Tucker and Mike Cernovich on Nicolas Maduro’s Capture, Charlie Kirk’s Murder, and Battling Demons
Mike Cernovich on Maduro’s capture, Charlie Kirk’s murder and how everything is downstream from the spiritual war.
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Chapters:
0:00 The Capture of Nicolas Maduro
11:15 Was This a Victory for the US?
25:50 What Do the Next 3 Years Look Like?
30:44 Which Country Will We Regime Change Next?
37:17 The Institutionalized White Hate in America
43:43 What Will the 2028 Election Look Like?
49:21 Why Regime-Changing Venezuela Is a Pivot Point in American History
52:57 How Charlie Kirk's Murder Changed American Politics
57:11 Who Killed Charlie Kirk?
1:02:35 Demons, the Divine, and the Spiritual Battle
1:07:14 What Is the Meaning of Life?
1:18:17 How to Know if Someone Is Animated by an Evil Spirit
1:21:35 How Ayahuasca Changed Cernovich's Life
1:45:22 Should We Be Worried About Demon Possession?
1:47:15 Death and the Final Judgement
1:56:22 Scott Adams
2:01:27 Spiritual Confusion
2:08:06 The Real Reason Demons Want to Harm Humans
2:14:07 How Much of the World's Chaos Is Spiritual?
Of course, but if you're, if you're online, yeah, of course.
But if you're online, you're whatever the most extreme.
That's what they call it.
And no, I'm not.
I'm not.
And I'm not an interventionist either.
But there's a, I feel like we're always stuck between this false dialectic of you either do nothing or boots on the ground.
We need full Marine battalions to take the beachheads.
Whereas I've always been approached, I've always been a fan of the Trump approach, which is used Delpha.
We have these guys do targeted strikes, remind the world that the USA is still a world power, even though we might not feel that way, and exercise our might for a good purpose.
So people say, well, this is Iraq or Afghanistan again.
And I go, the people of Venezuela are not the people, they're not the same people as Afghanistan.
It's a different people.
We've had special forces there for three, four decades.
We've had business interests there for decades.
The people of Venezuela voted out Maduro or tried to and they couldn't get rid of him.
So we went in and we got rid of them.
So obviously I oppose escalation and whatever, but the parade of horrors, especially after Salmania, just hasn't happened yet.
And that's because I've talked to a lot of special operations guys during the Trump admin.
And the way his approach differed, this was covered a little bit in the media, but not enough, is under Obama, they just didn't let the D-Boys and them run missions.
Everything had to get approval and work out the chain.
And by the time it happened, they didn't have their targets.
And the Trump approach was, we have these people.
They're trained.
The level of the missions that they can accomplish, which we saw on video, is unbelievable, right?
I don't know if, I mean, I've got a double-stacked staccato nine in my bedside drawer.
I've never used it.
I don't feel the need to use it.
I mean, just because like, but no, I, well, I'll just tell you what I'm grateful for, and I'm grateful for the wisdom of not taking out the entire government, not because I support the government, but because, you know, we have clear models in Iraq and Libya and a lot of Syria.
Like it can be very hard to put those things back together again.
And the fact that they appear to be backing Delsie Rodriguez, not because they love her, but because they're in favor of stability over chaos and her brother, and they're kind of, you know, keeping the structure in place, but making sure it's pro-American, that seems like a much wiser approach.
The problem that everybody, the neoliberal and even some people on the right have is they don't understand that you needed a strong man like Saddam Hussein to keep all these religious sects together.
And it's obviously, it's obvious in hindsight, right?
But at the time, people either didn't know, and in my opinion, they didn't know.
Like, I remember I spent time with my wife in Vietnam and you'd roam around all over the place.
And I remember we did the tours of the caves, and all I could think of was the tunnels, not even the tunnels yet, just the caves and the jungle.
And all I could think of was, I can't even fit in through here.
What in the world are we doing sending 18-year-old corn-fed boys and black guys into the Vietnam jungles?
Because if anybody had done any kind of advanced recon, you would just say, our guys are too big for the territory.
You would literally just go through.
There's just a lot to be said for looking at the real estate.
And you would walk through and forget the tunnel rats and all the other ways that they were buried in.
You would just say, there's no way we can send our people out here.
This is just a completely different area.
And then Vietnam, people have always tried to conquer them for thousands of years, and they actually take pride in not being conquered.
And the foreign policy elite, of course, just said, well, we're going to do Vietnam.
And it was the same thing with Iraq and Libya.
Oh, all people are the same.
Everybody's the same.
We'll just remove Saddam Hussein and everything will be fine.
Then, of course, you have a mess.
But with Venezuela and Latin America, they're just pretty much like us.
It's a little bit of different culture, but they've been influenced by the Europeans.
They've been influenced by the Catholic Church.
They're running a similar operating system.
You can communicate to them in sort of like a shared language.
So even though people have doctrinal debates and everybody debates religion and what's the truth, it just to me is like the most boring thing in the world.
Like if somebody's a Christian and I'm a Christian, you're going to maybe disagree about can you drink?
Can you do this?
What is this?
But you're still in the same language, right?
You're still able to, you're still like close enough that you can frame people.
Well, I mean, you still have a chance to pivot against the neocons because the BB people, literally Bibi's office, is pushing for MCM, this machado lady, the gay marriage lady, the Klaus Schwabolite, who is supposed to be the Nobel Prize winner, actually, who's supposed to be the president in waiting.
And Trump has said flat out, no, she has no support.
We're not doing that.
But the neocons are pushing for her.
They don't want the vice president to ascend to the presidency.
Well, no, but the point is that's how the table gets set.
You can all, by now, by now, you can tell the future if you just know that they always set the table a little bit beforehand.
And the minute she won the Nobel Peace Prize and then praised Trump, oh no, thank you for this.
And then she's immediately kind of schmoozing with Trump.
I go, oh, yeah, we're going into Venezuela.
I don't need any inside.
I don't need any, I don't need any top secret sources.
That was all I needed to see.
So whoever we send, I don't know, I just send Rubio.
Where we went wrong, and I've had this conversation with everybody from line infantry guys to people who did the higher level stuff in Afghanistan.
They said we just didn't want to rule the country.
We went in and we won all the military engagements.
This is another thing, too, why I'm glad the Venezuela mission happened.
I was so, I got so triggered, man, the way that even people politically aligned with us would talk about the American fighting man.
Oh, they, they can't win a war.
They got beat by people who wear flip-flops and say, no, they didn't.
We took almost no casualties in Afghanistan.
And I think the last year were there, I'm not even sure if there was a single casualty.
It was the occupation that was lost.
And these are just completely different things.
So I think it's good to just remind people: no, that was all black pill doomerism because of poor leadership by people like Millie and Biden and the woke generals.
And that we, we have a unreal.
We should take great pride in the people that we have in Delta and SEALs and special operations.
I, I think that with, I think that to have retention at these higher level, these higher level units, I think is the DC people, they obviously have an opinion, but I think, I think those guys get more of a vote than we might give them credit for.
They obviously can't just say, well, I'm not going to go do this.
But they, you know, they have a, these are strong-willed people.
Like I've met enough of these guys.
One, they're extremely impressive.
It's just a different caliber of person.
And it's very humbling because I would say, oh, I couldn't do this.
You know, maybe some aspect of it I could, but I couldn't.
I don't have any delusions that I would have been a squadron commander in Delta force, whatever.
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So if the administration pulls this off and the country remains intact and, you know, you don't have various generals occupying oil fields and claiming them for their own.
You don't have a civil war.
You don't have a migrant crisis that wrecks Colombia or winds up here.
