
And you know it was.
And I get why you did it.
And you wanted to move past it, not the way to do it.
It's funny.
I follow this guy on Telegram, Leaky Vax.
Yeah, I know.
Well, stage name from his previous profession.
Yeah.
Shit, really?
He's got some science shops if he's doing that.
Well, Leaky Vax, he started out talking about how shitty the COVID vaccines were.
And what's funny is how gradually he became red-pilled and started hating Jews.
And so now he's like the same science content regarding COVID and other disease-related topics.
But then he's like, yeah, the Jews are up to some shit today.
And like, it's, it's amazing.
Like, so many people who, oh, well, if you're obsessed with COVID, you're missing the point.
Like, no, no, no, nigga.
Like, come on, like, stop.
Like, I get it.
Like, you feel gay because you put your pizza box in the oven to heat it up to kill the back, to kill the virus.
You know, a lot of normies in that position, and it's fine.
You normied out a little bit.
It's okay.
It wasn't even like the dominant globe spanning news story.
It was something that impacted everyone on earth in the most personal way.
Right.
Like, now, to be fair, we barely talked about it at all.
I don't, I can't remember, but it was like we did one focus on it with a medical professional who was like, it's a serious virus, but as long as you're not, you know, have like near death's doorstep, old or morbidly obese, you're almost certainly going to be fine.
And then we were like, yep, that checks out.
It bore out.
And we just kind of like went about our lives.
But yeah, well, it was because, I mean, sales from the top were saying there's no political angle.
I think there was a political angle.
For sure.
And you might say, well, it's, you know, I don't know.
I don't want to get into the whole World Economic Forum type stuff.
I just want to say that, like, Coach, your point was exactly the point that I was going to say on COVID, which was that this affected literally everyone.
Some way.
It wasn't the kind of thing that you could just brush off and be like, well, I don't live in Chicago, so I don't give a shit what happens there.
No, no matter where you lived, everywhere.
You lived in the country, you lived in the city.
Now, I think if I had, if this, COVID had happened when I lived in the trailer, still, that was pretty damn rural.
I don't know about you, where you live, Coach, but me, like, I was out there.
Like, my nearest store for groceries was Dollar General.
So same for us, technically.
Yeah.
Technically, but you drive past it, of course, right?
We do either if we're feeling bougie, we go to Food Lion.
And if we're feeling economical, we go to Walmart.
Yeah.
Well, anyway, point is, I feel like even there, I would have encountered that.
And to not tap into something that is literally a live wire that is hitting every, well, guaranteed, every white human being on the planet.
And just be like, nah, it's not, it's not important.
Like, come on.
Like that's that's that's kind of the thing where you want it's the kind of thing where you want to you make a mistake and then you want to dig a hole and you want to put the mistake in the hole and you want to bury it.
I understand.
I do that all the time.
And but it's not the right thing.
The right thing is put a lantern on it and be like, hey, we were wrong.
Here's why.
Okay.
Here's a good example of discernment.
One of the best guys out there on COVID was a guy named Alex Berenson.
Okay, B-E-R-E-N-S-O-N.
He's on Twitter.
Substack.
Substack.
You know who I'm talking about, Coach.
Yeah, he wrote a book against pot.
You know, I don't know if he's a good Jew, but he certainly presents as perhaps one of them.
He's definitely a Jew.
I think we could say that.
Let's put you in the gas chamber.
But I had to do a drop.
I got to keep doing drops.
So it's funny because he's been, I would say, 90% right on this.
He thinks ivermectin is bullshit.
And I'm like, this is where you use your Jew thing and you're like, yeah, Jew.
No, you don't still want people to have the ivermectin.
You want it all for yourself.
Ivermectect.
And anti-parasitical doesn't seem to make sense with a virus, but you know.
You're right.
100% right.
But if you dig into it, it worked.
There's more going on there in the biology.
And I have some biology education.
There's more going on there with the ivermectin where it's like, yeah, this actually this got put in a box of like, oh, it's just for, it's just for like, if you have a fungus or something.
And no, no, it's way better than that.
And some of that is because I think they're afraid of like with antibiotics where you overuse them and the, and the, the bacteria develop a resistance to it and then it becomes more difficult, you know, et cetera.
I'm saying et cetera a lot.
Holy shit.
I do that too.
I have to put no, et cetera, at the top of my notes these days.
And it used to used to be no ums, don't say um.
And then it used to be don't say you know, you know, I knock them down.
And then, you know, your show has gotten way better from when you started.
I really thank you.
No, I know you have.
You have because honestly, like in the beginning, you're like, hey, I started this show.
Check it out.
It's like the fatherland experience.
I was so tight.
Yep.
Dude, so tight.
So everybody, it was like the world's finest show for white fathers, aspiring ones, and the whole biofilm.
Yeah, yeah, it was all.
And you did it to everybody else, too.
I'm sorry.
It was like, it was like maybe Texas Chainsaw Massacre where everybody is like sitting around the dinner table.
We're having a good time here.
Yes.
Yeah, right.
And I was like, oh, man.
But I get it.
It's two completely different experiences, right, Jim?
Being driving the train versus riding on the train.
I was like, oh, I cannot wait.
It was so nice.
Tonight, like we had dinner late, and I wasn't like, No, I need to sit at the lap, I need to sit and do the notes and have a whole game plan.
I was like, Nope, Jim's got Jim's got this one under control.
It was it, and it's still more fun.
Yeah, that's funny that you say that because you were saying that, and I was like, You never did that.
Why is he talking?
I never did that.
Yeah, I know.
Like, I was just like, you know, like I was basically just like, I'm gonna think of a couple of things and try to keep right.
And I'm also, I also was sort of maybe it was sort of personal therapy in a way, which is bad.
I, I got criticized by this from people that I respected on the storied forum.
I don't even know if it exists anymore because I haven't logged in in a while.
Uh, my old forum, I assume you mean, PC, no, MPC.
Oh, yeah, my posting.
My posting curve, yeah, that was when I was first starting to wake up, and guys were like, You got to check out this forum.
This is where all the best minds are.
Yeah, dude, MPC told me to check out TRS.
I was like, guys, are there any cool like red-pilled podcasts?
And somebody was like, TRS Radio, Duke Nukem.
And I was like, and he's still 100% correct, Duke Nukem, Duke Nukem icon or emoji, whatever.
But like, they were like, I was listening to the show called The Fatherland.
It's like this guy's personal issues.
Like, it's not interesting to me.
Guys, the whole point of the fatherland, and yes, it was about my personal issues, but what I thought was, and maybe I was wrong.
I don't know, maybe I was right.
It seems like I hit was I'm putting myself out there.
I'm telling you about my issues, my problems, my fears, my anxieties, my struggle.
My struggle.
I like that.
That could be like a book title.
And I thought that would be a thing that the audience would connect with and we could all kind of get through it together.
Now, I don't know.
You might say I'm being self-aggrandizing or whatever, but that was really what I thought.
That was really, I thought, like, I suck.
And what I'm going to do is I'm going to go out there and I'm going to say, I suck, I need help.
And I'm, and all of a sudden, I accrued this crew of amazing men around me that were like so much better than me in so many ways.
And they were like, we'll help you and we'll all figure it out together.
And I was like, this is what we're supposed to do.
Yeah.
And people related to that.
They were like, wow, this guy's being really honest and open about all of his like glories, struggles, pains, weaknesses, fixing the car.
You know, and Salty would always come on as like the super alpha Chad.
Like, no, you got to do this.
You got to do this.
I want to go up there and meet him.
