Pearly Things - Pearl Davis - Even Christian Women Love to Die on the Hill of 304s
Aired: 2026-03-27
Duration: 01:00:28

[00:00:01]  What is up, guys?
[00:00:03]  Welcome to another episode of Pearl Daily here on the Audacity Network.
[00:00:08]  Today, I want to have a talk with the Christian men.
[00:00:13]  The Christian men on this app.
[00:00:16]  It's probably like two of you.
[00:00:18]  I can't imagine you'd really be drawn to my show, but hey, there might be one or two.
[00:00:31]  You guys have to start telling your wives to shut up.
[00:00:37]  It has to be done.
[00:00:39]  I beg of you.
[00:00:41]  Because if you don't, your wife is going to turn into Allie Beth Stuckey.
[00:00:45]  Okay.
[00:00:46]  So this week we have Allie Beth Stuckey nagging again.
[00:00:49]  As you guys know, I'm an expert on the life cycle of trad, e-girls, quote unquote, trad.
[00:00:55]  These are women that claim to be traditional and do a lot of the marketing to say they are religious and traditional, but their actions never match because they will still shame male sexuality, tell men what to do, and die on the hill of 304s.
[00:01:11]  Now, as you guys know, the church will tell women to wait till marriage.
[00:01:15]  And on its surface, that's not a bad idea.
[00:01:18]  At least in the old world, it kind of made sense, you know.
[00:01:21]  But in the old world, women were arranged to husband.
[00:01:26]  So it was traditional dating because it was an arranged marriage.
[00:01:31]  Now we have modern dating, which gives women choice, and women are always going to bang Chads, including religious women.
[00:01:38]  So women always want the best of both worlds.
[00:01:40]  So they want the stability of an arranged marriage or a stable husband, and they want to be able to bang Chads too.
[00:01:46]  So what we do is we bang a bunch of Chads when we're young and then say, oh, now I'm ready to get right with God conveniently when our looks are fading.
[00:01:56]  It's like they didn't bang Chad for like one year at 19 and then decide it's always like five, seven, eight years, you know.
[00:02:04]  So today, we are going to react to Allie Beth Stuckey on YouTube.
[00:02:10]  Thank you, Allie, for keeping me employed forever.
[00:02:15]  Because of women like you and the Audacity, I will forever be employed.
[00:02:24]  Now, again, Allie Beth Stuckey claims to be a traditional wife while also working.
[00:02:30]  And I actually know the amount of work that it goes into like doing this kind of media empire.
[00:02:36]  And there's just no way you're spending your creative energy on your children.
[00:02:39]  No way.
[00:02:40]  Don't let them fool you.
[00:02:41]  All right, let's get going.
[00:02:43]  Also, if anyone is curious, somebody went running today and I took an L.
[00:02:47]  You see my hands?
[00:02:48]  Fell on my ass.
[00:02:50]  So if a YouTube video comes out, just know.
[00:02:53]  Yeah, that was me.
[00:02:55]  Trevor and Ashley Sheets went viral this week because of a post that Trevor put on X about part of his wife's testimony saying that she was formerly promiscuous before she became a Christian.
[00:03:07]  He was a virgin.
[00:03:08]  They got married both as new creations in Christ.
[00:03:12]  And this post went viral, got lots of backlash, not only from non-believers, but also from professing Christians and conservatives saying that this was disrespectful, rude,
[00:03:23]  people calling his wife all sorts of names just because that was me.
[00:03:28]  I called this wife a whore.
[00:03:30]  I mean, if you do sex work, you're a whore.
[00:03:32]  You're a whore for life.
[00:03:33]  That was me.
[00:03:34]  I did it and I would do it again.
[00:03:38]  I would do it again.
[00:03:40]  But hey, it takes a whore to know a whore.
[00:03:42]  Okay.
[00:03:42]  We're all whores.
[00:03:43]  Allie's a whore.
[00:03:45]  Don't let her tell you otherwise.
[00:03:46]  I'm a 3-0-4.
[00:03:47]  We're all hoes.
[00:03:48]  Okay.
[00:03:49]  If you didn't wait till marriage and get married at a young age, all the women that get married at an older age, they just gluck 9,000.
[00:03:56]  Don't let them fool you.
[00:03:58]  All of us.
[00:03:59]  Takes one to know one, all right.
[00:04:02]  But there's different types of whores, right?
[00:04:04]  There's horrors for the right guy, you know, there's um horrors, and then there's horrors that do it on camera.
[00:04:14]  And for me, I don't think it was ever difficult to not have sex on camera.
[00:04:18]  And this is coming from someone who got offered a million dollars to not have sex on camera.
[00:04:24]  So you're essentially platforming the bottom feeders of society that have no self-control and are incredibly lazy.
[00:04:37]  Okay.
[00:04:39]  Is of common Christian vulnerability and sharing a person's testimony and the power of the gospel.
[00:04:46]  Well, I was completely taken aback by this backlash, and I wanted to give Ashley the opportunity on Relatable to share her testimony for herself.
[00:04:55]  So, Ashley is here today to talk about how she came out of the new age and darkness and all kinds of demonic oppression into the light of Christ.
[00:05:04]  It is a powerful story here on Relatable today.
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[00:05:14]  Oh my gosh.
[00:05:22]  Oh my gosh.
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[00:06:00]  Hey, y'all.
[00:06:01]  Welcome to Relatable.
[00:06:02]  We've got a special guest episode today.
[00:06:04]  I wanted to make sure that you heard this testimony as soon as possible.
[00:06:08]  We have Ashley Sheets, and she has gone viral because her husband has gone viral because of an ex post about his relationship with his wife regaining sexual purity after having a past of promiscuity and marrying a virgin.
[00:06:23]  Ashley has a storied past before she knew Christ that included.
[00:06:28]  Look at, and a lot of times these women are always like convenient that, oh, I didn't know Christ.
[00:06:35]  Well, you grew up in a Christian society.
[00:06:38]  You didn't have any opportunities to, um, I mean, I understand we're in like kind of a secular world, right?
[00:06:49]  But it's not that difficult to find God if you want to.
[00:06:52]  You know, even in the Gabriel Hood, there's a church here, you know, big demonic activity and the new age, even maybe forms of witchcraft and lots of sexual immorality that she has been very open about.
[00:07:10]  And her husband, Trevor, was a virgin when they got married.
[00:07:14]  And he posted this on X and got so much backlash and 34 million views.
[00:07:21]  He said, My wife was formerly promiscuous.
[00:07:24]  I was a virgin.
[00:07:24]  She was then radically born again, committed to church, evangelized constantly, Puritan books in her bedroom, prayer journals, grief over past sexual sin, etc.
[00:07:32]  We got to know each other for well over a year, dated for four months, engaged for two and a half, and didn't sin sexually with one another.
[00:07:39]  Our first kiss with each other was at the altar on our wedding day.
[00:07:42]  We've been married for over five years now, he says, and she's been the most wonderful and godly wife, mother to our three children, and homemaker.
[00:07:48]  You could imagine.
[00:07:48]  She's more pure than most virgins.
[00:07:50]  As biblical purity has less to do with past sins, though they matter, and more to do with one's current posture of the heart and daily decisions to honor the Lord.
[00:07:57]  Matthew 5:8.
[00:07:58]  We're far too quick to forget the story of the woman labeled as a known sinner, likely a prostitute, in Luke 7:36 through 50, who was washing Jesus's feet with her tears while kissing them too.