If Venezuelans in the United States return to Venezuela immediately, as I think they should be required to do, like immediately, Venezuelan nationals, then, you know, that is amazing.
Like, you show up in our country, you adopt our concerns, and importing your homeland's conflicts into my country and making those the basis of my foreign policy should strip you your citizenship immediately.
So it's us like pussy whites indulge in that and the Cubans and Venezuelans who come in and lived under communism.
So if I look at the whole picture, sometimes it's good to get a little injection of people who live, you know, who lived under that because they're going to see it not as an abstract philosophical gentlemanly debate about, oh, should we allow wealth confiscation and for your homelands to be destroyed?
So when you read older books, which is especially good as we get up there in the years, they have, you know, because I write short, punchy, boom, boom, boom.
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That was, that's, I mean, that's my hope is American imperialism, because I believe we're a just and moral people.
I believe we're a Christian people.
I believe that the Venezuela, I believe in, like, I believe that the greatest spiritual battle is the and I don't mean to sound like utopian or sound like a Bolshevik myself because some of this, that's why, again, the left and the neocons, like they took all this, they, they ruined, they ruined everything because you end up sounding like a leftist utopian or you, you sound like a neocon when you say these things, but I just,
I believe in my heart that America's the most righteous country that is, that has ever lived, that the Western Europe, if it doesn't fall, needs, needs to remain upright and that human suffering will be reduced by what was done in Venezuela.
So I think that's one way that I look at foreign policy is in the Middle East, we created human suffering on a scale that's catastrophic.
And Vietnam, especially too, like that's one thing that always annoys me that I think the Cambodian genocide should be taught in our schools because one, it was because of communism and polepot.
And two, it was our fault because we were using Cambodian airspace and that's what led to Pol Pot's rise and propping up Prince Sihanouk and the whole thing.
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Remember, you mentioned you heard it here first.
But okay, so I guess I haven't quite figured out what I think.
I have a lot of thoughts.
Obviously, I'm totally opposed and have been since Iraq, since 2003, to anything like this.
On the other hand, I'm thinking to myself, maybe, well, maybe I'm not in charge of history.
Okay, that's like one thing that.
And maybe it's just time to accept the reality of it.
So I would like to live in a small agrarian Christian republic where everyone knows everyone else.
Like that's kind of my idea of utopia.
That's not anywhere near what we have.
We live on a continent-sized country with 350 million other people and we'll probably have 500 million by the time we're old.
Okay.
So, and we run at least half of the world.
So maybe what we're seeing is people just embracing what was already true and not like fighting against, like I hate the idea of having an empire, but we do.
It might have been Steve Saylor or one of those guys.
But we had the worst of it, which is, oh, we're going to go in and destroy your countries, and then we're going to bring you back up here to do daycare welfare fraud.
Whereas the righteous thing to do would have said, we're going to invade your countries, but we're actually going to share in your resources.
And that was one of the real, I think, evils of removing Gaddafi was they had education, which again sounds very leftist, but a lot of this is just objectively true.
And they had free oil, more or less, free petrol.
And now they have open-air slave markets.
So we did the worst.
We didn't build empires.
We destroyed other people's places.
And then rather than colonizing them, we brought everybody up here.
And now we, yeah, 40 trillion in debt, scam after scam.
We have, like it or not, we have blood feuds being imported where like now you have to have an opinion about Somaliland.
My God, you know, in my life, as I get older, I'm trying to have fewer opinions.
And now I have to know the difference between Somalia and Somaliland.
And then you look at the Minnesota flag, which is obviously tied to Somalia.
That, again, is the worst of all worlds.
So if we're going to do it, then we should do it as an empire.
Well, the future generally versus empire building are two different things because I think the future we're on a pathway with the transhumanism, there's a fork in the road about humanity and what it even means to be a human.
So that is a whole other different discussion.
But if you mean geopolitics, for example, I think that we're going to continue to see these kinds of targeted strikes.
And then you look at the mullahs and you just say they want to have their fiefdoms.
They don't want high IQ people in Iran even.
They're trying to get rid of as many high IQ people as they possibly can.
This was funny.
Actually, I was at a dinner.
There's a Persian diaspora in Orange County and LA.
Huge.
Yeah.
And not just Jewish and the secular and the Muslim.
And I was talking to this.
They're just like a good-looking couple, very well-educated, smart.
And I go, how did you guys get out of Iran?
You know, it was like one of those things where I thought I knew something, but I was revealed my own ignorance.
I said, how did you guys get out of Iran?
He goes, oh, he goes, you get, and people on Twitter call me a liar for this too, which is like so annoying.
But he goes, no, no, you basically they give you IQ tests.
And if you're a high IQ and you're too high IQ, they let you get educated and they want you out of the country because high IQ people have too much of a revolutionary risk.
So yeah, obviously we don't want to have become a nuclear power or whatnot, but that doesn't mean you have to go away and go to war with them because, oh, no, any day now they might just do something like crazy, right?
And I think that I think that's like the right-wing position is you see people remove the moralize, which most people can't do.
Most people, they want to say the mullahs are evil.
Well, that's why people have to have a definition of what victory looks like because victory for the United States looks different than victory from other people.
So this is where I think people, people like lose the plot a little bit.
So it's in, it might be in the interest of some countries for there to be chaos because if there's chaos in those people, you can kind of go in.
You don't have to worry about it.
It's the interest of the United States for there not to be chaos.
So it's in our interest that if we do do regime change, that we don't have, we don't have chaos.
We do want to have a moral leadership and moral clarity, and we do want to keep things on the right path.
And then other people have different interests, and it's just up to us to keep pushing for orderly, the orderly governance of the world via American imperialism.
Well, it wasn't that long ago that many Americans thought they were inherently safe from the kinds of disasters you hear about all the time in third world countries, a total power loss, for example, or people freezing to death in their own homes.
That could never happen here.
Obviously, it's America.
People are recalculating, unfortunately, because they have no choice.
The last few years have taught us that.
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But undergirding all of that is the belief that the point of the U.S. government is to serve the interests of American citizens, correct?
Well, not of course, because I, I mean, the foreign policy leadership that I've grown up with and that I know personally, that's not even in the top five.
Well, the affirmative, I mean, I remember with police and fire hiring, that was in the 80s, where if you're a white male, Adam Croll had talked about that before, but he tried to be a firefighter.
But white men have been hated for decades and then they've been the world's punching bag until, of course, you need a Delta Force mission.
They post a picture and it's all jacked white guys with a few Latinos and with tattoos and you think, well, the whole generation was hollowed out and you just do not see.
And for me, that's a litmus test for 2028 is anyone who Who runs for president but won't specifically condemn anti-white hate by name is not even in the JD Vance just did that.
You're not even in the mix because if you could you see Ron DeSantis saying calling out anti-white hate by name DeSantis is an interesting I think he would have three or four years ago.
They get into West Palm Beach, they get around the Richies, and I've seen that happen to a lot of people is you just you cannot spend whether it's the tech guys or the finance guys, the West Palm Beach people, Silicon Valley people.
Can't spend too much time around the Richies, man.
They're not living in reality.
They have all these weird pet projects that don't have any kind of connection to downstream reality.
He bought this, I think, Tyrannosaurus Rex fossil or something for $75 million.
Yeah, people who are like, I have so much money that I just want a dinosaur fossil or dinosaur skeleton in my atrium might not be the people you want to take political advice from.
Well, one is it depends if we get depends what happens in the midterms and how many impeachments Trump gets hit with if they can't keep the midterms, although Elon's back in the game, so maybe Republicans keep the midterms.
And it's just, that's a sad thing to say, but that's just, again, that's maybe like, well, that's where it goes back to like, I'm a pragmatist, not an idealist.