And I want to be like, I know where the carburetor is.
I'll show you.
I'll point it out to you now because I've been watching like engine repair videos on YouTube.
And like, yeah, I could find the carburetor now.
On an old car, maybe.
On an old car, right?
They don't have carbs now, but I know.
The point is, is man.
Like, I'll tell you, I don't know.
They were two completely.
I mean, they're two completely different shows.
Yeah.
People, people love the fatherland, right?
And we still get those compliments to this day.
And then people are like, oh, thank God.
You know, it depends on your cup of tea.
I like to think that the spirit of the old one and the new one.
I think that there was a little bit of change in times in that era of the podcast era, the timeframe of it.
This thing of like kind of a monologue or like this deeply getting to know a person and their, like you say, your fears and your issues and this and that.
I think now maybe as times have changed a little bit and the types of podcasts have changed.
I think when we started the full house, we wanted it to be kind of more like a show with like segments and it starts on time, it ends on time, and it kind of a little more regularity to it because that's just the way things have changed and what people are listening to.
No, you're right.
I always wanted to be more pro too, but I think what you're speaking to more is it's more guarded now.
A little bit.
Yeah.
Yeah.
Because back then it was like just sudden, suddenly this pathway was opened where anything could happen.
And it did come with cost.
Like I said, I'm not kidding.
It almost cost me my marriage because frankly, I overshared.
I didn't consider that I'm talking about all these things in my life.
And there's another human being, my wife, who is involved in this.
And now, to be fair to some of you fans, old-time fans, yes, she was there for a lot of the time that I was doing the podcast.
And you knew it because she would be shouting out her comments at the show.
But the problem was that when she wasn't there, then it was like, oh, now I can say anything I want.
I didn't even realize that I had been holding myself back.
And now, and then when she wasn't there, I was like, let me tell you about my struggles with this and that.
And then she would hear.
You realized you weren't paywall, then she could listen to every episode.
Yeah.
And then she would hear about things that I had said, and she was very upset.
And so, yeah.
I like to think of it as the fatherland was kind of like an art film.
And we try to put on, you know, a Hollywood blockbuster every week.
I don't know.
You know, yours is a little bit more artistic and perhaps self-well, you're kind of fatherland.
You're trying to be more polished, more put together.
That was why it was so tight in the beginning.
Yeah.
Now, program, my notes, my agenda.
Yes.
Must add value for our audience.
Yes.
You're more comfortable.
And so as a result, it's more, you have more room to improvise, make it more like a real conversation.
That's the way a podcast should be.
Because at the end of the day, again, it's entertainment.
It's a friend simulator.
No lie.
TRS was a friend simulator for me.
I didn't have any friends because I'm just that weird.
And then here's the weirdest part.
I listened to this friend simulator.
And this was a concept that nobody had come up with at the time, but I kind of actually did for myself.
And I was like, shit, but I couldn't stop.
And then it was time for T WrestleMania in Houston.
And I said, I have to go.
And then I met my fake friends and they were real friends.
And it was like, I don't know.
It's the kind of thing where it shouldn't happen, but it did.
Like, my fake friends were real friends.
Like, I'd listen to these guys talk for hours.
Actually, it makes total sense to me that I would know everything about them and how they think and how they act.
And so I would either like them or I wouldn't.
But to a lot of people, that doesn't make sense.
But I met them and I was like, I like these guys.
And then Jesse was like, hey, I like you.
Let's go have steak.
I was like, yes, let's go have steak.
White treat.
And I was like, okay.
And we went and had steak together.
And me and my wife and his wife.
And I was talking with him and I was like, we're friends.
How did the fuck this happen?
This shouldn't happen.
Like, this never happens.
This is, there's every other movie that I've seen that tells me about real life is supposed to be, I meet my hero.
And actually, I've met my heroes in real life.
And every other time it's gone terrible.
One of my heroes, John Carpenter.
Rolo, you like John Carpenter?
Yeah, of course you do.
You're a smart boy.
I met him.
I got to meet John Carpenter.
And I told him, when I was in college, I had the opportunity to teach a class all about your films because I thought they were that important to study academically.
And he was like, we were standing outside smoking.
And he was like, why the hell would you want to do that?
Now, at the time, I was too young.
I was too callo to understand what he was doing.
Now, years and years later, I was like, he was fucking with me.
He was testing me.
And I should have come back at him with something, but instead I was like, oh, geez, I suck.
John Carpenter hates me.
Is they live actually about the Jews?
Is John Carpenter consciously making a Jew metaphor film there or not?
I think it's a subconscious thing for him.
I think he genuinely believes he was doing it about Republicans because he hates Republicans, because he's a Democrat, always has been.
He's a liberal.
But I think he's an intelligent guy, very intelligent guy, very great filmmaker.
And so he makes films of what he sees.
And he can't help.
And he had to explain it away.
In other words, he had to explain it away.
He could not say, yeah, that's right.
It's the Jews.
Because actually, in probably his physical, in his physical brain, he doesn't believe that at all.
But he can't help but see what he sees.
Go ahead, Rolo.
Come on.
Rolo's got a tank.
Yeah.
I'm going to drop another thing on Rolo real quick because I'm going to test this film knowledge.
Another thing I should have done when I talked to John Carpenter, my one shot is I should have been like, hey, in the thing, when they're looking at the UFO and you only see them from the back, that was you and Kurt, wasn't it?
That was you in Kurt's outfit, wasn't it?
You know about that story, Rolo?
Oh, you don't?
Okay.
In that scene in the thing where they go out to look at the UFO and you only see them from the back, there's a legend that actually,
instead of it being stuntmen or anybody authorized to be on that set, which was dangerous, so you had to be authorized to be on it, that it was John Carpenter who put on Kurt Russell's clothes so that he could go out and look at the scene and kind of be in the movie is like a joke.
Just like Lam Terrance doing dead nigger storage.
Yeah.
No, no, because I know John Carpenter is way more class than that because he did it super subtly.
He never puts himself in his movies.
No, I don't think.
Oh, Rolo's got me.
I'm wrong.
He was in the vampire film at one point, I think.
Memoirs.
No, he wasn't in vampires.
I don't think so.
Oh, I'm not keeping up with the chat.
This fucking telegram.
We're not using Skype anymore, Jim.
Yep.
It's a new era.
I don't get this.
That was Braden's notes made sense.
He's giving us time stamps, Jim.
And then he was talking about the live.
I have the live chat up now.
If he wants to shout at me, I'll get it.
But I don't get anti-jockage.
But anyway, yeah.
So I should have asked him, was that really you?
The same time I was actually when I met, I was at a convention.
I met John Carpenter.
By the way, smoking is awesome.
And I'll tell you why, because you go out and you go to the smoking area wherever the guys are smoking, you meet all these people.
I met Billy Zabka.
You guys know who Billy Zabka is?
I do not.
He was the bad guy in Karate Kid.
The blonde guy.
It's Tony Silver.
Tony Silver.
No, his name is Billy Zabka.
He's a white man.
He's not a Jew.
No, no, no.
Well, Silver was the bad guy in Karate Kid 2.
Sorry.
Bad guy.
Oh, he was the karate kid.
He's the bully.
Yeah, he's the bully who from Cobra Kai Dojo, and then he fights Ralph Macchio at the end, and he loses.
Well, I met Billy Zabka, and great guy.
I had a great, long conversation with him where he was talking about doing independent films in Bulgaria and the problems that he had.
But the saddest thing was that, I don't know, nobody cares about this.
Anyway, start smoking.
Smoke cigars.
Don't inhale it.