[00:08:08]  The Pharisees were shocked that Jesus let a public sinner do this.
[00:08:12]  Jesus responded with a parable about debts being forgiven and ended with this powerful conclusion.
[00:08:17]  Her many sins have been forgiven.
[00:08:19]  That's why she loved much.
[00:08:20]  But the one who is forgiven little loves little.
[00:08:24]  Super powerful.
[00:08:26]  He also quotes 1 Corinthians 1, which is one of my favorite passages, and 2 Corinthians 5:17.
[00:08:32]  If anyone is in Christ, they are a new creation.
[00:08:36]  He also goes on to say, everyone seems to highlight the benefits of virginity.
[00:08:40]  It certainly is a blessing, but we forget to highlight the benefits of being forgiven much as well.
[00:08:44]  My wife knows the depths of Jesus's forgiveness.
[00:08:47]  A woman or man's past sexual sin matters, but what matters far more when it comes to deciding who to marry is if the person is truly born again, if their repentance is real, if they truly have a heart for Christ, if they truly follow Jesus and obey his commands.
[00:09:01]  So I read this post on X and I saw that it had thousands and thousands of replies.
[00:09:08]  And usually when a post has thousands of replies, it's like some kind of engagement bait where people are trying to stoke outrage or say something ridiculous.
[00:09:16]  So a bunch of people respond or a question and a lot of people, a lot of people answered.
[00:09:21]  So I immediately wanted to read the post.
[00:09:23]  It had to have been something ridiculous, something that I was really going to disagree with, because that's the other reason why a post would have that many replies is if they said something really dumb, really bad, really controversial.
[00:09:36]  It's so it's so crazy.
[00:09:37]  She doesn't understand men at all that she has no idea why everyone's raging.
[00:09:42]  It's just incredible.
[00:09:43]  I can tell when a woman has put in time into learning what it takes to be a wife.
[00:09:51]  I can tell.
[00:09:54]  Allie Beth Stucky, I grew up around women like this.
[00:09:57]  They nag, they're bitches.
[00:10:00]  They tell men what to do.
[00:10:04]  And they're not feminine in any way, shape, or form.
[00:10:09]  And they put all their energy into, you know, her projects instead of the kids and the wife or the husband.
[00:10:21]  They don't listen to anybody.
[00:10:25]  And it's just very obvious.
[00:10:27]  She's never taken a second to really think about what's important to men by how she talks.
[00:10:34]  It's very obvious that the way she speaks, you know, her husband doesn't correct her and she's not open to correction from her husband.
[00:10:42]  It's like very obvious.
[00:10:44]  I kind of want to listen to this Sarah Stock clip.
[00:10:47]  Okay, Isabella, if you watch this, I am friends with Isabella.
[00:10:51]  I got nothing against her.
[00:10:53]  But apparently there's audio that says she hooked up with Elijah Schaefer.
[00:11:01]  What?
[00:11:03]  Yeah, I don't really like them.
[00:11:05]  I don't like Josiah and Isabella.
[00:11:07]  Have you met them?
[00:11:09]  Yeah.
[00:11:10]  I'm like on good terms with them, but like they, they were randomly beefing with me for no reason.
[00:11:16]  And then they kind of like ended up like apologizing because it was like completely unwarranted and totally like one-sided.
[00:11:25]  Right.
[00:11:26]  And so they ended up like apologizing and then pretending to like be like my bestie and stuff.
[00:11:30]  It's actually kind of weird because we're friends with like Trey, who's kind of friends with him, which I don't know if you know who that is, but Trey was going to come hang out with like me.
[00:11:42]  And at that time, he's like my fiancé because we're friends with him.
[00:11:45]  And then Trey was going to come and then like he like brought Josiah with him.
[00:11:50]  And so like Josiah's like been to my house basically.
[00:11:53]  Oh, yeah.
[00:11:55]  Is he a weirdo?
[00:11:56]  What's his deal?
[00:11:58]  I don't really like his vibe.
[00:12:00]  Like, he's kind of wow, Sarah Stock is a bitch.
[00:12:03]  She's basically like acknowledging, like, oh, yeah, I mean, Isabelle, like, it's totally grifty.
[00:12:07]  Like, we don't really, like, take it seriously.
[00:12:09]  Like, we're just trying to make a bit of money and just like have fun.
[00:12:11]  Like, I don't think women should be in politics anyway.
[00:12:13]  Yeah.
[00:12:14]  Like, kind of.
[00:12:15]  And I'm just like, okay.
[00:12:17]  It's just kind of like slob content.
[00:12:18]  I don't know.
[00:12:19]  Like, not that that's like a reason I hate somebody like his vibe.
[00:12:22]  And I mean, it's kind of funny though, because he was kind of like shit talking Elijah even.
[00:12:26]  Oh, really?
[00:12:28]  Yeah, like he was even saying someone I think he was trying to say something about like making some joke about like, well, don't have any freedom because I married now or something like that.
[00:12:41]  Then he was like, unless you're like, unless you have like an Elijah Schaefer version of marriage or something like that.
[00:12:47]  Yeah.
[00:12:51]  And then he was like laughing and basically like, yeah, he just doesn't even give a shit.
[00:12:55]  Yeah.
[00:12:56]  That's crazy.
[00:12:57]  I mean, that guy, like, damn, she is so fake.
[00:13:03]  I don't know anything about these people, by the way, except that I know that Elijah has been with Isabelle.
[00:13:09]  And Josiah, Josiah knows.
[00:13:10]  I think he like encouraged it.
[00:13:12]  So, like, I know that they like swing and all that kind of stuff, but I'm just like, I don't know if I believe.
[00:13:19]  I don't know how you could still be friends with like a guy that like fucked your wife, basically.
[00:13:25]  Do you know what I mean?
[00:13:26]  Yeah.
[00:13:27]  No, that's like really weird.
[00:13:29]  Isn't that strange?
[00:13:30]  Yeah, I always found that weird, and I kind of just wonder if they like have something on each other too.
[00:13:36]  Oh, yeah, yeah.
[00:13:37]  I mean, Josiah was his producer.
[00:13:38]  It's a situation where I totally think they have something on each other.
[00:13:43]  Yeah, but it's even more than that.
[00:13:44]  It's like they're not, they're like in contact all the time, calling each other.
[00:13:47]  They're like, they have a friendship.
[00:13:50]  Yeah.
[00:13:51]  Which is like...
[00:13:52]  I feel like only friends.
[00:13:54]  Yeah.
[00:13:55]  Which makes me whatever.
[00:13:59]  I don't know if I believe swinging.
[00:14:01]  I could have maybe believed like a long time ago.
[00:14:06]  I don't know if I would believe they do like swinging.
[00:14:14]  I don't really care.
[00:14:15]  I don't really care, but I'm nosy.
[00:14:28]  I feel like the way straight men talk about gay people, it's like they're kind of like disgusted by Damon.
[00:14:36]  And he, I just remember him, like, saying, oh, like, doesn't, like, it makes sense to me.
[00:14:40]  Like, he's, like, basically, like, not, like, grossed out by that at all, or just thinks that it's like normal.
[00:14:46]  And to me, that's, like, okay, there's, like, something weird about that.
[00:14:50]  Nasty, and he won't accept any accountability, and he denies everything.
[00:14:55]  How, how can you reason with a man like that?
[00:14:58]  Like, it's just impossible.
[00:15:00]  I've had so many good faith conversations with him where I've sat him down.
