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Aug. 20, 2025 - Project Camelot
01:11:12
MARYAM HENEIN : TWIN FLAMES
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Awakening in Simulation 00:08:38
It's going to work.
Persistence is genius, as I learned a while ago.
Okay.
All right.
So, yeah, we are going live.
One second here while there's sort of a preamble.
I don't know if people see it, they don't see it.
And then we will be on the screen, I believe.
So just hold one second here.
Okay.
Hi, everyone.
I'm Carrie Cassidy from Project Camelot.
And please let me know if there's any audio issues.
We've had nothing but problems today for some reason.
This is not some big secret show.
It's actually going to be a fun show, I think.
And I've got Miriam Hainine or Hanine, however you say it, with me.
And Miriam has been on my show before, and she's also had me on her show, even just a few days ago.
So it's great to see you.
Great, great new hairdo or whatever.
Fun, very sort of old school.
And so please proceed.
This is about a book you're writing called Twin Flames.
Is that correct?
Well, the book will be titled, it's about twin flames, but it's also about quantum entanglement, divine love, reincarnation, virtuous principles of sacredness.
And right now, the working title is Too Snuffy with unconditional love.
So for the purposes of privacy, and in any case, I've named my, who I believe is a twin flame, I've called him Snuffleupagus because a lot of times I believe that he's imaginary.
And this has been a beautiful but tumultuous journey.
And so I want to establish a couple of things that when I look at something as a journalist, I am very thorough and comprehensive.
A lot of times I do, I used to inject myself, I still inject myself in the story, but I can still put myself aside.
And if anything, I was trying to disprove or try to go as far back as possible to see if this notion of twin flames, what is this notion?
And I went looking for answers because I was just having an otherworldly, very strange connection with snuffle up against.
And it was prompted, and I'll share a little bit of the story, but it involved also a kundalini awakening.
And I did not even know that it was a kundalini.
This has happened a couple of times, a couple of kundalinis, as you know, because it's activations and it's about raising consciousness as well.
So I am very clinical.
And in looking at the twin flame space and discovering that it's a $2 billion industry, and then seeing, because I had been looking at medical freedom and transhumanism and, I guess,
conservatives and the left-right dialectic, to find out that in this space, like, no, it's like DAH, there's a lot of charlatans and there's a lot of hopium and a lot of money making and a lot of delusion, dissolution and distillation of the truth.
So because twin flames, if people are watching at home, they may not know what it is.
And I know that you've done work on it.
So you tell me where to begin because it's complex, but it has to do with the soul and it has to do with soul evolution.
And I believe that I'm on my last life, or at least in attempting to get off the wheel of samsara.
I believe we're in a simulation and they're about to put us in another simulation.
And this is about going within after many years of reporting on the supposed truth and trying to follow, I guess, my persona or my career, which I could argue is male.
We have these polarities, but it's ego.
And since this meeting of Snuffy, it's about rebalancing the polarity.
So there's a lot of different components and characteristics of a twin flame.
I will say that as I was finishing my book on George Floyd, I, throughout the process, I many times joked to myself that I'm going to have my own fucking great reset when this is done, knowing that I have sacrificed a lot, but I consciously put my self-development on the back burner and I was working 15 hours a day non-stop.
I'm proud of what I produced, but it's also not sustainable for me as someone who would like to live as a woman and who's been following her career only to reach a glass ceiling.
So, in conjunction with saying I wanted my own great reset, I finished the book and then I met Snuffalapagus, and I did indeed have my own reset.
So, while I was writing the book, and I mentioned this when we spoke, I think when you were on my show on Friday, that in the George Floyd book, I've bolded all the 33s.
And initially, when I was looking at the Freemasonic symbology, you know, I rolled my eyes a little and was wondering if there's what truth there is.
But there's 254 instances of 33 in my book, whether it was Squad 330 or George Floyd at one point lived on 3333 Alabama Street.
So it's a signature.
So I had watched the three-body problem, and I believe you're reading the book.
So in the series on television, there's a nanoscientist.
Her name is Auggie, and she is being shown a timeline.