That way you go outside, you go for a smoke, and you meet people.
Sam, he's giving me fingers.
I'm right.
Definitely.
Yes, you're right.
100%.
It's funny, isn't it?
I mean, it's like a, it's always served me well.
I used to smoke.
I would buy these Captain Black cigarette type things.
You know what I'm talking about?
Yeah, Cigarillo.
Yeah.
It was like pipe tobacco in a cigarette body with a filter on it.
So it was like lighting up a cigarette, but I'm not inhaling it.
And people are like, oh, this smells really good, man.
You start up conversations.
And yeah, I'm still on that nicotine.
I'm still on that snus.
Actually, I started doing these nicotine packets where it's like flavor and nicotine and nothing else.
Zin no no, zin sucks, zin sucks.
And i'll tell you I don't know why zin is a meme, zin sucks.
Here's why.
First, the can is huge.
You don't get the can full, it's just my chat is not keeping up.
I'm sorry Rollo Uh, Howard zins.
Yeah, you know what?
Maybe maybe they're, maybe they're Jewish, I don't know.
Zin sucks because they don't give you a place to park your used packets.
You spit them in the urinal.
That's what I see everybody do.
You're a nigger, maybe?
Like a white man does not do that.
We all know this.
Can you give me some credit here?
Like no, you don't do that.
You got trash cans in in bathrooms now too.
Yeah, you spit it in the trash and but you're not always near a trash can.
So I didn't like that.
I didn't have a place to park my empty pat, my packets that I was were used.
Uh I, I wanted to, you know.
No, that's not, that's not helpful.
So I use uh on um.
I like them and i'll tell you why.
For one thing, they're not a circle, so they're extra stealth because people see that circle.
They're like, oh, that guy's got skull right, like no, it's a, it's.
Do people ask others for like a pinch of dip, like they do for a cigarette, or is that not a thing?
Hey, you got.
You got a circle in your back pocket.
Let me get a little hit.
Yeah, i've been a dip guy so I can't comment.
Sam, what's?
What's the name of the product what?
What i'm talking about is called on.
How do you spell it?
O-n, like you know, I don't know.
It's totally fair for because everything has a gay fucked up name now.
So like don't just, it's regular English right, if you flip it upside down, it's.
No, that's right.
But is it uh, is this one of the things jim, where you just you stick it in, like you know it's, it's almost like packet of dip, but it's a little packet, and you're just absorbing the nicotine through your gums snooze, you put it on your upper lip and you forget about it and you get the nicotine through your gums and you're good and um, without carcinogens of dip in theory, or chewing tobacco.
Yeah, I think that's overrated, but the point is more like i'll tell you where I work.
I work in a hospital.
I'm not allowed to use tobacco right, so I have these ons, oh no tobacco involved.
you know um and again that's why i like that they're the container is a rectangle it's not a circle that like people see the circle in your pocket they're like that guy's that guy's packing skull Skull.
No, it just looks like an all-to-tin or something.
You know, like people want to know what it is.
When I was a kid, when I was a kid, Jim, watching Major League Baseball, I had no clue what those circles were in the back of Lenny Dykstra or John Bruck.
I was like, is that a container for their batting gloves?
Or like, why do they have why do they keep something?
Is that their wallet?
Why are they playing baseball with something in their back pocket?
No, I was the same way for about six months.
And then I grew up in rural Pennsylvania.
So I knew right away, I learned right away what that was because dudes would pack in front of me in the Boy Scouts.
And I was like, oh, that's what that is.
It's not, that's not their rosin for their baseball glove.
Like, no.
First tobacco I ever had was a cigarette.
And I tried dip later on too.
And I was like, oh man, you know, it's not, it's just two completely different products.
And I couldn't get over the sort of feeling of acid trickling toward the back of your throat and having to constantly spit.
Like it just, it just wasn't happening.
Me and my friends, when I was in my 20s, we all got together and we decided we were going to try chewing tobacco because they sold it at the cigar store that we all went to because we were all into cigars.
And they also sold custom, you know, blend chewing tobacco.
And we're like, oh, we're going to do it.
We're going to all fucking do it.
We got the chewing tobacco, packed a lip.
We're all puking our guts out in the parking lot of our apartment building.
We're just like, oh, blue, blue, blue.
Like, oh, man.
Just like the sand lot when they took the chewing tobacco and then went to the amusement park.
Oh, man.
Good times and great oldies.
Shit.
Growing up.
Yeah.
Now the kids trade vapes.
Oh, yeah.
Try, got to try this mod.
You know what?
Well, I'm infamously used to vape.
Honestly, I kind of miss it.
I'm not sure if it is actually dangerous or not.
I got tired of just fucking with it all the time.
Like, I had a mod where you had to build your coil and twist it and all this stuff.
And, you know, the juice, I got so sick of it.
I was like, I wish I could make this juice myself.
And I knew a guy to my church and he was like, oh, I'll show you how to make the juice, brother.
And he showed me how to make the juice.
And I was like, yes, I can do this.
And then I just, I don't know, I, I, I, my life was too chaotic.
I couldn't do it.
And I was, I just got, I was like, I'm tired.
I'm done with this.
I'm, and I, you know, and I was like, oh, I'm going back to snus.
And then I've discovered these uh pouches.
And they give you the same buzz, more or less.
Yeah, I mean, I don't know at this point, like, I'm rocking them all day every day.
So it's like, do I get a buzz?
Maybe the first one in the morning, actually.
That's a that's kind of a problem because I will get up and I'll pop one in and I'm like, yeah, you know, like, I'm just like, yeah, like, let's go.
okay you got me on that one roll of that That's better.
I don't have it.
Yeah, exactly.
Dueling drops.
Good.
And then about an hour later, I'm like, I'm just like, low energy individual.
I'm just done.
I'm just done.
And I haven't had any breakfast.
I've just been going entirely on nicotine and anger.
And like, I'm just, I'm worn out, you know, like you got to be careful.
Are you still skinny, Jim?
You know, you're, you're a dark wraith there, just like the good old days.
You know, has metabolism slowed down to the point where you might make it through a winter calorically deficient?
Are you still?
I'm not like, I'm not like that anymore.
No, I have, I have some middle-aged spread going on.
I feel uncomfortable about it.
I feel bad about it.
I feel like I'm not representing myself well to my children.
I just can't find the time to exercise.
I really want to.
I know maybe for a while, I was lifting weights and I really liked it.
I felt great.
I had been doing it long enough.
I started actually seeing results.
And, you know, actually, it was when my wife commented, I'm going to the bathroom and she's like, your legs.
And I was like, what's wrong with my legs?
And she's like, you have like muscles.
Wow.
And she's like, you know how like in your quad muscle, there's like that divot like above your knee.
Oh, sure.
You know what I'm talking about?
She was like, put her finger in there and she's like, wow, because you could see it.
I had like a big muscle on my quad, like, because I was, of course, doing a lot of squats.
And I was like, yes.
But then I just, I don't know, man.
It was easier when I worked at night because I could work all night.
My wife's asleep.
I have no responsibilities at all.
Everybody's asleep.
I'm in the space between, right?
And then in the morning, everybody's still asleep.
It's early in the morning.
I go to the gym.
Gym's open early, early fucking in the morning, right?
Gyms are open five o'clock in the morning because they know.
I go to the gym.
It's like six o'clock in the morning.
Lift, lift, lift, lift.
And then I go home and it's time for bed.
So I got my lifting in.
I, with no dad responsibilities, in a weird way, it was like, again, it was like living in the space between.
