Tovar Cerulli, author of The Mindful Carnivore, traces his shift from veganism to ethical hunting after realizing its ecological and nutritional benefits—like controlling deer overpopulation in Vermont’s farms and addressing B12 deficiencies. He contrasts natural predation (e.g., Zimbabwe’s lion culling for ecosystem balance) with trophy hunting’s misrepresentations, emphasizing reverence for animals in traditional cultures. Rogan highlights hunting’s primal connection to survival, noting altered states of consciousness post-hunt, while Cerulli dismisses stereotypes like sadism or male dominance, citing shared ethical debates even among vegans. Both argue that reconnecting with food sources—through hunting, gardening, or small-scale farming—could counter modern civilization’s detachment from nature’s cycles, despite systemic challenges. [Automatically generated summary]
I mean, the switch to being vegetarian had a lot to do with ethics and animal welfare and compassion, and then it became other issues, environmental, you know, all kinds of things.
The switch back, the first step really was starting to realize that my diet Whatever I was eating was connected to all kinds of things that I didn't realize.
And just the impact of agriculture on the landscape as a whole.
Talk about wildlife habitat disappearing in a hurry.
Yeah.
And even the local organic farmer down the road where we, you know, go get organic strawberries.
You know, when there's enough crop damage, he calls a friend and they shoot a deer or they're smoke bombing the woodchucks all the time.
So there are all kinds of impacts that I realized my diet was having, even though I wasn't eating animals, you know, indirectly.
That didn't change my diet.
That just sort of softened these very black and white hard edges that I had drawn in my mind, these ethical lines, right?
The shift to actually eating something different had more to do with nutritional needs in the long term.
And once I started eating some yogurt, which is a big radical step, if you've been vegan for 10 years, you know, eating a bowl of yogurt is a big deal.
Well, eggs are an easy one, because nobody has to get hurt.
Like, eating eggs is so easy.
Especially, I have my own chicken, so it's just, hey girls, what's going on?
Take the eggs.
No one gets hurt.
Everything's fine.
And that seems to me to be the easiest and most ethical way...
If you just want to get some animal protein in your body, that one really is, no one's getting hurt.
Those things, I didn't, you know, this is so embarrassing, but I didn't even know, I think I was in my late 30s or early 40s, when I found out that chicken eggs couldn't become a chicken because they weren't fertilized by a rooster.
Like, this is how stupid I was.
More really removed from any farming or any idea of farming.
I just, in my stupid mind, I just had this idea that, and then I had to think, oh yeah, of course, there's no rooster.
Wait a minute, why are they laying eggs every day?
Like, what the hell's going on?
I don't understand that part of it, but it's so easy to just get eggs from chickens.
I mean, as long as you're feeding the chicken, and chickens exist off of so many different things.
They clean your garden, they run around, they mostly eat bugs and grass and healthy chicken food, but...
Once you decide you're going to pull the trigger on a deer, things get real.
That's a totally different experience because there's this one guy who's this healthy, ethical vegan who's walking around looking at the deer like, hello, friend.
And the next day, you know, your elbow's deep in that deer pulling out its guts, hanging it up in a barn and taking the skin off of it.
It's a real commitment, especially if you're doing it essentially by yourself, to decide to really get involved in quote-unquote gun culture and understand what kind of round you need, what kind of rifle you need, what's the best kind of rifle, what's the best way to pull the trigger, how do you keep yourself from jerking or punching the trigger?
I shot literally a couple times at a piece of paper.
And I'm not bullshitting.
We set up a target, put it on a patch of dirt.
And shot a couple of times where he was explaining how you have to squeeze, you can't jerk it, you have to squeeze.
And then next thing you know I'm shooting a deer, like five days later or whatever it was.
It was very strange and it took me a while to sort of let all the information set in and then get my skills up to it.
Like I pulled it off the first time, but I easily could have fucked up.
I easily could have wounded an animal.
You know, I really wasn't ready.
To get someone, especially someone with a full-time job, someone with a family, obligations, to get them and somehow or another set up some sort of a course that allows them to learn how to do that.
Wisconsin and Minnesota have really good programs, adult, learn-to-hunt programs, and they do it over the course of...
Six or nine months.
So they have an intro workshop, usually at the local food co-op or something.
They recruit people there.
And then they end up having these weekend sessions throughout the course of the year.
And it culminates with a sort of a mentored hunt on public land in Wisconsin, Minnesota, or other states that have similar programs.
But there's enough demand that there are private courses.
I mean, there's weekend workshops being offered by folks I know Not associated with the state program at all, just teaching people because they didn't learn.
And there's a huge demand, I think, not just for hunting, but people want these old skills, you know, hands-on, you know, whether it's how to physically build something out of wood or how to can your own food or how to, you know, hunt and butcher a deer.
And there's an interest in that sort of do-it-yourself, quote-unquote primitive or just basic self-reliant skills.
Yeah, I mean, even if you're not thinking about being a prepper, if you're not getting ready for the end of the world, it's still a fascinating thing to learn how to take care of yourself.
Learn how to get your own food from the actual wilderness.
I mean, just that hands-on experience, that direct experience, is really different from sitting in a cubicle, getting paid, and then going and buying food at the grocery store.
You know, the author Richard Nelson, who's written great books about deer and all kinds of things, he lives up in Alaska, and he calls the...
The supermarket, an agent of our forgetfulness.
We forget where things come from if we don't live on a farm, if we didn't grow up doing that kind of thing.
Yeah, I think that's an issue that a lot of people who have paid attention to All the different videos that have been released from these factory farms that are horrific and they try to figure out, well, what is a way to get around this?
There's got to be a way to get around this.
And the most ethical way, I think, and a lot of people think, is, if it's possible, to hunt it yourself.
Because then you're getting an animal that was never caged up, it was a wild animal, and in one brief moment, its life ends.
And realistically, that life was probably on its way out anyway.
If you're shooting a mature deer, you're shooting something that's six years old, five years old, it's amazing that deer lived that long in the first place.
But, you know, it's also not practical for the United States to feed every country in the world.
It's not practical for everyone to exist off all the crops grown in England.
There's a lot of things that aren't practical.
I mean, not that those things do exist, but...
What you can do as a human, you can still, today in the United States, still learn how to hunt, hunt and get all your food from that.
It is still possible.
It might not be possible for everybody in the country to do it, but guess what?
Everybody in the country is not going to do it anyway.
It's like saying, is it possible to write a book?
Yes, it is.
Guess how few fucking people write books.
You wrote a book?
How many people write books?
I mean, you could go all day without meeting anybody who's ever written a book.
Sure.
This book that you wrote, The Mindful Carnivore, I don't think I've ever even seen a book written by a guy who started off as a vegetarian and a vegan and was...
You know, it seems when I first got into the idea of writing a book, which seemed crazy and still, in retrospect, seems kind of crazy.
But when I started even writing a couple essays about that, about going from being a vegan and vegetarian to being a hunter, I thought, this is bizarre.
I don't know what people are going to make of this.
Over time, I've met more and more people who have actually had a pretty similar experience.
Other vegetarians who became hunters.
And there's a logic to it.
Like, if you were that concerned about animals, that you decided to be vegetarian or vegan, and then you changed your diet.
Animals are still a pretty serious issue for you, unless you just abandoned your entire philosophy and left out the door.
If you still have those basic values and you still take animal welfare and environmental conservation and these sorts of issues seriously, then there's an interest in engaging directly, like confronting it.
Instead of just saying, oh, well, just go to the supermarket now and just buy some ground chuck.
Right.
So for those of us who still have animal ethics and welfare in mind, when we make that transition out of being vegetarian, there's a way to confront it.
You know, I know some folks who were vegetarian, young couple, and when their diet changed, they decided they're going to raise their own animals instead of hunt.
