Episode 99. A Discussion with SRA Survivor - Cheryl Beck
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And today, we have a very special guest with us, Cheryl Beck.
You can find her on Twitter, at CA Beck.
She is a survivor of satanic ritual abuse of the worst kind.
And we're going to get into all of this.
So, Cheryl, if you just want to introduce yourself really quick, and then we'll jump into your intro here.
Hey, it's Cheryl from Arizona, wanting to be in the Northwest Territory up there with y'all.
And it's good to meet everybody.
Thank you for having me.
Anytime. Thank you for coming on.
So Cheryl Beck was born in 1961 and raised in the North San Diego coastal paradise of Carlsbad, California, until the age of 18. Like most children living there, she had a love for the water.
Whether in the Pacific Ocean or in pools, and became a proficient swimmer, lifeguard, swim instructor, and eventually an aquatics director.
Cheryl's mother and siblings sold their home and most of their belongings after she graduated high school and moved into an RV to explore the back roads beauties of America, including some select national parks, for two months.
Then they arrived in Michigan to be near her mother's family.
It was here that Cheryl got a job waitressing, which taught her how to easily start conversations with anybody, even after having been quite an introvert growing up.
She set out on her own at the age of 20 and headed back to a certain camp in California where she met her husband.
After 18 months of life together working at the camp, they moved to Orange County and stayed with her in-laws as he began his career with the post office.
Cheryl worked for Nordstrom as a stockperson, then found out she was pregnant with her first child.
This is when she became an aquatics director at the local...
YMCA. Their daughter had arrived in October of 1985, and the couple set their sights on moving to a rural lifestyle in the central Arizona mountains, high desert grasslands region.
They would move to Arizona in November of 1986, which they say was one of the best decisions they had ever made.
Cheryl would go on to have two sons and would run a home daycare.
The biggest desire in Cheryl's life had been to be a mother.
Life was beautiful in their new country home on two and a half acres.
The very life the couple had dreamed about, it all came true.
And through friends, they joined a local non-denominational church and served in many capacities there.
After experiencing some health problems, Cheryl was accepted into the nursing program and she graduated nursing school in 1998, Phi Theta Kappa, and landed her dream nursing position at the local hospital.
Cheryl is here today to tell us about the unplanned events that came to call and how it all changed the course of her life forever.
So again, thank you for being here, Cheryl.
Thank you for having me.
And I don't know where you want to start with this.
Well, let's start at the beginning.
Perfect. Okay.
So, yeah, I was born into a bloodline Luciferian family.
In modern lingo, that would be called an Illuminati family.
But they're actually Luciferians and follow the Luciferian religion.
And in that religion...
It's satanic ritual abuse and you do certain things to children at certain ages.
This is the trauma-based mind control that MKUltra adopted and militarized and used in Project MKUltra.
These three entities came together, OSS, the Nazi paperclip doctors, and the Illuminati families into a three-strand cord or three...
tree trunk tree and grew out all over the world.
Among them, they made an agreement for non-investigation and non-prosecution.
So people wonder why nobody is ever brought to justice in any of these crimes.
If you're familiar with them, it's because they have this agreement that started at the very beginning
So, as the OSS became the CIA, this agreement was in place.
The reason why they brought these multi-generational Luciferian families into them is because they wanted to learn their trauma-based mind control.
And so that's what they did.
They also wanted to learn their sorceries and black magic and all the horrible things that they had done for generation after generation after generation in the bloodlines.
So I was born into this family, and I can remember my paternal grandmother.
I believe she was a witch from the very beginning because she had long red fingernails, and my first memory was these long red fingernails reaching out to me, and I was in diapers and kicking at her hands.
And so that was a very, very early memory.
That's interesting.
From there, these paternal grandparents lived in Carlsbad near us.
And in fact, that step-grandfather was in the OSS.
Quick question about your grandmother.
Would she be what's called the high priestess?
She probably was at some point.
Sort of like an untouchable...
She was in the Daughters of Nefertiti in the Freemasons.
Okay. The family that I was born into were multi-generational Rosicrucians.
I mean, the Fellowship of the Rosy Cross all the way back to the 1400s or so.
I'm sure the Eastern Star is part of that, too.
Yeah, but she was way above that.
Oh, way above that.
Ooh, wow.
Yeah, and then...
In the Rosicrucian Fellowship, it was the international version.
It wasn't the American version.
And so in that, they're supposed to be hermetic healers, and they are supposed to live for 300 to 400 years and things like that.
So there was a fellowship in the next city over in Oceanside, California, and that's where...
A lot of my programming occurred in MKUltra.
So anyway, at the age of two, they started my trauma-based mind control programming in SRA.
And what they did was they wanted to create a doll, D-O-L-L, altar, to have eyes but not see, ears that not hear, and a mouth that does not speak, to be quiet in the rituals, and then to not remember what happened.
So at age two, I had a doll named Thumbelina that I just adored.
I always had baby dolls, but Thumbelina was special.
So what they did to traumatize me was to chop off the end of my left thumb in a ritual and put it in a pickle jar and show it to me to keep me quiet.
That way they had a reinforcement, and if I ever told what happened to me, then I would lose the tops of other digits.
Oh my God.
And no, there was no anesthesiology, anesthesia, or anything like that.
The hair doctor, my pediatrician, was the high priest, and he was also a Nazi paperclip doctor.
He was the one that chopped off the end of my thumb.
And he was there a lot in these rituals to resuscitate me in case they took things too far.
Now, would this have been Jose Delgado or Dr. Green?
No, this is a pediatrician in the area where I grew up.
Okay. And I just call him Herr, like in German, H-E-R-R, Herr Dr. I don't say his name for repercussions, but he's long dead.
Okay. And I am looking here at pictures you sent.
Here's one at one year old and another at two years old.
And that's when they cut...
It's a profound difference, isn't it?
Yeah. And if you can see, that's my left thumb in that two year old picture.
And it's very inflamed and red.
And you look very sad.
Incredibly sad.
Yeah. Oh, man.
At this point...
Okay, can you tell me...
That's 965.
Well, at this point, you're about three years old in your story, right?
Well, at two, what happened was my father took my older sister, who was four, and I to see the local oracle, which is a black witch in the family.
And the oracle determines your life path.
She... Goes over your astrological birth chart.
She goes over the gematria of your name, and then she consults her spirits to see which life path they're going to use you in in the family.
Well, my older sister, she declared, was an oracle like her, so they were going to train her in that path.
However, my mom had changed my middle name by one letter.
Yeah. Which would mean?
Expendables mean that they're used in trafficking amongst the families.
They are used in kiddie porn and prostitution to make money for the family.
And if the brutality is taken too far and they die, it's no big deal.
Expendables are not supposed to live.
Oh my God.
To adulthood.
And you're both your...
Cricket, it said you stopped recording.
Yeah. Oh, God's only no.
Yeah. I have a recording set for Cheryl and I, but a thing popped up.
It said you stopped recording.
We have an issue every time with the show.
That's all right.
Yeah, it's always wrong.
Something doesn't like Cricket in the wires, the ghost of the machine.
I understand when things happen.
Oh, I have stories.
Well, hang tight.
I'm going to refresh my screen and see what happens.
Take a straw.
Take a straw.
That's the first time that's happened.
I'm sorry, Cheryl.
This is ridiculous.
Oh, gosh.
Okay. This wasn't in the plan.
Oh, gosh.
Perfect. It says you're recording again.
Okay, good.
Here's hoping.
Where were we?
We were talking right after I was deemed an expendable.
Yes, okay.
So they determined you to be an expendable.
And you also have two sisters, older sisters, I'm presuming?
I have one older sister, and that's the one that was put in MKUltra as well as me.
But my younger sister had blue eyes like my father, so she was a chosen one.
So she wasn't brutalized or used in MKUltra.
And the blue eyes, what does that signify?
In that family line, it signifies that you're a chosen one to learn priesthood duties, to be of value to the new world order.
Interesting. It seems like blue eyes have always been held with high esteem throughout forever.
Forever. Right.
I have green eyes.
It was confusing to me.
It was confusing to me because why did he marry a brown-eyed woman if it was so important to him to have a blue-eyed child?
I found out later why, but...
Can we get into that?
Sure. I'm intrigued.
My mother is O negative blood.
My father was O positive.
And the thing with bloodlines is...
They have a lot of sex, right?
So there are kids all over the place that are born, and they want to keep the bloodline pure into an RH negative blood type.
And it has to do with their beliefs that they came from Lilith and Satan, and they are the bloodline of Cain, and that should be a negative RH factor blood type.
And the highest prized one is AB negative.
There's some medical properties to negative RH blood.
And there's also, there tends to be more psychic people in the RH negative bloodline.
And my mother's mother was a spiritism affectionado.
And she was a well-renowned spiritualist in that area in Michigan, where they constantly had poltergeist activity in my grandma's house.
And they would have people come in for readings to her and things like that.
inherited a prophetic gift and seeing things.
And therefore...
She was prized, too.
Now, here's a country woman, my mom, in a rural part of southern Michigan, and suddenly a warlock from Hollywood shows up at their doorstep.
And the explanation that my mom has for that just doesn't make sense.
She said she did a drawing in one of those drawing contests and sent it in the Hollywood.
So she made a drawing.
She was an artist.
She could draw.
And suddenly a warlock comes to their doorstep out in the country to talk to her.
And he took her out to lunch and he propositioned her that he would take her to Hollywood, train her in the arts of spiritism and other things.
And she would be his concubine, of course, but he would make her famous and be a Hollywood starlet if she would come with him.
Do we have an idea who this guy was?
No. Okay.
But he's from Hollywood.
Sounds almost like a program cover story.
Like written in to the brain in lieu of what happened.
Right. I find it interesting the R.H. Blood thing because like way back in the day when Ancient Aliens started, I don't know what your feelings are on Ancient Aliens, the TV show, but that would often be brought up in terms of like Anunnaki and other alien races or whatever coming to The planet in search of those people with RH negative blood.
So that's just kind of a weird thing.
I don't know why.
What's the connection there with aliens, Anunnaki, RH negative blood, and these people who run these cults, more or less?
Nephilim. Nephilim blood.
Nephilim blood.
They believe that the negative signals that...
There is Nephilim blood running through their veins.
And Nephilim, of course, are crossed between the fallen angels and humans.
So it goes all the way back to...
Not Cain.