I was like, I was a dad, but I wasn't because I wasn't around to be a dad, but I was still technically doing it.
Well, and there's that temptation too, isn't there?
It's like, well, sorry, I'm going to work.
I think in most fathers' minds or hearts or something, there's a slight urge to shirk on some of the, not the serious responsibilities, but you know what I mean.
Like, hey, sorry, I'm not there to like put the dishes away or like, you know, hang out and have a catch.
I got to go to work.
It's a way to skate by a little bit and like not feel too guilty about it because you're working.
I wouldn't want to skip out on being with my kids necessarily, except when they're being obviously, but in general, you're right.
It's like that Garfield meme.
Have you seen it?
Where it's like muscular Garfield and he's got a construction, a hard hat on, and it's like, Monday morning.
I love Mondays.
No more nagging wife back on the job site.
You know, yeah, 100% exactly like that.
It's like, I'm back on the job.
I don't have to worry about this shit anymore.
You guys give yourself a hard time because you're making money for the family.
Of course, I'm doing my responsibilities, right?
Yep.
Except, well, I kind of missed out on a lot of things.
And so when I switched to days because of COVID, I was able to do this.
It was a huge transition.
And I didn't really realize the implications of it until now that I'm talking about it, actually, where my whole life changed.
And I suddenly wasn't able to be in the space between and do my things.
I can't find time to exercise now because I'm always, I'm running around putting out fires all the time when I'm not at work.
And that sucks.
But I don't know.
Someone in the audience is saying, where there's a will, there's a way.
Not me.
Man, I have tried.
I have thought about it.
And I'll tell you, also, maybe it's just my own anxiety.
I feel like I can't be away.
I'm being selfish.
I'm doing this for myself.
And I need to be at home to put out the fires because otherwise it'll be yelling and crying and screaming and chaos and mess.
And I need to go back and fix it instead of I had my friend took me out bouldering, you know, the indoor rock climbing thing where you go up the wall with the little plastic things on it.
That was fucking awesome.
I loved it.
And I was actually good at it.
I was like, yes, I can do this.
I'm not a complete piece of shit.
You know, I'm 40-something years old and I, no, I can do this.
You got good fingers, Jim.
Always said you got good fingers.
Strong hand.
I don't have a drop for jagging off, but yeah, I just, I really liked it.
And I was like, I want to do this.
And my wife was like, so you want to go exercise what every day?
And I was like, I don't know.
Maybe I can't do this.
Like, you know, I'm getting there.
I'm getting there because, like, chicken is now 11.
And this is one of those things I wanted to talk about.
And I'm probably out of time because it's late.
But I'll just say real quick.
Yeah, please do.
Yeah.
Man, I feel like six months ago, she was a little girl.
And then I woke up one morning and this young woman is walking around in my house and it's so fucked up.
Sam, can you am I am I crazy or do you know what I'm talking about?
Yeah, no, I get what you're talking about.
My girls are 24, 26, and 35.
So, you know, do you remember that time when they change?
Yeah, yeah, sure.
So I'm right.
Okay.
What do you do?
More about that?
Not really.
You know, my girls were very, very quiet.
You know, they did not have maybe some of the expressions during that change that some may think think that I would say.
But yeah, it's something to see the development and the young adult.
I can help you out here, Jim, real quick, because wife took daughter to a tea party recently that I was not at.
It was like a fancy Christmas theme tea party with Santa Claus and everything.
And I was not at home.
It was basically a mom and daughter mission.
Yeah, of course.
And she sent me, my wife sent me a few photos of dear daughter, who's, of course, probably two years younger than chicken.
And I didn't have that yet.
Oh my goodness.
I have a young woman walking around my house, Epiphany.
But when I saw the photos of my daughter dressed up and at this party, you know, in her element, all women, she looked beautiful, sublime, confident.
And it was not my little girl in those pictures anymore.
And as you know, real quick, I had a very poignant father moment just on the break on this show.
Maybe Rolo will release it in the outtakes.
But daughter went to bed.
She got her ears pierced a couple months ago for her birthday.
And she's been very dutiful about cleaning her ears and keeping them in.
And she changes them constantly.
You know, it's like a little, her first major accessory.
But she went to bed.
She had taken them out because they were bugging her and she went to bed with them out.
And then possibly as a result of me hooting and hollering, no, I went into the room to shut the blinds so they could sleep in Christmas break and all that.
And she woke up and said, Dad, I forgot to put my earrings back in.
She couldn't get them back in herself.
So I had to put her earrings back in her earlobes for the first time.
And I'm like, oh my God.
I was like mortified of going through the back into new flesh or whatever, but I pulled it off.
It was a major moment.
All of which is to say that I think that your anxiety and holy smokes is probably consistent with like 95% of fathers with daughters.
Well, I got to say, I saw her on the cam and like, she's not there yet.
You're about to come up to where I'm at.
And like, it, I don't know, man.
It was like a kick in the balls.
I, and I talked to my wife about it and I was like, because I was like, well, wife, you're smarter than me or you notice more things than I do.
And she was like, no, I was blindsided by this.
What happened?
Like this, this woman who was so hyper-aware when my daughter was a baby, she was like, she's getting toddler face.
She's getting toddler face.
No, I want my baby.
I don't want a toddler.
And she completely missed my daughter becoming a young.
My daughter, like I want to have her more physical things, but we compromised with putting her in like a musical theater classes where she does dancing.
So I figure she's getting exercise that way.
But she's also doing voice and stuff.
And like I heard her, my daughter sing Over the Rainbow and I started crying.
It's very, very gay.
I know.
Like, like, that's gay.
I don't care.
I was like, my daughter's really good at singing.
That's great.
She's so good.
Like, and did you get a little misty?
Yeah, no, I didn't get a little misty dude.
I had like, I was like tears streaming on my face.
I was by myself.
I want to watch everything.
So, yeah, like, I was like, well, you know, I don't know.
I got to put it together.
So basically, what I'm saying is, is that that it hit me and I didn't see it coming.
And now, I don't know.
It's like I'm in a new phase with her.
And now I can't do the same dad moves that I used to.
Like when she was your daughter.
This doesn't work or no, it's not the kooky.
It's like the, I don't know.
It's like your, it's like your attitude, like your position, like where you put yourself in relation to her.
Like, um, when she was nine, eight, it could be like, I'm your dad, and I am telling you these things, but I'm not going to tell you everything.
And she was like, Okay, dad, I trust you.
Now she's 11, and the other day we're driving around, and she was like, So I don't understand like why, what's the problem that Jews have with Christmas?
It was something like that.
And I was like, That's a softball.
Oh, I can engage on that daughter.
Actually, you're 100% right.
Of course, I was like, Okay, yeah, absolutely.
Right over the plate.
I'm just going to lay this bat down.
How much time do you baby?
And I'll tell you, and I'll tell you why.
I'll tell you what, because this is one moment where my wife shut her mouth and was absolutely silent as I spoke because she was like, My husband can just nail this.
And so I was like, Okay, so Jews and Christmas.
All right, let's give you the, and I've already given her little bits and pieces, you see, but now I'm like, now I give you a little bit more.
And I, not all of it, but I give you a little bit more.
And I say, yeah, here's the basic version of what's going on here.
Well, why?
I don't understand.
Like, why don't they just become, you know, oh, well, why didn't they just become Christian?
Well, okay.
Well, you know, that's the thing.
You know, did you tell her about the synagogue of Satan, Jim?
Yeah, of course.
Of course.
I quoted the Bible.
I have some of the, I have those passages memorized.
So I was like, you know, Jesus said this and Jesus said that, you know.