That's a really fascinating conversation I've had with a friend of mine who's a vegan who says, you know, you really need very little B12 and you can get plenty of B12 from your diet.
I'm like, boy, that's controversial.
Like, for you to be real confident about that, I'm not sure that's necessarily correct because I've seen both really strong statements on both sides.
Really strong statements that you definitely can't get it from your diet and really strong statements that you can.
Isn't it possible, though, that it requires more education and more understanding about what the nutritional requirements are, as far as mixing your proteins and making sure...
Because we had some guys on from the documentary Cowspiracy, and we talked about it, and I really wish I'd read a little bit more of the arguments against what they were saying before I had them on.
Because one of the things we talked about is complete proteins and the complete amino acid profiles.
Well, there's very few complete proteins in plant form.
There's very few.
And if you're trying to get all your protein from broccoli, Jesus Christ you've got to eat like pounds of the stuff in order to like and so I don't It's one of the things it becomes with a lot of people it becomes almost like you're talking about their deity It's almost like a religious argument because they don't want to be objective about it one exception to that is Rich Roll Rich Roll is very objective and I don't know if you know who he is he's a vegan endurance athlete very
good guy and He has a great podcast, and he's been a guest on the podcast a couple times here.
Really cool guy.
He's very non-dogmatic and also not a judgmental guy.
He's not preaching.
But for a lot of them, they just don't want to admit the difficulty in getting complete sources of protein.
It's fucking infested with people that are doing steroids that aren't being honest about it, that are getting gigantic, that are, you know, eating vegan food and, like, vegan power, and they're flexing.
Plant power.
Meanwhile, they've got fucking synthetic testosterone, which, by the way, is made with yams.
You can make synthetic testosterone with Mexican wild yams in a way, but it's just hilarious that they're attributing all this.
These fucking scientists have made your body, man.
Right, right.
Scientists in a weight room, but that's neither here nor there, but I think For some people, it is very difficult if you're going to be vegan to get everything your body requires.
You know who Travis Barker is, the drummer from Blink-182?
Really cool guy.
Got in a plane crash and was burned really badly.
Had a bunch of skin grafts and stuff.
And it wasn't taking until he ditched his vegan diet.
He was having a real hard time healing.
And I hear things like that.
I go, man, what is going on?
Because how come some people can tell me that they're doing so well, they heal quicker, they recover quicker on a vegan diet, they feel better on a vegan diet, and then other people are telling me, you know, it's just their body just wasn't healing correctly, their immune system was floundering.
I mean, I think part of it is probably that we have...
You know, our bodies are different.
We have somewhat...
I mean, we're the same species.
We have basic profile.
But we have all kinds of...
And as the more science progresses, looking at, you know, our microflora inside our bodies.
I mean, we're all really different.
So it may be that we process and need things in different ways.
And there's...
For many people, I think there's a real change over time.
So in a short period of time, if you've been eating a really crappy diet full of tons of fried food, and then you start eating a whole foods vegan diet, lo and behold, you're going to feel better.
Did you attempt to talk to a nutritionist and find out, like, are there any foods that I should, like quinoa or things on hemp protein, things that I need to mix in that are more complete proteins?
I didn't really, you know, by that point, because my, those sort of black and white lines I had drawn, those really rigid ethical ideas, that sort of deity concept that I had in a way, and its attachment to my identity, you know, that had started to blur and loosen enough.
I was like, you know...
I live in this world, not in some fantasy world.
I live here, and even the local farmer who grows our strawberries is smoke-bombing woodchucks and shooting deer, and he's eating venison.
I'm part of this interconnected system, this natural community of all kinds of creatures, plants, animals.
I'm not separate from that.
And why do I... Why am I so fixated, have I been for this past decade, so fixated on separating myself from this world that I actually inhabit?
I'm not saying this is true for all vegetarians or all vegans by any means, but for me there was, in a sense, a desire to live in this ideal world.
I have a footprint here, you know, not just my carbon footprint because of the car I drive or whatever, but I have a physical footprint no matter what I eat.
More of the kinds of foods that human beings have been eating forever, that we evolved on, you know?
And so I just started to experiment with it and see both how it felt physically, but also sort of emotionally, ethically, spiritually, philosophically.
How did it feel to start to do that?
And it was strange.
I mean, it was kind of a bizarre experience to start to eat, especially to start to eat meat again.
I think what's going on is all connected to what your friend calls the supermarket.
What does he call it?
Agent of forgetfulness?
Yeah.
I think it's connected to that in that we are so disconnected from our food that even people that are vegans that, you know, they think that they're causing no harm because they just eat plants.
If you're eating commercial grain, You're a part of a massive, wide-scale death.
In fact, there's probably more dead animals per acre if you're getting commercial grain than almost anything.
When they grind up that grain to chew it up and to turn it into, like if you have corn or wheat and they chop all that stuff down, those combines are indiscriminate.
And then there's also just the fact that when you create something like that, whatever natural wildlife would have been there has been completely removed and you turned it into this weird new thing where it's a monoculture, where you're just growing soybeans or you're just growing whatever, whatever the hell it is.
I think that by not participating in it, by not participating in any aspect of the gathering of the food, you get this attachment from it and you say, you know, hey, I can remove myself from any cruelty, any ethical concerns by just establishing a cruelty-free vegan diet.
It's very easy to separate that because you don't experience it and realize, oh, plants eat animals, animals eat animals, then animals die and plants eat them.
It's all this whole system that everything, including us, is part of.
And we, as a culture, as a society, for...
You know, decades, centuries have been various ways separating ourselves from that through industrialization, through, you know, just our ideas.
Again, this is culturally specific.
Not every culture in the world thinks this way, but we do think of ourselves as very separate.
And there's an environmental philosopher who's now passed on, but her name was Val Plumwood.
She was in Australia.
And she talked about this.
And she talked about how even our practices around and our ideas around our own life and death as humans and how we...
Bury ourselves in these concrete boxes to sort of keep ourselves from decomposing, supposedly, right?
Sort of like protect ourselves from death.
And the idea of us being part of that In a physical way, we actually, you know, ending up being food eventually.
One of the things that I love to do with people that have too much of a Disney view of animals and like to get, you know, I can't believe that you would hunt.
Most of the time they can't pull it off, but when they can pull, it's like deer are designed essentially to graze.
It's real simple.
They're the way they are, but they'll take their food any way they can get it.
And that is really hard for people to believe.
Like cows as well.
Like cows eat ground nesting birds all the time.
There's videos of cows doing it.
And when you show that to people, they're like, What the fuck is going on?
Maybe what we're doing is we're ruining the earth so much that the animals themselves are killing each other and eating it.
No, they've always done this.
They just don't do it a lot.
Because they're just not designed for it.
And there's plenty of vegetation.
Where the deer live, especially white-tailed deer who live primarily around agriculture, they're around so much vegetation, so much food, that the last thing deer have to worry about most of the time is starving to death when they're around farmlands and stuff like that.
I mean, up our way in the north and in some other parts of, you know, northern U.S. and up into Canada, where you get into mostly forested areas, and you get overpopulations of deer, they wipe out their winter habitat if they have too many deer, and...
Their starvation time is winter.
Because of the deep snow, they're compressed into tiny, tiny fractions of their usual range.
And they can, in fact, starve to death in vast numbers.
But around agriculture in more moderate climates, they've got no shortage of food.
Yeah, and deer, it's really interesting how they're set up.
It's almost like it's making sure that they don't last through when they're the older, strong, mature bucks, because a mature buck will go from the prime of its life to on death's door within a couple months during the rut.
One of the things that I find fascinating is that different groups, vegetarians, hunters...