[00:15:03]  And obviously, like, who's the guy everyone likes to think that I don't know anything and that Elijah hides his shit well, but he doesn't.
[00:15:12]  But, like, do you think, do you think that he can look off their two kids?
[00:15:17]  No, that's like, and it sounds like so bad.
[00:15:21]  This is gonna sound horrible, but to me, it's surprising he would want to.
[00:15:27]  That sounds so bad, but I'm surprised.
[00:15:30]  No, she's a bitter side chick.
[00:15:32]  Okay, I'm gonna go back.
[00:15:35]  I'm going back to Ali Basaki.
[00:15:37]  Bitter baby mama, side chick.
[00:15:40]  I'm 50% if I believe the Isabel is side.
[00:15:43]  I mean, I don't have to.
[00:15:44]  We're pals.
[00:15:46]  But I mean, I gotta go on the evidence.
[00:15:52]  I don't really think, I don't get swinger vibes from them.
[00:15:57]  Do is it possible she banged Elijah like the rest of the girls before?
[00:16:02]  It wouldn't really, that wouldn't really shock me, nor would I really care.
[00:16:06]  The problem in conservative media is they kind of over-dramaticize hooking up.
[00:16:14]  I mean, it's not that big of a deal.
[00:16:16]  Do you know what I mean?
[00:16:17]  Like it's a big of a deal if you're married and you got kids or something, but like, okay, let's say she hooked up with him when she was 20.
[00:16:26]  I don't really care.
[00:16:27]  You know, I mean, whatever.
[00:16:30]  And I was like, okay, that is, you know, standard Christian testimony.
[00:16:34]  That is standard Christian theology.
[00:16:37]  I don't understand what's controversial about this.
[00:16:39]  It must just be.
[00:16:40]  I know, because you're an idiot.
[00:16:41]  I know.
[00:16:42]  You don't understand because you're stupid.
[00:16:44]  And I can't help you with that.
[00:16:46]  I cannot.
[00:16:48]  And you know what?
[00:16:48]  You know what's crazy?
[00:16:49]  I don't think I'm the smartest tool in the shed.
[00:16:52]  And for me to say that to you, it's like incredible.
[00:16:57]  It is like incredible that you don't understand why people are upset.
[00:17:03]  Yeah, a bunch of secular progressives who are angry.
[00:17:06]  That's what they do.
[00:17:08]  Now it's going to, they're basically, she's going to signal, I am better than you.
[00:17:13]  Can you imagine like a woman with that much makeup and Botox virtue signaling?
[00:17:22]  You can't tell me anything about anything ever.
[00:17:27]  About a Christian testimony.
[00:17:28]  The demons are screeching.
[00:17:30]  That could be the only explanation for this being considered controversial.
[00:17:34]  I read it.
[00:17:34]  I didn't find anything controversial in it whatsoever.
[00:17:37]  But then I was so surprised to see conservative Christians responding negatively to this.
[00:17:44]  I saw Robbie Starbuck, for example, and these are not personal attacks on these people.
[00:17:49]  I was just surprised to see their response.
[00:17:51]  He said, dude, dot, dot, dot, delete this.
[00:17:54]  And then I saw my friends at Daily Wire also disagree with how this person worded this testimony.
[00:18:01]  For example, here's Michael Knowles, Sat one.
[00:18:03]  Purity ultimately has more to do with one's present state.
[00:18:07]  As long as we're oriented toward God, as long as our desire is turned toward God and we're moving in that direction, that's what God really wants.
[00:18:13]  That's what delights God.
[00:18:15]  And if we're moving in the opposite direction or we're despairing or giving up or whatever, that's a big problem.
[00:18:19]  But okay, but you know, this is my issue with you, trad cons.
[00:18:26]  You guys all need to make it a show.
[00:18:29]  Like if you're moving towards God, just move towards God and shut the fuck up.
[00:18:32]  Shut up.
[00:18:34]  I don't want to hear about it.
[00:18:35]  I don't need the Jesus crosses.
[00:18:37]  Just get, become a better person.
[00:18:40]  Why must you globalize?
[00:18:42]  I should be able to tell that you're religious without you telling me about it.
[00:18:45]  All of that said, I agree with so many of the points he's making.
[00:18:48]  And yet there's something wrong with this post, right?
[00:18:53]  You shouldn't call your wife a whore on social media.
[00:18:56]  I think you don't need to talk about your past sins all the time.
[00:19:00]  Sometimes that can be powerful testimony, but sometimes it's a little awkward and weird.
[00:19:05]  Sometimes it can be humiliating.
[00:19:07]  Sometimes it can serve selfish purposes.
[00:19:10]  Okay, so he goes on.
[00:19:11]  You can, you know, find his whole monologue for the entire context on this, but he also said this on X.
[00:19:16]  I saw a lot of people saying that, okay, fine, well and good, but you're humiliating your wife and you are lacking discretion.
[00:19:24]  And Michael even says right there, sometimes it's fine, but a lot of times it's not.
[00:19:29]  Well, as far as I know, these people don't talk about this all the time.
[00:19:32]  I went through Trevor's tweets.
[00:19:34]  I had never seen him tweet before, but I don't see him talking about his wife's storied past or her promiscuity a lot.
[00:19:41]  He felt compelled to share her testimony.
[00:19:43]  She felt compelled to share her testimony publicly.
[00:19:47]  And so they decided to do that.
[00:19:49]  And I thought that it was beautiful.
[00:19:51]  And to see so many, of course, you thought it was beautiful because you'll defend whores at all costs.
[00:20:01]  Professing Christians and conservatives, not I'm not just talking about Michael Knowles, but a lot of people with a lot more intense negative reactions.
[00:20:10]  I mean, I saw a lot of Theo bros out there saying, Wow, you're calling your wife a whore on the internet.
[00:20:16]  That's the one I saw over and over again.
[00:20:19]  Oh, this is so.
[00:20:20]  And she thinks she knows better than all the men.
[00:20:23]  Isn't that incredible?
[00:20:25]  She thinks she knows better.
[00:20:26]  How stupid are you?
[00:20:27]  I just why don't you, as a man, should be awesome enough that you don't have to bring up your wife ever on social media.
[00:20:41]  You should be cool enough that you don't have to bring her up at all.
[00:20:47]  You don't need your wife to build your brand.
[00:20:49]  Sad for the young men.
[00:20:50]  It usually just signals that you're lower status.
[00:20:53]  Out there who are going to think, I'm using their words, who think that you have to marry a whore.
[00:20:58]  I can't believe you just called your wife that.
[00:21:00]  And I'm like, whoa, whoa, whoa.
[00:21:01]  He did not call his wife that.
[00:21:03]  You called his wife that.
[00:21:04]  You called another man's wife that.
[00:21:06]  You called a new creation that.
[00:21:08]  Like you called a person who has been redeemed by Christ, who has been sanctified and made new and is pure as the driven snow because of Christ.
[00:21:16]  But see, she's shaming me because, like, I have to believe it.
[00:21:24]  I have to believe that she's pure.
[00:21:29]  Like, shut the fuck up, bitch.
[00:21:32]  You don't know anything.
[00:21:33]  You're a podcaster.
[00:21:35]  I know what you guys do in a day.
[00:21:37]  I do it.
[00:21:38]  It's not hard.
[00:21:39]  And so for you to nag, you know, people that have way more real life experience than you, shut up.
[00:21:50]  Shut up, shut up, shut up.
[00:21:52]  Whore, that is on you.