And I was like, so it's, this is not my opinion.
This is God's opinion.
Like, this is Jesus' opinion.
So, yeah, it was, I don't know, man.
It's crazy.
It's, it's a transition.
It's a new phase.
I'm sad.
Are you going to take her to church on Christmas?
Okay, this is something you I told you to remind me about and you didn't, but you actually did now.
So I'm going to mention this.
I have not been to Mass ever since we got the baby, basically.
I went one time and it was a total disaster.
We're exhausted.
We don't get every Sunday.
It's like we oversleep and we're just too tired.
We just need rest.
We need a rest day.
And I was like, you know, I don't know.
The problem is with the Catholic Church, as always, or well, not as always, but very lately, is they give you room to when they give you wiggle room.
And I'm like, is this because the Jews are weakening the church or because this is actually true?
Not 100% sure.
And that's unclear, even among the faithful that I keep track of, which I keep track of contests like myself and other people and the people on the fringes like yourself, Sam, because I think you're kind of straddling.
If I remember right, you're like trad Catholic, but you're also consider yourself Christian identity.
Correct.
Yeah, that's.
I don't know how you square that circle, but I don't want to.
That's another podcast.
Anyway, so I've heard other people say, well, the Sunday obligation is not like drag yourself unless you're bleeding to death.
It's like, you know, if you can do it, except, you know, if you're struggling or whatever.
And I'm like, I don't know.
I don't know.
It's between me and God.
And I know it's my responsibility as the father to bring the kids to church.
I, like I said, I did it one time.
It was just me and all three kids.
And it was a total shit show because I'm holding the baby.
My toddler son is taking his car and running around.
And my daughter is going to pieces because she doesn't know what to do.
And she wants to be pious.
And but she also is trying to wants to help parent, even though she can't because she's 11.
Do they have a cry room over there?
Yes, they do.
And it's awful.
Let me tell you.
Sam.
Scary paintings on the wall.
No, no.
I'm going to.
Okay.
I'm going to let it go.
Sam.
Yeah.
These fucking people, I'm so fucking sick of trad Catholics.
Okay.
I'm sick of how nerdy they are and how up their ass they are.
And I feel like these people are putting it on and they don't really mean it.
And they just need to fucking settle down and be normal.
And everything would be better.
Here's the thing about the cry room.
Okay.
We have a cry room.
Unusual for a Catholic church, but we have one.
And the older ones don't have them.
You know what the cry room?
Well, this is an old church, but they built one on.
You know what the problem is with the cry room?
It's full of parents and children that are all sitting there very quietly.
It's, in other words, in my estimation, it's these fucking people are so full of anxiety about their children because they're not 100% perfect because they fidget a little bit that they put them in the cry room.
And it's like at this, now I haven't done this in the past.
My wife tipped me off about this.
She's like, you know what you do is you just go in there with our rambunctious Scotch-Irish children and you will drive out all of those people because they can't handle it because they're just in there because of their own anxiety and you force them out and now you have the cry room to where you're not disturbing other people.
Yeah, I wouldn't worry about what they think and I don't think that they're being disturbed or looking down on that situation whatsoever.
No, I don't, I don't worry about what they think so much.
It's just an uncomfortable situation where you go to the cry room and it's full.
And it's like, now I have to either fight for this space or I just walk away.
Right.
And it's like, why would I fight for this space?
This is ridiculous.
But no, I've come around to it where now it's like, I'm fighting for that space because fuck you people, because you need to get the fuck over yourselves.
I'm so fucking tired of this, these fucking trad caths, where it's like, oh, we, we all were all super pious.
And no, And oh, look at my old children and they're all kneeling perfectly and they all have their hands up like fuck you.
Okay.
Fuck you.
Like, oh, fuck you.
And your piousness.
There's a point.
There's a Bible verse for this and I can see it, but I can't remember it.
But it's like Jesus is like, you stop with your bullshit.
Just be normal.
Like, it's okay.
Lesson are the meat.
Well, you might be, you might be extrapolating, you know, something there.
Maybe, but my point is maybe you got to get comfortable with your own situation.
Okay, like you're judging you for your kids or it's deeper than that.
No, you're right.
I absolutely feel judged.
I absolutely feel judged.
I mean, no trad Catholic with a bunch of family, you know, a bunch of children in their family would think of it that way.
You know, they're there, and even many churches, our church doesn't have a cry room.
Many churches do not have a cry room.
I mean, any tradition, they realize that children are going to cry.
That is that if you're not accustomed to that already, you better get accustomed to it.
I remember this from church.
If your baby starts crying, you just walk out the back door.
Yeah.
I never heard of that.
If you're really having a big meltdown, yeah, you could take walk them around a little bit or walk outside for a minute, but I think everybody accepts that children are going to cry and that's okay.
It's more important to be there than to expect some kind of perfect silence.
No, I've gotten, I'll tell you, I'll tell you, Sam, I've gotten the novis ordo shush or disapproving look from boomers at the tradition.
Maybe there may be there, but not trads.
No, no, no, at the trad mass.
I'm saying it's the, I'm calling it the novus ordo shush, but like I am, I'm do we're doing mass in Latin.
It's like, why the fuck are you here then?
Like you have 87 churches in our area that you could go to at 4.30 p.m. on a Saturday and Catholics know what I'm talking about.
You could go there on 4.30 p.m. on a fucking Saturday and you don't have to see a single baby because everybody in there is fucking 75 years old or 60 years old or something.
Like fuck you.
And you're giving me these looks or you're saying like, I'll get you please quiet.
Quiet the baby.
Like, how about you get the fuck out of here?
You synagogue.
You're in the synagogue of Satan now.
Like you're cursing out other people for bringing children in.
Like what your church is supposed to be just old people?
Go be a fucking Lutheran then.
Like get the f out of here.
Or a Methodist.
I should say Methodist.
Lutherans, I don't know.
I like super Lutherans, so I'm not going to insult them too much.
the weird resistance of Catholics to providing services to the parish is insane to me like what we need is we need to do like race church no just kidding Go ahead, Jim.
That's an old meme.
Yeah.
Fucking nigger.
I remember at some point on the fatherland, I was like, I wish I could go into a church where Napoleon and Caesar and Alexander the Great were on the stained glass windows.
I didn't mean to derail.
Go ahead, Jim.
I got popcorn kernels in my teeth.
No, I'm sorry.
I don't want to make you choke to death, but it's like this is a little bit niche, and maybe I should drop it.
It's interesting.
Yeah, you and Sam, you know, like talking about trad cats and whether they're up their own ass or whether they're pious to mountain serious.
It's like mega church bullshit church, you know, non-denom shit.
We need that level of services.
My daughter goes to American Heritage Girls.
You've heard of these, Sam?
Yeah.
This is like a prot thing, okay?
But it's Girl Scouts and it's not lesbians.
Yeah, right.
Don't have any answer for it.
So I put her in that.
Yeah.
So they meet at like this standard fuck party, bullshit, you know, non-denom church, but they have a nursing room and they have a cry room and they have a playroom where you can bring your kids and the services are piped into the room and all this.
There's all these rooms.
There's like services.
There's like, they have daycare.
They have, you know, they have like catechism and they have all these things.
And it's like, I don't understand what it is about the Catholic Church where it's just like we're allergic to that, where it's like, oh, we're not going to do that.
What?
We're going to have a special room.
Now, I understand we all have to struggle with the space that we have and etc.
I get it.
Whereas these non-denom people, I don't know where they get their money, but they get their money and they build these big buildings and they have all these rooms and they can do these things.