And basically, the AI, the extraterrestrials, the aliens are telling her, you better shut down your life's work, or we're going to kill you.
So about three, four months leading up to finishing my book and meeting Snuffy, I started seeing 333 everywhere on my oven, on addresses, invoices, just endless.
And I was like, what's going on?
Now, people can relate that if they are in a spiritual awakening, you can argue that you're just waking up to the simulation, but you start seeing these consecutive numbers.
Now, in my case, it was 333.
I personally grew up and have for the past decade plus, I see one, two, three, four, which is like, let's go.
And of course, different numbers, you can go within and see what they mean to you.
So 333 is actually an angel number.
It's a mastery number.
It's not an evil number.
A lot of these numbers, they've co-opted.
So I was texting with Snuffy in 2023.
I was very busy, not paying attention to boys and in my element, but something kept on attracting me that every once in a while I'd send him a text, very casual, nothing of serious.
Soulmate Encounter 00:12:41
I did tell him, I'm going to need protection.
And I told him, I think I'm targeted.
And he told me, I know something about that.
I'll tell you when we meet.
And that was that.
He said that he would scalp heads for me and protect me.
Of course, like it's very casual, whatever.
So then we were going to meet on a Friday.
And on Wednesday, he texted me and he said, I'm not okay.
And I said, okay, what's going on?
When I looked up, I was in front of a church, like with his name in big letters.
And I was like, oh, I live next to this church, like literally around the corner, because I'm in a Hasidic, I was in a Hasidic Jewish neighborhood in Miami.
And then he disappeared.
And I realize now that it was my higher self, my soul, that recognized him.
And then when he went missing, it was my higher self that was like, what do you mean?
I just found you.
But I didn't know any of that in the 3D.
But I did go on a hunt.
And he was living on a, he was choosing to live on a private beach.
And I just knew there was a lighthouse.
So I didn't, I didn't even know what I was really looking for, but I went looking for him.
And that day was the first day in the evening that I went and I saw one of his images had a TikTok symbol.
And I had actually not gone on TikTok until last year.
I had avoided TikTok.
And I'm psychic, I'm intuitive.
So I read into subtle energies and feel things.
And I went and I looked at his and I was like, wow, this man is very eclectic and sensitive and yet tough.
And I just saw a lot.
So I was at my desk like this.
And I was thinking into where could this person be?
Never once thought he's ghosting me or and I had a spontaneous orgasm at my desk and I didn't know what the fuck was happening.
It was, you know, it was fully clothed.
Nothing was, I was not thinking anything sexual.
So I want to just take an opportunity with everything that they co-opt.
This is about sacredness.
It's sexual energy that is at the base of the spine and it moves up.
And if you are on a spiritual path and you are really my what I live by is know thyself.
I had a near-death experience when I was 29 at the height of my Saturn return.
I was shown that I have opportunity to learn lessons in this life.
So not to keep repeating them over and over again.
So I've been on a spiritual practice and I've made it a point to look at my blind spots.
Like I'm very well aware I have PTSD.
I'm very well aware that I can come off as gruff.
And I had just put myself on the back bird.
Okay, so that night I went to bed and I said, okay, universe, this guy better show up because I need to know if I'm hella psychic or if I'm wackadoodle.
And whoever it is that I'm feeling, that's who I want to be with.
And I had not, I had just finished reading the one again.
I had really like, I was like, okay, I'm open now to meeting someone.
I have a lot of love I want to share with someone, but in this post-Rona world where I'm not a normie, and I don't, I personally not to offend anyone, but I, I wouldn't even want to be with a Christian because they might be a good person, but it's like, I remember that I've been here before Christianity and that the Christians have killed me.
So anyway, so I eventually just let me say, first of all, can you turn your sound up a little?
Because at least at my end.
It's raining.
Yeah, one second.
It's raining and it's full on.
One sec.
Just not a huge amount.
Is this better?
Not really.
Okay, let me see.
Maybe it's not on the mic.
I've got the sound up on my end as high as it'll go.
I'm not sure what weirdness is going on.
Don't worry.
I never usually have this problem.