And others who often seem diametrically opposed on an issue like hunting often are motivated by really similar values.
I mean a concern for Environmental conservation, a concern for even animal welfare.
I mean, in hunting, the ethic of the clean kill, the idea that you should only shoot once and it should be virtually instantaneous, you know, and even the concern that you expressed, you know, gee, I got this crash course so fast, I could have wounded an animal.
You know, the concern about wounding an animal Right.
There's such different languages being spoken often by, you know, folks who are on sort of an animal rights or animal welfare activist side and folks who are on sort of a hunting and hunting conservation activist side of things.
And often they're speaking very different languages and don't realize that they have some things in common.
You had, back at the beginning of January, you had, is it Phil Demers?
I mean, that was the experience that actually made me decide to be a vegetarian.
I'd fished all my childhood growing up, loved it.
My fishing mentor was a guy from Boston who grew up in the Bronx, and he was a furniture builder in Boston, and he'd come up and visit us in southern New Hampshire, and we'd fish all the time.
But when I was 20, I had been thinking a lot about what kind of life I wanted to lead, what were my values, and I went fishing, and I caught this trout, and I killed it, and I was like...
I didn't have to do that.
I didn't have to kill that.
I could have had, you know, rice and veggies or whatever, right?
Ecologically and ethically, it probably makes pretty good sense.
And I don't have a big argument against it.
I just never got back into that habit.
So, the experience of Taking a deer is so profoundly different, obviously, from going to the grocery store or even going to a farmer, you know.
And having that is so valuable to me.
And it's such a reminder, you know, to talk about the opposite of...
The supermarket as an agent of forgetfulness.
You know, when you take a package of venison out of the freezer and you remember that deer that you killed, I mean, there's no forgetting where that comes from.
To someone who hasn't experienced it, it's very, very difficult to even imagine I hate to use the word spiritual because it just gets so beaten down and overused and watered down.
But there is a weird spiritual connection between your meat or a tangible energy that's connected.
The experience that you had, the meat that you're eating, the knowledge that you were the one who took the life, the knowledge that it was a life, that it was a living being, and now it's food on your plate and you're watching your family eat it, or you're having friends that come over and eat it.
I just think that cities...
Are something really unusual and alien.
And I think human beings have created them out of convenience and it's wonderful and it's allowed us to gather information and to create these incredible places where you can just group together millions and millions of people and you just ship all the food in.
But in doing so, we've created this really convenient way of looking at things.
And I think this is what I'm trying to get at with this whole series of interviews and series of conversations that I'm having with different hunters, different vegans, different people that are trying to ethically source their food.
I'm trying to look...
Get a sense of how the hell this happened and how it's so pervasive and how there's so much resistance to understanding and appreciating what the overall, what the really big picture of where our food comes from, what it actually is.
Shocking, strange, a definite tangible feeling of loss, you know, the loss of this life, but also an incredible feeling of exhilaration, this weird primal connection when you're actually eating the meat over a campfire, because we did it You know, hardcore...
And, you know, you're around a campfire with a bunch of people that you really care about and you're all eating this meat from this animal that you just killed.
It's intense.
And it is the male bonding experience, you know?
I mean, there's like football games, oh yeah, this is fun, but hunting, going out and hunting parties together.
I had a conversation with my friend Duncan Trussell yesterday about this, that I think that there's some things that we don't know that we have a requirement for in our minds, or in our bodies, or maybe perhaps in our DNA. That our bodies are set up with these certain reward systems.
It's rewarding to gather up your own food.
And anyone who's ever grown a garden, completely outside of hunting, gardening is super satisfying.
It's amazing.
When you eat some food that you've grown yourself, when you're chopping up some kale and tomatoes, and you're making a nice salad, and you made all this, you grew all this yourself, and you...
You paid attention to it, you fertilized it, and you added water.
There's this amazing feeling, like the exuberation, this weird exhilaration feeling when you're eating food that you grew yourself.
These things, I think, are these reward systems that are in place because it was always good to do that because it ensured survival.
But there's a bunch of weird things that are in there, too.
You know, being sexually attractive is in there, too.
Having someone think you're attractive, like, that's a normal primal reward system that we all love.
And even people that are in committed relationships, like women in committed relationships, like to go out with their girlfriends and dress up and look nice to get looked at.
They do.
I mean, they might not have any desire to find a new man, but they want to get looked at because it fulfills these primal reward systems that are in our bodies.
And I think archery is in there, too.
And I definitely think hunting and eating meat from an animal or from a fish or something that you've gotten and pulled from the wild.
It's something that men will never really truly understand.
There's no way around...
I mean, I have this whole bit I'm doing about it in my act, because we'll never understand what it's like to even have a desire to have a baby in your body.
I mean, that's so alien, so alien to us.
And I think the Earth itself...
The thought of the earth and that nature itself is a woman, that nature itself is a mother, a mother that provides, a mother that gives life and gives birth to life.
It totally makes sense.
Women hunters, it's a very interesting thing because Steve Rinello wrote this really interesting article about sexism in the way we perceive hunters because there was this cute girl Who was going on these African safaris and taking photos with these animals that she had shot.
And all these people were so angry at her.
And this was pre-Cecil the Lion.
And so he had this take on it.
He was trying to figure out what is with all this hate?
Where is all this hate coming from?
And he believes that a certain percentage of it is just sexism.
Is that someone looking at this girl, like, why is this girl going over there and shooting a kudu?
Like, why does she do that?
Why does she even want to do that, that beautiful animal?
Why does she want to go over there and shoot that?
And that if it was like some fat, old, ugly dude, nobody would care.
But because it was this pretty, I think her name was Kendall Jenner.
Yeah, and she had death threats and got hundreds of thousands of Facebook likes.
I think she's probably got more Facebook friends than I do.
And it was all really quick and really fascinating how many people just turned out and attacked her.
And the hunting community supported her in a lot of ways, but the hateful people, the things that I would read about it, a good portion of it was that she doesn't have to do this.
If you want to eat meat, you can go to a store.
I saw all that stuff.
Sure.
And there's a lot of really good arguments for that.
First of all, not that if you want to get meat, you can go to a store, but For real, if you're going to fly all the way to Africa to get meat, there's no eco-friendly in that.
You know, like Steve Rinell, I remember that article by Steve, and I think that there are a whole bunch of different things going on in a situation like that.
There's the...
The perception of hunting, particularly so-called trophy hunting, or so-called sport hunting, and the language is really problematic, that it is about us, you know, and I say us, you know, the hunters who do that, who like, you know, fly to Africa.
I've never done that and don't intend to, but a hunter who flies to Africa and is, whether they're hunting lions or kudu or whatever they're hunting, We're good to go.
That's an ethic that actually not just in those who are criticizing trophy hunting, but in hunting traditions.
There are many wanton waste laws in many states.
You cannot kill a deer and just leave it there.
Even if you have a hunting license, it's illegal.
That's understood as wrong.
And there are many traditional hunting prayers from hunting cultures where it's, you know, I took your life because I needed it.
The food, the hide, etc.
So that basic respect for life.
And also, like in the Cecil case, there was the fact that he was shot and then 40 hours later killed.
No, I'm just saying that there are these values about respect for life and about animal welfare and suffering and so on that are seen as being violated by a situation like Cecil or by, you know, other hunters, Kendall Jones or others who go over.
Well, to put it, Africa is one of the problematic places, but just to, in all fairness, a lot of people go to New Zealand and they hunt over there and they do bring back the meat.
It's still, ecologically, you're flying in a plane, you know, it's really kind of real, but it is an ethical way to acquire meat.
In fact, a lot of the lamb and most of the elk that you buy commercially in America comes from New Zealand.
Well, the dentist killed a lion that had a name, and that's where things got really weird.