But it's like just at this church that I go to, which I'm about to quit, frankly.
Yeah, you know, there's more than one Catholic church in this world.
I mean, maybe somewhere else.
I'm a set of a contest.
If I don't want bullshit, I don't have many places to go.
I can go to this place.
I can go to SSPX or I can go to the Sate of Acontest place near me that I can go to, which is great, but has trade-offs.
Anyway, the point is, is that at the big standard conciliar Latin Mass church, it's like just getting a play area for the children set up.
Nobody wanted to do it until me and my wife were like, okay, what we're going to do is we're going to square off this area of the gym where everybody's having donuts.
And this is going to be the kids' area.
And we just kind of did it ad hoc.
We're just like, okay, here's what we're going to do.
Take the toys, dump the toys over here and start dragging kids over here.
And then we're going to like put chairs around as like a fence kind of.
And then, and you know what?
We did that.
And then all of a sudden, all of these hoity-toities were like, oh, wait, somebody's politically invading our space.
And they immediately moved to co-opt it.
And suddenly now we have one of those play yard fences, you know, that you put up that like big, you can cover a big area and like corral a toddler in.
They got one of those and they put that up and there's more toys and there's carpets.
And I was like, fine, great.
This is what I wanted.
I'm sorry.
I don't care, Susan, about my position on the parish council.
I care about making this place better.
I could real quick, Jim.
I mean, as a semi-neutral observer here, what you're saying sounds like common sense, but I could also put myself in the shoes of a Catholic and say, no, this is a church and we deliver religious services.
And this is not a play area and, you know, the McDonald's, you know, jungle gyms where the kids can go rompus while the adults eat.
I can, I can, I could see, I, I could see some semblance of like, look, you take your kids to church and they behave.
And if they don't behave, then you take them out the back door and get some fresh air and bring them back in when they've simmered down.
I'm not taking a side there, but I'm just perhaps giving a little more forceful defense than Sam feels like putting forward.
However, point taken, I feel like Super Lutheran is rubbing his hands here like, ha, ha, ha, Jim is coming into the ranks of Martin Luther and the common sense approach to religion.
But I don't know.
Problem is the autism.
Christianity is not autism, although it often there's some overlap, asshole.
That was Rolo.
I know it was Rolo.
Rolo's a Lutheran.
Oh, he's a Lutheran.
Oh, do you like it?
Well, no, no, we're diverting.
I'm going to wrap this up real quick because I know there's a lot of people rolling their eyes at this.
And I think there's a larger point here, which is that, yeah, there are people that believe that.
Those people are what you said, Coach.
Those people are wrong.
A church is a place for human beings to go and worship God.
And we're human beings.
And we have to accept those human beings as they are.
And we also have to provide for them.
The church provides for them.
It's not just, it can't just be, well, you got the body of Jesus.
You got you're good, right?
Yes, spiritually I'm good.
But, and we reject the world, sure.
But like, come on, there's, we can't do this.
Like, you're, it's almost, it feels almost deliberate to me where it's like you're driving people away to places where they are more comfortable in the space because they have services, they have help with their kids.
And then you, and then you, and then, and then what happens?
If you're a Catholic, if you're a real Catholic, those people are damned because they're not Catholic, right?
Because they say, well, the Catholic Church, I went there and my kids are making all this noise and people are upset at me.
So I went to the Methodist church and I can put my kids in the daycare and they get some Christian education while we're at church until they're old enough to where they can behave.
And this is great.
And except you're all going to hell.
Like, sorry.
Well, you're framing it in a certain way.
I think you could frame it in a different way, too.
There are Catholic families, including my own, they were from a very young age, they were learned to sit quietly and to be reverent and pious.
And I understand there's different children, different types of children.
Some act up and things like that.
I've never seen somebody get the evil eye because their child was crying or anything like that.
I think we all understand that children are going to be that way.
Maybe you're being a little self-conscious about it.
But I'd say just let them cry, you know, or walk them out, walk them around a little bit.
As far as, yeah, then they're damned or something.
I don't really look at it that way.
I look at, I, at some point took an interest in that I want to save my own soul.
And so what am I going to do about that?
So I'm doing now.
You might say, oh, so you're saving your own soul.
You're doing things that way.
That means you think somebody who's not doing that is not saving their soul.
Well, you know, I don't know.
You know, that's God works with people throughout the course of their life.
And I'm trying to save my soul.
So I'm doing the thing that I think I need to do to save it.
I guess in a way you can infer that that means I think something of somebody else, but I don't, I don't look at it that way.
I'm doing what I need to do.
And those other people may do that thing too at some point.
I don't know.
But, you know, maybe, maybe try to look at it in different ways too.
Could you just go to church without the kids and swap off with Waltham?
Fuck when I do that.
The whole point of me going to church is to bring the kids and raise them in the religion.
Well, if somebody is sick, if somebody, I mean, my wife has kind of a chronic condition.
Sometimes she can't get up in that, but I always go because I'm representing our family there.
And even if some of the other children couldn't go or if some of them come with me, I go anyways and I'm attending for my family in a sense.
And 100% right there.
That's not what I'm talking about.
But you're 100% right.
That's that's I've done that many times.
Um, before I had the third child, um, my wife would be ill or she needed rest.
And I was maybe as your children get older, then they'll be able to attend with you or, you know, they're they become a little more, you know, under control or whatever you want to say.
You know, I would say kids are Scotch Irish.
Okay.
My son, the other day, he's four years old.
He was literally howling.
I could not believe running around the house naked, naked from the waist down because we're toilet training him.
And he's and I was like, this is awesome, but also fuck this.
Yeah.
We're not, we're not the kind of people that are going to just sit quietly without a lot of a lot of brutality put upon them that I don't want to do.
And maybe you don't think so.
I just, I don't know.
I it's also like one hour or at most, one hour and a half.
I mean, to ask people to control themselves and sit quietly for one hour or one hour and a half is not some extreme torture or anything like that in my book.
Well, yeah, it's the question of making it happen.
Yeah.
That's where the torture comes in because it's like my son wants to take his Transformer toy and run around and howl.
How do I stop it?
I can basically only physically restrain him and restrain him.
Put your hand over his mouth.
Yep.
Physical punishment.
I don't have, I don't have any onshore on Hopper drops.
But yeah, physical punishment.
Maybe it's his spirit rebelling at being present in church, Jim, and he his soul wants to go back to an older time.
I'm kidding.
You're 100%.
You've got it pitch perfect.
Like a Scottish church before Christ.
I don't know what they were like, but you should go worship the pagan gods.
Like, I'm sorry, guys.
That's all gone.
I'm not doing that.
But yeah, I know you're not doing that.
But for you pagans out there, it's all gone.
You have nothing.
It's all gone.
It's, it was lost.
Nobody wrote it down.
The Christians.
The monks wrote it down.
The only reason we know anything about any of that stuff is because monks did write it down.
How accurate was that, though?
Right.
How accurate really was that?
Because I think it is.
I think it was accurate.
On it?
Did they put their slant on it?
Maybe they did, or maybe they didn't.
The point is, is well, for sure, they're talking about it in a Christian context, but to say what people believed or what people thought or the way people acted, that's how we know those things.
Okay, I'll give you an example.
Like Super Lutheran, right?
He has some a lot of French ancestry.
So he's like, you know, the Franks, what religion did they have?
Everybody talks about the Nordic, you know, Thor and Odin.
What about the Franks?
Did they, were they, did they do that or did they have their own thing?
We don't know.
Nobody wrote it down.
It's gone.
You want to honor your ancestors?