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Okay, well, that's nice.
No, we need to get, we need to basically bullet, like, it's funny because all my friends are pro-Israel, basically.
And my advice to them has been like a singular.
One, you need guys, you need to just calm down because the anti-Semites are so moronic right now.
Just let them talk because everything they say is off-putting to anyone with a high IQ.
But if you come with rancor, then that's just, you're, you're muddy in the field.
And I go to is just be like Stephen Miller.
Stephen Miller likes Israel a lot, wants Israel to prosper and everything.
But when people think of Stephen Miller, all they think about is this guy's amazing.
You know, like Stephen Miller wakes up trying to do things for America.
And then if you do that, we don't really care what Israel does, or at least I don't.
Most of us wouldn't, or if there would be certainly less rancor around it.
And if they would just fund things, then everybody would be better off.
So Elon, he just writes huge checks.
And if that side wrote bigger checks for Republicans to just be Republicans.
That's what I've been telling him.
It's like, oh, look, you're going to get 80, 90% of what you want if you just keep Republicans in the house.
You're going to get that.
The alternative for you guys is AOC and Mamdani and all these other people versus people like me who are just realistic and pragmatic about it.
And people like JD, who's like, who's the same thing?
He's just, he's a pragmatist.
You got to accept that you just got to accept that not everybody is going to be an ideologue about it, but you can still win without people being ideologues.
You can win, which is good old-fashioned alliances where you help out, you pitch in.
It's a repeat of the DeSantis when he ran in the primary.
Same talking points at the same people playing the same kind of games.
So I don't, I just see it as this is the third season of 2015, 2022, 2023.
And now it's back again.
So I don't see it.
And the way the politics lines up on this stuff, especially in like 2028, is you got to look at it as the, there's just not, there's the problem, you know, I gotta,
I always want to be careful what I say is that not because I'm like afraid of being canceled, because I've been, I mean, I've been through the ringer a thousand times, but the they have the people who really see Israel as a key issue just need to understand that,
hey, man, you're going to get like most of what you want, but if you take it so that we can't win in 2028 with a Republican because you create so much acrimony and division and suppress the vote, then you're going to get a bad Democrat.
You're going to get a bad Democrat and you're going to get maybe a bad Democrat Congress.
So people need to not behave in this kind of way.
Because it's not helpful.
I just think of things like politics.
Am I being helpful to the country?
And I'm being helpful for 2026 and 2028.
And I think that's how everybody needs to view the map.
Like, are you being helpful?
Like, are you going to get what you want if you continue to behave this way?
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Well, it depends what you want.
So if you run around calling people Nazis, the chance that you're going to convince them to become Nazis is pretty high.
I mean, that's just very obvious if you're doing that.
Well, if you want, if you want to, if the incentive structure is different.
So if you're in media and you want to maximize a certain kind of sales funnel where they get as many people as they can, as many eyes on them, that they want to be acrimonious and they want to throw bombs because that's the business, right?
But if you're more political, you want to think about like, how is this going to help us achieve an agenda, right?
How is this going to help the country?
How is this going to help them get what they want?
That's what I'm trying to see.
I'm just trying.
We have this alliance that won in 2024.
The popular vote, which I knew Trump was going to win.
We have mutual friend, actually.
I'll tell you when we stop, when we stop filming.
But he was so blackpilled about the election.
And I said, no, he's going to win.
We'll know that night.
Trump's going to win.
We're going to know that night.
He goes, crazy.
I go, I promise you.
Promise you.
And election night, I was like, well, who told everybody?
The only thing I didn't see is I didn't think we were going to win the we, you know, I didn't think Trump was going to win the popular vote.
You have the OG, like MAGA people, you know, the wild energy.
They brought in, there was always this boisterous male energy, but then they brought a bunch more of that in.
Then you had the post-October.
I don't think Trump wins if October 7th doesn't happen, to be honest.
And I said this at the time, because when October 7th happened, they realized, oh, this is what the left really is, right?
And I do think a lot of them weren't, a lot of the pros and real people were not paying attention to what the left kind of had become.
And because I remember I would talk about the Red Ring Alliance and people's eyes would sort of like glaze over, like, well, that's, you know, that sounds stupid.
Can I ask, though, if you're the reason I have such like a tepid, not interesting response to what happened two days ago is because I think it's like a pivot point in history and I don't fully understand what it means.
So I don't want to get over my skis until I have a better sense of what I think it means.
But it is a totally new way of conducting diplomacy slash foreign policy slash military action.
Like this is a new thing because Trump didn't dress it up with a lot of lying about democracy or human rights.
He's like, no, we want the oil and like this guy's bad and we're taking him out and we're going to run it.
Never, no one alive has seen anything like that before in the United States.
So you wonder, and that's why I'm saying I think we're for good or bad, fully in the empire stage of civilizational development.
The Republic stage is over.
No one cares about Congress.
So, no, just like nobody care about the Roman Senate.
I wonder like how long until that same governing style applies to domestic policy.
But there can be a homeless encampment right next to the don't walk sign, but you're the one who's going to get the ticket while the encampment's there.
And that's that's what we lived under an imperial dictatorship where everybody was just like, oh, yeah, like when, like, have you talked to you?
Have you had like your talk to the kids yet?
Everybody, Charlie, Pesobic, everybody had that conversation with the kids, which is like, hey, just so you know, like daddy might be taken away for a couple of years and he's going to go away.
And if anybody like shows up, don't do anything, you know, because they might try to shoot you.
They might want to put a flashbang grenade in the house.
They might want to kill your kids in front of you.
When they raided Michael Cohen's house, even though Cohen ended up turning up, what they did to him was just disgraceful.
They were going through his daughter's iPads in front of him.
This is wicked, spousy stuff.
And they just didn't get really any media coverage because I didn't even know they did that together.
No, no.
That's one reason I think Cohen sort of broke him.
They just took all the iPads out of the little kids' room and they were just like taunting him.
John Eastman, a respected member of the bar, constitutional law professor, disbar in California.
Jeffrey Clark, great career in law, big law, Kirkland and Ellis.
They're trying to take his law license in D.C. One thing after another, and it got almost no coverage or no attention because the media would cover, downplay it, or they would lie about it.
And that was like the world, dude.
Like, I've had that conversation with my kids.
They're too young to understand.
Like, I remember, because I don't have any money.
Like, I have no money.
And people are like, well, you know, won't you have any money?
It's like, my family has all my money because I know that I could just be stripped of everything any day.
Even, you know, even now that if you're a targeted regime, you could just like wake up.
You're like, okay, well, I guess I'm fucked.
But on the other hand, you're just like, my God, how have I been boiled in the pot for this long that I've just accepted that is the norm?
And I think that's something that is a problem with all of us is we're just, we just took it for like, oh, Charlie Kirk.
I remember Charlie Kirk get shot.
I remember Pesobic calls.
He's like, dude, they killed Charlie.
Everybody thought they would just kill somebody else first, but everybody knew they were going to kill somebody.
Everybody knew it.
This is how we live our life.
Like, I live my life knowing I could be killed any day.
I live my life under Biden knowing, well, you know, I could any day, anything, any day, something can happen.
I know every day that I wake up just to a shit show of false, it doesn't, it just doesn't matter.
That, that's the way that you live.
And as like fucked up as it is, and the reason our people, I think, don't talk about it is you just, you have a certain nob, a stiff upper lip.
You don't want to, you don't want to sound like a victim, but that's exactly right.
That's not, it's not like normal.
It's like, it's a weird, it's like enraging in a way.
Like, no, this is not how it's supposed to be in America, where you know that any given day, like you, you might be taken away from your children because of politics and because of how rotten and corrupt everything is.