Because the anthropomorphization of these animals that we've experienced in movies and in television shows and commercials and what have you, it gets real weird with people.
Because you name something and all of a sudden they think that that thing is like someone's pet or something.
And I think it's important for hunters to get better, and Steve Rinell has spoken about this too, to get better at- Expressing what's meaningful about the experience of hunting, what's meaningful about the meat, as you've spoken about a bit, what's meaningful about a skull or something.
What is it that is meaningful?
And I think people can actually understand that if we can move past just black and white, hunting is good or bad, trophy hunting is good or bad, and that kind of thing.
We're always going to have problems with people that are really hardcore vegans.
And it's really interesting.
I got in this conversation with someone really recently about it where I found a bacon, lettuce, and tomato sandwich on their Instagram page after they were talking all kinds of crazy shit about hunters.
And she told me that she's only been a vegan for seven months.
She was like one of the most...
Like, outspoken, angry, forceful.
Like, everything about it was like, like, it must be done.
You must stop.
We're killing people.
You have a BLT on your fucking Instagram page.
Like, what's happening here?
Like, what is this that causes that?
Well, it's almost like...
When you get into something for the first time, you can't shut the fuck up about it.
And I've been guilty of that many times in my life.
If I got into race car driving or something like that, people on the podcast would probably be like, will you shut the fuck up about race car driving?
And it got to the point, you know, with hunting, there's a lot of that.
To this day, I'll put this podcast up and people go, oh great, another hunting podcast.
Z, Z, Z, Z, Z. I get it.
I don't care.
I'm going to talk about what's interesting to me.
And also, I think part of these podcasts is these things will last for as long as they get shared and spread around in a digital form.
And I think these conversations are important right now.
I think this conversation, the conversation about where's your food come from?
What made you make these choices?
I think these are important conversations because I think the disconnect and recognizing the disconnect that we have between where our food comes from and And these attitudes that we develop and have that we really don't have any problem with or we don't think there's anything wrong with the way we're alienating people or pointing out the flaws of other people's behaviors.
We're not looking at ourself.
There's a blind spot there.
And then I think this is a very important conversation because, like I said, I think we've created something really weird.
With cities and with supermarkets, we've created this really weird thing where for our entire history, as long as people have been people, we knew where our food was kind of coming from.
You knew you went to a butcher, you got the food, that butcher killed that animal.
You knew you'd go to a farmer, he grew the vegetables, you knew they came out here.
You go to a drive-thru, and you give them paper, and within seconds, you get a ground animal sandwich, and you're eating it.
The whole process takes a minute, and you're eating something that's already cooked, and you're drinking this vat of sugary liquid with ice cubes in it.
Like, how the fuck are the ice cubes?
It's 95 degrees outside.
Where'd you get the ice?
There's this weird sort of Removal from nature that we have and the natural process of collecting and Gathering and then enjoying the food that you've gathered right and for me the interest in reconnecting those things and being aware of Where things come from and how they're how they're connected that is what led me to be a
vegetarian and But it's also what let me be a hunter.
You know, wanting to understand and recognize the connection and not turn away.
And the turning away, when people willfully, like, I don't want to know, that willful ignorance, that's the thing that bothers me.
I don't care if someone's vegetarian, vegan, if they hunt or not.
That doesn't matter to me.
As long as they're willing to at least look at how things are connected and look at what's going on.
One of the first reviews of my book that was written was by a vegetarian.
And she said that the book actually made her think about going back to being vegan because she was disturbed, you know.
And she also said that she thought that the author, whom she didn't know me, would consider it a compliment to know that it led her in that direction.
And she was actually right, because I wasn't trying to convert her into being an omnivore or being a hunter.
I was asking, look at these issues, think about these values, think about animals, think about nature, think about our relationship with these things, and you decide what you're going to do in your personal life, you know?
And the fact that she could respect me enough and anticipate that I would respect her decision was great because she wasn't doing that willful ignorance thing.
I think we're lucky that there's so much confusion.
I really do.
I think this is a fascinating time to be alive.
And I think we're lucky that everything is so bizarre because it makes these conversations so...
They crackle because there's something so weird about it.
There's something so weird about a civilization, an animal, a life form, a species that has developed for whatever hundreds of thousands of years we've been people eating meat.
I mean, it's essentially, when you look at scientists, when they discover the difference in the size of the lower hominids' brains and humans' brains, they're trying to figure out what the fuck went wrong, or right, rather, where we developed this gigantic brain.
Because if anybody wants to know how hard it is out there, there's a video of a marten, which is an animal that a lot of people associate with fur trading.
And it's a dead heat for a while, but the Martin is just slowly, relentlessly closing in on this rabbit.
I don't know where these people are, but they were speaking a different language.
And the rabbit's trying to zig and trying to zag, but the Martin is just one step after one step, just an inch closer, a little closer, a little closer, and they're fucking hustling!
And this rabbit is like, shit, bam!
And then he gets them.
But look at this fucking evil little animal.
It is the size of the rabbit, which is what's really crazy.
My friend lives in Alaska, and a brown bear killed a moose in his driveway.
And they had to shoot the bear, the people that, you know, whoever the wildlife management people, they had to shoot the bear because it decided to bury this fucking moose in his garage.
You know, there's a video of the same thing happening.
There's a video of a bear killing a moose in this family's driveway while they're looking out the window.
It happens all the time because these people that live in these parts of the world, especially Alaska, you've got Anchorage and then you've got wilderness.
When I was up in Anchorage, we would just drive a little bit.
Oh, here's one right here.
Here's another one.
It's like fucking common up there!
There's a bear that's dragging this moose, and this moose is...
Yeah, I mean, it's tough for us, you know, as humans, because we have this, you know, we have this moral conscience that presumably the bear doesn't have about the suffering of another animal, of its prey, you know?
And we do, as hunters, as farmers, you know, as pet owners, you know, they have companion animals.
Well, that's why I think this conversation is so fascinating is because the argument does have a little bit of merit to it.
It is not a black and white issue.
And neither is what you would call, quote unquote, trophy hunting.
That's not a black and white issue either.
Because Zimbabwe just announced they're going to cull 200 lions because they've outlawed lion hunting.
So now they have a surplus of lions.
They have a problem with the undulates are getting decimated.
So they're like, alright, we gotta fucking kill some lions.
And each one of those 200 lions that they're gonna call would have brought them $50,000 of revenue towards conservation.
That would stop poaching, that would keep wildlife habitat.
It's really complicated.
The people that are on the outside, conveniently ignorant to all these facts that are incredibly complex, they're not aware of this big picture.
I'm not saying you should go to Africa and go hunt lions.
I don't want to do it.
I'm not going to do it.
I don't have any desire to kill anything like a lion.
To that part of the world, that brought in a considerable amount of revenue.
And there's a balance that they were attempting to achieve with the predators and with the prey.
And that balance is kind of screwed up now that they've taken out hunting of lions, which is hard for people to imagine.
Because you'll read about Africa that some areas the lions are threatened.
There's this really interesting page that I follow on Instagram called Save the Lion.
They have all these really cool photos of lions, and I think lions are amazing.
I'm glad they're around.
I like looking at videos of them.
I would love to see them in real life other than a zoo, you know?
But you get too many of them, you've got a real problem.
And the only animal that can figure that out is us.
That's it.
You know, the goats aren't going to get together and go, hey man, we've got to fucking do something about this mountain lion population.
There's no more goats.
We've got to help.
No, it's only people that can count the number, wildlife biologists that can figure out what's the right amount, and people that can study the results of having a disproportionate population of predators and realize that we've got to do something about that.
Yeah, I mean, predators are really complicated all over the world.
I mean, here they're complicated in Africa, they're complicated in many parts of the world.