Be a Christian because they all converted, guy.
I'm sorry.
I'm sorry that the Jews have made Christianity seem so gay to you that you can't accept it.
And I'm sorry that you haven't had enough people to talk to that can tell you that like, hey, guy, there's a way to be Christian.
That doesn't mean that you let like niggers rape your daughter.
Yeah, well, that's just it.
Some people ask the uncomfortable questions.
You know, if being a Christian involves worshiping a Jew and knowing everything about the Jewish religion, knowing everything about all the Jewish patriarchs all the way back to Adam and Eve and everything, and knowing nothing about my own ancestry, if that's the way you're going to frame it, then throwing off this Jewish Christianity should be the first thing our people do.
Wow.
Christmas Eve.
I can hit a job.
Holy shit.
I know the fourth Sunday of Advent, actually.
I get it.
It has been two hours, 23 minutes, and 15 seconds.
He says, yeah, he's putting these notes in here where he's like, hour 15 of the fatherland.
That's how this show.
I DM'd him.
I was like, bro, if you need to log out, go ahead.
I'll shut the recording down.
I'm good.
I'm good carrying on.
But I should go to bed too.
We should try to get up early for church.
I don't know when your mass is, but mine is early.
Planning on missing it, frankly.
Like I said, it's I don't know.
I gotta go through some things before we get there.
Gotta get, I can't, I don't know.
Look, man, I'm struggling with it.
I am just trying to say, Jesus, please have mercy on me.
Understand what I'm going through.
I'm trying.
I'm failing.
I know, but I'm still trying.
And I think I don't know.
Hey, you took in a baby, a newborn, strung out on heroin.
Talk about Christian acts and gave him a healthy, fresh start to life that may end up in him going back to a reformed and clean biological mother and father.
Yeah.
Don't give yourself such a hard time.
Reminds me.
Sam.
Yes, sir.
Your thoughts real quick.
I keep wanting to baptize him.
I'm not sure it's my place, but I feel like I need to because I'm not 100% sure his parents have any religion at all.
And this baby needs baptized.
Can I just recommend that?
We're not supposed to act in the place of a priest.
If it was Danger of death or something like that.
You could do that.
Certainly.
We're not supposed to do things against people's will.
There should be godparents.
And but that's why I mentioned that I said it lightly, but I meant it seriously.
Get some holy water and bless him with it.
That's okay.
And that'll help him a lot.
Well, how is that?
I don't understand.
Like he has to be baptized.
I can blessing him doesn't mean shit.
Like if he's not baptized, he's going to hell or limbo.
Wow.
Well, I would talk to his parents and say, hey, have you thought about getting him baptized?
You know, I go to church.
I know a priest.
We could hook it up real easy.
It's important.
I think if you're his legal, if you're his legal parents right now.
Oh, yeah.
If you're his legal parents, then go do it.
Yeah.
That's your prerogative.
Yeah.
Even as, yeah, I mean, like the kid's not going to suffer from getting baptized.
Yeah.
No, that's true.
I didn't think of it that way.
Yeah, you're the parent.
Go get him baptized already.
I'm kind of in loco parentis right now.
It's a gray area.
I don't know.
Maybe I should just talk to his parents.
You're right.
We have a decent relationship with them.
Yeah.
Be like, look, I don't know.
I feel bad.
I have like epiphany water and I was like, I should just do it.
I should just do it.
Just take the baby, just be like, boom, in the name of the Father, Son, Holy Ghost, boom, you're good.
And then I never, you know what I mean?
Like, what did I do wrong?
Right.
But I mean, because what if his parents are like, oh, yeah, we're Christians, and then they take him off to be like a Calvinist or something?
You know, like.
Well, you should pray for him.
You should pray for him and offer that to the parents.
Say, would you consider this?
I think it would be wonderful to do.
They might, if they don't have like a really deep religious conviction about things, they might say, that would be wonderful.
Yeah, let's do that.
You know, you know, when somebody gets baptized, the intention is not just to get baptized, but then follow through with the faith and live as a Catholic.
So just getting somebody baptized and you're not going to follow through with being brought up that way.
That's why the church would hesitate about doing that.
Of course.
I don't know.
I just, I don't know.
Ask him.
I would.
I would at least ask him.
I don't want to let him go and be like, you know, these are decent people, but I have no idea if they have any religion at all.
And it's like.
Maybe they'd show up.
Yeah.
Maybe you come to church.
Say, hey, even if you're not Catholic, you know, you can sit there and take in the graces that are coming out from the sacrifice and it'll be good for you.
You know, a lot of people do that even.
They're not Catholic, but they get something out of it.
And maybe it'll lead them to becoming Catholic.
Kind of a long drive for them, but maybe, maybe.
Yeah, I think they find somewhere closer to them.
If you have a stream behind your house, you could just take them back there in December and channel your inner evangelical.
Yeah, no, but okay.
Oh, I know.
You're right.
I actually, Sam, I appreciate that because you know what?
Doing the secret baptism in my house is kind of a bitch move.
And really, what you should do is talk to them instead.
That is actually the manly way of doing this is like straightening it out that way.
Yeah.
Okay.
All right.
We should go.
It's late.
Jim.
Real quick question for you, if you don't mind.
It's not a lengthy one.
Fine, fine.
Do you have any?
Do you have any sustained or like irregular contact with the old guard?
Salty, Scout Master Joe, Otto, Brian.
No.
No, they're all gone.
They all disappeared.
It's like they never existed.
And I think that's the way they wanted it.
I'm sad about that.
Actually, Braden hung around on the Fediverse for a while.
And then I just, I'm so bad at keeping in touch with people online, especially, but in real life, even more so.
Or, well, I don't know.
I'm so bad at keeping in touch with people.
The fault is mine.
Like, if maybe people wanted to keep in touch with me, I'll tell you, I actually ran into a guy a while back from back in the day.
And I don't want to say too much more, but he was a guy who contributed content.
Well, I'm just going to say it was Plane Crasher.
I met Plane Crasher.
I was like, holy shit.
He's like, hey, man, I heard you talking about your life and I realized it was you, Jim.
I'm Plane Crasher.
I was like, holy shit.
He did a couple of jingles for us.
He did like the ballad of Jim, I think.
And you guys might remember it's all about like how I suck, but it's all going to be okay.
Actually, it was very, very good.
And yeah, and I was like, dude, we should meet up.
And I think I spooked him because I was like, I'm still a Nazi.
And I think he wasn't anymore.
And so I emailed him and he never emailed me back.
But many such cases.
So if you remember, if you remember, young, go ahead, Sarah.
I wish they weren't.
I wish I had.
Maybe if I would have insisted upon it and been a normal person, I could have kept up with them.
But I feel like they just wanted to fade away and be as far away from this as possible.
And I don't blame them.
It was a different time.
Nobody took it seriously as seriously as they should have.
And then when shit got real after Charlottesville, everybody who wasn't down for that bailed.
And I don't blame them.
I still sometimes fantasize about if I'm on a trip and I run into one of them because I've met all, well, no, I've met almost all of them.
I would recognize them and I'd be like, what's up?
You know, I suspect that ghosting or the distance is 90 some percent mostly just self-preservation, thinking, well, I got out before they got to me, you know, and not some latent hostility toward you or whatever.
Here's what I think about this.
We're already seeing this with the collapse of the NJP and is that people are starting to filter back in.
And they're like, hey, now that this bullshit is done, I want back in.
Is everybody still cool?
Uh-huh.
Got an email in the inbox from a big name the other day.
I won't say who it was, but like, hey, I'm now married and have two kids and one on the way or something like that.