Obviously, I live a life exactly like the one you described.
On the other hand, I think it's essential to cling to your nobility and refuse to become a victim and refuse to act like Seth Dillon or whoever, like constantly talking about, oh, the threats against me.
See, that's the, that's how they got us in this catch-22, which is, well, nobody can complain because we're, you know, mainly men and we take it off the chamber.
No, we don't complain.
But then they get away with everything.
And people go, wait a minute, you had to say, like, I think that most people, if you told them, oh, yeah, like, I remember when I was, when Douglas Mackey got wrongfully arrested and charged for a crime he didn't commit, and it's been proven now he didn't commit the crime.
That I remember sitting out with my kids and I go, hey, kids, I just, you know, want to let you know, you know, talk to my wife, hey, like, you know, here's your money.
Here's where the money is.
You know, it's all in like your name.
I don't have anything.
And tell my kids, hey, kids, like, they might take daddy away.
Like, the bad guys might come and get daddy and, you know, it'll be okay and everything.
Dude, that if we don't talk about it, then nobody knows.
And Fuentes, to his credit, I mean, I gave him a chance to talk about it and whatever you think of Fuentes, but he did not marinate in his victimhood at all.
Yeah, some loony goes up to Cat Turn's house, tries to get him.
They go after Benny Johnson.
They go after Seth Dylan.
Candace Owens has had threats.
Charlie Kirk gets killed.
So I think it's there's a way to talk about these.
And that's why, so the Charlie Kirk thing really was a frustrating thing for me because, well, I mean, it was a tragic thing, you know, like frustrating.
That sounds so like shallow.
I just thought that people would realize they're like, they're hunting us for sport.
All of us.
Tucker, they're hunting you.
If they could get Shapiro, they would get Shapiro.
If they could get Walsh, they could get Walsh.
If they could get Candace, they could get Candace.
And it ain't the Israelis and it ain't the Jews that are doing it.
It's a violent, feral, terrorist, you know, Bolshevik left.
And they would get all of us if they could.
So whatever acrimony we have, which is like, I'm not a unity guy.
I'm a guy who likes, you know, likes the mix maybe too much.
But it's like, dude, they're going to kill us.
They're going to kill all of us.
And we need to figure out, we need to figure out some kind of way to coexist with one another, understanding that the threat against us is existential.
And they would, the left, if they could kill Seth Dylan, they'd be glad to kill him.
If they could kill you, they'd be glad to kill you.
To them, that's just another notch on their bell to a point on the scoreboard.
I mean, that was my problem with Trump's first term is the political violence against Trump's supporter, because again, we're just supposed to deal with it, just deal with it, was completely, almost completely ignored during his first term.
So, the no, I'm, I'm a, I mean, I think it was Tyler Robinson.
I think a 22-year-old man on a mission is a very dangerous thing.
And that it, I think that there were other people in those Discord servers, and there were people tweeting something big is going to happen tomorrow.
And after tomorrow, Charlie won't be around anymore.
So, I'm very frustrated that there doesn't seem to be much interest in maybe those people were just guessing, or maybe they were trolling, but there doesn't seem to be much interest in finding out who those other people are.
I always go back to the Garland, Texas mass shooting, which is to me, this is like the skeleton key of it all.
So, Pamela Geller, who's very much pro-Israel, about as hardcore as you can be on the issue, did a draw Muhammad contest, and there was going to be a bunch of other people, also like very pro-Israel.
And a jihadi was going to shoot the place up.
It was Texas, he got taken out, but by accident of faith, or an accident of fate, a local law enforcement officer pulled over an FBI agent who was fleeing the scene, got the guy's phone, and the text message to the jihadi said, tear up Texas.
Sounds unbelievable.
It's 100% true.
Sander Grassley has asked for information twice from Ray and Garland, has been stonewalled.
I don't know why Kash Patel won't release it.
I've asked everybody up as high up the food chain as you can get why we can't get it.
My belief is that there's that MK Ultra never ended, COINTELPRO.
MK Ultra was, of course, the mind control experiments they conduct on people where the book Chaos covered this in great detail for people who are curious about that.
And then there was that Air Force guy who was drugged up and killed somebody, and that didn't even make sense.
And I even know about that.
That book was completely mind-blowing.
And I do think they still have whatever armor that is, whether that's within the FBI or some other dark site within the intelligence community.
I'm certain that that still exists.
So because of that, you don't get, you don't get, you're not going to get any information about that because I do think there would be some kind of dark op.
Because what a lot of people, again, it's just the title of the book shows the agenda.
It's just chaos.
Get everybody afraid.
Get everybody panicked.
Usher in more surveillance technology.
Usher in a surveillance state.
Bring in anarcho-tyranny where if you're law-abiding, everything you do is monitored by flock and all these camera traffic cameras.
Everything you do is monitored.
But if you're a drug addict on the street, you have free reign to do anything you want.
This was the Bolshevik method.
There was a Soltzen Eason quote, Alexander Soltzeneason quote, where it went, I don't have the exact quote, but the substance of it was: your punishment for having a knife was different for the thieves.
When you had a knife, it was terrorism.
When the thief had it, it was just his way of life.
And that's what we're living under now with the modern anarcho-tyranny.
Yeah, it's the battle, the battle between people say good and evil, but you would just say like logos and chaos, logos, the divine order, the order of God, the unison of people, the fellowship of people versus the chaos and the acrimony, and the evil of the dark one, Satan, demons.
Every religious tradition has a even dualistic religions or polytheistic religions have chaos gods, right?
So even if you're not monotheistic, which I'm monotheistic, obviously, but everybody has had those chaos agents.
So chaos is destroying the divine order and the divine communion of people.
If you were a demon with dominion over the planet and you wanted to increase the amount of human suffering across the world, you would eliminate the white population.
Ireland really is the Rosetta Stone, I think, in all of this.
I agree.
Because you can, again, even if right or wrong, you could at least rationalize Rhodesia was an evil apartheid state and they had to give it over to Mugabe and it became a Zimbabwe, but you know what?
When you know, it's like it's like Memento Murray.
So the arrogance or whatever, because I pretend to be arrogant on the internet sometimes, but people who know me sort of find that kind of funny.
But there's one, there's like a deep weight that you carry, just a deep weight where you know that what you do has consequences and you need to really focus on doing the right thing.
It has consequences for yourself and the country because if we do lose, the amount of human suffering is going to be immeasurable in the U.S. and globally.
When you read about the Haldemore, you read about the Cambodian genocide, you read about the Gulags.
It's just a scale of human suffering beyond human understanding.
And we're the remaining bulwark against it.
So you're just left with a sense of like, and then you're, you're, like, I have a thing, kind of a bit I do online, although it's really true.
I have like, I have a war on fun.
So you don't get to have fun.
Like, I don't get to have fun.
That doesn't mean I don't enjoy my life.
It doesn't mean that I don't have a cigar and mountain bike and do other things, but I just, I don't get to have fun.
That's not in the cards to me.
I don't get to have fun.
I have to live like a serious person who knows that I could be killed, that my friends could be killed.
In the case of Charlie, a friend will be killed.
That even people like Seth and them that I may not see eye to eye with, like they could get killed.
That any of us could be killed on any given day.
And so in a way, it's like being in, it's not being in a combat zone in a way, but it is a way of, it is a form of warfare.
Yeah, meaning is a complicated subject, but it gives your life a you certainly have a purpose, right?
Where you know that, and this is true of everybody or how people should live is what you do does have significance and consequence and you do have to, you do have to make it count.