Adam. Or Eve, I guess.
They believe Cain was conceived of...
Actually, Lilith and Satan, but...
Lilith, yes.
They call...
They interchange that with Eve and...
Her son, Cain, that was the red hair.
The red hair is key, too.
They find that in a lot of the Nephilim remains that have been discovered around the world that's not disclosed to the public, that they are red-haired giants.
I hear that a lot.
Red-haired giants.
It's so weird how it all intertwines.
One or the other is a front, and it's definitely not SRA.
So it's like...
There's so much intertwining of ancient alien stuff and these ritualistic, satanic ritualistic groups.
It's almost like one's a cover story for the other to make it convoluted and make people think it's absolutely ridiculous or something.
Oh, exactly.
If they can keep the confusion going, you're never going to get to the truth, right?
Absolutely. That was in my life.
You know, perpetrators were given other names when they were perpetrating, so I wouldn't know who was actually perpetrating against me.
And even in the bloodlines, they changed their names all the time.
If you try and trace, like, for instance, the Collins bloodline or the Disney bloodline, then it goes back to these hidden black...
Black, nobility-type bloodlines, and it is supposed to be convoluted like that.
Now, my bloodline was the Merovingian bloodline that I said are, you know, it's the Holy Blood, Holy Grail bloodline, and they're supposed to be hermetic healers, and that goes back centuries.
I think, and correct me if I'm wrong, but isn't that bloodline also part of the Pesaur bloodline?
It's supposed to be, yeah.
But people would recognize it the most by the Da Vinci Code.
Yeah. Which are, you know, those two families just mentioned.
No one's supposed to talk about those two.
Keep your mouth shut, especially about those pace hours, apparently.
Right. Not supposed to talk about the pace hours at all, but I'm going to talk about them.
Yeah, it's kind of in the Plantagenes and, you know, it's...
And then you just dig farther and the names change.
But it's always linked into, for instance, we're a descendant, a bastard line of Friedrich Wilhelm II of Prussia.
What have I heard that name in my researches?
Oh yeah, he was the king of Prussia.
And he was the one that made Rosicrucianism a legal...
Religion in Prussia.
Okay. Was he also one of these people who would take...
Well, there goes Cricket again.
Who would take...
Who would do these human hunting parties on vast estates?
Oh, that's been part of the bloodlines for a long time, so...
Okay. He's more...
He lived in the 1800s, so...
Okay. Okay.
Yikes. I kind of want to do this in kind of a timeline fashion.
So let's back up to when you're like four years old.
Because they wanted to make you a doll, right?
One of your altars.
They use the doll altar in ritual, in the SRA.
So, you know, nothing was remembered.
You wouldn't see, hear, speak.
You can't speak.
You can't disturb a ritual or Satan gets mad.
There's no grace in messing up in a ritual.
It is a death penalty.
A quick question on these different groups, like your alphas and your betas and your, well, all of them.
Are you predestined or chosen to stay in one of those groups the whole time?
Or do they decide, okay, maybe this person isn't supposed to be a beta.
Maybe they're supposed to be a delta.
Do they do that?
Yeah, they do.
It can change based on...
I was a problem.
Okay, so what you're talking about now is MKUltra and the green programming that was talked about in the Green Bomb speech by Corey Hammond.
And what they do is, in MKUltra, they select you for programs.
They do a personality test.
And then they evaluate your IQ.
I had a mental level IQ.
I had a photographic memory.
Part of that was induced.
In earlier experiments at Montreal Neurological Institute by Wilder Penfield.
Anyhow, they do a personality test.
What we wrote about in the book was they did a game called Button Button where we children were in the old-time school desks and we were wired up with electricity.
In front of us sat...
These dark windows, and there were people behind these windows, and there were also people at a table in front of the children watching us.
And the button-button game was they would send a red light pulsing through all the desks.
So we all had a red light sitting on our desk and a button beside it.
So the room, it would swirl around and swirl around, and the red button would stop, and when it was flashing on your desk, you hit the button.
Simple enough, right?
My sister was also in the room at this time.
And what we found out was when you hit that button, it caused an electric shock to another child in the room.
Well, my personality is such that I am loathe to hurt anybody.
Naturally, yeah.
And by age four, I had been through enough trauma already to really shut my personality down.
Who I am today wasn't the child I was back then.
My original core self was hidden away before they started doing the splits.
So anyhow, when I realized that other kids were getting shocked, I wasn't...
Real keen on hitting the button.
They started out with mild shocks.
Now my sister, on the other hand, she'd hit the button, but she was getting more angry.
She's a fighter.
She's really, you know, if somebody's going to attack her or anybody in her family, she's going to fight them.
So this is sorting out personality types.
I stopped hitting the button when the shocks were getting painful.
And it would cause you to scream, right?
And so what happened was they then made my button flash again and again and again.
And if I didn't hit the button, they would electroshock me and increase it each time.
And I just let it happen until I was passed out at the desk.
Well, my older sister...
Got mad and she overturned her desk and she was crawling towards the people sitting at the table.
I'm going to kill you for hurting my sister.
And therefore she was chosen for more military applications, guerrilla warfare in her programming with MKUltra where I was this child that would take any kind of pain whatsoever in order to not hurt anybody else.
So they agreed with the witch that said I wasn't expendable and I was going to be used in child trafficking and just put that into my MKUltra programming to be a child seductress assassin, eventually the assassin part.
But, you know, at four years old, the child seductress.
Man. So they start out in the programming.
Everybody has an alpha.
That's the first.
What? Yes.
Wow. Wow.
Wow. Wow.
Well, what was happening was the international family had gathered in the Upper Peninsula of Michigan.
And Joseph Mengele had been adopted into the Merovingian family bloodline, or he was a bloodliner to begin with.
That, I don't know for sure why.
But I had to call him Vaterchen, which is daddy in German.
And we had to refer to people in my family.
It was die Familie in German, and we had to refer to the leaders as der Kaiser and die Kaiserin, which are emperor titles, you know, king and queen, basically.
And so, yeah, I was taken, and my sister was there, too, and I don't know if they did the same procedure to her, but what happened was Mengele took me...
I was on the ground, and he systematically raped me.
But in doing so, he first started by dislocating my arms and legs.
And then he systematically raped me, and at the end, he put my arms and legs back in socket.
This is what they did to me in my programming for MKUltra, was constantly dislocate my arms and legs.
Oh, my God.
It was at night.
They sent me down a mining sleuth in that area and had a rope around my waist out into Lake Superior off a cliff, shoot me out, hit the icy water, and that's like a near-death experience.
And that's little girl, the personality, learning how to fly, to dissociate, to have that feeling of flying away from the body.
Then you hit that water and then I reeled up the cliff.
So, all the alters then come out of the Alpha altar, whose name was Little Girl.
And I found another survivor from Michigan who had the same experience with Mengele a few years earlier at Little Girl Point.
So, if people want to look up the legend of Little Girl Point on Michigan's Upper Peninsula, you'll find out why they chose that place.
I'm assuming you don't want to name who that other survivor was.
Carol Rutz.
Okay. She wrote a book, too.
Okay. And I'm in her book, so yeah.
I haven't heard that name.
What is it, Carol?
R-U-T-Z.
Carol Rutz.
Okay. You mentioned Michigan.
So I've been digging into North Fox Island.
Do you know anything about that?
Is that connected at all with any of this that you were involved with?
I haven't heard of that place.
However, Michigan is loaded.
Mackinac Island.
Is a place where they've done things.
The Button Button game was at Camp Grayling in Michigan.
Okay. Yeah.
There's North Fox Island.
It was big in the 70s and 80s.
The people that owned the island were caught for producing child pornography and they were all connected with a lot of people.
And they got caught for it, but nothing ever happened to them.
I think one went to jail, quote-unquote, but was released pretty much right afterward.
And they were running this entire, not even child pornography production, but obviously kidnapping, all sorts of abuse and murder.
And they had connected it to the Atlanta child murders.
So I was just wondering if you had any more information on that.
Well, we had a president or two that were from Michigan that were involved in that kind of stuff.
Lyndon B. Johnson and Gerald Ford were involved in that stuff in Michigan.
It seems like every president was involved in some way or another.
Would that have been during the White House scandal when they were bringing in callboys to the White House?
That was later with a different president.
Okay. Yeah, I think it was Reagan.
The Franklin scandal.
Yeah, I think it was Reagan.
So many of the key players came in during that Ford administration.
We went over that a few episodes ago, actually.
Pretty significant portion of the players in play now actually came into power back then.
Yeah, it's true.
Way back in the Ford admin.
Yep. And to think he's portrayed as so bumbling and kindly.
It's disgusting.
Yeah, well, if you're familiar with...
I think it was Sue Ford, Bryce Taylor's book.
I can't remember if it was Bryce Taylor or Kathy O'Brien that mentioned something about Reagan.
Yeah, Kathy O'Brien, definitely.
Yes. He was from Hollywood.
And what did Nancy do?
She consulted astrologers all the time.
You know, to do things.
And so...
Yeah. I mean, Reagan apparently did some good things for the nation, but he had a double life, too.
It seems like they all do.
The better pill to swallow is realizing that you don't tend to get to that kind of level of power without being dirtied in some way, so...
Yeah. How would you avoid it?
Right. So how would you avoid it and make it?
Right, right.
They don't let you up the ladder if you're not doing what they tell you to do.
Oh, goodness gracious.
So, okay.
How does Disney tie into this?
So I was in Southern California.
My father kept us in about a three-mile radius.
Of Carlsbad, literally by having old junk cars that we couldn't go very far in.
That's how he controlled my mother and we kids, very tightly.
But he and his mother took my sister and I up to Disneyland by train.
Of course, he couldn't drive up there.
And out of those trips, we have a picture or two.
Of standing in front of Small World or something like that.
But no memories of spending the entire day and coming back on the train late at night.
What happened was I was trafficked there in Club 33 in Disneyland, Southern California.
Club 33 has an underground.
All of Disneyland, all of Disney World, they have tunnels.
Everybody kind of knows that they move their characters by tunnels.
But there's tunnels, there's sub-tunnels, and there's sub-tunnels.
And some are for the machinery that's used in the attractions above ground.
So, anyhow, Club 33 had another level with bedrooms where the members could come in and do their pedophile stuff.
And child sex slaves were brought in there at Disneyland to service them.
You notice that Club 33 members pay an exorbitant amount of money to be members.