So I just, if the audience can hear you, okay, I think I think they can hear you.
So let's just continue.
Okay.
So, yeah.
So then I also think that people are going to want a definition from your point of view of twin flames because there are so many different interpretations.
And then at the same time, because everyone knows the words soulmate, then there's a difference between twin flames, soulmates.
And you might also explain because we're not going to say you're right or wrong.
We're going to say this is your perspective so people understand where you're coming from.
Yes, because there's a lot of people that are presenting as experts and making money off of this.
So I will get into that.
I will just say that then when I went to look for him, I saw that this American guy had written a blog about Christianity and astrology.
And it really got me thinking.
I was like, oh my goodness, the Christians stole the stars, meaning the stars are part of God, a part of the universe.
But all of a sudden in astrology was demonified.
And so they saw that.
And then I saw his blog was called 333 Truth Blog.
So I saw the 333.
Then when I went to call him, 333 was in his phone.
And then when I spoke to him, I said, Are you a plant?
And he said, if I'm a plant, I've come from another, I've come from another dimension to show you a higher form of love.
So that's a perfect segue into what a twin flame is compared to a soulmate.
So a twin flame is the same soul frequency.
It's a mirror.
It's like me or him in another body.
Sometimes I think that he's in another timeline because in my case, and there's different twin types of twin flames, in my case, and I'll get to like actual similarities in our being, but expressed in a different way.
Now, a soulmate, which I did not know the distinction, I thought it was the same.
A soulmate would be a lot more pleasant journey where there's a lot of harmony.
And whereas a twin flame is, you know, we're all mirrors to one another in a way.
People can mirror your lower ego, your shadow, or they can be more of a clear mirror where there's not a lot of distortion.
And so that can be very intimidating and it can be overwhelming, which I found I was described by that by him, and he didn't make the distinction with what I brought up in him and me personally.
Because when we've been in the 3D together, which maybe has been 10 times in two years, it's very harmonious, and my soul and my heart sing, and time and space kind of stop where we're in the fourth and fifth dimension.
So I'll just say he ended up showing up.
And I said to myself, I see myself in this guy way before I met him, way before I knew what the fuck a twin flame is.
They will say they don't wish a twin flame, like it's brutal.
And in my case, it's an extra spicy one.
I will also say that you can argue that people have twin flames, but that it would only be someone who's evolved as a soul to a certain degree.
Now, oftentimes, the divine feminine, and then I remembered when the beast flew into my life, I was on a path of divine feminine.
And a divine feminine or divine masculine, we all hold those energies regardless of gender.
We all hold those energies.
And I believe that all the lies are to cover one lie, which is our innate divinity.
And that this species, the human species, has been messed with.
And because of the veil of amnesia, we forget.
But under the age of Aquarius is a time of remembrance.
And in order to remember, one must really go within and sit and really go deep.
Luckily, I am not a six foot, a six feet chlorinated pool.
I am a deep sea.
And if I were to look at, I have never met someone as deep and complex as I, other than Snuffy.
So I offered to, and he, I could say, arguably prompted me, and I offered to co-sign for a vehicle.
And I showed up at a 333 parking lot in Fort Lauderdale and met him for the first time.
And I had said, okay, universe, show me.
So when I showed up on the lot, when we hugged, I cannot describe it, it just was like, like I stepped into the zero field.
And for that moment, just time and space, and for the first couple of times, they say, before the 3D kind of rushes in, you are in a soul bubble where your personas are not interfering and you're just soul to soul.
So here we are on the parking lot, which I know is a crazy thing.
And if people know me, it's not something that I would do, but I was hell-bent on helping this man.
And it wasn't to get a relationship.
It wasn't for dick.
It wasn't for, the deal was you pay for the car.
And he's, I knew before I met him, I said, do you work with your hands?
I do work with my hands.
Are you a lone wolf?
I'm a lone wolf.
I am a lone wolf.
It's things that I knew without knowing anything about him.
So I remember we were on the car lot and he was looking at vehicles.
And I was, the office was moldy.
So I was just outside, you know, for three hours.