It's that whatever it was, whatever, you know, there's a saying like the only way out is through is like, whatever this is, you're going to get through it.
And there is a divine evening out of everything.
And that everything did have a point and everything did matter.
And everything happened for a reason, not because you're a actor who doesn't have agency, but because it was part of, it was part of the rise.
Like, I got chunks taken out of me.
There's no, like, there's, you've had chunks.
Everybody has.
You know, again, we're not supposed to talk about it because we're so, you know, macho macho men.
But like, I think I'm like, sometimes I'm just like, dude, I'm tired, man.
Like, it is just like having to live like that, especially under the Biden regime, the censorship regime where as an adult man, you can't even say what you believe because your whole livelihood will be destroyed.
You might not be able to have a bank account, right?
That was like the way you kind of lived.
And you have chunks taken out of you.
And to think that that was for nothing, right?
Like losing, which is how meaning ties into, I think, the political melee is losing would be the most meaningless thing in the world.
There's this painting somebody posted, and I'm going to get it reproduced in an oil painting.
And it's of when the Bolsheviks took over the palace at the Bolshevik Revolution.
And it just shows this, it just fills me with this like rage.
You're just staring at evil.
And I look at like, this is what losing looks like.
Losing looks like you're lined up next to your kids and they start shooting you, but the kids don't die right away.
So they bayonet your kids in front of you.
That's what losing looks like.
And people, people used to say, oh, Cernovich, you're crazy.
That sounds crazy.
I remember they say that 2015, 2016.
Oh, you're so hyperbole.
Now everybody, that's what losing looks like.
Losing doesn't mean, oh, you're going to have a wealth tax and you're going to have to pay a little bit more taxes.
Losing is you are lined up in the basement and they are killing your kids in front of you.
That is what like losing is.
Well, to me, that's meaningless.
To me, that's the antithesis of like whatever the meaning of life is.
So the connection between meaning and what do you mean?
I mean, the basis of Christianity is this guy who Christians believe was God who came down and then like got brought up on false charges and tortured to death.
You're just, you're having a moment and then they're like, what about this?
Their deep state's coming for you or, you know, one thing after another.
And there's just these moments of like stillness.
And you go, this is what it's about.
You know, but that's as because of our primitive brains or whatever our problems are, probably because we're not in the Garden of Eden, is we just can't maintain divine connection.
And it's like the arrow prayers like, God, you know, Jesus Christ, have mercy on me.
I'm a set.
You know, you have to constantly be connected with the divine and then lean into your heart more to distract us from the egoism, which, but you have to have some kind of egoism if you live in the world.
You can't just not participate in the world.
So there's this tension between divine connection, which means surrendering yourself to the full presence of God, right?
Versus, okay, but I have to like pay my bills, dude.
You know, like I have to, I have to make my way in this world.
And you're, those are constantly a tension, but then something, and this is probably why there's a more of a rise for like Eastern Orthodoxy and older religious religious traditions of Christianity is the and I love Protestants, so no, no offense to the Protestants, but Protestantism is very, well, it's very waspish, waspish.
It's like by the book.
The Bible says this, and like, here's the scriptures, and it's very much of the mind, Christian apologetics.
Oh, well, you think this is there, the Trinity, and it's like arguing back and forth, but you're like existing in mind.
Whereas the Eastern traditions, and by Eastern, I don't mean Hinduism, but even though Hinduism has a Eastern Christianity, but Eastern Orthodoxy and Eastern Christianity is also about the knowledge of the heart and the tension that you feel every day.
Like every day, I just feel a great spiritual tension where I don't, like, if you ask me, are you going to go to heaven or hell?
I'd say, I don't, God help me.
I don't know.
I don't know.
Like, are you a good person or a bad person?
God help me.
I don't know.
I don't know.
I don't have a good answer to that.
It makes it weird too when like people go at you because you're just like, I don't even know if I'm going to defend myself.
Maybe I, you know, maybe I am.
You know, like, what am I?
And, and, but you can find a certain amount of meaning in that.
There's like a certain amount of meaning and confusion.
Like, maybe that's how it was supposed to be that we are spirits and human bodies.
Because if you, you know, if you read your old philosophy, there's debate on mind-body dualism.
And there's, there is a sense that we've all had that, am I a body?
Am I a mind?
Well, God, we're both.
We are both.
We're a mind and a body.
And, or a spirit and a body.
And there's going to be tension between this.
We wrestle against the flesh.
And so maybe that's the right answer.
Maybe the right answer is to not be so sure that you're right and that you're such a righteous and holy person.
We have people, but even people who are successful drug overdose or they blow up their family lives because they're thinking, is this really all there is?
Oh, I did the right things.
And so even if you end up in a success, you're still having those nights wonderful.
And maybe that describes the politics you were talking about earlier where a lot of a ruling class is just bored and let's hurt people just to shake it up a little bit.
Most, I mean, when I go to DC, although it felt a little bit, but it felt like I had exorcism recently, is I remember you go to DC and you just feel, you just like, what is this?
This place is the playground, playground of the demons.
The whole, the whole place, the whole place, like just to name one person would be to not do justice to the demonic forces at work in D.C. Even recently, if you look in the Department of Justice, have you ever looked at the occult artwork at DOJ?
Well, some of that, yeah, the occult symbolism is a complicated one because like is we had um Jonathan Pejos and was interviewed for meaning and I was like, I'm like, ever since with ayahuasca, I'm like obsessed with what does a serpent mean?
Because under the kind of the mainline Protestant understanding, the serpent tempted Eve, the serpent is bad, the snakes are evil.
So, so we wouldn't be having this conversation if I because for one thing, you know, if for Christians, ayahuasca is like strictly forbidden.
So I don't, I don't want to seem like I'm glamorizing it in any way, shape, or form, but there was, I, you have gone on multiple ayahuasca journeys over the years.
And for me, it's been completely transformed my heart.
It's transformed how I see my children.
It's the way the way I like interact with the world.
It got me interested in Christianity again.
Because, well, so the thing is, God can meet you wherever you are, right?
Which is why there is good and evil.
So it isn't to say there's no such thing as good and evil.
But God, God can meet you wherever you are.
And God can go anywhere and meet you wherever you are.
In my case, I was not someone who I never had any kind of faith because I never felt anything.
I would go to church and I grew up very Christian and I would like try to feel it.
I was like, what do these people have?
Like, there's just not, this just isn't it.
What is it that they feel?
Like, is everybody in on something that I'm not in on?
Is everybody faking?
Like, I'm faking because I don't believe anything.
And that was because I had no whatever, whatever sixth sense people have for God.
I didn't have.
I didn't have the God gene.
And then I remember, you know, first time drinking tea and being catapulted to the spirit world.
And I was like, okay, the spirit world is real.
That's okay.
That's not even up for debate now to the point where it doesn't even offend me when people are atheists or don't believe in.
I was like, well, I didn't believe in it either.
I had to see it with my own eyes.
You know, Paul, he had to be knocked over and, you know, just blinded.
So for me, that was like my Paul moment where I was like, okay, well, somehow I ended up here drinking tea with no belief at all in God or the spiritual realm at all.
And now I absolutely know it's real and went through a number of things.
And, you know, I don't know if you want to go into all that, but I do.
So many people just sit around ruminating all day or daydreaming all day.
Maybe I'll do this.
Maybe I'll do this.
I've always been a just buy the ticket, take the ride.
What's it like?
Buy the ticket, take the ride.
So I thought, well, I mean, I've done a lot of things in life before, and I felt like I knew, I felt like I was pretty sure of myself that I knew how to live and was arrogant in a lot of ways.
And I thought, well, you know, I've done everything else.
Like, I might as well just do ayahuasca, you know.