Yeah. An exorbitant amount of money to be members.
And they can drink and do all kinds of things because they're members.
So the tunnels not only went through Disneyland, but they radiated out of Disneyland.
So another ritual that happened to me with my grandmother present and my father present was a place that had an indoor pyramid without a capstone.
And it was a ritual for the feline god Bastet.
And they had a dead cat sitting on this pillow on top of where the capstone would go.
And everybody was dressed in Egyptian regalia and things like that.
And my grandmother was part of it.
I was stripped and I was roped down to the side of the pyramid.
And in came a procession of a certain man with these naked females just arousing him.
You know, just around him, just telling him what a wonderful God he is and things like that.
And he proceeded to the side of the pyramid where he raped me as part of the ritual.
And then I can remember cleaning up and getting dressed again.
I was five after that happened.
I was researching myself in college.
Pulled out this book called Acid Dreams, and it flipped open to a page, and there's this man, this picture, his face, looking at me.
And I had a total, like, I almost passed out.
I went into a spin program, which causes vertigo.
Everything spins in your head, and you can't, like, grab a thought.
Fortunately, there was a chair nearby in my college library, and it kind of stumbled into it.
It just sat there holding my head, like...
Who is this?
Well, it was George Hunter White, who was notably part of MKUltra Experiments in California.
Wow. It's amazing how many of these names are connected to this.
George White is just infamous for having the two-way mirrors in those brothels and having these...
I don't know, underage or of age prostitutes handling very rich and influential politicians to blackmail them, essentially.
Right. And members of the military and, yeah, the politicians.
So what happened to me at age four, go back a little bit, at age four on my fourth birthday, my virginity was sacrificed to Lucifer.
And what happened was, again, pediatricians, the high priest, and he's walking around in a pope outfit with the miter hat and the staff.
And they put me on the altar and he took that staff and he lanced me vaginally with that staff.
They had a white cloth underneath me that caught the blood.
And then, you know, they take that cloth out and...
A blood orgy commences for celebrating the fact that my virginity was sacrificed to Lucifer.
Well, they had a tent.
They had a couple tents there.
This is in an outdoor park, okay?
It was a park that the Mission San Luis Rey in Oceanside, California, owned across the highway.
And this park was used constantly for a bunch of things.
But this happened on my fourth birthday, and then I was taken into a tent, and the pediatrician then took a scalpel and sliced the back of my vaginal wall because I was being prepared to accommodate grown men for prostitution as a child.
What they did from there was take me and impale me on a Baphomet statue and strap me to it and leave me there for the weekend.
On that statue, so I would stretch.
Oh my God.
Oh my God.
And then they took me up to Scotty's Castle in the desert, Death Valley.
It's right outside Death Valley.
Scotty's Castle is a ritual place.
And there was a man they called the Baphomet.
And his job was to...
Continue stretching the little girls that were sent up there.
So we would heal and have our genitalia stretched to accommodate men.
So that's how I was prepped to be a sex slave.
That's just beyond horrible.
That's just beyond horrible.
How do you even, I don't have nothing to say about that.
I'm just sorry that you had to go through this crap and the thousands if not millions of other children who have already gone through or are going through or will go through these processes.
This is just maddening.
Maddening. It's all just so revolting.
I am so sorry.
My God.
Thank you.
Well, and I forgot to mention too, at three years old, they do the sodomy ritual to both boys and girls in the family.
And this is where you hear about panda eyes.
I was going to ask.
People are familiar with that.
And unfortunately, the pictures that are circulating online for panda's eyes of little children were traumatic brain injuries.
Those children were not victims of sodomy.
I've done the research into their stories.
Panda's eyes are predominantly under the eyes.
But I do have...
Black rings still under my eyes.
Because what that does is it causes your eyes to bulge.
And the little capillaries under your eyes break.
And so they cause the black eyes, all the capillaries are hemorrhaging underneath that.
And then with repetitive abuse, they stay, you know, you constantly have these black eyes.
Unfortunately, that carries into your later life.
You're scarred for life, literally.
My gynecologist did document the sodomy scarring as well as what happened to me as a female inside.
I had a hysterectomy at 33. She knew I'd been trafficked, so she documented everything.
Yeah, I did want to ask you to set the record straight on the panda eyes because before you said that, I had this...
Question laid out is that so many people are passing around these photos declaring that it's panda eyes when it's definitely not panda eyes.
And then I was going to have you explain what that is.
And so essentially that's like for sodomy and they're hitting the vagus nerve?
The vagus nerve, yeah.
The vagus nerve.
So mine is totally messed up.
My vagus nerve is totally messed up.
And the damage from sodomy at that age, I mean, I carry it, right?
I can tell you that what my gynecologist documented when I had my hysterectomy at 33 was in three places, my colon was ripped from the pelvic wall.
So I have a floppy, redundant colon.
It affects the vagus nerve, so you don't have good gut motility, especially colon motility.
And so I have a floppy, redundant colon, so it's not all laid out real nice in a square-looking kind of thing.
It falls down and it loops around a couple times, so there's a lot of digestive issues.
And, you know, I had chronic constipation as a child.
And a lot of the kids that go through this stuff were given enemas constantly by our moms.
It was from the damage, but it's also a prep that they do for when they're shooting pornography to have a clean shot, so to speak.
And that can be from, they did that with regular medical enemas, but they also did that with things like garden hoses and things like that.
There's just a lot of damage internally to a lot of us.
And the vagus nerve, unfortunately, the vagus nerve...
Not only is it in your rectum, but it goes all the way up to your brain.
And it also innervates major organs in your body, like your liver and your kidneys and all that kind of stuff.
So once that's damaged, the communications in your body are also damaged.
The neurohormone communications to your major organs.
I'm a retired RN, by the way, so I understand this stuff.
Yeah, thank you for clarifying that, too.
What is the point of that?
What is the purpose of panda eyes?
I know you kind of explained it, but I'm having trouble understanding why.
They think they're opening the third eye of the child, the pineal gland.
Okay, that makes sense.
Now, is that something that's more for the, what is it, theta?
Like, for the psychics?
It's for every child.
Every child.
Every child goes through that.
Yes, it's to make the children more susceptible to the spirits because they also attach a demon when they do that in a ritual to the child.
Yes. So that's every bloodline child.
That's every bloodline child.
My goodness.
Alright, so I'm looking at these pictures you had sent about some of these programming by Dr. Green at Disney.
It wasn't at Disney.
It wasn't at Disney.
Right. So if you see the sexy Sadie one, that was my beta altar.
That was the creation of my beta altar.
What they did is a child lying in a morgue drawer in a basement of a hospital.
And they put me naked in a morgue drawer down in the basement of a hospital, face down.
And this was you and Cameron's psychic driving.
That they used to play a narrative of what the personality they want to come out of that drawer is going to be like.
So this was Sexy Sadie Programming.
That was my altar's name.
And I was face down in that morgue drawer.
I had the sound coming in through a hose and air.
And that was it.
And I was left for three days and nights, something like that.
No food, no water, no potty breaks, no nothing.
And until I would answer...
The programmer back is Sexy Sadie.
They would ask me questions, what I would look like, what I would do with men and women to please them, things like that.
Then I could come out of the drawer.
And then it was Martin Orne who was the programmer for that program with me.
And so then he then tested my skills personally afterwards because he was a pedophile.
People may recognize the name Martin Orne from the False Memory Syndrome Foundation.
He was on that board because that was all a CIA operation.
So he was one of the CIA psychiatrists.
Martin Orne?
O-R-N-E, Martin Orne.
Yes, he was one of the world's foremost authorities on hypnosis and an expert on social psychology and a leading figure in behavioral medicine.
Yes. Yeah.
Yes. And a pedophile.
And a pedophile.
And a program.
And running these insanely inhumane experiments on children.
Yes. My God.
Now, I admit, I'm not sure if it was you and Cameron, but it was up...
What is the place in Canada?
McGill University.
Ellen Memorial was you and Cameron.
And that was located at McGill University in Montreal.
Yeah, that one.
There was another doctor, part of that too.
And I had met a man, this was years ago.
He was also a victim of some sort of mind control experiments, but the doctors were putting these metal, almost just like needles, into his brain all over.
He had like 40 different needles and they would just leave them there.
And they would implant these electrodes and do these weird...
You know, experiments pumping electricity into his brain.
But he had, after all this was over and he had pressed charges eventually, they had taken x-rays of his head and it just showed all of these needles, every different direction, just in his brain, just left there.
And that was years ago before I had done any research into any of this, what we're talking about.
That just stuck with me.
And I had talked to him for quite some time and he was going through a lawsuit up in Canada for it.
And I think he passed away.
I would say that a lot of these things, they're not so much experiments.
They're training.
They've already gone through the experimental phase.
This stuff is in practice now.
That's a training session.
These are trainings.
The experiments were performed before.
They've gone well past experiments.
Yeah. Yeah, and they don't have to use invasive procedures anymore.
They've learned about frequency and EMF and all that type of stuff.
Yeah, I had an experience with you and Cameron at Allen Memorial when I was four, right before he died, because he died in 1965, and I was four in 1965.
At Ellen Memorial, you have a picture of where I'm in a helmet and I'm crying.
That's when they were doing the psychic driving that he perfected.
Back in the 60s, it was reel-to-reel tape recorders, right?
And so they would put people in Ellen Memorial down into comas and play the tapes over and over again.
So what they were doing was...
The term was used turning them into tabula rasa, or blank slates, and then trying to give them a new life by playing a script for a new life to bring them out of depression.
And there were Canadian survivors that successfully did sue the CIA because of what Ewan Cameron did to them in that, what they call, de-patterning.
And left them ruined for life.
I mean, they were infants again.
They had to learn to walk and talk and eat and potty train and do all that stuff as adults.
And that's why MKUltra used children.
Because if you disturb their personality before the age of six with hypnosis and the scripts of their alters and things, people don't know that...
The personality that they're presenting to in their, what I call the day life of, you know, you go to school, come home, things like that.
If they disturb that personality before the age of six, people don't know that that's not your correct personality.
And the child doesn't know any different.
Like, I had all these voices in my head from my earliest memory I had.
What I called many consciences because I was a bad, nasty little girl.
And they had to tell me how bad and nasty I was all the time to keep me in line.
So that's why they used children so they wouldn't have to...
Because if you de-pattern an adult, everybody knows it.