I just met this guy and the salesman comes in and he goes, I know that people don't co-sign for people they know, let alone strangers.
So the used car salesman says to me, Is that your brother or is that your husband?
And I went out and I looked at him and he could be my brother.
Not that I'm older.
I'm 11 years older.
11 is the symbol of the twin, twin flame.
So here we are.
go home in this.
I didn't even, I didn't even read the contract, which is so symbolic of the things that we sign for, because I believe we're given opportunities, but it's up to us, our free will, to whether take those opportunities or not.
And this journey is really a journey into self.
This twin flame journey is really on to love unconditionally.
And that I saw that I had been throwing my pearls to swine, that I had empowered people in my company to basically sodomize me and take advantage of me and gaslight me because I'm not conventional and I threaten people and to not love myself, to put up with narcissistic men.
Believed and Intuited 00:15:30
And so it's really to love myself.
And I'm at a crossroads now where loving myself might be costly because of the way it unfurled in the 3D.
So I'll say when we came home, when I took him, he took me home and I'm making him dinner.
And then I said, so what's that tattoo on your left thumb?
And he goes, oh, it's an ohm sign.
And I said, oh, I also have an ohm sign on my left thumb.
And then somehow it's, he came out that he said, I was born with the cord around my neck.
And I was like, oh, I was also born with the cord around my neck.
Then that day when he left, I kept on telling him, you're so beautiful.
You're so beautiful.
I wasn't talking about his looks.
I was talking about his soul.
And I know that I do not act like that for a strange man.
I am very much of a recluse and I feel energies.
And it was very harmonious.
So when I said, I hope I'll see you again.
He said, well, I have to come back here to get the plate.
And so he left.
He did come back and he brought his guitar.
And I mean, we spent the first five times up all night.
He played the guitar.
I was just so happy.
I kissed him all over his face.
He came one day.
I don't even know this man.
And it wasn't like a sexual.
It was just so much love.
And so when we kissed, we were on the couch and he reached over like a 15-year-old and he kissed me.
And the first thing I said was like, this is not the first time I kissed you.
And which I've never felt.
I mean, I've met people that I know, I've known before.
So then there was one time where I was pouring myself some water and I saw a brown and black dog around him.
And I said, Did you have a dog when you were young?
And he said, he sent me a picture of a Rottweiler.
And then I said, okay, universe.
Now, when you have a Kundalini, I'm already psychic, but I had not really like embraced or talked about the fact that I'm clairaudient, the fact that I see numbers across my screen, my forehead.
I hadn't really talked about that.
And everything kind of amped up.
I still didn't know I had a kundalini.
I had another kundalini for 20 minutes.
I was just like on my couch, having just, I just didn't know what was going on.
But all the Shakti energy.
And then when I did find out, I'll get to that.
I did go and have my fucking great reset.
So I said, okay, universe, what's the dog's name?
So I wrote something and I didn't really, you know, I can't think about it.
It just has to come to me.
So I looked and I said, I had written Roger and I said, who the fuck names are dog Roger?
So I said, what's your, what's your dog's name?
But I wrote it down just in case.
So he said, Ruger.
And I showed him.
And he's like, well, you kind of got it right because the O is a U. There's many instances where we finished each other's sentences.
And he then told me we should make love.
And I had not been with someone for three years, and he thought I didn't like sex.
And I said, no, sex is sacred.
And I decided, first, I joked and I said, where are we going to make love in the truck?
And the irony is that only my name was on this loan.
And I went and I redid it to have his name beside me.
Now, I had known that there was substance abuse in the past.
And I believed him.
And I intuited that there were what the word came to me was substances, but I believed him.
And then on the dawn of the Lionsgate, which I had never really walked through a portal before, we were going to go and go to the Bridge of Lions in St. Augustine.
And that morning when I woke up, I saw two baby flames and I saw them purposely being extinguished.
And the day before, I started feeling a lot of anxiety.
And I felt that there were going to be forces to try to not get us to go on this simple road trip with a car that I technically own.
So I had also lent him crypto that I've never used for my own self that I could, you know, that I could use right now.
And it was because he had, I believed in him.