Ecologically in relationship to prey, you know, if we had a very large area and we just weren't part of the picture, It's not as though predators would just completely wipe out the prey.
They will run out of food as prey gets harder to catch.
Prey's not going to disappear entirely just because of a lion, you know, group of lions or wolves or any other kind of predator.
They will ebb and flow.
They have different sort of states of equilibrium, high density of both, low density of both changes, and those sorts of things happen.
In relationship to us and our different interests, agriculture, livestock, ungulates that the local human population values, then it gets really complicated.
And the issue you're bringing up about, well, they're culling lions, and it could have brought in so many tens of thousands of dollars from hunters.
And I've just been working on this essay about these sorts of issues.
there's all these practical issues about money conservation and those sorts of things that are happening in Zimbabwe for example or other countries or here and then there's the the moral and ethical issues around animal welfare and is it respectful of life to kill an animal just for the head or do you have to eat it and right so there's there's a There's a language of practicality.
What does the Zimbabwe need to fund given programs?
How do you fund that?
And then there's the whole discussion and language of the morals and ethics of it, which is, you know, those are active discussions among hunters, too.
Because again, this is not a black and white issue.
It's very complicated.
You're talking about a country like Zimbabwe, which is incredibly poor, which could have benefited from $1 million in money that would aid conservation if they allowed these hunts to continue.
So each one of these 200 lions that were killed would be worth $50,000.
I mean, this is a big problem in a lot of places on the East Coast.
There's areas in Pennsylvania that don't have a hunting season for deer.
And in people's neighborhoods, you can just shoot them all the time.
They bring in archers.
There's this television show, this archery bow hunting show, where it was in the middle of the spring, and they brought in these archers to set up tree stands in these residential neighborhoods.
The rebound in whitetails in the country as a whole, but particularly along the eastern seaboard, has created some bizarre, bizarre situations, particularly in suburbs.
You know, these animals that used to be symbols of the wild and still are for many of us are hanging out in people's lawns.
But it's some really bizarrely high number of ticks in certain areas of upstate New York where there's a giant prevalence of both deer and Lyme disease.
They have a huge issue and they really don't know how to stop it.
Because Lyme disease is devastating.
If you get it, it's horrible in your immune system.
Well, and the chronic wasting disease, of course, that...
The risks associated with that brings up the whole sort of captive deer hunting industry and issues when they start moving animals around that maybe carry CWD or other diseases and then they have contact with wild populations.
This is part of the whole trophy hunting thing that's so bizarre.
They're doing these fenced-in establishments where you go and hunt, and you're hunting these animals that have been grown just for their enormous antlers.
Isn't that just how it's always going to be, though?
I mean, if you have any sort of a discipline, any sort of a pursuit, you're going to have people that are unethical.
You're going to have people that are race car drivers that are using just stronger engines than they're supposed to use, or they're cheating somehow or another on this or on that.
But because, and this is true for vegetarians and vegans too, because we're a minority population, it's really easy for most people to have sort of a stereotype view and to lump them all together.
Right.
And the analogy I sometimes draw is, you know, Right.
people who get into road rage and people who are polite.
We can distinguish these things and we have understandings of it because we experience it and we see it.
And we don't judge people for being drivers or lump them all together.
But any minority community runs the risk.
This is true for vegetarians, true for hunters, true for any minority community.
We run the risk of being identified as a sort of a monolithic singular group.
So you get, you know, a hunter who portrays a certain image of hunting, and if that gets, oh, that's what hunting is.
You know, this identity gets attached to all hunters.
I'm not saying it always happens, but there's a risk of that.
And I think that part of the gift of this time, particularly in relation to the food movement, you know, Michael Pollan's work, is that people are asking questions.
People are thinking about agriculture, people thinking about wild foods, people thinking about their relationships ecologically and ethically with what they eat.
Wolverine got mad because there was a bunch of hunters and they poisoned a bear and he beats them up in a bar and they're all mean people.
Meanwhile, Wolverine, what are you eating, dude?
Look at the size of you, you fuck.
What are you eating, Hugh Jackman?
It ain't lentils.
You're eating a lot of meat, I bet.
It's a strange, you know, it's this strange thing that we've decided because we're conveniently removed from the process of killing the animal, seeing the animal alive, killing it, butchering it, chopping it up, and then cooking it.
We just get to the, give me a piece, or even more disconnected, we go to a restaurant.
I mean, I think you're right about the movies from Bambi on having that kind of cultural impact and portrayal of hunters as a force of evil and being sort of anti-nature, right?
You know, the sort of disruptors of this Eden-like natural world.
And...
I think that a lot of times, hunting industry and hunters today and the media around hunting forget how the rest of the world perceives the trophy photo.
Even if it's an animal you're going to eat.
You're smiling with the picture.
What is seen in that from someone who's not experienced that and doesn't...
Is that an image of respect for the animal?
If a hunter is expressing joy in that picture, is it joy?
Is it joy at the death?
What's going on?
Those sorts of images in TV shows and just photos posted online, I think it's hard for, and sometimes it's even hard for me, but I think it's hard for a lot of non-hunters like, what?
A nice, big, mature whitetail that was probably at the end of his voyage.
And you took him out.
I've posed with pictures of animals that I shot, and I've done it smiling because I'm happy because it's difficult to do.
It doesn't take away from the reverence that I have for the animal, you know, especially elk.
Elker, in my opinion...
They're almost like a mythical creature.
I'm very, very happy when I've killed an elk, especially the one that I killed with a bow, because it's so hard to do.
It's insanely difficult.
There's an insane amount of pressure, and when it's over, when you've accomplished it...
If I get ready for a rifle hunt, I sight my rifle in, I go to the range, I squeeze off a few rounds, I make sure my form is good, I make sure my trigger discipline is good, and I'm ready to rock.
I'm good to go.
If I am thinking about hunting in September...
I will start preparing in October for the following September.
With a bow.
Year-round, yeah.
Because once I started hunting with a bow, I realized, like, this is insanely difficult.
This is not something you can kind of dabble in.
And I know some people do, and I don't know how the hell they do it.
Maybe they just don't.
Maybe they're not worried about the consequences as much as I am, or maybe, I don't know, maybe they're just better at it than me.
I don't think so, though.
I just think archery is something that you have to do all the time.
I don't think you could take...
Ten months off of archery, practice for a couple weeks, and be as proficient as if you were practicing those entire ten months.
Most of the people that I know, there's me with an elk that I shot, I'm happy right there.
You look like a mean person who's happy that you've just killed.
Exactly.
There's so much going on when it comes to a photo with that animal because it's not just about...
Look, if I took that photo just for me...
That's perfect.
If that's just my photo and I keep it on my phone and I go, I want to look at it every now and then, this is the moment where I shot that elk and I was really happy that I was able to make a clean shot.
The animal died in seconds.
Everything went great.
All my training paid off.
All the hard work, all the thinking, all the preparation, all of it paid off.
But that's not just for me.
That's for everybody else, too.
But that's also why it has a really long paragraph attached to it where I went into it.
It was important to thank my friend Cameron Haynes because without his help and without his teaching me, it would have taken a lot longer to learn how to get good with a bow.
And to understand what a difficult pursuit it is.
And just to keep your nerves together when this thousand-pound tree forest horse is coming up the hill screaming at you, and you have to shoot that thing with a bow and arrow.
There's a lot going on there, man.
And there's consequences.
If that thing decides to kick your ass, there's not a whole lot you can do.
When I go, I'm going to go hunting again in September, and I'm going to bring my kids.
And on one day, I'm hoping that I can be successful and have a day just to take them out and bugle for them and just make some cow calls, just so they can hear the screams.
Because it is amazing, man.