But if you start with children at a young age, nobody's going to really know.
It's true.
That's so true.
They say, you know, most modern psychologists, whatever the general consensus is, by the time you're six, five, six, seven years old, like that personality is who you are going to be.
Right. And so if they can totally alter that at that age or before that age, then it's open slate, right?
It's a clean slate.
They can do whatever they want to do, de-pattern you and all sorts of stuff.
And it's a lot harder to pick up on anything being abnormal when you haven't established what their normality would be.
Exactly, Cricket.
Exactly. So I presented to the world as a selective mute.
I was afraid of everybody in our town for good reason.
Carlsbad was a viper's nest.
It still is a viper's nest, as I call it.
A viper's nest is a concentration of Luciferians and Satanists.
And pedophiles.
And, you know, there were rings after rings.
I mean, I had teachers that were either in the circle or in the pedophile ring.
I had principals.
I had, my church was simply a front for de familia.
And so a lot of the rituals took place in the basement of the church.
Until eventually, like the third sanctuary that we had at that church, my father designed as a civil engineer, and it was designed to be soundproof and visual proof from the outside so they could do the rituals in the actual sanctuary.
And, Coop, you have pictures of what that church looks like.
Yep. You know, in the altar area with a black angel ascending and descending.
Now, does that look Lutheran to you?
Does that look Christian to you?
It split the church.
No. No.
Definitely not.
Maybe just the bottom one without the top one, maybe, but it's still really weird.
Yeah, it's really weird.
And it was...
And let's see, you have seven candles, seven white candles on the left, seven, eight?
No, eight on the right.
It's mainly that gray altar.
And it's a gray cement and the black wrought iron.
Yeah. And the eternal flame is red in that hanging.
Oh, those are flames?
That's called the eternal flame.
Okay. And it's red.
A chalice and the Constantine cross or what?
Yeah. Whatever that is.
Yeah. My father designed that.
And all the...
The real Christians left the church, and we were back down to De Familia.
Mainly, the elders ran the church, and they were all members of the family.
Wow. Okay, so the butterfly is really interesting.
The monarch.
Mm-hmm.
That's all part of the monarch program, MKUltra.
And it says, what, I am the resurrection?
That's supposed to be for Jesus, yeah.
Interesting. And there's a misconception with people that Luciferians can't say the name of Jesus, and that's totally false.
In the Bible, there's a way to test the spirit, so to speak, but that doesn't apply to the human beings because, look, Hillary Clinton could say she was a Methodist and give you scripture and say she believes in Jesus.
Yeah, spiritual law only applies 100% in the spirit realm.
You can't really reliably enforce it in the physical world.
That's why there's so many disparities in the first place.
Yes, and that's why so many churches are just totally Luciferian these days, especially megachurches.
Oh, yeah.
Oh, yeah.
And that's another subject.
That's another rabbit hole you can go down.
Oh, yeah.
I've gone down it.
I mean, those guys, these television creatures just make...
Billions of dollars.
And that's not...
I mean, that's making some weird deals with something else.
Right. It's not godly.
You got a limited cup of spirituality and you can fill it up with the spirit or mammon.
You've only got so much room.
And when you look at these people close up...
Eventually mammon's going to crowd out the spirit.
When you watch these bishops, these televised preachers talk...
Their eyes are so reptilian.
They are so reptilian-like.
And there are plenty of these videos going up to these guys and asking them, you know, why do you have so much money?
And they're just like, the wildest smile on their face, like they will eat your soul.
It's just so, it's so scary, man.
And I think anybody, regardless if you're religious or not, can look at those people and be like, oh my god, something's wrong with that person.
That is not a human being.
Yeah, I just feel like every...
You know, spiritual cautionary tale always starts with a man of eloquence appeared.
And the fact that people don't recognize when it happens is concerning.
Right. So for me, my father had taken us to this Lutheran church when I was two and four.
You know, that's when everything started for me, really, age two.
And they had given me the gospel of Jesus Christ and sprinkle baptized me.
And I understood that Jesus loved me from what they told me.
And I just wanted to die and go to heaven at that point.
And people say, you were two years old.
Okay, remember my IQ was tested and it was mental level.
Back then, it's not that way anymore.
Too many brain injuries, but I'm still above average, so I'll take it.
However, I understood that, and I grabbed onto Jesus, and what they would do, they would have Sunday school in the morning, and because this is a family teaching Sunday school, then in the late afternoon, we'd drive out to Vista,
and there was a farm out in Vista.
That they would then torture we kids for the scripture that we learned and try to get us to renounce Jesus in the afternoons.
And then we'd come back the windy road.
We called it the long windy road back to Carlsbad in the evening.
I remember just a snapshot of a farm and then the long windy road drive back.
I never remembered what happened there, but I have memories now of being told to renounce Jesus in torture.
They were torturing me and then killing a baby animal in front of me slowly.
I just made a decision very young that I just wanted them to kill me because everybody was torturing me.
And I was going to go to heaven to be with Jesus.
And they could never take that away from me.
I just always would choose to take myself out if they gave me an either-or kind of scenario as a child.
For instance, some of the experiments in MKUltra, they would tell you you were a lab rat and they'd keep you in a cage and then have you run an electrified maze like they do actual rats.
And I would just roll up against the side of...
The maze and electrocute myself because I was so done with being tortured all the time.
So sorry.
And then one time also they were wanting me to choose which child they were going to throw off a cliff into the ocean.
I was older.
I don't know what age I was.
Maybe nine.
But I could swim really well growing up on the beach.
And so they're giving me this either-or choice, but nobody's holding on to me.
So what did I do?
I jumped into the ocean because I knew how to jump safely and I knew how to swim.
They weren't going to make me pick which child got thrown off the edge of the cliff.
I was always trying to find the third option, and that's what dissociation is, too.
You're finding a way out when the trauma is overwhelming and inescapable.
You dissociate and create altars.
God built us that way.
God designed the human being to be able to do that, to dissociate.
And even if you see animals in hunts or, you know, on National Geographic, when leopards catch, you know, a gazelle, so to speak, you see their eyes zone out immediately.
And they dissociate too, the animals.
Yeah. So they're not feeling the pain in the body.
I could see that.
I always wondered how, just how...
How horrible that is to be like a gazelle and just getting attacked by a line of teeth around its neck.
That thing has just got to sit there and wait until it's asphyxiated or bleeds to death.
And it's like, yeah, there would be some sort of fail-safe system built into us animals and our brains to let us escape that pain and agony and kind of be on our way.
Yeah. Naturally presented with a release valve of sorts.
Well, because otherwise that would just break you permanently if you weren't able to do that.
Right. Anything with a soul can exit the body.
So gnarly.
So gnarly.
On a lighter note, what was this event that you went to in Georgia recently?
I went to the Warrior Bride Conference in Woodstock, Georgia, just north of Atlanta, where...
They had survivors and therapists teaching us about the new ways to help survivors heal faster with new technology.
That's really helping people.
As a survivor, I gave my testimony.
There was another survivor that gave their testimony.
And just people that are in the operations now to rescue the children.
Out of these horrible vipers' nests, people that are actually rescuing children and getting them the safety, the technologies, the more advanced spiritual things that therapists are encountering with the new survivors of SRA and dragons and Nephilim mothers and just...
It's like as in the days of Noah in the Bible, so it will be in the last days.
That's what they're seeing.
There's a lot of things like dragons and Nephilim and things like that in the undergrounds and the ones coming out of it.
So it was a plethora of therapists learning more, survivors giving their testimony how we heal.
And the ones who are actually on the front lines doing the work to get people out of SRA and get children rescued.
There was a speaker that has a ministry in South Africa.
And the mines have been abandoned in South Africa and the child traffickers have taken them over the tunnels.
His wife, he's an American.
His wife was from South Africa.
So they split their time between the United States and South Africa.
And they actually got a law passed in South Africa that any man found in those tunnels is going to be assumed to be a child trafficker and be arrested.
And they're seeing many children coming out of those tunnels now because that is going on.
Starting recovery houses for those children.
And then his partner is part of Russ Dizdar's ministry.
And Russ Dizdar was the pastor.
He and his wife passed away in 2020.
And he was on the front lines pulling, you know, he wanted every Satanist saved.
He wanted...
Every survivor saved.
Russ would go globally and rescue survivors and go to the very places like Wel...
I'm not going to pronounce this right.
Welvisburg Castle in Germany where there were Black rituals done and confront people like Michael Aquino.
And he was just on the front lines, you know.
For 30 years doing this ministry, and he wrote the book called The Black Awakening that talks about the super soldiers that have been programmed to cause just absolute chaos in our society when they're given a cue to prepare the way for the Antichrist.
Wow. Okay, you mentioned Thomas Aquino.
Michael. I mean, Michael Aquino, I'm sorry.
What was your connection with him?
Did you have a personal connection?
Yeah, I did.
I had two encounters with him.
Oh, man.
My first one, my family, my father, they were American Nazis.
And Michael Aquino was a fan of Hitler and the Nazis.
So what happened was, I was a small child.
I don't know.
What age I was.
I was definitely under five.
We were taken to this underground at Fort Ritchie.
And Fort Ritchie, Maryland, was a staging ground.
It was a simulation.
They built, like, German towns there with all the regalia and the cars and the uniforms of Nazi.
Officers and things like that.
So it was a simulation that they put soldiers through.
So they had all that regalia in their possession.
So in this underground, Michael Aquino is now the high priest.
He was called Malcolm in SRA.
And he presided over an indoor ritual there in full.
I mean, there was full.
Everyone that was...
High priests and things like that.
They were all dressed in Nazi regalia.
And there were flags and the banners and the iron crosses on poles in this underground cave room.
And in that, unfortunately, there was a horrible sacrifice of Jewish people that took place.
and basically
Basically, in that ritual, we learn that that's the fate of all Jews, and we should adopt that Nazi stance of hating the Jews, which I didn't.
I identified with them because I had brown hair and brown eyes, and they were constantly victimizing me.
I really don't describe what they did, but it was really, really, really bad.
Did it involve all ages?
Yeah. That they were killing?
Yeah. Basically, they burned them alive.
They were trapped in a certain way and burned them alive.
And then we had to march over.
We were made to all gather in a line and march over those embers left.
Hmm. Of them.
And then the second phase was they were going to teach us what draconian law is for the family lines.