[00:21:54]  That is not on her husband.
[00:21:56]  Okay.
[00:21:56]  And so, just the hyper patriarchy bros who call themselves Christians out there who just want to take any opportunity not only to denigrate women, but to denigrate the work of the gospel.
[00:22:10]  It's just, it's just insane.
[00:22:12]  It's like this very obvious tenet of Christianity that you have become a new creation is now like, oh, well, maybe that's just a, maybe it's a little nuanced.
[00:22:22]  And then, of course, you do have people, which, okay, who say, yeah, all that's well and good, but still, like, we shouldn't be promoting this kind of thing.
[00:22:30]  Virginity matters and all of that.
[00:22:32]  Again, I would say Trevor said that.
[00:22:34]  Trevor didn't say anything against virginity.
[00:22:36]  He didn't say that that doesn't matter.
[00:22:37]  Yeah, but he didn't.
[00:22:38]  Are you stupid?
[00:22:38]  Like, I literally think.
[00:22:41]  Do you guys see why I get so frustrated with the Christian?
[00:22:43]  But it just seems like they're slow sometimes.
[00:22:46]  It literally seems like they're slow.
[00:22:50]  And I got nothing against real religious people, but the people that use it to build their brand, it's like you're celebrating it.
[00:23:03]  This is not, I mean, this is not something we should be celebrating.
[00:23:08]  Okay, you're going to celebrate the whore to Jesus pipeline.
[00:23:12]  Why don't you celebrate the girl that never became a whore?
[00:23:19]  Say that sexual sin doesn't matter.
[00:23:21]  He just said that his wife has been made new.
[00:23:23]  And that is true.
[00:23:24]  That is true.
[00:23:25]  Like, think.
[00:23:27]  Let's hold multiple thoughts.
[00:23:29]  You don't know.
[00:23:30]  You're actually, it's so crazy how condescending she's talking because she's the idiot.
[00:23:34]  How do you know?
[00:23:35]  Okay, because she had kids.
[00:23:36]  That doesn't mean anything.
[00:23:38]  It's easy to do a get out of jail free card when your looks are fading.
[00:23:42]  That's easy.
[00:23:42]  To go marry an ugly guy, easy.
[00:23:46]  Having kids, not difficult.
[00:23:50]  You would have to know her personally to really defend her character.
[00:23:55]  Oh, yeah.
[00:23:56]  And you don't.
[00:23:57]  But you're going to die on the hill of whores.
[00:23:59]  It's just incredible.
[00:24:01]  It's incredible because the same people that judge me for making the life decisions I've made are always involved in like so much worse shit.
[00:24:10]  It's like, it was just never hard for me to not do cam work.
[00:24:14]  It's in our minds at the same time.
[00:24:16]  I believe in some of you out there.
[00:24:18]  I really do.
[00:24:19]  I mean, sometimes you make me want to lose my belief in you, but I'm really trying to hang on.
[00:24:24]  Okay, we've got some more negative reactions in just a second.
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[00:24:42]  Okay.
[00:24:44]  If out there, that even if you are not a Christian, like there is an understanding of the testimony that Christians give when we say, okay, this is how we were when we were dead in our sin, and this is who we are now.
[00:24:58]  Right, but let your actions speak for yourself, right?
[00:25:02]  Just do it.
[00:25:04]  Just do it.
[00:25:05]  Dry Creek Wranger has a video titled To Date or Not To Date is the question.
[00:25:10]  That explains the real problem.
[00:25:13]  Well, if you send it to Doug MPA, he's on Instagram.
[00:25:18]  You maybe can react to it next show.
[00:25:21]  By grace through faith, and because I am a new creature and a new creation, the old has passed, the new has come.
[00:25:28]  I have a new identity.
[00:25:30]  I am a new person because of Christ.
[00:25:32]  That is what I read from this post.
[00:25:34]  And then you have someone like Dr. Kevin Young.
[00:25:36]  This is coming from the progressive side.
[00:25:38]  He's a very progressive guy.
[00:25:39]  He says, he posts a screenshot and was like, that just highlighted the first line.
[00:25:44]  My wife was formerly promiscuous.
[00:25:46]  I was a virgin.
[00:25:46]  Dr. Kevin Young says, nothing after this line matters.
[00:25:49]  There's no reason ever under any circumstances in any universe where it is appropriate for a man to make this statement about his wife, true or not, with or without her permission.
[00:25:57]  This is her story, not theirs.
[00:25:59]  This is what is wrong with evangelicalism.
[00:26:04]  Look, this is just a misunderstanding of marriage, of the situation, of what went on here, of this person's consent to her sharing her testimony.
[00:26:13]  There are so many assumptions going on that he is like pimping out his wife's story for money.
[00:26:19]  That is okay.
[00:26:24]  I think you're the slow one, actually.
[00:26:27]  And it's incredible.
[00:26:28]  High status women, because she's high status in society, they have no idea how out of touch and stupid they are because their whole life, they just live in a bubble.
[00:26:46]  It's really just incredible.
[00:26:48]  It's incredible.
[00:26:51]  Not what is happening here because you can see if you go to her social media, how often.
[00:26:55]  Okay.
[00:26:56]  Oh, that's what I was going to say.
[00:26:57]  I had blanked.
[00:26:58]  I fell on my face today.
[00:27:01]  Okay.
[00:27:04]  They're trying to build a Christian brand.
[00:27:06]  It's very obvious.
[00:27:08]  YouTube is monetizable.
[00:27:10]  Online brands, attention is monetizable.
[00:27:13]  So whether you like it or not, when you're posting on the internet, you're making money off of God.
[00:27:21]  And it's like, and it's just incredible because do you know what?
[00:27:26]  I feel, I feel as though, although I'm no saint, I've lived a more Christian life than half of these influencers.
[00:27:36]  I swear to God.
[00:27:37]  Like, okay, I'll hear these influencers' stories, right?
[00:27:41]  And they'll be like, yeah, I did hard drugs.
[00:27:43]  And I'm like, that wasn't hard for me to avoid.
[00:27:48]  They're like, Yeah, I was banging married women and I was cheating on my wife all the time.
[00:27:53]  And I'm like, Like, these choices were not that difficult to avoid.
[00:28:03]  Like, do we have any normal people?
[00:28:05]  Like, why are we putting in the front the most deranged?
[00:28:08]  Oh, I did cam work, and I'm like, Like, it wasn't, I didn't need God to not make that choice.
[00:28:20]  Like, I did not need Jesus.
[00:28:22]  Like, why are we putting these deranged people in the front?
[00:28:26]  Like, they're deranged, you know.
[00:28:31]  Yeah, I cuss, that's true, but I don't sell my poo nanny for $5.99.
[00:28:37]  You know what I mean?
[00:28:37]  It's like there's levels to this.
[00:28:39]  And then the Christians come in and say, We're all the same.
[00:28:42]  And I'm like, Look, I think there's levels, right?
[00:28:47]  I think there's levels to degeneracy, you know.
[00:28:52]  I don't know.
[00:28:52]  And I think I could just logically conclude that with my eyes.
[00:28:55]  And they're like, You're the same as Ted Bundy.
[00:28:59]  I'm like, I don't know.
[00:29:01]  I mean, that's what they tell you, but the way I've seen the Bible stretched and interpreted over the years, like it seems like they could stretch the Bible into saying anything.
[00:29:13]  Like, it seems like damn near they can make the Bible say, Let's bang on camera.