For someone who's never been in a canyon, while they're all around you screaming as the morning light is coming up, It's one of the weirdest things in all of nature.
And the fact that this is going on in the American wilderness, and the vast majority of people that live in this country will never experience that.
Outside of hunting, just take the hunting out of it.
Just be there and hear this huge barrel-chested, thousand-pound animal screaming at the top of his lungs.
And, you know, the fact that we have these populations of these animals, these amazing, amazing animals, and the places, you know, it's a big debate that I know Steve Brown has been involved in, you know, the politics of public lands.
You know, there are a lot of people who want to turn, you know, federal lands over to the state and privatize a lot of that, sell a lot of that off.
But Yellowstone with the bisons, they're having a real issue.
They have to call them now.
And people that want to be able to hunt Yellowstone are kind of angry about the whole thing.
They're eventually going to have to call some of the grizzlies they're saying because the grizzlies are getting too crazy and they're getting too comfortable with people.
You know, going back to the idea of animal people and spirituality, I'm thinking about these traditional hunting cultures, too.
There's this great film documentary called Diet of Souls that was done by this guy up in the north, up in Alaska.
And one of the basic questions in the film is...
How can an animal be your spiritual equal, which is how it's thought of in many traditional hunting cultures.
They're your equals.
They aren't just animals.
They're powerful.
And yet, they're also your daily bread.
They're also what you eat every day.
And how does that get integrated in these traditions?
It's pretty fascinating because we don't think, you know, as a sort of Western civilization, we've developed these, you know, the lower animals and the higher primates, right?
We have this sort of hierarchy and we'll eat the lower ones or the ugly ones as we talk about.
But the ones that are equal to us are higher or better.
Maybe there's nothing higher or better than us in Western civilization in our imagination.
So we've had this convenient way of creating this hierarchy and thinking of ourselves sort of being at the top of this pyramid in some way.
But in cultures that see themselves still as very much part of more of a circle of peers, you know, in a community, and yet also are eating these animal people all the time.
Well, I mean, before agriculture, before Christianity.
You know, we have traditions in all of us that go back, you know, arguably all of us back to Africa or all parts of the world where, you know, we had, you know, the caves of Lascaux in France, you know, were painted by ancient European people who had...
Probably a somewhat similar shamanistic, spiritual, and hunting relationship with these other animal people.
Well, the first time I went deer hunting, I really do believe that locking eyes on that deer and being about to shoot it, I felt like it was some weird psychedelic experience in some sort of a strange way.
It almost felt like I had taken a drug because I felt like There's some strange connection or some strange frequency that I had tuned into that I'd never been a part of before.
I'd never experienced that before.
Now, I had a protein bar in my pocket.
I could go back to camp.
We had a cooler full of food.
I was still pretty detached, even while being interconnected.
But those people that painted those paintings on the walls in the caves in France...
They were desperately connected, intensely connected, and they were without the burden of these sort of strange moral ideas we have about what's okay to eat and what's not okay to eat and what's ethical and what's not ethical.
Celebration, but also, you know, ceremonies for sending the hunters out and ceremonies for welcoming them back in.
Because you are out there doing violence to another large mammal.
And those ceremonies and those sort of Religious or spiritual practices are different from, but also kind of similar to how we've dealt, again, in big time history, in the large scale, how we've dealt with warfare.
You know, how you send a warrior out.
And then welcome a warrior back into the community after he's gone out and done violence.
And yet they're also, you know, if you're doing to other animal people, you know, the buffalo people, the deer people, there is still a similar, you know, moral ambiguity about this.
You know, they were free in a sense from some of the baggage we carry now.
Sure.
I think you're right.
But was there still moral ambiguity about taking life and needing to respect that animal by using it fully?
I don't know if there was ambiguity, but there was certainly probably a deeper reverence And an understanding that these were inevitable decisions that people had to make, whether it's to defend your life against other humans that want to take your life and take their life instead, or whether it was to eat an animal that you hunted.
Came over as part of this Christian group from England and has been around in other parts of the world for much longer, you know, in India and other parts of the world.
The first modern-day vegans in November of 1944, Donald Watson called a meeting with five other non-dairy vegetarians, including Elise Shrigley, to discuss non-dairy vegetarian diets and lifestyles.
And he died of a common cold a week later.
So that's what he was, a non-dairy eating vegetarian in 1944. That was back before they really totally understood how to get your vitamins and what the amino acid profiles of vegetables were too.
Cats that live in the wild or indoor pets, allowed to roam outdoors, kill from 1.4 billion to as many as 3.7 billion birds in the continental US each year.
3.7 billion birds in the continental United States.
We do, you know, and that's, you know, when we have a cat that's part of our family or a dog that's part of our family, and obviously they're a very different species, but they become family.
We identify with a group, whether that's all humans or whether we have, you know, wolves that become dogs that hunt with us or cats that we adopt for various reasons.
And that, you know, that group becomes, you know...
Well, have you ever watched that Penn& Teller show, Bullshit?
They had an episode on animal activists and the people for the ethical treatment of animals, like what the roots of their argument and their ideas are.
They don't want pets.
They don't think we should have any captive animals.
No pets, no pet dogs, no pet cats.
Everything's free to roam and do as it will.
And no eating any animals, which is like, oh, what kind of world are we going to live in then?
Well, there's a fascinating, I think it was Cleveland Amory, who was one of the founders of the Fund for Animals, I believe, I have this right, had a vision of the future world, and it was separate predators and prey.
There's already a huge problem with cannibalism in the bear community.
When male bears come out of dens, they actively search for cubs.
They want to eat cubs.
It's one of the first things they do.
They do it to try to bring the female to estrus, and they also do it because they're hungry, and they're cannibals.
When I was in Alberta, Some friends of mine run a hunting camp up there and they saw a male bear kill a female bear's cub and the female chased the male off the carcass and then the female finished it off.
Her own baby.
She just ate it.
Once it was dead, she started eating it.
And they were like, whoa.
I mean, these people, they live in northern Alberta.
They've been around some animals and wildlife their whole life.
Because there's really good documentation and research also that animals, and not just animals, You know, orcas or dolphins, something that we assume is or have good evidence that they're really intelligent, that they have a wide Emotional range,
you know, and including grief, you know, including mourning for the death of family members, including their, you know, the calf, you know.
So there's, it's, and I think this is one of the unfortunate things that happens is that when we get into these black and white struggles, you know, hunters versus animal rights activists or anything like that, any similar kind of black and white, is that Each side has its argument, and each side doesn't really want to acknowledge too much that there might be some validity to either the argument on the other side, or just to the reality of the world.
Like, animals have feelings.
Not just they can physically suffer, but they have emotional, you know, they have emotions.
You can see it in your dog.
You can see it in wild animals sometimes.
They have emotions.
And that's Tough.
And often on the hunting side, it'll be, oh, that's just so-called anthropomorphism.
You're just projecting human.
Well, there's pretty good research on a wide range of species that they have emotions, as well as the ability to physically feel pain and suffer.
And I think it's really helpful when we get into these kinds of conversations across those lines to be able to at least acknowledge, you know?
Yeah.
Or acknowledge where, you know, PETA, you know, or other animal rights groups, at least not acknowledge where they're coming from.
You may not agree with their arguments or conclusions, you know, same as some people might not agree with you hunting, you know, but at least acknowledge there's a, for you hunting, there's a A valuable experience and an ethical impulse to, you know, confront what it means to eat meat, for example.
For vegetarians and animal rights activists of various kinds, there's an impulse to prevent suffering and respect life.
You know, there are honorable and understandable impulses on both sides, even if we don't agree with, you know, what all the conclusions are.
Yeah, I think it speaks to what we were talking about earlier about reward systems that are in place to ensure survival and ensure certain types of behavior and activities.