He's he's a very talented, gifted human being.
And he totally stood me up.
And by that time, I was looking for answers of like, what the fuck is going on?
Like, this is so strange.
And I did an Instagram live, and someone says, I think you met your twin flame.
And I'm like, what's that?
So that got me on the search.
So because he didn't, because we didn't go to the on our date, I found myself at an ayahuasca ceremony.
Now, before that, I went to do a bufo ceremony, which is toad, which is heart-based.
And I sat there.
I was the second person and you smoke it.
And I worked with the healer.
I knew I purposely asked that it wasn't a tribe that was deluded or by Christianity, that it still had their ways.
And she really wanted me to surrender, which is a big part of this journey of trusting, which for me, after years of looking at the dark, I was like Heath Ledger.
I was really getting, I was getting swallowed up by the dark.
And that kiss really turned my heart back on.
I was really happy.
And I learned along the way that it was up to me to keep that flame going for myself.
So when he didn't show up, I said, this has never happened to me before.
I've never been stood up.
And then I was like, oh, actually, my dad stood me up days before I was going to take a metal rod out of my leg.
And then all these wounds came up because when my mom was conceived me, my dad did not want me, which I don't take personally, and tried to abort me.
And I joked that I tried to end it before it all began.
And that's why the cord was around my neck.
So when I did the medicine and I heard Miriam, you graduated.
You are not to look at the dark side anymore.
You were given an assignment to look at the inverted matrix and you did not pour out your soul.
And then I saw, I saw a figure eight in my tummy.
The figure eight happens to be the symbol of the hive of the waggle dance for the bees, but it's also the symbol of the twin flames.
And also for eternity.
Yes, infinity, which is because the twin flames.
I mean, it has many, you know, important significance.
And yeah.
So I saw a figure eight in my tummy, like with stars like lit up.
And then I said to myself, I said, I don't know why I said this, but I said, I am the one.
I am the two.
I am the three.
Am the four and I am the five.
And the back of me was like, Why am I saying that?
The day, the day after, when I was look thinking about why did I have this figure eight?
Well, he had ejaculated inside of me.
And it was, I believe, a mixing of our DNA and further, you know, sex is sacred.
They've made it, they've made love diamonds instead of forever.
And I also started going back to Plato and beyond.
I got a lot of books that Snuffy inspired inadvertently.
And he put me back on my soul's purpose because the book that I'm writing now, I grew up reading magical realism.
And this is a book of magical realism.
And I really have been guided in initially after the after the kundalini, it was like I was just plucking messages.
And I realized that Snuffy is also my muse.
I would hear songs and I started doing dance videos, interpretive dance, but they were all to him.
I mean, I was communicating with him.
So I'll say one thing about the one, two, three, four, five.
So in the future, I'm moving out of Miami and he's driving me to my new place.
And I, one, I said, do you know what day it is today, Snuffy?
I said, today's the first day that you texted me a year ago.
And here we are, you're taking me out of Miami.
And we were driving, and I told him about my experience because I hadn't seen him for two months.
And he goes, Do you know the Chris One song?
And I said, No.
So he pulled it up as he was driving.
And in the Chris One song, it says, I am the one, I am the two, I am the three, I am the four and the five.
So there's been a lot of things where I asked, What the fuck is this?
And I heard in another, I'm sorry, it's really raining.
Can you hear me?
Yes, I can hear you, but you're not very loud, as I said.
But I think, no, I don't think anyone's really complained about the sound.
So I guess it's working.
Oh, so when I asked that in the universe, I heard, well, I was, I've also talked to him in his 5D on the soul level.
And I heard in a past life, we signed up for a 3D, 5D split test.
Now, this was, I don't know, eight months ago.
Now on YouTube, there's all of these videos about the 3D, 5D split, but there was no videos when I got the download.
And I started listening to a channel called Magnetize Yourself.
The first time I heard her, I was like, oh my God, she's talking to me.
Here we are a year later, and I'm still listening to her, but of course she's not talking to me.
I realized there's a collective of souls and they are going through this similar journey.
Unfortunately, the men, we need our divine masculines.