[00:29:18]  Like, at this rate, that's what's going to be next.
[00:29:22]  Yeah, every sim is sin is redeemable, but like some are worse than others.
[00:29:34]  Do you know what I mean?
[00:29:35]  It's like some are worse than others.
[00:29:37]  And she has shared this story publicly.
[00:29:40]  Now, there are a lot of Christians who are supporting them.
[00:29:43]  Like my friend Samuel say, he says, Professing Christians who are offended by this are telling on the like I had someone be like, Oh, Pearl, you wouldn't go to church.
[00:29:50]  And I'm like, All right, one, that's true.
[00:29:54]  That's true.
[00:29:54]  I don't go to church, but like you've made poorer life choices than me.
[00:30:01]  Like, just because you go to church, it doesn't undo the fact that, like, you used to do drugs, right?
[00:30:08]  It's like, it doesn't undo the fact that you used to bang married men or married women.
[00:30:20]  Do you know what I'm saying?
[00:30:21]  I'm like, I'm not saying I'm a saint, but like themselves,
[00:30:34]  Jesus is going to marry a formerly promiscuous bride, the church.
[00:30:38]  Hello, some of you are acting like you won't be a part of the wedding.
[00:30:43]  Mic drop.
[00:30:44]  Samuel continued, quoting Proverbs 18:22 and saying, He who finds a wife finds favor with the Lord.
[00:30:49]  He advised users to take their advice, Twitter users, ex-users, take their advice from God over fools on social media.
[00:30:57]  Owen Stram also defended Ashley and Trevor, um, and also pointed out that Ashley shared her testimony publicly on an online platform in 2020.
[00:31:12]  So, this is certainly not the first time, again, that her testimony has circulated.
[00:31:18]  She's gotten all kinds of insults, she's been denigrated in all kinds of ways just because not only her vulnerability, but because her husband, along with her, but on his account, also like,
[00:31:30]  why do we keep why do we keep putting on a pedestal over sharing everything?
[00:31:37]  Look, I'm an oversharer, okay?
[00:31:40]  I'm an overshare.
[00:31:41]  This is a problem.
[00:31:41]  I'm, I tell you guys way too much.
[00:31:43]  Like, sometimes I'll meet a fan and they're like, Well, how's your bread making going?
[00:31:48]  And how's your diet going?
[00:31:49]  And I'm like, I say too much on stream.
[00:31:53]  I really do.
[00:31:53]  I see too much on stream.
[00:32:12]  But let's not pretend that's a good thing, right?
[00:32:15]  I think I have the perspective to be like, oh, we got to dial this back.
[00:32:20]  That's not a good trait.
[00:32:24]  That's a bad trait.
[00:32:26]  Overshare.
[00:32:27]  We got to share less as a society.
[00:32:34]  Church is seen as not judging women saving safe haven.
[00:32:37]  That's why men are leaving it in general or hoarding in varieties that keep them accountable.
[00:32:42]  Yeah.
[00:32:43]  So shared her story.
[00:32:45]  And yeah, that's going to seem scandalous to the world because most people can't understand that level of honesty and transparency and the lack of shame that you have once you are in Christ.
[00:32:57]  I, for one, thought it was a beautiful testimony.
[00:33:00]  I think Ashley's testimony points to the because you're an idiot, right?
[00:33:04]  I mean, just because you have a lot of followers, it doesn't make you smart.
[00:33:09]  So yeah, I mean, you're going to think that, you know, grace and redemption and the opportunity that each and every one of us has in Christ.
[00:33:17]  And I'm so thankful for her courage.
[00:33:20]  She posted, becoming a Christian in general opens you up to ridicule, to slander and shame.
[00:33:26]  And now she gets to be the victim.
[00:33:30]  And she's saying, oh, everyone's bullying me because I'm a Christian.
[00:33:35]  And I'm like, bitch, nobody would bully you if you tweeted a Bible versus, but you need one of these sweatshirts.
[00:33:40]  She belongs to the streets.
[00:33:42]  Yep.
[00:33:46]  It's because you're using your conversion story for money and clout and attention.
[00:33:54]  But it is worth it and status.
[00:33:56]  Worth it for the sake of the gospel.
[00:33:57]  Jesus is worthy.
[00:33:59]  Blessed are you when people insult you and persecute you.
[00:34:02]  She's quoting Matthew 5, 11, and falsely say all kinds of evil against you.
[00:34:08]  Going to any church or subscribing to any religion does not absolve you of the wrong things you did previously in life.
[00:34:13]  That's not how the world works.
[00:34:14]  Correcting your behavior with or without religion does.
[00:34:17]  Because of me.
[00:34:18]  So that is.
[00:34:19]  And I don't know.
[00:34:19]  I don't have the big ego.
[00:34:20]  I don't have a big ego to know how the world works.
[00:34:23]  Like, I don't know.
[00:34:27]  Yeah.
[00:34:27]  So I don't know.
[00:34:28]  What is her perspective?
[00:34:29]  But I know when something sounds like bullshit.
[00:34:31]  Div on all of this.
[00:34:32]  Praise God.
[00:34:33]  Ashley is here today to share her testimony with us coming out of the darkness of abuse and the new age and promiscuity and into the light of Christ.
[00:34:45]  Without further ado, here's our friend Ashley Sheets.
[00:34:52]  Ashley, thank you so much for taking the time to join us.
[00:34:55]  So first, I just want to hear from you.
[00:34:57]  What was your reaction when you saw your husband's post go viral and then get so much backlash?
[00:35:04]  Thank you so much for having me.
[00:35:07]  I was surprised, you know, when Trevor told me that he made this post and it's really doing well.
[00:35:14]  I was like, okay, like he's, he's done great posts before and that have gained traction before.
[00:35:21]  So I didn't really think of anything of it.
[00:35:24]  But then it just kept getting more and more traction and it's reaching millions of views.
[00:35:31]  And it was shocking, but I wasn't embarrassed at all by it because, again, I've been sharing my testimony for years.
[00:35:41]  It was more of a praise God.
[00:35:44]  Praise God that my testimony is being seen by millions of people, millions of unsaved.
[00:35:54]  Yeah, so that's a quote.
[00:35:55]  I am better than you because I dunked my head in holy water and you didn't.
[00:36:01]  You were a cam girl.
[00:36:04]  It just wasn't that hard for me to not do cam work.
[00:36:09]  And I got offered a million dollars.
[00:36:12]  Okay.
[00:36:15]  It wasn't overly difficult.
[00:36:19]  People, and the gospel is being magnified in that.
[00:36:23]  I'm zero shame.
[00:36:25]  I, and my husband knows I do not mind him at all sharing any aspects of my testimony.
[00:36:32]  He's a wise, godly man.
[00:36:34]  I trust what he does, and he is discreet when he needs to be.
[00:36:40]  And I had, I had no issues with it.
[00:36:43]  And even though there's been a lot of backlash, again, I always praise God when I'm reviled and persecuted for righteousness' sake, as Jesus talks about in the Beatitudes.
[00:36:57]  It is a blessing.
[00:36:58]  It's hard, but it's still a blessing.
[00:37:05]  Slash Allie.
[00:37:07]  Hearts of Fire 2.
[00:37:08]  Read stories of women around the world who have been courageous for Christ for years on X, but then also like professing Christians, people in the conservative world saying, This is embarrassing.
[00:37:20]  How could you throw your wife under the bus like that?
[00:37:22]  Was that hard to see?