I mean, it only makes sense that an animal would feel remorse if its child got killed.
That's why you take care of it and protect it.
I mean, if you've ever seen a mother cow around its calves, if you go near those calves, the mother will go crazy.
And there's built-in systems that are established to make sure that these animals continue to procreate and continue to stay alive and make sure they have healthy populations.
It's just the same reason why our emotions are in place.
I mean, it's all really kind of a grand scheme to ensure breeding.
Ensure community and ensure all these that mean we will call it emotions will call it Civilization will call it communication between sentient beings, but really What it is, is all these different systems that are established to make sure that we stay together, we keep together, we breed, we ensure that we stay alive and continue to have food and make sure we make more people.
I don't want to break it down and say all romance songs and every book on...
Companionship is bullshit.
Every movie that shows an awesome relationship is just a ridiculous biological trick that's established to make sure that you continue to stay alive long enough to make more people.
I mean, they could dry things and do certain things, but clearly not a Frigidaire around the corner.
But, you know, what you're talking about...
Whether it's cities or just modern society, that high-tech, high-speed world that most of us live in, where many of us don't feel like we have much free time and we're running around and doing all these things, in cities usually.
When I talk to people who become hunters as adults, By and large, that's part of why they did it.
They wanted to reconnect.
It's part of why they garden.
It's part of why they raise chickens.
It's part of why they do all sorts of other things that you understand and value, too.
They want to get back in touch with not only the hands-on skills, but just the world they inhabit beyond the domesticated Concretized city.
You know, the pavement, beyond the pavement, into nature.
And whether it's a little garden patch in your backyard or, you know, hunting around the Missouri Breaks, you know, there's a sense of wanting to reconnect so that all these practices, hunting, gardening, raising chickens, in part, are like an antidote.
To modern life, you know, people want to reconnect to some of that.
I mean, he's got all kinds of, you know, research and, you know, umpteen citations of different sorts of studies and cultures and different things that happened to kids at first in his first book and then to adults if we're deprived of that, if we're always in front of a screen, for example, if we're just never out in the dirt, you know, never out in the woods.
We certainly evolved In the real world, in nature, not in cities, right?
And our, you know, we're hardwired for that three-dimensional textured, I mean, I guess there's textures in the city too, but that kind of natural surrounding in whatever climate, that's what...
Really nourishes us, not just physically in terms of food, but keeps us sort of sane at some level.
During the time that we're not hunting and we're not gathering and we're not farming...
There's time for philosophical pursuits, creation of literature, all sorts of writing and different communication and wonderful conversations over meals you had no part in creating and the building of community and the bonding of friendships and the evolving of ideas.
That a lot of these things can be thought of by some people as being more valuable than the collection of food.
Well, I always wonder, and this is like a reoccurring theme with me, like what are we doing as a race, as a species?
Like if you could step outside of ourselves, if you could hover a mile above Earth and you're objective, free from any influence of our culture, you're some calculating being that sort of is gathering up all the data and information and all the behavior patterns that you're seeing exhibited by this bizarre species, what is this thing doing?
Well, this thing is creating technology.
That's what it's doing.
It's involved in some sort of ever accelerating path of innovation.
Ever accelerating path of creating new and better technology.
New and better devices.
New and better things.
And it works all day in order to obtain the latest and greatest of these things.
And that therefore fueling the creation of these things while longing for the past.
While longing for some little house in the prairie type fucking situation.
Where, you know, everybody died of polio.
And that was a terrible time to be alive.
But you look at it on TV and you're like, Aw, it was awesome back then.
We longed towards people that would hold hands in front of the dinner table and say our prayers and everybody was a good person except for the few bad people who wore black hats you could spot them a mile away.
I think in this ever more and more complex life, we longed towards this time where things were simple.
And it's one of the things that I believe It's very appealing about the idea of hunting and gathering your own meat, and it's very primally enriching because we do reward our system.
We give ourselves the opportunity to participate in those reward systems that are set up and have been established for thousands and thousands of generations.
That experience that you talked about, like locking eyes with that deer and having that intense experience of seeing that deer alive, the intense experience of taking a life.
My sense, as you were describing it, is that the primalness of that, in part, is a sense that This is really familiar.
This is really old.
It's like a cellular level memory.
This is old, old stuff.
And for me, when I took my first year, it was so shocking emotionally.
It was the process over the next few days of butchering that deer that felt really familiar.
It was almost like a ceremony.
I was doing the knife and the skinning and then in the kitchen with a leg and taking apart this amazing animal, all these layers of muscle and bone and That is what gave me the sense of this is really old and familiar and I'll probably do this again.
You know, in another year, maybe not next week, but next time deer season rolls around, I'll probably hunt again.
And that sense of deep sort of primal familiarity is common.
I mean, I've heard, I've read accounts of this, people who are not hunters, but who have had a sort of hunting-like experience.
George Monbiot, I'm not sure how you say it, he's from the UK and has advocated for veganism and against veganism at various times.
These are things that are written into our code that it was really important that you kill an animal in order to survive X amount of thousands of years ago.
Those people that did that and bred I believe they gave that genetic information to their offspring, and they carried on and on and on.
And then when you tap into it, it lights up.
Like when I locked eyes at that deer, and that deer was bouncing around on the side of this hill, and it saw me, and I saw it, and I locked eyes at it, and then I'm looking at it through the riflescope, there was like this light bulb that went off.
Area of my mind that was illuminated for the first time.
It was like, check out this part.
Like, you don't even get in here without doing this.
And it was like, oh, this is what the hunting thing is.
Like, it illuminates this ancient genetic variable.
was gonna eat it I didn't feel bad about it but I did feel like wow this is intense this is intense but the surprising part was the altered state mm-hmm and I feel that still I mean I mean, it's changed over the years.
And a state of thankfulness, too, which is also like there's a warm happiness to it, a thankfulness that you are successful and now you have this meat and you're going to provide this meat to your family.
You know, like my friend Duncan sent me a photo of some elk meatballs that his girlfriend had cooked for them and their friend from some elk that I gave him.
And it made me feel so good that my friend was eating some meat that I had given him from an animal that I had killed.
If I just wanted food, there are much more efficient ways to produce that.
I could raise chickens.
It's a guaranteed thing.
Unless they get taken out by predators or disease or something, you raise these chickens and then you have meat, or you raise chickens and have eggs, and so on.
So, the prime motive for me to hunt As the prime motive for humans to hunt when it started, you know, way back, is food.
That's essentially why I hunt.
There's often been this split that's been drawn between, this distinction drawn between hunting for utility, utilitarian food, and hunting because you enjoy hunting.
You know, whether you call that sport hunting or recreational hunting or whatever you call it.
The problem with that is that, one, for most of us, they're not separate.
I mean, you hunt because you enjoy something about hunting, and it's meaningful to you, and the food is meaningful, and you get food from it.
That's why I hunt.
Both of those reasons.
Traditional subsistence hunting cultures, those people love to hunt.
But it's the experience of it, and as I got into it more, as I started to have more relationships with other people that I really respected and who also hunted, Then it's also part of that, if I'm hunting with someone, you know, that I really enjoy their company.
So there's social and, you know, natural experience motives that are very much just about the process and the experience.
Which is one of the reasons why that's the number one accusation that anti-hunters will label on hunters that you're a sadistic person, you enjoy doing this, is the only reason why you possibly do this.
But when you say you enjoy hunting, if the understanding is what you enjoy is simply that moment of taking life, there's nothing else about it that you enjoy, and the way you enjoy that moment is sadistic.
Yeah, there's something insanely primal about it, but one of the weirder things that people lobby at you, insults that they send your way, one of the big ones is you can't get an erection, so you go kill animals, or you have a little penis, so you kill animals.
