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I am so emotional that I had to figure out how not to have it overwhelm me.
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Wow.
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Yeah, I know.
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It is a wow because I'm so rational.
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So I'll give you an example.
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I watched The Diary of Anne Frank when I was 17 on television.
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It choked me up beyond words.
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And I said, how am I going to deal with this?
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I'm overwhelmed with sadness about the Holocaust.
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And not just the Holocaust.
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Evil and unjust suffering generally.
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And so what I decided already in high school, I made most of my big decisions in high school, interestingly.
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I decided...
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That what I would do is channel my emotions into action.
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And that way I feel I'm doing something about what I feel so strongly about.
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Does this all make sense?
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Absolutely.
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And so it was a very conscious decision.
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To substitute reason for passion.
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The passions are still there.
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But I have channeled them, it's the best term I guess, into fighting and into reason.
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So I just wanted to say that I really, I did fear, to a certain extent I did fear.
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That my emotions would get the better of me.
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I'll tell you what, emotions.
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Sadness over human suffering.
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That's the emotion.
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I've come to see death a little differently, and it's because of my faith in God.
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When I was in Europe this summer, I was in Ireland for a little bit, and I met this beautiful girl, 23 years old, named Eleanor.
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She's a dressmaker.
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She's just stunning.
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So dignified and beautiful.
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And she told me that her mother died two weeks.
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Before I met her of cancer.
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And she handed me a little prayer card, which is very common in Ireland, to have a little prayer card of her mother.
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And she had these tears sitting on the edge of her eyes, her beautiful blue eyes.
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And I was just so captivated by her because she never let them fall down, but you could just see her heart was broken.
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And I said to her, Eleanor, how are you...
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How are you out in the world after your mother died?
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And she said, But this priest said to her,
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the human lifespan is so short.
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Think about the span of eternity.
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Think about all of the thousands of years that human beings have been on this earth.
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And then we each individually come for 50 to 70 years.
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Let's hope.
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50 to 100 years.
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And this priest said, that is a blip on the radar screen of time.
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That is a...
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Our earthly minds can't conceptualize it, but it is a tiny, tiny bit of time in the span of eternity.
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And this priest said to her, it will be faster than the speed of light in the span of time until you're reunited with your family again.
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I believe that.
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I really believe that too.
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And it was this girl telling this to me and I could see that she really believed it.
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And it was what allowed her mother to have peace in her death.
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It was what allowed her to have peace through her mother's death.
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And that permanently changed the way that I view it.
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Is that how you view it?
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Oh, totally.
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I said my sanity preserver is the afterlife.
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Well, you know, I... Not just for my reconnection with loved ones, that God judges the bad and rewards the good.
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That's my sanity.
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