And draconian law is that if you tell what happens, then they're going to grab your family and they're going to start with the pets and they'll go to the youngest child and the next oldest,
oldest, oldest.
And you're the last one that they're going to execute.
So what happened was they brought in this young teenage boy that had told and they had his family there.
And they executed from the smallest child through his parents and then executed him in this underground.
And that was to show us draconian law.
What was the method of execution there?
Gun. Gun.
Gunshot. So it, you know, extremely traumatizes the one that told, watching his whole family killed.
And, of course, it traumatizes all of us being forced to watch.
And when I say forced to watch, they would tape our eyes open, you know, and I was, my father was right behind me watching this willingly, of course.
And so I couldn't move.
I was, like, between his legs, you know, being face forward with my eyes taped open.
How are these people laughing and smiling as this is taking place?
They're just jovial about it?
Or is it more somber, like this is more of a ceremony type of thing?
With the mass execution, they were cheering and all that.
And then with the one-on-one, it was a more somber kind of, you better learn this quick to keep your mouth shut.
Yeah, I imagine in mass part of the The ritual is forcing the cheering.
Right, yeah.
Right. Until half of them don't need forced anymore.
Mm-hmm.
And then when my mom was in the hospital when I was five having my little sister...
My father fired the babysitters my mom had arranged so he could take my sister and I and just abuse us all weekend with his buddies from the Masonic Lodge.
And what he did before he did that was take us out and get us a kitten to love.
And, you know, when the weekend was done, of course, he killed the kitten and hung it on the fence and made us stand there for hours and look at the dead kitten.
And he said that would happen to our baby sister if we told what happened over the weekend.
That's unreal.
I mean, I've heard that before.
We see it in movies.
Satanists use pets all the time.
Inversion of affection is a key aspect in the mind control.
They'll make you make friends and take it from you.
They'll make you affectionate towards living things and then kill them in front of you.
They'll get you attached to things and then destroy them in front of you just to drive it into you that you're not allowed to have anything that is a positive connection with anyone or any item or any living thing.
Yeah, exactly.
They don't want you making attachments.
It's so unreal, man.
Like, it's so unreal.
Like, most people have no idea this takes place.
And when they do hear about it, it's just so unreal that they can't believe it.
They can't allow themselves to think that this sort of thing could ever take place.
And it's astounding.
Because this stuff happens constantly.
It's happening right now.
Yeah, it's an important thing to remember is as...
All the Nazism and everything round up in World War II.
All of this stuff was still happening underneath uninterrupted.
It was just simply a change of management and a change of venue.
Well, the Nazis didn't lose the war.
They went underground and they spread out around the world.
That's true.
Right? I mean, Joseph Mengele was one of my perpetrators.
You know, he came to Carl's.
They lost the war like you defeat AIDS.
Right, right.
And therefore...
You know, George H.W. Bush was another one of my perpetrators in the rituals.
I was trafficked.
Can we get into that?
Sure. Because I hate that man with a passion.
Yes. I was so glad when they eliminated him.
Anyhow, I was, as an expendable, this is how they trafficked children.
And this is hard to hear, too.
They put us in wire dog cages.
This is the 1960s dog cages.
They're not...
The wire ends will be loose and they can scratch your flesh and, you know, it's not anything made for the comfort of a dog.
So we were stripped down as expendables and stuffed.
I mean, stuffed into a cage so we couldn't move.
And they would keep our heads up so we could breathe, but we couldn't move.
And they would load us...
This particular time we were being taken to his celebration, they loaded us in the back of a semi-truck and they stacked us up into the sides.
They just packed it with expendable children.
Now, as in North San Diego County, they did a lot of bringing children over from Mexico all the time for rituals and things like that.
So it wasn't just expendables in the families, but a lot of children they just brought in from Mexico.
One big point, if I can really quick, a big point on that is the CIA group, the Finders, who would go out and find children to bring back to their farm.
They had a base in Mexico, and they were going down there very often to do things at this base and bring children back to the Finders cult in the States, wherever that was.
I forget where.
Anyways, continue.
Yeah, back in those days, all they had to do is hand a bribe to one of the border patrol.
I mean, there's no wall, there's no gates, there was no nothing, you just drive across, you know.
Yeah. And my friend.
I didn't know the finders had a base down there,
and I didn't know about the bullfights, but That's what they always went down there for, him and his buddies.
That's so interesting.
Wow. I'm going to have to find more.
Bullfights is a perfect excuse for crossing the border.
Yeah, dude.
I mean, why do you need to go to Mexico while they don't bullfight up here?
Because when they were caught and they asked the kids what they were doing in Mexico, they said they were brought down there to see bullfights.
So that's really weird.
Well, that's a validation for me again.
I'm 63. I'm still getting validations.
I didn't know that the Finders had an operation down there.
I knew about the Finders kind of more on the East Coast, but I didn't know that.
Anyhow. Cricket, are you aware of the Finders?
I looked a little bit into them.
Not terribly much, though.
Okay. I mean, it was a CIA group.
They were kidnapping children to do all these sorts of things, obviously.
There were ostensibly some kind of, yeah, child-finding group, essentially, that was out to rescue them, which at this point, with as much as I've studied, I'm cynical of anything that involves the word rescue.
And nobody ever gets prosecuted.
You know, everybody just walks.
The two people, the two guys that were caught in that...
The finders, when that whole thing blew up, it was two guys who were...
A woman called the cops because there were two scruffy-looking dudes in a van with a bunch of children running around that were all dirty and scruffy.
So this person was like, dude, I don't know what's up with these two guys with a bunch of kids that are filthy and dirty.
You need to come look at these guys.
Cops showed up, and they find tapes of child pornography, tons of computers, all sorts of surveillance equipment, all sorts of stuff in this van that's highly illegal.
And the kids literally told them, yeah, we're...
We're being abused and they were naked and just dirty and filthy.
The cops that arrived there first, you know, asked questions and got answers and stuff.
And they were just kind of basically told, leave it alone and let the guys go.
And there was an investigation, but they found a lot of stuff.
Extensive, extensive investigation.
They found so much evidence.
And yet...
Nothing happened.
They found two compounds loaded with all sorts of high-tech surveillance gear, computers, catalogs of child pornography, and people at these compounds, yet nobody was arrested, nobody served time, everything just disappeared.
To repurpose the home statement, if the dog isn't barking, it's your dog.
Absolutely. Exactly.
This shit pisses me off.
Dude, just the most extreme, man.
And then hearing from victims' first-hand accounts, this is just...
It adds a whole other layer of anger to me.
You know what I mean?
Yep. Because, I mean, my investigations, I just read what other people have written, listen to what other people have said, read victim statements and all this, but I've never got to talk to one personally, directly, and it...
It gives me goosebumps knowing that you have personally gone through these things that I have read about for years.
And I'm just like, it just blows my mind how these things operate.
And here you are.
It's just...
I'm just so sad.
Yeah. So, they loaded us in the back of the semi-truck and took us to Colorado to the Kimball Castle.
It's now called the Cherokee Castle.
And opened to the public.
But back then, it was a private family.
And they were going to celebrate George Sr. there.
Now, the thing to know about the Bushes is that they were the Sheriffs.
They're from Germany.
And they were Nazis.
Big Nazis.
Prescott Bush.
We had a Nazi president, y'all.
We had a Nazi president.
At least one.
George H.W. Bush.
George H.W. Bush was the one that spoke about a thousand points of light in the New World Order.
You look at his eyes when he's talking about that and they're reptilian.
They are.
Anyhow, we get there and the journey was horrible.
In the back of a semi, cages shift and kids are throwing up and kids are peeing and pooping and bleeding.
And when we get there, some of the children, of course, on the lower stacks had been crushed to death.
And it was no big deal to them.
We're all expendable.
So they just, you know, they pull us out in the cages and they hose us down and they hose the back of the truck down and they're good to go.
Anyhow. Ready for another shipment.
Yep, yep.
So they took us down to the basement level of this castle, and they had the boys and girls separated, the girls, you know, in cages.
We're all, again, our heads are up.
We're forced to look at things that happen.
There was a ritual going on in the next chamber of this dungeon level, and I could hear, you know, shrieks and hollers and the typical, like, blood orgy that happens after every sacrifice because they're high on adrenochrome.
And then they come into this room, and there's some hay bales sitting around and everything, and this is going to be Senior's Lupercalia ritual.
Luper as in wolf, L-U.
P-E-R, Lupercalia ritual.
And George Sr.'s secret service name was?
Timberwolf, yes.
Lupercal is a fertility ceremony.
This is the reason.
Ancient ceremony.
So what they did with We Little Girls was do all those banquet tables that are portable.
They set those up and they had, I was five.
We're all about the same age, and they had the Bush Senior go down the row of us naked little girls and, you know, insert himself into each one of us.
Yay! You know, he's going down the line.
He's not really excited about this.
It was like...
Oh, he wasn't laughing or anything?
Well, you know, he had an evil grin, and, you know, there's so much demonic in these people, in rituals, that, of course, they're going to have...
That manifesting on them.
But this wasn't the worst part of the ritual.
And then they take us girls and put us back in the cages after that.
And we're still being forced again to look forward.
And then they pull out toddler boys.
And I mean little, like two, three, four-year-old boys.
And that's when...
Senior becomes fully possessed by this wolf demon, right?
And he starts running, he's naked, he's running around on all fours just like a wolf would, okay?
And he's howling and he's barking and W is there, his son.
Now, if you know about W, he was programmed in such a way that he was programmed to fail in everything, to be the dummy, to be...
A patsy.
He was a raging alcoholic for a while.
He was never enough for his father.
So he was supposed to be that way.
They designed him to be that way.
Yeah. They just wanted to use him.
It worked.
That's why he failed upward.
Right. He failed upward.
Basically. Anyhow, it was his job in these rituals to try and contain his father when he got possessed and got wild.
And he tried to grab ahold of his father and hang on to him, restrain him from the little boys that were let loose into the middle.
And the little boys are frightened to death because this man is...
A wolf, you know?
I mean, he still was in his skin and stuff, but I mean, his face and his jowls kind of changed.
But, you know, his body still looked like a human, but it moved like a wolf.
Okay? This is full-on demon possession.
Anyhow, he tried to grab his father, and his father launched him across that room.
I mean...
The strength, when he just whacked his arm out at W, threw him across the room, he hit his head on the wall.