It gets brought to this weird sexual lust thing.
I'm really confused about, I always get confused, like, what is the root of that?
Because so many people go to that one.
Like, they go to that one whenever I watched...
No matter who the hunter is that people are attacking, like whether it was the Walter or the dentist guy who killed Cecil or whatever, it's...
And that women, like Mother Earth, there's an association between women and Earth and nature, and men are these dominating, domineering, violent, macho.
You can sort of see the logic and the cultural roots of all of that.
Part of the problem, and Mary Stange wrote this fascinating book called Woman the Hunter back 25 years ago, and part of her argument, she's very much a feminist and a hunter,
and part of her rebuttal to that Parallel around sexuality is that the same story is told both by the sort of Mainstream culture that portrays men as domineering and women as nurturing and men as
violators and women as victims, which has happened certainly historically.
As man the hunter, as a cultural myth, which is very strong in our culture, that the critics, sort of ecological feminists and so on, the critics of that are retelling the same story.
It's men play this role and women are inherently nurturing, inherently nurturing.
Not the sort of sexual, violent, you know, lust-driven sort of male.
And her argument is, let's break this down.
Let's also have women as hunters being honored and respected and accept that strong women and hunting...
Can be compatible.
And women are not inherently nurturing always.
They can be life takers.
They can be hunters.
You know, they can provide for their family through taking life.
And hunting does not have to be motivated.
And isn't motivated, for most hunters, by some bizarre twisted sexual thing.
I don't think if you gave them a quiet room and said, okay, why do you think people hunt?
If you're correct, you're going to win a million dollars.
I want you to really do your best to try to calculate and formulate the actual process that's going on in a person's brain when they're hunting an animal.
I guarantee you they're not going to go with get it up.
They're not, because then they want to get that million bucks.
They would try to figure it out, and they would try to be objective about it.
I think it is, and I think that when it's something that's...
When people hear...
When a hunter talk about the experience of hunting, the way you're talking about it, and what that food means, and what that moment is like, when they hear that, they respect that, in general.
It's when there's no experience of someone speaking about it that way and it's just some picture of some guy with some zebra or, you know, it's so incomprehensible.
It's so removed and there's no...
story that can be understood right so it's kind of i get having been a vegan and having had a pretty dim view of hunting myself for a long time uh and having having had very strong feelings and still having very strong feelings about about animals i get where that hostility and outrage comes from you know right
and i can understand why someone would even come up with that sort of bizarre theory Yeah, I can as well in a lot of ways.
You know, without, again, like if I wanted to win a million dollars, then left me alone in a room and I'd never hunted before, and if I wanted to come up with a motive, that wouldn't be on the list.
Because I don't really believe it, and I don't think anybody else does either.
But before I first hunted, I was thinking to myself, I'm either going to become a vegan, or I'm going to become a hunter.
That was what this experience, when I first went hunting, I was saying, well, one of the things that's going to happen, either I'm going to shoot this animal, I'm going to be horrified with myself, I'm going to be like, I'm going to eat this animal, and then I'm done.
Or, I'm going to become a hunter.
I just...
I feel like this is one of those things that will not be solved.
This is one of those things that the debate will continue to rage on and I see both sides.
I absolutely see and admire the motive that the ethical vegans want or are attempting to pursue.
I also see the intense hypocrisy when I find out they have cats.
I mean, it's super common.
And amongst my friends, I have a good friend, waitress at the comedy store.
She's got a bunch of fucking cats and she's a vegan.
I just think that This is sort of a stage that human civilization is going through that's going to take a few hundred years, and in that few hundred years or so, we're going to evolve to be something that's almost unrecognizable in comparison to what we are now.
We're going through this process, and in this process we're longing.
We're longing towards the idea of wearing a flannel shirt and going into the woods with a bow and arrow.
I went very similar to the sort of experience you're talking about with what it felt like to hunt and actually take an animal.
I went out to Colorado two, three years ago and did some I did seminars for hunter education instructors and I was a little uncomfortable because one of the topics they asked me to speak on was ethics.
And I thought, I'm a new hunter.
I mean, I just started a few years ago and here are all these lifelong hunters pretty much in this room, 75 guys, mostly guys, and I'm going to tell them about hunting ethics.
Like, oh my god.
How am I going to preach to them?
Right.
But it went well.
And as soon as I opened it up for Q&A and we got into discussion, these guys are talking really deeply about the experience of taking life and the sort of emotional dimensions of that.
And they're talking to each other and challenging each other to bring that into the classroom with their students.
I was like, "Wow." Two days later, I was just outside Boulder, and I'm sure you know Boulder.
Boulder's the butt of every joke in Colorado, and vice versa.
And, you know, all these hunting jokes and redneck jokes.
I was in Boulder because I was being interviewed by this ex-vegetarian who ran this show for Gaim TV, this online TV station.
It's all Eastern spirituality and, you know, all that kind of thing.
Exactly the people who would make fun of each other, right?
Hunter Education instructors and Gaim TV. As soon as we got into the conversation, We're talking about, you know, the emotional and ethical dimensions of taking life.
She's an ex-vegetarian.
She's now eating meat, but she's not a hunter.
She's thinking about these issues about confronting life and death.
And when I got done the trip, I looked back.
I was like, wow, those two conversations were really similar, completely different communities who normally would think they had nothing in common, especially around hunting.
And yet, the very basic human questions, the basic moral, ethical, emotional issues around taking another creature's life, especially a big mammal, It was a similar conversation.
And so that's been, I guess, in a way, one of the most rewarding and surprising things about the whole process and the journey since is that you get to see and talk with people in these places where there's common ground in different cultures, radically different cultures.
And one of the things that I'm hoping is going to bring common ground or bring some common ground or at least bring an understanding is the emerging science behind understanding the intelligence of plants and that plants are in fact a life form that we take for granted because they're not in motion.
Because they're stationary and they slowly grow and we don't really associate them with being a life form.
But they are a life form.
And they're a strange life form that has some form of communication.
Some of them can make calculations.
Some of them, in fact, rare, but they exist.
They're carnivorous.
It's a strange type of life.
And as we...
Grow to understand that life deeper and deeper and have more respect for it and really understand what exactly they're doing when they're making calculations, what exactly they're doing, they're communicating with each other, how this network of...
Intertwined lifeforms, similar plant lifeforms that exist in this topsoil which is also some sort of a very bizarre ecosystem of life that these electrical impulses that they're sharing with each other are some sort of form of communication.
You know, I don't know if there's any way ever to get away from what we've established in this country with the giant numbers of human beings in these population centers and the factory farms that support these population centers.
I don't know what the way of getting around that is.
But I do think that people like yourself and other people that are proponents of At least removing your own existence from it in as clear a way as possible by doing some growing and gardening, by doing some hunting, by experiencing the wild of this world and going out there and getting into it and understanding it.
This is a real environment that coexists with the city during the same time frame on Earth.
I don't think there's a person that looks at those factory farm videos and goes, oh yeah, awesome, fuck those cows.
I'm glad those chickens get stuffed in those boxes.
I don't think there's a single person that does that.
And I think that's also why those ag-gag laws are in effect, to protect those businesses, because if that stuff gets out, people get horrified and then they vote with their dollar.
And they make choices that reflect the horror that they experience when they're watching those videos.
I don't know if we can all collectively as a group get out of this, but I think as individuals we can start moving away from it.
I think what you're doing or what your friends are doing when you're talking about these people that used to be vegetarians and now they grew their own chickens and now they provide food to these other people, that's ideal.
Finding the people that are involved in growing and butchering this meat and getting it from them.
It's a cleaner, easier way of existing.
I don't know if we're ever, though, with the amount of people that we have stuffed in these cities, how else...