[00:37:23]  It might have been.
[00:37:24]  Okay, I don't really care about him throwing her under the bus.
[00:37:29]  I think she threw herself under the bus because she's been talking about this publicly for years.
[00:37:36]  There have been people that you were fans.
[00:37:37]  Like, why don't you, just to prove that you're about it, why don't you guys not get any money or attention or anything from the story and just become a Christian?
[00:37:49]  Yes, yes.
[00:37:51]  It's definitely been hard to see, you know, other people who you've looked up to in the past that like, yeah, this is absolutely horrible.
[00:37:59]  And, you know, calling me derogatory words, which Trevor never said that.
[00:38:05]  Sure, the word was promiscuous and you can relate it to that horrible word.
[00:38:10]  But imagine you're nagging because he said promiscuous and we assumed whore.
[00:38:17]  Like, what else do you want?
[00:38:18]  You were a cam girl.
[00:38:21]  Allie claims the label of Christianity, but she is a works-based believer.
[00:38:25]  And sadly, she'll realize the hard way that Jesus is not bought off by being good enough.
[00:38:30]  Well, still, he never called me that.
[00:38:35]  And it's in and of itself, that word is derogatory.
[00:38:39]  So, yeah.
[00:38:42]  Yeah.
[00:38:43]  It was, it was, it's hard again, but it's been a blessing.
[00:38:48]  Yeah.
[00:38:49]  So we've seen all of the public backlash, but has there been anything privately, either bad or good, that has surprised you?
[00:38:56]  Messages that you've received, conversations that you've been able to have?
[00:39:03]  So, of course, it's been, I'd say, more backlash than anything.
[00:39:08]  Of course, it's reached over 34 million people.
[00:39:12]  Yeah.
[00:39:12]  I'm totally going to expect that because Allie, as you know, the way is narrow in the Christian walk.
[00:39:19]  And this is a dark, dark world.
[00:39:23]  Why would I expect to be praised and admired by over 34 million people when Jesus himself was now?
[00:39:32]  Okay, now she's comparing herself to Jesus, which is incredible.
[00:39:35]  You're not Jesus, right?
[00:39:38]  Again, you're not being persecuted because you became a Christian.
[00:39:41]  You're being persecuted because you're still a whore who loves attention.
[00:39:44]  And it's clearly clout chasing.
[00:39:46]  You know, it just is what it is.
[00:39:49]  Hated.
[00:39:50]  For his message.
[00:39:52]  And it was shocking in the sense.
[00:39:56]  Yeah.
[00:39:57]  He wants to be praised and admired.
[00:39:59]  You know, as a human, it's hard to be persecuted and even attacked for my looks and all.
[00:40:10]  Just all the worst words that you could think.
[00:40:12]  But I have also reached.
[00:40:14]  Walk around and find out.
[00:40:15]  Get off the internet.
[00:40:16]  It's not that hard.
[00:40:17]  I've received such beautiful messages from people saying, I am so happy that I found you and that God led me to you and your testimony,
[00:40:28]  because I have a similar past and I never thought I could experience the blessings that you've experienced now with, you know, having a godly husband.
[00:40:39]  And just people messaging me that they're just been crying from reading my testimony and have been blessed by that.
[00:40:48]  And even that just cancels out like all the bad, you know?
[00:40:53]  And, you know, you probably know the scripture.
[00:40:58]  I can't think of it off the top of my head, but how heaven just rejoices when one sinner repents over all the righteous people, you know?
[00:41:09]  Totally.
[00:41:10]  And praise God for that.
[00:41:11]  And there will be stories like that that you never even see until you get to the other side of glory.
[00:41:16]  There will be someone you meet in eternity in heaven who will say, you don't know me.
[00:41:20]  Like, what egos do they just assume they're getting into heaven?
[00:41:25]  Just incredible.
[00:41:26]  This never ends.
[00:41:27]  This is a married mother spending her day instead of watching her kid defending a 3-0 foe.
[00:41:33]  But I heard your testimony through this crazy viral post.
[00:41:36]  And when it seems like God is doing one thing, he's actually doing a million things.
[00:41:41]  And so often we can't actually see what those things are.
[00:41:44]  And I know that you're not fishing for compliments, but you are really, really beautiful.
[00:41:49]  Not only is she beautiful in your mid.
[00:41:52]  Stop it.
[00:41:53]  You're both mids.
[00:41:55]  I actually rate her higher than Allie because Allie just, I don't know.
[00:42:00]  Her face moves weird.
[00:42:01]  She's got too much work done.
[00:42:04]  But yeah, I mean, fours, fives.
[00:42:08]  Face, but just beautiful because I really see the light of Christ and the peace of him shining through you.
[00:42:14]  A lot of people would be.
[00:42:16]  I mean, like, do you hear this?
[00:42:17]  This all sounds like witchcraft.
[00:42:18]  I see the peace, the light of Christ shining through.
[00:42:21]  Like, there's too many women words used in Christianity.
[00:42:25]  I want it to be male-dominated, men.
[00:42:29]  Broken over what they're seeing on the internet about them.
[00:42:32]  As you said, it's really hard, but you have peace because of Christ.
[00:42:35]  And so I just want to hear your testimony.
[00:42:37]  It is incredible.
[00:42:38]  You shared it in the past.
[00:42:40]  You're so open about it.
[00:42:42]  Take us back to the very beginning because the hardship that you went through in your life really starts when you were little, right?
[00:42:50]  Yes, yes.
[00:42:51]  So I never grew up in a religious household at all.
[00:42:55]  I don't care.
[00:42:56]  I never knew.
[00:42:58]  You don't need religion to tell you not to fuck on camera.
[00:43:01]  It's not that hard.
[00:43:01]  Jesus was.
[00:43:02]  And I grew up in a family, a broken family, really.
[00:43:07]  My mom and my dad were never married.
[00:43:09]  I don't care.
[00:43:10]  Pack they split excuses up when I was about three years old.
[00:43:13]  So I have it can never be their choices.
[00:43:16]  It's always, oh, it was my family.
[00:43:18]  It was this.
[00:43:18]  And it's like, well, I know women in those exact situations who just didn't want to do cam work.
[00:43:26]  Like it wasn't hard.
[00:43:27]  Point this out, please, Pearl, over the righteous people.
[00:43:32]  I don't get the.
[00:43:33]  Could you retype whatever you're trying to say over the righteous people?
[00:43:37]  Okay, you got to say it in a different way.
[00:43:38]  I don't get it.
[00:43:40]  No memory of them ever even really being together.
[00:43:43]  And both my dad and my mom are, they don't have any religion.
[00:43:48]  So I never grew up with like you don't need God to not do cam work.
[00:44:03]  It's called milking it for all it's worth.
[00:44:05]  She has talent for sure.
[00:44:07]  No, she sees the three out of ten.
[00:44:10]  I think she's higher than a religious or you know, virtues to really practice.
[00:44:16]  It's just all about living your life now.
[00:44:19]  And you figure it out as you go.
[00:44:22]  But I actually, I have always had a sense.
[00:44:27]  Maybe this is just the Lord's hand over my life.
[00:44:30]  Always had a sense that this world is not it.
[00:44:36]  Okay.
[00:44:36]  So you always had a sense.
[00:44:38]  So how do you always have a sense and yet still be a whore?
[00:44:41]  Do you know what I mean?
[00:44:42]  Like pick, pick a struggle.
[00:44:44]  We either knew or you didn't know.