By everything else, I don't mean drugs.
I just mean like I was so full of myself and my own ego that I just thought I knew so much about life and I was such a wonderful person that obviously I would just do this because that's what people who are so, you know, so great, so great do, right?
I'm so great.
I'll just do this like other thing.
And it like broke my heart, broke my heart over and over again.
The whole night just like broke my heart.
And so the way, the way it works is you're, you know, you drink the tea and you just kind of like look around, okay, I think that's a mistake.
And then you sort of like, you, you kind of like start to fall under and you venture to the spirit world, but you don't, it's not like you're here and I'm walking around, la la la la in the spirit world.
You're taken to a place where you have no free will, you have no power, you are more insignificant than an insect on this world, and you start to journey and you know, experience various things.
So one, I give you an example because it's kind of hard to explain, but I remember like I'm drinking the tea and sometimes you have like a little bit of a light show when you, when you go in, you go into the spirit world, you hear like a buzzing sound, like bees, and then you see like a little bit of light, a little vapor on the side, and you're like, and then you get the DMT sort of light show that people associate with a psychedelic experience.
That's the least significant part of the night.
But a lot of times you start to get the light show and you think, oh, okay, I'm into somewhere.
But there's a sense of like, there's me and I'm into something.
And, you know, you go through there and then you become completely disoriented.
You, you wake up and you look, you know, where am I at first?
And I was just left with this sense of, I just, I'm a fool and I live my life foolishly.
And I can't believe that I was such a fool.
And I'm dead now.
And it's like too late.
And then eyes close.
And I wake up and then I'm like, puking in a bucket.
Like, you know, so they call it like a spiritual purge.
And I remember being like, oh, God, I'm still alive.
I'm still alive.
Like, looking around, you know, like looking at this bucket.
Like, I'd never been, you know, everybody's afraid of throwing up on ayahuasca.
I'm like, oh, you will, that will be the best part of the night.
That will be that, you will be thanking God that you're alive, like, you know, throwing up in a bucket.
And I was like, oh, God, I'm alive.
Okay, I'm alive, alive.
And then, but then that's just like, that was five minutes.
That was just five minutes.
And then you like, go back under, and then it's like another thing, another catharsis, like Another like time loop.
So I remember I get up and I look around and there's this woman walking around and she's carrying the buckets because people are throwing up and everybody's sick.
And so you have kind of the shaman guy or facilitator and then you have like the helper.
And there's this person, you know, she's walking around and she's carrying a bucket, carrying, and I wake up and I look and I go, oh, there she is carrying the bucket.
And then close my eyes, you come back up, time loop.
So time loop means like I'm reliving this moment with you and I remember reliving this moment with you, but I'm like stuck in it like Groundhog Day.
Time loop.
And that's the first time it happened to me.
And that's a real like mind fuck.
So I get up and like, oh, she's like carrying things.
Okay.
She's cleaning up after people.
And then I thought, you know, how nice.
Fall asleep, wake back up.
I go, man, look at, she's like so helpful.
And I couldn't do that.
Like, I couldn't clean up after puke on other people.
I just, I don't know how they do this.
And then I wake up and I'm in the time loop again.
And I was just, and you're like, what does that mean?
Well, it means that no matter how bad it is with the ayahuasca, I remember I would, I would, you know, I would do mask and then I would open up the mask and try to look around.
And a demon at whatever it is, entity says, oh, you think you're going to open your eyes?
And she showed me like the most fucked up things I'd ever seen.
People being tortured to death, killed, like horror movie, like the road.
And then it said, oh, you think you can take your eye mask off?
You can't run.
You're running from yourself.
You're trying to run from yourself and you can never run for yourself.
Like, what am I running from?
And I'm like, what am I running from?
What do you mean?
Because if you talk to me, at that point in my life, you would be talking to a very cockstric.
You'd not be talking to this person.
You would be talking to a person who's like, oh, yeah, I got things figured out, man.
Like, I got things figured out and I can prove it.
I grew up poor.
I've had some things happen that haven't been so good in my life.
I've had to navigate life with a bipolar mom.
Like, I know life.
You talk to me now.
I'm like, I mean, I have ideas, you know, things that I think are like the path forward, but that person was just shown you are in the spirit realm.
You are nothing.
You are nothing.
And you're so arrogant.
You're out here, like you have no power.
So this is you're running from yourself.
And I was like, what am I running from?
And it goes, all that success you chased and all the whatever, whatever it is I was trying to do, they go, that was just masking your heart, your, your, your, the, the, the trauma, the trauma that you have.
And that everything you're doing is just to mask that.
I'm like, well, that's bullshit.
You know, that doesn't make any sense.
So it's like, okay, because you're, cause you're, and by this, I mean, I'm, you're talking to a guide.
So when I'm saying this, this is not like an internal monologue.
This is, you're talking to something outside of yourself.
It's like Dante's infernal, like the guide.
And the guy said, okay, you know, big mouth, you want to argue?
Like, we'll just vortex you back and the spirit realm.
So then it's like you close your eyes.
That's why I'm like, it's like in scene.
You're like, oh, you're like, you're in like a new scene.
And then like, it shows you something from like when you were a child.
Or maybe in my case, it was like something from when I was like a child.
And it was remember, it's like, it was showing me, it was showing me the house I grew up in.
And I was like, why is it showing me the house?
Like my house.
I grew up in this like small shitty house.
I hated it.
We had holes in the carpet.
Like I was embarrassed and bring people over.
I was like, why?
Why am I being shown my house?
Like, I hate that fucking house.
I hate this fucking house.
Why are you showing me this house?
And then it, and then like a voice is like, you had all the love in the world in that house.
Your dad loved you.
Your mom loved you.
They did the best that they could do.
And you think that you can just like give your kids money because that's your own thing.
You know, like, well, you grew up poor.
So, but it's like you took the love for granted.
You just like, you had all this love, but you didn't have money.
So then that becomes your hangup.
Like, oh, do I have enough?
And like, well, if my kids have enough, what do you need?
What do you need me for?
You know, like, what's that for?
And it was, it was like, all the love in the world was in that house and you hated that house.
You know, so like, I always loved my dad and had a good relationship.
I was like, oh, my God.
Like, it was like, and what was it like for your dad to be poor?
Like, not know how to make a live.
What was that like for him?
You know, and you're just like, oh, fuck.
You know, like he was poor too.
You guys were just poor.
That was like the town lost a factory and people were jobless.
And that's just every kid's dad went through the same thing.
You worked at a factory and then you had to find some other kind of shitty job and you kind of find something else.
And then eventually my dad figured it out.
By then I was like in high school.
So it didn't really impact my life either way.
And then I was like, oh, fuck, I have all this.
I have all these issues around money just in a way that's like traumatic, you know, not just in a way that, you know, people need money to live and you want to be greedy.
And, but I like, I had no idea.
And I never would, I never would have like reached that conclusion emotionally.
And then, and then you're like zooming out and it's just like, oh, it's like, there's like loves, the, the love of your family, the love that God has for you.
And then, and I was like, fuck, okay.
So then I close eyes, like you wake back up and it's like, look, it was literally like an old grandfather or something, like something out of Gandalf or something.
And it's like, look.
And it goes, it's like in a very calming, like masculine voice.
He says, it's not supposed to be this way.
And it was just like, he was like doing this.
He's like, it's not supposed to be this way.
And I look and like, like I said, I'm laying down and I look and I see this Gandalf-like figure floating.
And like, I was like, it's not supposed to be this way.
I was like, what's not supposed to be this way?
And then he just showed all the light.
It's like the lights are all separate now.
You're supposed to be together.
It's supposed to be communion.