He hit his head so hard that there was blood streaming down, and he just slid down the wall unconscious.
And he was in his 20s, I think, at this point.
Was he really trying to stop his dad from doing something?
Yeah. Interesting.
Yeah, he was really trying to restrain him.
This is what he was programmed to do, right?
Crazy. Anyhow, so he's unconscious and Senior grabs a hold of the first three-year-old boy and literally rapes him so violently.
That the child splits apart.
Oh, oh my God.
And bleeds to death.
And then, you know, everybody knows that they cannibalize children, right?
Well, with the strength in his jaws being totally demon-possessed, he was just ripping these little boys apart.
And the last thing I remember in this ritual is him having an arm in his mouth still running around like a wolf growling and protecting the bones in his mouth.
Now, do you think H.W. was also part of an MKUltra program?
Was he also programmed early on and he was raised to be this guy?
Do all of these guys go through a ritual as children?
Yeah, they're all SRA programmed.
That's what I thought.
Now, GHW also knew programming, any new codes, how to call out alters and things like that, too.
So, you'll notice when W, you know, the whole 911, W was...
You know, just a patsy playing his part in that you look at his eyes when he's at the school, he's not there.
I mean, he's in an alter state at that point.
And his dad was still in, you know, his dad was basically president still.
Right, yeah.
You could say, you know.
And helping CIA, like, because he was CIA director.
Well, yeah, he was one of the ones that burned all the documentation of MKUltra so they wouldn't know about the children.
The only time W was ever allowed to speak without a halting tone was when he was talking about going to war and killing people.
It's the only time he ever had impassioned speeches where he wouldn't randomly bumble and sound like an idiot.
And then, now watch this swing!
Can you believe that?
Just like, oh yeah, we're killing a bunch of people.
Now watch me take this swing on a golf course.
Let me hit this ball.
Just a big smile on his face.
Like, what an asshat.
Yeah, he's totally robotic.
Totally. You're watching an altar doing what their job is.
Totally detached from emotion and things like that.
Yeah. I mean, altars are given scripts and you can operate that so one altar could be allowed the emotion of anger or bloodlust or just crying all the time or whatever.
Yeah, that was my experience with Bush Sr.
And I believe that was 1966.
My God.
And I have heard from other people about the little boys and why he had the name Timberwolf.
Please do share.
Well, they've just told me that he would always request little boys when he was abroad to be brought to him.
And the same thing happened to them.
That happened in that ritual.
Maybe not killing them, but he always wanted little boys.
And I know there are women that were also sexually abused by him, too.
But his preference was, you know, being a wolf and, you know, abusing the little boys.
Yeah, and I know he was also, with Reagan, he was also implicated in that 70s White House scandal with bringing cowboys and underage cowboys into the White House.
Yeah, the Franklin cover-up.
Yeah, part of the Franklin cover-up.
It's like, come on, Reagan and Bush Sr. were both pointed out as perpetrators while in the White House.
And you know what?
Let's not look into that.
Let's forget about that.
And Nixon was one of mine.
He didn't perpetrate against me himself, but he used my beta altar.
He brought me into the White House at 9 to service a...
President from Africa.
Oh my God.
And he also, when I was the helicopter pilot when I was 16, he also had me fly up to the Western White House, which was in San Clemente, California, when he was accompanied by Dick Cheney and Henry Kissinger.
Oh my God.
You had to be around all three of those guys?
It gets worse.
After they were done with my child sexual alter at the age of 10, you're too old for pedophiles.
And so, anyhow, they trained me in a different manner.
And I'm skipping part of my SRA story, but I was used as a breeder.
For the family to breed babies for sacrifice from the ages of 12 to 15. And my father needed to sacrifice a boy to move up into the hierarchy.
And so at 12, I had a baby girl.
And my father was very unhappy about that, to say the least.
They decided at that point that they needed to sacrifice me at 12 after the girl because I was not becoming the assassin seductress that they wanted.
I wouldn't kill.
My spirit inside me was strong enough that I would do the seduction and the framing of these dignitaries.
They had me living at Walter Reed Annex.
Under the cover of being an ambassador's daughter that I would accompany pedophiles to dinners at the White House.
Then we'd come back there and I'd have my little lair of potions and things where I would drug the ambassador, take the photos and videotape of him doing things with me for blackmail.
And the particular one I remember, we did find.
By his name and that he was an ambassador from Chile.
And so what I did was I gave him a paralytic, but I wouldn't kill him after all the blackmail stuff was done.
And I knew the team was in the next room to cover me if he got violent.
So I just wouldn't kill him.
So they had to take him out paralyzed.
They were just done with me at that point.
Both the family and MKUltra.
And so they were going to sacrifice me at 12. And I didn't walk out voluntarily from the house to the barn.
This is the same barn, by the way, where that Baphomet statue I talked about early in the broadcast was located.
Same place.
Instead, all the little children, I came out of my programming.
There were a bunch of little children to be used in the orgy afterwards, and I let them out the windows of this house.
I got them out the windows and told them, run back to your cars because it was in the middle of nowhere.
So they did, and they sent the butcher in to get me.
And the butcher was an actual butcher at the supermarket in Carlsbad.
But he was also the butcher for the ring.
So he came in to get me, and he was going to torture me with his knife until I would willingly walk in to be sacrificed.
Well, I went into my seductress assassin training, got the knife away from him, and plunged it into the back of his neck.
Whoa. It's heavy.
Yeah, that really messed up.
When I had that memory come back, I lost my photographic memory.
When I was still, I was in nursing school and I lost my photographic memory, so I really bombed the test the next day because I couldn't remember anything.
But anyhow, hair doctor came in to find why the butcher hadn't sent me in to be sacrificed, and I started screaming at him, save him, save him.
You know, save his life.
And he just crossed his arms and laughed.
And he said, well, well, well, I guess we can use you after all for more MKUltra stuff.
Wow. By killing that guy saved your life.
Yep. Because I would defend myself.
So then they put me in the military ground school programming for being a helicopter pilot.
And then they were still breeding me.
And I had a baby boy at 15 that...
They used sacrifice on Christmas Eve at the stroke of midnight in 1976.
My grandmother, the paternal grandmother, the witch, had flown out to see her son move up into the hierarchy with that baby's sacrifice.
And for three months while that baby was alive, they induced labor on the fall equinox and he was to be sacrificed to Kronos at the stroke of midnight Christmas Eve.
During that three months was the only time my father ever paid attention to me in my life, where he talked to me, he would take me, you know, fishing, he would do things.
He spent three months one-on-one monitoring me to see if I would remember having the baby, if any programming broke down.
And they took, what they did was, Herr Dr., of course, had a foster care where he had all these babies.
He was such a good man.
In the community?
And I'm being sarcastic, right?
But that was the cover.
And then at Christmas Eve, I was stripped and restrained in a horrible way.
My eyes were taped open.
I had long hair that the man restraining me wrapped around his arm real tight, so I had to watch what was happening.
And they brought my baby out and sacrificed him.
And I'll skip over exactly how that happened, but they did believe, and I found this in the Rosicrucian Fellowship, they did believe that psychic powers passed down through the living blood of people.
So if they drank the living blood, I mean, at the moment the person was killed, if they drank that, then they would get those powers of the...
The whole bloodline.
And this was, you know, this was 1976.
They still weren't learning about adrenochrome and what it really was scientifically, at least in public knowledge.
So they took it as evidence when they got the high off the adrenochrome that they were getting all those powers from the entire bloodline all the way back to Cain.
So there was this frenzied blood allergy that would happen after sacrifices because of the adrenochrome.
I would assume they'd all be fighting over all the blood spilled, trying to lick every last drop of it.
And cannibalizing.
And cannibalizing.
Question on, because you were raised to be a breeder, who was seminating you, I guess?
When I was 12, it was a boy that was 13 in the cult circle.
And the boy was also kind of like you.
He was also a child being abused and all that.
Or was he like a chosen one?
He wasn't chosen.
He had green eyes.
Green eyes also have a value to them.
Anyhow, that's who they chose to breed me with for reasons really unbeknownst to me, exactly why they chose him.
But my father would take me to their house and would send me in to be with him while him and the parents played guards in the kitchen area.
It's unreal.
And then the second time, I don't know who was the father.
I just, I don't know.
It couldn't be my father.
It had to be somebody else.
But me being my father's child was good enough to move him up into the hierarchy.
And at that point, they were done with me.
The family was absolutely done with me.
I wasn't taken into any more rituals and stuff.
And that's when the military helicopter pilot, Sarge, was the premier job of my life.
In Carlsbad at that time.
They would use me to fly a little bird with a gunner beside me over the border to Mexico and pick up raw drugs and pizza boxes.
Pizza boxes?
Yeah. They looked like pizza boxes, how the drugs were packaged.
So it looked like a stack of pizza parlor boxes when it was actually raw drug.
That's really interesting.
I don't know if you've heard it, but the Sean Puffy Combs did anything.
He was in prison and apparently a leaked phone call came out while he was in prison to one of his friends on the outs and he said, well, he was talking in code, but he said, get rid of the pizza boxes.
Recycle the plastic.
Get rid of the pizza boxes.
Recycle the plastic.
I don't know.
People are saying that was code to get rid of whatever remains of children that were there or drugs.
Little girls.
I don't know, that's really interesting.
Yeah. Yeah, because there's not plastic in my pizza boxes that we get, you know.
So when you're talking plastic, right?
Body bags.
I would think of little girls, yeah.
Man. This piece of little girls in the pedophile.
Right. One of the grossest parts about all of this is when you ask, you know, why is nothing done and why is no one held responsible all the time?
A lot of it isn't even the lack of prosecution agreement.
It's that the whole system has been built up around it.
Like, who would get away easiest with...
You know, sexual abuse and physical abuse.
A doctor who would get away the easiest with having blood all over themselves.
A butcher.
So it's all the pillar people just happened to be there because they needed to be there.
Right. Well, my father worked for City Hall.
Oh, wow.
It's all built up with this in mind.
Not just accidentally, but...
With these positions waiting to have someone fall into them that fits that bill.
I mean, they had the lawyer.
They had the lawyer there.
They had the doctors, the nurses, you know.
Yeah. There's legal cover.
There's forensic protection.
The whole community.
It's literally a whole community of people.
Get a small smattering of law enforcement corrupted and what do you have to fear?
The entire PD was corrupted in Carlsbad.