[00:44:45]  Never really believed that I'm just going to live this life and die.
[00:44:51]  I wanted to seek truth.
[00:44:55]  But I never believed in God either.
[00:44:57]  I had no, again, like I said, I never really dope into researching different religions when I was younger.
[00:45:08]  But when I was about 15, I ended up wandering into a Barnes and Noble section and was really drawn into the spirituality section, really, just new age mysticism and self-help, all about you,
[00:45:22]  all about lifting you up, all about enlightenment.
[00:45:26]  And it's just such a focus on you.
[00:45:29]  So of course I was drawn into that.
[00:45:31]  So I ended up gathering like so many books, reading them front to back all the time, thinking I was just this amazing spiritual guru.
[00:45:42]  I got really into yoga and different religions.
[00:45:46]  Of course, every religion.
[00:45:48]  She was trying to quote a verse about angels rejoicing when a sinner repents, but she added, over the righteous people.
[00:45:59]  I'm sorry, I'm slow.
[00:46:00]  I don't get it.
[00:46:01]  But Jesus, again, never went into Christianity.
[00:46:05]  Never.
[00:46:05]  Did you have like a natural distaste for Christianity, or was it just not one that you had considered?
[00:46:12]  I did.
[00:46:13]  I did.
[00:46:13]  And I never even knew who Jesus was.
[00:46:15]  And I've, I've talked about how convincing you grew up in a Christian country and you never knew who Jesus was.
[00:46:23]  Like, I'm not as stupid as your simps.
[00:46:28]  This was my sister before because she was with me at the time.
[00:46:31]  I remember when I was a teenager and we were walking through like a senior living home because my grandma lived there.
[00:46:41]  And there was like a Christian sign on the door just about how Jesus saves.
[00:46:46]  And I remember just saying, Jesus isn't here.
[00:46:49]  Jesus can't save you.
[00:46:50]  I'm like, I don't even know who Jesus was.
[00:46:52]  And I'm just saying that.
[00:46:54]  And when I look back on it, it's like it's so much demonic influence in the world that just keeps you from seeing the light of Christ.
[00:47:05]  Yeah.
[00:47:05]  It, when I look back on those memories, it just makes me smile now because it just shows you the realness of Jesus.
[00:47:14]  You bring up every other religion in the world and no one bads an eye, but you start talking about Jesus and everyone is like, why would you start saying that name?
[00:47:24]  You know?
[00:47:30]  Makes a difference in how you age Hinduism.
[00:47:35]  You considered yourself a very spiritual person.
[00:47:37]  This is when you were a teenager.
[00:47:39]  Said about like 15, 16.
[00:47:40]  Yes, and then you started turning to partying, psychedelics, things like that, right?
[00:47:45]  Yes, yes.
[00:47:47]  Um, that path led me down to what the first line says, being a promiscuous woman.
[00:47:53]  And I became heavily addicted to drugs and psychedelics.
[00:47:57]  And I do see like I hear this, and I'm like, Look, again, I'm not a saint, but it just wasn't hard for me to not get addicted to drugs and psychedelics and like new age mystic.
[00:48:09]  It just wasn't, it didn't really cross my mind, you know.
[00:48:13]  Um, so like, why are you putting these crazy people in front of me?
[00:48:20]  I thought these psychedelics and these drugs were leading me into enlightenment.
[00:48:24]  Like, all I was just seeking such a crazy experience, I guess, with being spiritual.
[00:48:31]  I thought this was leading me closer to knowing whatever truth was out there.
[00:48:38]  And, um, and yes, I saw worth and satisfaction in men and all these different religions and these books that just puff you up so much.
[00:48:53]  And I ended up being with just the wrong crowd of people, they were all into drugs.
[00:49:00]  It was the wrong crowd.
[00:49:01]  You were part of the crowd.
[00:49:03]  Like, how are you going to thinking and telling me as well that you have to take these drugs, you know, to become enlightened?
[00:49:11]  And that so they it was them that you had to take the drugs, you didn't want to willingly and excitedly.
[00:49:17]  I've seen young women in drugs, young women will suck for drugs, you know, and you would experience this wonderful experience with God or source, whatever you want to call it.
[00:49:29]  That's what new age mystics will call.
[00:49:31]  Oh, oh, or the universe.
[00:49:33]  Okay, I can't forget that.
[00:49:34]  Right.
[00:49:34]  The universe, you want this experience with the universe.
[00:49:39]  And again, I became really addicted to these drugs.
[00:49:43]  I was taking them almost every day.
[00:49:49]  Oh, my bad.
[00:49:50]  Hold on, guys.
[00:49:56]  Like, she could have spent the hour talking about God and things that God teaches, but instead, they've spent the hour talking about whoring and drugs.
[00:50:05]  How many people listened to this and said, Oh, I want to whore and do drugs?
[00:50:09]  Mind you.
[00:50:09]  And then say sorry after.
[00:50:11]  You know, I'm underage.
[00:50:12]  I was living with my mom at the time.
[00:50:14]  My mom and my dad were split up.
[00:50:16]  And my dad was actually a police officer at the time as well.
[00:50:19]  But I, since I was living with my mom, I was able to get away with a lot.
[00:50:24]  I love my mom, but she just wasn't, she was a bit naive in the sense that she believed everything I said.
[00:50:33]  And I was a horrible liar.
[00:50:37]  And I like to talk about my testimony from the point or making clear that this is not like a sob story of, oh,
[00:50:50]  see how Jesus saved this poor victim.
[00:50:54]  I was an absolute culprit.
[00:50:57]  And this is my testimony on how a gracious, loving, merciful God took a culprit from the pit.
[00:51:06]  Yeah.
[00:51:07]  And I had very, oh my God, long dreadlocks.
[00:51:12]  I considered myself just this enlightened hippie.
[00:51:16]  Free spirit.
[00:51:17]  Yeah.
[00:51:18]  Yes.
[00:51:18]  Spiritual, very, yeah, these long dreadlocks.
[00:51:22]  I cut all my dreadlocks off.
[00:51:24]  I thought this was going to be like a new beginning, right?
[00:51:28]  And of course, it wasn't because it was with my own strength.
[00:51:34]  I thought I was going to be able to have this new life.
[00:51:37]  And what do we think happened a few months later?
[00:51:40]  I ended up going to another festival and getting back into drugs, finding a new boyfriend, and the same pattern continued.
[00:51:49]  And was this, just to get my timeline, was this the, you had a boyfriend who was 50 when you were a teenager, correct?
[00:52:00]  You've talked about that.
[00:52:02]  Go ahead.
[00:52:03]  Yes, I didn't, I wouldn't consider him a boyfriend.
[00:52:06]  Okay.
[00:52:07]  He was, he had his own made religion.
[00:52:12]  This guy was very manipulative in my life.
[00:52:17]  Very brainwashed.
[00:52:18]  It was, yeah, he manipulated you.
[00:52:20]  He brainwashed you.
[00:52:21]  It was him now.
[00:52:22]  It's incredible.
[00:52:23]  Washing.
[00:52:24]  I was abused by him many times, but I felt like I couldn't get out.
[00:52:31]  Oh, now you were abused.
[00:52:33]  Haven't heard that one before.
[00:52:35]  Here we go.
[00:52:36]  And this was an angry man.
[00:52:38]  And any person who tried to help me escape from him, he was angry and would yell.
[00:52:45]  And like, I was his possession in a sense.
[00:52:50]  And I never wanted to be with this man.