It's supposed to be that everyone's, you know, loving each other and you just want to kill each other.
He goes, this is not how it's supposed to be.
It was like, it was like a frustrated dad who was like, this is like, this is not how it's supposed to be.
This is not how it's supposed to be.
And I was like, oh, okay.
You know, this is so above my pay grade.
You know, I don't even know.
And that's how I know it's not coming from me.
I'm like, if I could come up with stuff like this, people would think I was a genius.
You know, this is not my brain and I'm so smart.
And then I like, go back under.
And then I come back up and I hear this like scream.
And it was like the scream of an enraged mom basically screaming at like the same situation.
So then, you know, it takes years to put all this together and everything, but that was like showing me the masculine, the logos and the way like a father governs.
And then like the rage of a mom and the children like are not getting together and you know, the tension of the tension of male and female.
And then I saw an old woman's face on a mountain.
I was like, I don't even know where this is from.
I never read any books before this.
And that's Pachamama.
So that's a different kind of entity.
So in that case, I saw like whatever, whatever Pachamama was, the, you know, Mother Earth or whatever and paganism that people describe it as.
So I'm just going, you know, back and forth between flashbacks to my life.
They're, yeah, they're, unless it's a parabola and our unconscious is, you know, there's a theory that that, that our unconscious is generating our experience in real time, but it's not, it wasn't me.
It wasn't a book I read.
It was, because I was, again, like atheist.
So every rationalistic argument, they could say, well, you probably just like, no, I never studied Aztec culture and Incan culture.
I didn't know what Pachamama was.
And so there was they're like they're external entities.
So the older figure, you could say maybe, well, that was The Guardian, and you read Dante's Inferno in high school.
No, no, they, they're, which is, which is a good thing because I, I don't know, um, a lot of, you don't want some fly-by-night shaman or you end up with the wrong situation.
They're it because it's just you go in and the, I had a lot of, I had a lot of, I mean, I like, I had a, I, I had a lot of things that I had to beat out of me.
I used to like, just like we're earlier, we're talking about how you, you know, a certain amount of stoicism we all have, which like I think is good.
And I think therapeutic culture goes too far where you don't want to sit around and like talk about how bad it was being a kid.
But a lot of us, and I learned this dealing with a lot of veterans that have done plant medicine.
I don't know if you've seen In Waves and War yet with Ambus and Amber and Marcus McCone, or Capone, Amber and Marcus Capone.
They're amazing.
So you have all these vets who are suicidal.
And then a lot of them do Ibogaine.
They go down to Ibogaine Clinic.
That's what Vets is a charity I've sponsored or donated to for a number of years and Vet Solutions.
And so with me, you realize that a lot of what we do that we think of as virtuous is trying to, we're trying to hide something from ourselves.
We're trying to make it so that we can't be vulnerable.
And so with veterans, especially, they find out a lot of things have happened when they were kids, and that's why they became the men they were because you're driven by the sense that I'll never be weak and powerless again.
I'll never be weak and powerless again, which that's a good thing.
You shouldn't be weak and powerless.
But if you have all this other stuff underneath that, then maybe you don't love your kids the way you're capable of, or maybe you're afraid to love your kids and life the way you are because maybe you're you are afraid to be hurt.
And that's another aspect I think where therapy culture has taken things too far, where you're like, oh, let's like talk about our trauma like all day and relive things.
Whereas no, like, but maybe for a weekend, you know, maybe spend a weekend and talk about it and figure it out then and work through it.
Don't you don't have to like live it.
So I just had so many lessons on how I was just a fool, basically.
And that's why it's more or less like if you're the like the guys, especially that Vets and Amber and Marcus and them work with, these are guys that are going to kill themselves and they're alcoholics, most likely.
We're not talking like, oh, I'm living like life is great and I'm living in a state of love.
I'm going to go drink ayahuasca this weekend.
It's more like, or in my case, where you're just being pushed there because I was living in such a state of folly and delusion that there was like no other way.
So in my belief, I think God pushed me there.
I think it was God and He showed me this is the only way that I can show you that you are just not who you think.
You are just a delusional fool.
And this is the only way that we're going to get through you.
And the message like got through.
And then, you know, I have drank and, you know, had more teeth since then, but it's not something that I, that I do regularly.
And the, but the consequence of living my, I was probably demon possessed before the ayahuasca because I was so, I'd been deluded by dark forces into thinking that I was something that I wasn't.
So in my view, it isn't where, oh, I was such a holy person.
In my mind, I would have thought I was.
No, it's like the opposite where like, whatever I was before that, I'm not that way now.
And whatever path I'm on is like about God and Christianity and like trying, you know, finding more love in the world and divine communion and just knowing that you're just not like a, you're just not a paycheck to your kids, you know?
And I didn't even treat him like I was just a paycheck, but it was just some, it was, I would just, it was a glibness that I had.
So it's just the, the, the ayahuasca has just burned out all the glibness that I had where I can't even laugh at things sometimes.
You know, that was, that was like my divine judgment.
And so one is I just, I know there's a final judgment to the point where when people say, oh, you're whatever, crazy or whatever, I don't even get offended.
I'm just like, brother, I was, that was me.
I was you.
I was you before this.
So how can I be upset with you for thinking this when that was what I thought before then?
So like, I know there's a final judgment.
I know the accounting is in the human heart.
It's not in the words.
It's not in what you say.
It's not in how holy you can be and how you can tell everybody else they're not holy and you're, you know, you're Mr. Holier than thou and everybody else is a sinner.
It's your, it's the human heart is going to be weighed and measured by God.
In my opinion, it's Jesus Christ.
And, you know, in my opinion, it's Christianity and Jesus Christ.
But I'm, but I'm not a, I'm not into the apologetics where we argue and mind all day about like what it is.
I think the human heart's going to be weighed.
That's something that God's going to determine at the judgment.
I know that I'm accountable for everything.
And I know having died, like for all purposes, like I have died.
I have died.
And I know that when you die, the only thing you're going to think about is the people you left behind.
So all of this materialism and, oh no, somebody, I'm being picked on today on the internet or I'm being canceled again or this and that.
Like none of that came up.
Actually, one funny thing that came up was during one of my journeys, I was like, I was under and I saw some things and I came up and it goes, whatever, it, it, whatever.
That's what I mean.
I don't know what it is.
I just still don't understand it.
I said, you know how blessed you are that you've been like attacked and everything.
Just like i'm like obsessed with my wife, like i'm just a simp for my wife which, if you, you'd have to ask her, but I don't know that she would have said that was true, you know, or maybe necessarily like early on, like all I think about is my wife and kids.
Like like, if I make money, like I don't even care, I just like get rid of it, you know, get it to them.
Like what people are like oh, aren't you worried about your wife?
It's like you're going to get blood from a turnip.
Come after me.
And you're going to be very, very disappointed when you start tip me upside down and maybe you get a few quarters out of the pocket.
So it's made me just completely like obsessed with her and the kids.
It's made me like I've gotten much nicer even online than I used to be, you know, because you just think so much of it is not perfect, you know, because people can, I mean, my God, not even, I'm not even, I wouldn't say I'm good, let alone perfect.
But you just realize like, maybe that guy's just having a bad day.
You know, there's tragedy all around us every day.
And you want to start thinking about your own life.
And not that we don't already.
So with Scott Adams dying, that's a huge loss.
I was, again, I had to leave my house because I was crying.
I was like, not that I'm afraid to cry in front of my kids, but they'd be like, why are you crying, Dad?
Who's, you know, it's just, like, I just got to, I just got to take a walk.
And I'm just walking.
And I'm like, which is another thing, too, I liked about that.