They had their own porn production house.
That don't sound reputable.
Anyhow, I was made...
I was made to fly up to the Western White House in the helicopter because he was showing off how you could put secret codes into a courier and bring up that altar.
They give the code.
You put a secret code back in, and you fly back and give that code to the handler in Carlsbad.
Wow. Yeah, and each altar doesn't know what the other altar was doing.
No, no.
It's crazy.
And they made an altar called Soldier in Me.
That under torture would present and appear to be just broken and crying and weeping and giving them all the truth, and that was just an altar.
The truth was still buried in a different altar, you know, back.
So, Soldier was always presenting under torture to hide the courier person altar.
I'm assuming there's evidence that that butcher...
Was taking meat of humans and selling it to the community?
Is there any evidence of that?
Well, you know, all I saw was his obituary in the paper.
Whether he was doing that or not, I don't know.
And unfortunately, we got our meat from that particular place.
So it was, you know, we're talking 1960s, 70s, where they had the open butcher area where they showed the...
Cow carcasses along the, you know, in lines in the butcher area.
So you knew where the meat was coming from?
Theoretically. Kind of.
More or less?
More or less, yeah.
Theoretically. Oh, man.
So, anyhow, when I went up to the White House, they were there, and Nixon extracts the code and puts a different one in, and he's just all giddy.
Proud about this program.
Well, Kissinger turns to him, he said,"Can I borrow her for a minute?" He says,"Sure." He took me, Kissinger took me in a side run.
Kissinger was a programmer handler, and he knew that most girls in the program had a beta alter, a sex alter.
So he pulled that one out.
You know, he pulled, at that age, she was called Samantha Gooding.
Pulled her out to perform a fillet show on him.
And then I was sent back out into the room and, you know, back into Sarge Alter to fly the helicopter back.
So that was my encounter with that gross monster.
Kissinger. And I was so glad when that thing was expired.
But they lived.
They live so long because of the blood.
Yeah, it's true.
All these guys live to 100 plus.
All these really nasty top dudes and women that do this stuff.
There's a reason.
There's a reason.
Oh yeah.
I mean, Henry Kissinger didn't just consider his soldiers to be expendable.
He considered every person around him to be the same.
He just reminded me of Jabba the Hutt by the time he died.
For real.
Yeah, dude.
How about Soros?
Did you ever have any interaction with George Soros?
I didn't know, but it's interesting that he held his international gatherings in La Costa, which is just east.
It's considered part of Carlsbad, California, but it was the Hollywood Enclave part of Carlsbad, and he would hold his fundraisers there, I found out, later in life.
So he had a tie there, too.
A lot of stars had a tie, too.
There's a tie.
Carlsbad. Oh, yes.
Chris Christopherson was one that just passed away.
Oh, no, really?
Yeah. Yikes.
Had a home there.
Man. It's always six degrees of the same people.
Clark Gable, I'm sure.
Is he part of it?
I don't know.
In La Costa, you knew it was all Hollywood people.
It was all the multimillionaire children that lived in La Costa.
Some of them were sent to our school.
Most of them went to private school.
But I didn't know two kids that were in my high school that lived out there that were mega-millionaire families.
But I remember one ritual I was taking out there.
And it involved water spirits.
And they actually had a swimming pool that had a pentagram on the bottom of it for rituals for water spirits.
What would happen with this?
What kind of rituals took place there?
Well, they liked to waterboard.
And there were different ways of using swimming pools for things like that.
But I've seen a water spirit be conjured where the water would water swirls.
In this particular ritual, it formed into a penis to worship Osiris.
The 13th part, okay.
Yeah, so...
Wow, that's...
Yeah, these guys use ancient, ancient, ancient rituals.
I mean, that goes back...
Ancient gods, ancient Sumerian gods, yeah.
Egyptian gods.
Of course, OTO was...
How about Crowley?
Alistair Crowley, was there any connection with him at all?
They just incorporated his teachings into what they were doing.
My baby boy was the perfect sacrifice because he was the perfect baby boy.
He was healthy and Crowley said to sacrifice a baby boy, the perfect baby boy is the best sacrifice.
And I want to mention, too, in rituals that they also did abortions all the time in rituals.
Yes. If you want to get into that, because that's a huge issue.
They did abortions for a specific reason, not...
Yeah, for human sacrifice.
For human sacrifice.
And they would cannibalize.
It's the perfect sacrifice because that baby is perfect.
They've never had a chance to sin.
So it's...
It's a perfect sacrifice to Satan.
No opportunity to be tainted by the world.
Unblemished child, yeah.
Right. Would they ever...
I mean, this is so dark and just gross, but would they ever just take that aborted baby and just start eating it?
Yeah. Yeah.
I mean, there was always a blood sacrifice and then the cannibalism.
No matter what age, if it was a blood sacrifice, at least in my family and the rituals, there would always be cannibalism afterwards.
And, you know, another horrible thing is they processed parts, like the bones and things, to make into jewelry, so that was their trophy.
Like a rib?
You know, from the baby.
Well, like, with my baby's sacrifice, when they took me over to the bonfire, They had branded me with a pentagram in the pubic region.
I crawled through the dirt afterwards and pulled myself up to the altar because they were all having their orgy.
They weren't paying attention to me once I was branded.
And so I pulled myself up.
I was drugged, so my legs were wobbling, and my head cleared the top, and the only thing left on that altar that...
Remnants of the baby were his two little feet.
And they were going to make a necklace or something out of the bones.
That's crazy.
For that sacrifice.
And then I fell back into the dirt after seeing that and all my alters died with that mommy.
All my SRA alters thought they died with mommy that night.
Of course, they just go behind an amnestic wall until later in life when the memories come back.
Just, it's unreal.
Unreal. Okay, so at the end of it all, how did you get out?
My mom, after that sacrifice occurred, my father was literally inhabited by a demon.
And he was just pure evil from sunup to sundown.
My mom divorced him right after that.
And he was out of the house.
And our life kind of got into more even keel.
We were still being accessed, but me only for the MKUltra stuff.
So when I was 18, I graduated high school.
We sold.
My mom got the house and the divorce settlement.
And so we sold the house and most everything that we had.
We knew we had to get out of the town.
We were not aware of any of the satanic abuse.
We just knew we had to get out of that place.
And so we sold everything and moved into an RV and took off across America for two months to hide in.
We didn't even know what we were hiding from except my father was extremely violent.
One time when I took my little sister over to have to visit him, and she wanted to because she was chosen, so she had a relationship with my father, a good relationship.
I took her over there and I picked her up.
He put his arm around my neck and said, the voices are telling me to try to kill you, you know.
And being a lifeguard, I knew how to get out of a chokehold in the water, so I just did that with him and knocked him backwards and was able to escape.
That day from him.
So we knew we had to escape him.
He pulled the rifle on us a million times, threatening to kill us and things like that.
So we got out of there and went and moved to, unfortunately, to Michigan, you know, where my mom was from.
Not knowing, not knowing all this stuff, right?
Not knowing we were going from one wiper's nest to another.
But I left home when I was 20. I didn't like it there.
And so I left home when I was 20 and went back to my job at the camp.
And that's how I escaped because I wasn't expendable.
I wasn't supposed to live in the first place.
MKUltra was done with me.
They'd put me into sleeper mode for my callback for the New World Order, which was Y2K was supposed to be one of their timelines for initiating the New World Order.
And it didn't come to pass, but I was supposed to report back.
And the programming all came flowing out of me once the day of 198 came up.
And so then all the programming of where I was supposed to return and everything hit my consciousness.
So I escaped because I wasn't expendable.
They left me alone.
Is there any possibility that...
Somehow an altar could be reawakened in you?
Back then, yeah.
What I did was I went into therapy, and my therapist was just a family therapist, but he was willing to learn from the professionals at that time, like Valerie Wolfe and Barb Seabury.
And this is, of course, all during the time of quote-unquote satanic.
Panic and the False Mary Syndrome Foundation.
I had connected with Dale Griffiths, who was the top cop that specialized in cult crimes.
And he was retired from the Tiffin, Ohio Police Department.
He would teach law enforcement, both military and civilian, how to recognize cult crimes.
In fact, he was an expert witness in the West Memphis 3 trial.
That put them away originally.
Anyhow, he was trying to arrest my father because other survivors in Michigan were reporting my father in his circle to him in that particular area.
Anyhow, what had happened to make...
More since my father had followed my family out to Michigan about 18 months after we moved there.
And I had already just left home, so I wasn't re-victimized where my sisters and my mom were by the circle there.
Scary stuff.
Are you worried at all today about any sort of retribution?
No, actually, you're safer talking.
Okay. And so I've been speaking out since 2001, on and off, because what happened was when Dale had that investigation going, the CIA took my father out.
They 1887'd him on his 64th birthday because he was too much of a liability at that point to all the operations.
And I flew out there to make sure he was dead.
It was pretty evident from his trailer that he was living in that they had tossed the place and sanitized it because there were a lot of things missing that he had boxes for, like video recorders and things like that, cameras.
They were all gone.
My father was never without a camera to take pictures of children and things.
They took him out so there would be no jury trial.
Ted Schwartz, who was an investigative reporter, and Dale Griffiths got together and turned their investigation into our book.
Secret Weapons.
Yes. Yes.
And I will be reading that book.
Be inhabited with a demon.
Well, these deals you make, they come at a terrible price.
You're inevitably going to be forced to pay them eventually.
You can only...
You can only defer that karma so long through sacrifices and ultimately all you're doing is piling more upon yourself in the end.
You're just delaying it effectively.
But it's almost a reverse of ascension because you're effectively being tied to the earth by this demonic presence that pulls you downward.
So I got two questions before we get out of here.
Sure. What are your thoughts on George Bush's funeral when they handed out those letters to everyone?
And they all had like a weird shock look on their face, especially like Jeb Bush.
But we don't know what those letters said, but they were all very worried when they saw them.
So what do you think those were?
Well, when you look at W at that funeral and...
How he turned to his brother, and his brother's like, Jeb is just like, I mean, oh my god, you know, what have you done?
I was told that the letter said, I'm sorry, I told them everything, and it was signed by Senior.
Told them everything.
Senior was...
He was executed.
He didn't die a natural death as far as my intel sources by lethal injection.
And if he told them everything, he told them everything, right?
And yeah, that's what I think the funeral was all about.
And when you say them, are we talking like CIA, FBI?