[00:52:52]  It was just, it was, it was just a horrible situation.
[00:52:57]  He was basically like a cult leader.
[00:52:59]  He was, he was absolutely a cult leader.
[00:53:02]  Yeah.
[00:53:02]  No doubt.
[00:53:03]  Yeah.
[00:53:03]  And he's, he still has it to this day.
[00:53:06]  I, wow, we looked at it not too long ago to see if it was still a thing.
[00:53:12]  And yeah, still has this whole made religion, probably still deceiving people.
[00:53:17]  And immense hatred for Jesus.
[00:53:21]  Immense.
[00:53:22]  Thank you for the super, super chat, Phil.
[00:53:25]  Appreciate you, my God.
[00:53:26]  Hatred for Christianity.
[00:53:28]  Yeah.
[00:53:29]  Wow.
[00:53:29]  And you talk about also within this period, both before and after your near-death experience, before and after the dreadlocks, like experiencing demonic activity.
[00:53:42]  What is the incentive for women to be good if they see all the women that are bad and then become good get the most attention and credibility in Christianity?
[00:53:52]  And feeling like a sense of demonic oppression.
[00:53:56]  Can you talk more about that?
[00:53:57]  Because a lot of people, they don't believe that or they just don't really even know what that means.
[00:54:02]  Yes, definitely.
[00:54:05]  I was very suicidal in this season of my life as well.
[00:54:09]  So on the outward, you know, I appear like I'm this spiritual, a happy hippie.
[00:54:15]  Everything's free, spirit, and love.
[00:54:17]  And yet on the inside, I was extremely having dark thoughts.
[00:54:25]  I was self-harming as well.
[00:54:27]  I was cutting myself.
[00:54:28]  I still have scars to this day.
[00:54:32]  Like, why doesn't she focus on the people she embarrassed and hurt when she was making those choices?
[00:54:37]  Do you see how she's telling the story?
[00:54:38]  It's poor me, poor me, poor me.
[00:54:40]  It's not I like she'll say I was the culprit, but then whenever she tells the story, it's as if she's the victim.
[00:54:47]  I was abused.
[00:54:48]  I was cutting myself.
[00:54:50]  Shut the fuck up.
[00:54:51]  Why don't you talk about all the people that were because whores never go down alone?
[00:54:55]  They always embarrass their family.
[00:54:57]  And I consider that such a demonic influence as well from just everything I was also reading and consuming.
[00:55:07]  I remember I was listening to like dark, screamo, heavy metal music, and then I would self-harm.
[00:55:16]  And I, I, yes, I was suicidal.
[00:55:21]  I was just didn't see any joy, real joy in life.
[00:55:30]  I was also having like dark nightmares all the time.
[00:55:36]  Blah, blah, blah.
[00:55:37]  Jason said, Ashley, I've seen this so many times.
[00:55:41]  And if you continue this path, you are going to die.
[00:55:45]  That is your destiny if you continue down this path.
[00:55:52]  And so, the whole, like, I'm going to pull myself up on my own spirituality didn't work.
[00:55:57]  What led you to Christ?
[00:55:59]  Yes.
[00:56:00]  So, um, yes, I ended up going back into festivals in the month of August.
[00:56:09]  This time is for real, oh my gosh.
[00:56:10]  August, I believe.
[00:56:12]  And then I moved out with another boyfriend who I met at this festival to Oregon for a month.
[00:56:21]  And I actually had a yoga retreat planned for the entire month of October.
[00:56:29]  So I had to leave Oregon because I was going to be gone the whole month to be trained to be a certified yoga teacher.
[00:56:36]  So I left to Guatemala.
[00:56:39]  And actually, the day before I left to Guatemala, I remember just praying on my knees.
[00:56:48]  I was feeling this bitch was never suicidal.
[00:56:51]  A person who is suicidal will never talk about it.
[00:56:54]  Feeling really just lost and hopeless.
[00:56:57]  And I remember a video that I came across before going to Guatemala.
[00:57:05]  Just a random YouTube video.
[00:57:07]  And it was talking about how there's chakras and Eastern meditation and this false spirituality is all hiding Jesus from you.
[00:57:18]  And that really.
[00:57:20]  So what happens is these women don't want to do the work of apologizing to the people they hurt and becoming a new person with choices.
[00:57:28]  So they'd rather just do the get out of jail free card and like put on a Jesus cross.
[00:57:33]  That's like easier.
[00:57:34]  Freaked my heart.
[00:57:35]  And I feel like that was just the Holy Spirit starting to lead me to Jesus.
[00:57:40]  And after that video, I was on my knees just praying to the God I didn't know at the time.
[00:57:45]  I was just praying.
[00:57:46]  I don't know who you are or what you are, but I please just show me the truth.
[00:57:53]  I just want to know the truth.
[00:57:54]  I don't care whatever it takes.
[00:57:56]  I just want to know the truth.
[00:57:59]  And then I went on this yoga retreat for an entire month.
[00:58:04]  It was, I didn't have a cell phone connection.
[00:58:07]  It was just me every single day practicing yoga.
[00:58:11]  And I ended up getting certified after that month.
[00:58:15]  And when I came back home in God's providence, I came across another YouTube video.
[00:58:23]  And it was, this is from me searching too.
[00:58:27]  So that first video was in my head about Jesus.
[00:58:30]  So this started leading.
[00:58:35]  I can't watch this anymore.
[00:58:37]  Let me keep going.
[00:58:38]  She finds God.
[00:58:39]  Okay, can we skip now?
[00:58:41]  My library of New Age books.
[00:58:43]  That night, my family thought I was absolutely bonkers, that I've lost my mind.
[00:58:50]  And I threw it all in the trash.
[00:58:53]  Threw all these like New Age spiritual idols in the trash.
[00:58:57]  I got really into Hinduism.
[00:58:58]  So I have this Hindu false god on my arm.
[00:59:03]  That's been a decade.
[00:59:04]  You couldn't get rid of it.
[00:59:06]  And I threw it all away.
[00:59:08]  It was just me in my Bible in a bare room.
[00:59:12]  And I read through that Bible.
[00:59:15]  Okay.
[00:59:15]  So here's my point.
[00:59:17]  I'm just going to make a few points because I just can't listen to this woman any longer.
[00:59:21]  Number one, church just tends to attract the lowest IQ people.
[00:59:27]  Don't know why, can't say how.
[00:59:31]  Because we, I don't know how people keep falling for this over and over and over again.
[00:59:36]  And I am not going to go to church and get lectured by a former drug addict.
[00:59:41]  When you've made certain choices in life, you have given up the right to lecture anyone about anything ever unless you do something incredible.
[00:59:49]  And that's not preaching and it's not finding God.
[00:59:52]  Anybody can do that.
[00:59:53]  So I could be lectured by a drug addict.
[00:59:55]  If he went from drug addict to then, I don't know, saving civilization, making some cancer cure, then you can lecture me.
[01:00:03]  But you want to lecture me about the Bible when you were addicted to drugs, mysticism, and Camwork.
[01:00:10]  Shut up.
[01:00:11]  I don't care.
[01:00:13]  Anyways, guys, I love you.
[01:00:15]  Thanks for watching.
[01:00:16]  I'm going to do a quicker show tonight because I'm kind of tired.
[01:00:19]  I don't know why.
[01:00:20]  Anyways, guys, like the video, subscribe to the channel.
[01:00:25]  And I'm going to see you next time.
[01:00:27]  I'll see ya.