I couldn't cry before I walked you, like, hold it in, you know, you hold it in.
And once you get good at working with the plant medicine, you learn it's just a wave, man.
It's just a wave.
Let the waves flow.
Why are we so afraid?
Like, why are we so afraid to cry by ourselves?
Right?
Like, why?
If you're in a room by yourself and things are surfacing, whether you're with the plants or not with the plants, who's there to look at you other than God?
Because if you start looking at like with the ayahuasca thing, even having some experience with it, I'm talking myself out of it until the minute that I drink the tea.
Up until that very second that I drink the tea, I'm thinking of every excuse in the world to not drink it because I don't want to drink it.
I don't want to do it.
But if 10 years ago you said, hey, do you want to go take some shots of vodka and other things?
I'm like, oh, yeah, that sounds like a great time.
So then you have to, that's where the discernment comes in.
And that's where it becomes a heavier question.
Well, why is it that I want to do things that we know are a sin, that we know are damaging?
And I want to.
I'm excited for that.
But I don't want to do this thing that is like demonic.
With all of my being, I do not, if the, I do not want to ever drink ayahuasca for the rest of my life.
I do not want to.
That doesn't mean I won't, but I don't want to.
But why, though?
Why don't I want to?
Well, it's, it's because of the spiritual awakening or the spiritual reckoning that happens and the realizations, which fundamentally, I think, have made me more, again, I don't want to say a good person, but it certainly made me change my life and live differently.
He's like, he goes, all I'm thinking about is like, am I doing the right thing?
And there, there's a, there's a confusion, but like in a good way, where I think that a lot of people think, well, I'm, I'm a Christian, I'm saved.
I accepted Jesus as my Lord and Savior, once saved, always saved.
And then I'll just sort of live my life and maybe go to church and try to be a good person or whatever.
But you feel like I'm a Christian, you know, I'm a Christian.
Like I've checked the box.
Whereas when you, with the medicine, I think it's the opposite, where you're just on any moment, you're just waging against whatever sin, the darkness.
And you're just like, I don't know, man.
I, like, I believe, but I don't, I don't really know what's going to happen.
I, I hope I'm, you know, I hope I'm doing the right things.
And that level of spiritual confusion, I think, is not meant for everyone.
So I don't think most people are, I think almost nobody should drink ayahuasca.
I think almost no one should.
I think it's only something that if a person feels like they're going to do it anyway and no amount of persuasion from me is going to work, then that's something to talk about.
But I don't think people should dabble in this kind of stuff.
Really?
But if you're a vet and you're like looking at the bottom of a bottle of Jack Daniels and you got a gun next to you, let's get you to Mexico.
Worse is a hard way of putting it because people go through phases.
So I've, what happens with some people, unfortunately, is because you are getting quote unquote like downloads from the universe, people do kind of chase that download of the universe, dragon versus like the hard work of living in life.
Right.
So drinking ayahuasca, once you kind of have a hang of it, it's never easy.
But it's like you put on your spacesuit and you kind of know, you know, you kind of know like you drink it and you can feel it moving through you and your hands start to feel like you have carpal tunnel.
And right when you feel like you can sort of stretch out, you're like, oh yeah, the medicine's about to hit.
And you can't direct the experience in an active way, but you sort of know what you're getting into.
The first couple times, God help you.
And what people will do then is rather than undertake the hard work of being alive, the hard work is here.
The realizations that I had change how I live here.
But the hard work is still like, I don't know, this is a great talk.
I'm going to leave here.
I'm like, I think that was a good talk.
And then I'm going to be like wrapped up about some business thing, you know, or mad about something that somebody did to me or wondering about some, you know, uncertain thing.
And then the, you know, the demons come in and kind of steal your joy.
So the hard work is here and in planet earth.
Why are we here?
That's again, goes to the meaning of life question.
The um like take the Garden of Eden story, for example.
We just, we know, we don't, we know we don't belong here, right?
The Garden of Eden is whatever this is, this is not like we were, whether we were cast out of Eden because we listened to the serpent and we rejected God, whether that's literal, that's a metaphor.
The underlying feeling is that we are aliens on this planet.
And we're just like stuck in these like bodies that don't want to cooperate and that want to lead us to things that we, on a spiritual level, maybe don't want to do.
So the only real downside that I've seen from people who have done the plant medicine, although there are bad stories, like they're like, I, after I had a really big night, and the guy said, you know, if you're thinking about leaving your wife, call me first.
And I go, I love my wife more than ever.
I was like, it actually would be the opposite.
He goes, okay, he goes, but you had a big night.
So what happens is a lot of times people have a big night.
The facilitator or shaman guy isn't good or he's fly by night.
And you're just like, oh, I realize I'm not living the way I'm supposed to.
And that's why I'm always hesitant to talk about it because I don't want to seem like I'm glamorizing it.
I want to, like, when I talk about ayahuasca, I want it to sound kind of like foreboding.
Yes.
Maybe you shouldn't do this.
You probably shouldn't do this.
You probably shouldn't.
You might just blow up your whole life.
You probably shouldn't do it to avoid people going in and saying, it's like, no, bro, you didn't want you to, you were just bored, right?
You were just bored and now you like destroyed your whole life.
And the real, the real work is the homework.
The homework is this, what we got to do here.
The downloads from the universe might feel great at the time, or you might feel like you have all this insight and connection to a super intelligence, a superpower, but you're still back here on planet Earth.
So why don't you spend more time here in this body and planet earth and figuring out the best way to live your life?
I see everything as being interests, entities trying to act upon humanity in some kind of cosmic war that we don't really understand.
But for whatever reason, humans are a very important part of it.
Now, my belief, again, is the Orthodox Christian part, which is like I accept the Orthodox Christianity story as the true one, but I'm just, you know, I'm trying not to be, you know, like I'm a priest because God knows, go to Josiah Trenham or someone if you want a priest.
Stay far away from me.
Like people ask me religious questions.
I'm like, get away from me and find Josiah Trenham.
So I'm, so like, when people tell me things like, oh, here's the truth about the Venezuela raid, or here's the truth about Israel or here's the truth about Palestine.
It's like discernment.
Am I just being played?
Because everybody wants you, you know, especially at your level.
That's what I was telling you guys earlier.
Like, I thank the Lord above that I am not you, that I'm not Russell Brand, that I am not Timpoo, that I am not any of you guys.
But no, so there is the risk that as you've seen happen, a person is kind of an ayahuasca tourist.
They go in.
They go, oh, my whole life has been a lie.
And therefore, I'm just going to blow up my whole life.
Don't do that.
And if the person you're with is not, if the shaman or whatever, the facilitator is not telling you, like, don't do that, then, then you're in the wrong place.
But other, but other than that, and people getting caught in the trap of downloads, I've seen like the biggest, baddest men on the planet that just want to like hug their kids.
And they went from PTSD and staring off into the void and drinking and fighting with their wives and riding motorcycles too fast just for a rush.
So I think that we, because, again, you're born into a certain period of time and then we tend to overweight the time that we're in and we see it maybe in a different color than it should be.
We're not like your son isn't getting drafted in the Vietnam War.
We're not getting drafted into World War II.
We're not getting drafted into World War I.
I think that in terms of, even though he's kind of a lamster, Steven Pinker is like better angels.
I think we were on the trend towards a better world and we've seen that that's been upended, but that we're still in a good time.
And what we do want to have as our, as our North Star is, is like preserving order, knowing that we're going to have conflict, but if we can find some kind of allyship or alliance, and that means everybody has to pull their own weight, then we shouldn't give into the rancor and the infighting.
And I used to be an infighter and like infighting a lot, and I've cut down on that by at least half.