We're talking the White Hats at this point.
Oh, man.
Well, I must say it's quite refreshing hearing that it's actually safer to speak out as someone whose SRA experience was not survived.
I was very concerned sharing it after I got it, so I guess I better talk more about it and not less.
Well, what I did, it was when I got my memories back, the internet was just...
Starting, right?
So what I did was I wrote down all the names, places, locales that I was remembering.
I sent it out all over the United States.
And I also sent it to the San Diego County Sheriff's Department, not, of course, the Carlsbad Police Department because they were involved.
So this was my thing.
That church had a daycare at that point that I was raised in.
I found out.
And they had another SRA-compliant pastor in there.
Because what I did was I went back to Carlsbad to investigate my own memories to see if they are true or false and went to places that I never had been.
And there were my living color nightmares.
So I had been in these places.
So when I saw that they had a daycare there and the pastor was evasive, Yeah.
In not letting me go through the place and take pictures.
Because I was there saying, under the guise that I was trying to document for writing my own book about my childhood and how wonderful the Lutheran Church had been for me.
And he wouldn't let me go to where the children were.
And that bothered me.
So he knew you?
He knew you, right?
He didn't know me.
This was a new pastor.
Not the pastor.
The last pastor at that church was a hypnotist, by the way.
I bet that's really common.
When we attended them.
That really feels like it ties in.
It's just amazing what the sermons were like.
We need to be honest.
They never preached the gospel.
It was always on subjects like...
We need to be honest.
We need to be humble.
These kind of things.
See, I've heard that a lot about churches these days.
They aren't teaching the gospel.
They aren't even reading out of the Bible.
They're just like talking about random things and like passing the money plate around.
They're more like life coaches.
Yeah. Rah, rah, rah.
Yeah. They're like Joel Osteen, you know?
Exactly. Be positive and rah, rah, rah.
Yeah. I want to find a church that is actually teaching the gospel and I cannot find one.
It's insane.
Okay, the other question I have.
What is your take on the black eye club?
Not panda eyes, but like everyone has a black eye.
All these celebrities and politicians at some point have a really bad black eye.
What do you think that is?
It's a ritual.
It's higher than my experience.
It's a high ritual.
And I don't know exactly what they do.
When I was five, they popped out my right eye to put an implant in the cartilage that later becomes your sphenoid bone that your brain sits on top of in your skull.
And that was the Jose Delgado stemosever thing that's still in my head.
Yeah, and I did see those pictures.
Wow, that thing looks like it would hurt.
Well, it's fully encased in the bone now.
When they put it in, That was pliable cartilage at age five and that later turns into bone.
So what it does, yeah, I have a constant baseline migraine, more focal, the right side of my head.
And it absorbs all the Wi-Fi and radiation, electronic signals.
It absorbs that.
It kills off the cells surrounding it of the autonomic nervous system.
I'm diagnosed with dysautonomia, which is a dysfunction of the autonomic nervous system.
Therefore, I'm on my third pacemaker because that powers your heartbeat.
So I'm on my third pacemaker and I have to take medicine to have a blood pressure.
Yeah, because that controls involuntary functions, right?
Is there any possibility to have that surgically removed?
We tried.
What happened?
My neurologist was trained in the army.
My first neurologist was trained in the army and he had been at Walter Reed and Johns Hopkins and he knew about the experiments on children.
Fortunately, he was like my big brother working on the floor at the hospital.
I mean, God totally took such good care of me as far as where we lived when all this happened and my job and everything else.
So he sent me to an ENT first to have him look at the MRI that they did.
I could have MRIs before the pacemaker.
The stem receiver in my head that they MRI'd looks exactly like the picture I sent you of that device.
I mean, it measured the same.
It looked exactly like that.
So that ENT was, WTH is this thing in her head.
We need to, you know, what is this?
We need to get it out.
He was willing to do the surgery.
He was gung-ho, like, let's get this thing out.
And then two weeks later...
He calls me up and he says, I need you to come get these MRIs out of my blankety-blank office right now.
What? And I need you to shut up and never talk about something in your head ever again.
Oh my god.
Now, come over here, get these films, take it back to the hospital, and don't ever speak to me again.
That puts you on another list.
A little too real there.
So I went and I picked up the MRIs and took them back to the hospital.
That same day, my therapist's house was set on fire.
Oh my God.
And then that turned out for good for he and his wife.
They had their house for sale.
It only burned in the kitchen because the fire department was right there.
And so the insurance settlement updated the kitchen and the living room and they actually made $40,000 more off the sale of the house.
So God turned it for good for both.
And he didn't ditch me, which was, I mean, my therapist was just, he's a godly, wonderful man.
Pretty courageous.
Very courageous.
Yeah. And then I saw that doctor driving a foreign import car with the steering wheel on the other side, you know, two to three weeks after he had told me to.
Get that out and after my therapist asked.
So I think he was bribed.
Sounds like it.
The foreign car.
So then my neurologist sent me down to somebody affiliated with Barrows.
And, oh, the MRIs were disappeared from the hospital, by the way, right after I took them back.
So I don't have them.
And so the...
A doctor down in Phoenix did a thin-slice CT scan of that area.
And what it shows is a circumlinear malformation of the sphenoid bone.
And it's a perfect circumlinear malformation.
Well, if your medical arthritis doesn't come out in perfect forms.
You know, arthritis is...
I've had two surgeries because they dislocated my shoulders.
All the time.
So I've had a surgery on each to reduce the arthritis because it was impinging on the nerves.
So anyhow, to make a long story short, he was really nice when I went down there.
And then when I drove down there after two and a half hours, drove down there, he was like, get out of my office.
There's nothing there.
It's a circumlinear malformation.
I said, well, is there any mass to it?
And he said, there's no implant there.
Get out of my office.
Funny you didn't ask about an implant.
I didn't.
I didn't.
So if I go and stand under a cell tower, I have the most horrific pain go through my head.
And before I got the pacemaker, my blood...
My heartbeat would drop to like 30 and my blood pressure would drop to like 70 over 50 and I'd start to pass out.
And if I drive away, I did this test on myself in nursing school just to see what would happen.
Then I drove away back to the lake and I had the same baseline readings again of a good heartbeat and a good blood pressure.
Wow, Cheryl.
That's a lot going on there.
Yeah. I commend you and thank you for coming on the show to talk about all of this.
Yes, thank you so much for your time.
I haven't said much because I've been so wrapped in attention this whole time.
Rough story.
Have you spoken with other survivors recently of the same sort of ritual, satanic abuse stuff?
I was in a group online for 25 years of other survivors.
So I met a woman and...
Canada, that was a couple years older than me, that had the same stimulus fever put in behind her right eye.
You were talking about the left eye club.
I'm not sure, again, what they do with that.
I just know it is a step in the hierarchy, you know, of the global elite Satanists.
And I have heard, I wanted to just point this out too.
I have heard other people talk about that is why celebrities have that black eye and politicians and everything because they implant something in there so they basically have a control of that person.
Kill switch, effectively.
I think it's probably something like that, Cricket, a kill switch rather than to control them because my implant was put into behavior control and it didn't work.
Yeah, so like, hey, follow us so we're going to flip the switch.
You're done, dude.
Yep. A lot easier to turn it off than to change the settings, right?
Right. And there's no battery in mine.
It's just a transistor receiver.
Why else would they all have that?
I mean, you have to ask yourself why, even as things are going bad for them, why they still don't break ranks.
It's because, effectively, it's useless to them to break ranks.
They would just die.
Are you going to die?
There's only one way out.
You're going to die either way.
You're going to die either way.
Pleasantly or unpleasantly is the only question.
Unfortunately, unfortunately, I wasn't expendable.
There are so many.
They don't care.
The only value in me is for a long-term data.
I've been harassed with non-lethal weapons and things like that through the years.
Well, Cheryl, Godspeed.
I hope the best for you and the greatest outcome here.
You are our first guest who's talked about RSA, and it's a heavy topic.
Heavy, heavy topic.
We've covered it in just random episodes, but never had a guest on until now, and thank you.
We definitely commend you for all of what you have done for others in your shoes.
And hopefully we can really expose all of this eventually and get more people on board to understand the complexities of this situation.
A lot of people don't even know that people are ritualistically abused.
I have no idea.
And this seems to be one of the base
of this country, well, the world, really.
I mean, this is a worldwide situation, and this is why we live in such a crappy world, because we have these crappy people ruling it.
Oh, yes.
An important thing to remember is that it isn't money.
This is the base of all this power being shifted around.
Ah, cash.
Cash is a physical manifestation of this power that's being brought around in the spirit world through these influencing events.
So, if you want to end that, you can't just simply fix the money.
Yeah. You gotta fix this.
It's not money.
It's definitely not money.
I've been instructed by my guide to offer a prayer to you.
So, I grant you my blessings.
Wonderful. Thank you.
And you do have a book.
When was that book published?
It was 2001.
You can't get it.
W had it shut down.
Yeah, it's not even listed anymore.
And I was like, what the hell is going on?
W had it shut down.
He threatened the publisher.
Oh, yeah.
Is it available anywhere?
You can check used bookstores and things like that.
But, I mean, the actual production was shut down, so there's not a lot of copies out.
So if you see it for $100 to $1,000, you know, don't spend the money on it.
If people want to put my name in a search engine, Cheryl Beck.
Especially put my name in the YouTube search bar.
They'll come up with more interviews and things like that.
Be able to see the pictures.
Yandex is really good.
If you search Cheryl Beck on Yandex, you'll get a lot of good results.
And on YouTube directly.
Google, not so much.
Which, stay away from Google anyway.
Right. Yeah.
They'll censor most of this stuff.
Honestly, the fact that they're not censoring, it kind of demonstrates that things are fraying on the information control side.
Yeah, whoever's in power is losing it, and they're frantic right now, so I don't know.
We've got, what day is it?
The 27th?
Ooh, man.
I think we're in for an interesting week.
Yeah, we are.
The next couple weeks is going to be very interesting.
So, in the meantime, thank you again, Cheryl.
So appreciate you coming on.
God bless you.
And, I mean, we'll have you on anytime you want.
Open door.
Yes. Thank you so much.
Thank you, guys.
I appreciate being here.
Your time is most appreciated.
Thank you.
And you can also follow, you want people to follow you on Twitter?
Is that something?
If they want to.
It's at C.A. Beck1961.
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