If you remember Young Crusader, who wrote into the show a couple times, like total Sperg.
He's married and got kids now.
Is he a Spurg still?
No, I don't know.
The last time we heard from him was like a year ago, but he was like, hey, coach, it's Young Crusader.
I got married and I had kids.
I bet I still have his email.
I'm going to go look for that.
Yeah, okay.
This guy, yeah, I'm torturing him.
I'm actually enjoying this now, Rola.
I'm enjoying torturing you.
Be more dramatic, please.
This is like one of the longest full houses ever.
Excuse me, longest Fatherland's ever.
I broke frame.
I broke frame.
Yeah.
But anyway, all I was going to say was that I feel like maybe we're going to get to a point where those guys will come back.
And you know what?
We'll share a cup.
It'll be good.
Hope so.
Yeah.
And I don't know.
People ask me, why don't you do this again?
Why don't you do it?
Why aren't you still doing this?
It's obviously a talent.
I'm not going to lie.
I'm not going to be too modest.
I just need an idea.
I feel like I can't find a space.
I need a space.
I need an idea that a space that I could be in.
That's it.
And I can't think of one.
Like something I could do.
If I found a space, like Fatherland was easy.
Like in the beginning, I was like, I really like it when Jesse talks about his life instead of about all this Nazi stuff.
And he's just talking about like putting up fixing the bathroom or whatever.
I'm going to do a show about that.
And that's what it was.
That was it.
It was that simple.
Just like real life.
And now, I don't know.
I'm not sure if that's what's needed.
I don't want to rehash what I did already.
I want to do something new, but I don't know what.
Anyway, let's go, coach.
Let's get out of here.
All right, brother.
It's, yeah, we did promise the closing music to Sammy, baby.
And yeah, your last call.
And then Sam's got the music to close us out here on this now, Christmas Eve, December 24th, 2020.
My last call, I'll say real quick.
Miles Poland took over this thing called Age of Ruin that was a contest slash, I don't know, it was like a short story collection all about like the future, like sci-fi.
And I wrote a short story for it.
And it, I don't know, I don't know what kind of reaction it got.
He seems to think it got a pretty good reaction.
And it was started by somebody else.
I can't remember who it was, but he ended up taking it over because this group collapsed.
Anyway, he's, if you enjoyed the original Age of Ruin collection, which I think you would because I thought it was such strong writing.
I mean, my mind was okay compared to some of the stuff that was in there.
It was fantastic.
He wants to do another one.
And so keep your eye out for that.
It'll feature, he's waiting on me to finish a novella.
I'm almost done.
But got to find the time.
And here I am sitting and talking my ass off when I should be finishing that up.
So once I get that into him, he says he's got just about all of it together.
He'll put out another collection.
So Age of Ruin.
Just remember Age of Ruin.
Look for that on Telegram or look for the Godcast on Telegram.
You'll find it.
I think Godcast is on Americaner.org.
You can find them there.
Exodus Americanus.org.
You can find them there.
You can find the links to that.
That's my latest project.
I got to finish that novella.
Jim, thanks for doing this sincerely for me.
This was primarily for the fans.
It was a little bit that I thought you might like being back in the captain's chair.
And are you me?
I am a six-foot boner.
This was amazing.
Good, good big guy.
Yeah, I do have very fond memories of the fatherland days.
I don't, there's no bad blood or anything like that.
So it was a lot of fun.
What's the writer guy?
Hmm.
Hey, we're not going to, we're not going to bleep any curses.
This is going to be old school, but you still, you got to tee up Sam for the closer.
However, you want to land this puppy.
I just work here.
Okay.
The only problem is I don't know what he's got in store.
It was way back there in the chat.
So, Sam, this music I disavow.
What are you playing?
Well, you know, Christmas music is a very special thing.
Some people almost despise it in a way, but you know, it's something that makes the season very unique.
There's a feeling to Christmas music that transcends a lot of things.
So, Coach said, Hey, you know, would I contribute a song for the show?
And I thought of a few.
I tried to think, what would people like to hear?
I put a couple songs out there.
It's really hard to pick.
But then I said, No, I think we're going to go to something kind of a little more festive.
When I saw your pick, Jim, I thought, well, I'm going to go with something maybe a little more lighthearted and rather than something very touching.
And I just picked up this vinyl record from a great German website.
It's called for you vinyl-versand.de.
And they specialize especially in putting out skinhead music on vinyl, including repressing old stuff, but also new stuff.
And anyways, they put out this record.
It's called A Very White Christmas.
And it's kind of a split between two bands, Nordwind and Agitator, both German bands.
And I picked a song off there.
It's by the German band Nordwind, which they normally play kind of an RAC type of music.
And the song is called We Wish You, dot, dot, dot, like we wish you a Merry Christmas.
But it's really kind of a medley, and that's why I thought it was good.
Of course, they sing the I'm Dreaming of a White Christmas that's in there.
So it's a clever medley of things, but I transferred it from vinyl using this.
I'm holding it up.
You guys can see it.
Of course, the listeners will not be able to see it.
But there's something called Digit Now USB Audio Capture, and you can hook it up to your turntable and connect it to your computer.
And then you can transform your LP track into an MP3.
So that's what I did to capture this track off of the record.
So I hope it sounds good.
I listened to it.
It sounded good, but it's a fun, upbeat song.
And I hope that people will enjoy it.
This is a Nordwind with the song We Wish You.
This is genuine Autistic Anger.
Everybody.
We got to say it, Jim.
What's the yeah, we wish you many sons and a lot of guns.
I forgot.
You're right.
Yes.
Come on, buddy.
Good night, everybody.
And I wish you many sons and a lot of guns.
Thank you, guys.
I forgot.
Damn it.
See ya.
See ya.
Oh, away we go, laughing through the way.
Bab and both ring, making spirits fly.
Slayers are alive.
Sing a bag, sing about, sing it all the way.
Oh, what fun is to ride in one horse open sleigh?
Single bells, sing a bell, sing it all the way.
Oh, I find it to ride upon a top and sleigh.
With best in the fair, a day or two ago, I want to take a ride.
And soon Miss Halli Bride was seated by my side.
Your simple life just wanted to sing the slot.
We got into a drifted bang and we had got a shot.
Sing a bell, sing a bell, sing it all the way.
Oh, I'm funny to ride in one horse of my sleigh.
Single bells, single bells, sing it all the way.
Oh, what fun is to ride in one hot open sleigh?
I'm dreaming over one Christmas, just like the ones I used to know.
Well, the tree talks get sad and children listen to here the snow.
I'm dreaming of a wide Christmas, just like the ones I used to know, While the tree drops get sad and children listen To hear the better the snow.
Wish you a Merry Christmas.
We wish you a Merry Christmas.
We wish you a Merry Christmas And a Happy New Year.
We wish you a Merry Christmas.
We wish you a Merry Christmas.
We wish you a Merry Christmas And a Happy Night Year.
Here's the sight of my daughter.
I realize greatness, Ilona, Magil, Shia, Kuda, Mariamanobata, Dante King of Kuna Maneza, Biana, Prasad Familiar Ice Monster I'm Hannah Conde Part of Uti La Hummeku Nick, Kishi, Agni, Kani, Yane, Nika,
Camero and Kuswari Ya, Coma, Crystal, Yenai, Matu Ramana, We wish you a Merry Christmas, we wish you a Merry Christmas, we wish you a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year.
We wish you a Merry Christmas, we wish you a Merry Christmas, we wish you a Merry Christmas, and a Happy New Year.