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Jan. 6, 2018 - Brother Nathanael
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A Jew Transcends Self Examination
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I've never asked myself, who am I? Jews don't do this.
They know who they are, especially when confronted with a challenge to their identity.
I once took a walk through Times Square, and when tempted to feel lost in the crowd, a young fellow with his pals shouted at me,''Hey Rabbi, doing some sightseeing?''''I'm not a rabbi,'' I answered.
''Rabbis don't wear crosses.'' But you look so Jewish, he answered back.
What does a Jew do with this?
Does he blush? Get nervous?
Get hostile? I simply smiled and continued my walk that was soon interrupted by another encounter.
After giving me the evil eye, a Jewish guy gets in my face and said, We don't want you here in New York, you anti-Semite.
I've seen your videos and I'm going to shut you down.
I made the sign of the cross over him, tried to stay calm, and went back to the hotel.
There I did a little self-examination.
I'm still a Jew, I said to myself, even though I believe in Christ.
It's inescapable, since I do look Jewish.
How could it be otherwise? My mother once traced our family tree back eight generations, all Jews.
Hers from Russia, my father's from Austria, Hungary.
Am I then an anti-Semite, I thought?
How could I be?
I'm not against myself nor anyone because of their race.
For racially, I'm a Jew.
But religiously, I'm a baptized Orthodox Christian.
Once baptized, a Jew crosses the line.
He's now on the other side.
Do I think like a Jew?
I then ask myself.
Well, how do Jews think?
Basically, everything is filtered through the lens of us and them.
Woody Allen shows this in Annie Hall.
Sitting at a Thanksgiving meal with Annie Hall's Gentile parents, he's suddenly transformed into a Hasidic rabbi.
It's funny, but brings out the us-and-them Jewish think, especially when Goyish culture throws one's Yiddishkeit into stark relief.
Do I think like this?
Sometimes in church, I'm in the Russian Orthodox Church, I get the feeling that some Ruski is looking at me and saying, what's this Yid doing here?
Maybe I'm paranoid, but this is a Jewish thing.
Now, in my self-examination, a kind of light bulb came on.
The essence of Orthodoxy, I thought, is otherworldliness.
If anything smacks of this world, then the Orthodox Christian instinctively combats it.
Deceit, bribery, blackmail, manipulation, censorship, underhandedness, influence peddling, hypocrisy, pushing sexual perversion.
These are marks of worldliness.
I'm not against Jews.
I'm against evil actions.
This is the mind of the Church.
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