I mean, it's either like you're super alpha with all your muscles and you're like, and or you're like at the other end of the spectrum and you have man boobies and you're effed up by androkin disruptors.
It's like, as opposed to honoring the divine.
Where is so?
Then I realized like, it's no accident.
My name is Miriam.
And I was born as the Virgo was rising.
So one thing, when I first met Snuffy, he showed me this, the Giza clock.
And I was a little bit in a daze.
I was shy.
I'm not usually shy in front of boys.
And I was like, why is this guy showing me he's into ancient Egypt?
Like, I didn't know he was spiritual.
I didn't know.
I knew he was creative, but he's like a handy, an engineer, handyman.
So I was like, does he know I'm Egyptian?
So he showed it to me again prior to the Lionsgate.
And I realized he was literally showing me the Lion's Gate.
Whether he knew it consciously, because his 5D, I noticed that his 5D self is wise, but there's a dissonance between his 3D.
And so on the 3D, here we are.
It looks very bad.
It doesn't look like I'm being honored.
And the car is in collection.
I know that a typical, you know, no disrespect, American woman would have devolved and, I don't know, been vindictive.
Women can be vindictive C-U-N-Ts.
So to say about my name, Virgin Meh, like she's on the path to the sacred heart.
And the heart I realized on this journey is the heart is how you raise your frequency.
If, you know, if I didn't have this kundalini, would I know all of this?
Probably not.
Would I have raised my frequency?
No, I was in a very dark place.
And so I have gratitude.
When we first met, he had told me that I'm overwhelming, that I'm too fast in my head.
And I remember he was driving me to return the U-Haul.
I ended up moving 1.3 miles away from where he used to live with his ex-wife, not knowing.
I moved around the corner from a building with huge 333 right around my corner, not knowing.
And we were driving to return the U-Haul.
And I'm like, whoa, like, I'm because I could feel neighborhoods and I'm like, I'm overwhelmed.
And he said, good, you get a taste of your own medicine.
And initially, you know, whenever we've spent time, like when I last saw him a month ago, I'll show you, like, it's always like just these synchronicities.
Multi-Dimensional Journeys 00:15:42
And so I'm just watching, right?
As the observer.
So then I realized that I'm in different dimensions.
I'm a multi-dimensional person.
Oh, when we were driving to my new place, I said, you know, ever since I met you in this kundalini and this plant ceremony, I feel like I'm living in more than one dimension.
And he said, you might be right about that.
Now, after the Bufo ceremony, I went to do an ayahuasca ceremony.
And I've done Aya many times.
I was really wanting to clear out my gunk and purify.
Ayahuasca is very much about limpiar, limpiar.
It's about purification.
Ironically, the last time I did ayahuasca was in Corona, California in 2018, and my car went from 70 to zero because I've had death threats on the freeway.
Anyway, so I showed up to this ceremony and I did the, I took the medicine and then I started speaking to Snuffy, like having conversations.
And I'm like, okay, what the fuck is this guy doing in my ceremony?
And I went out in the fields and I started doing a figure eight.
Now, when I was filming Vanishing of the Bees, I filmed with Simon Buxton of the Sacred Trust.
And he teaches the shamanic way of the bee, which is very much about the divine feminine.
And he had shown me a meditation that you can go and make the figure eight.
And basically, because that shape has been made engraved into the universe, you can kind of get into a space and meditate.
So I was meditating and doing the figure eight.
He was in my ceremony a good four hours, which was the beginning of feeling because people, this is defies logic.
People on a twin flame journey think they're crazy.
And you're communicating with someone, but you're not necessarily seeing them and you don't know why they've had such a profound effect on you.
So I came back to the fire and the shaman said, we've been plagued by HIV and Corona.
So I said, oh my God, the shaman is spreading tries, truth mixed with lies.
And then I heard, you are an ancient soul.
You are not to trust anyone else.
You need to listen to yourself.
And then I started saying, I am that I am.
I am that I am.
I am that I am.
But I didn't know anything about I am that I am present.
So the back of me was like, why, what the fuck, why am I saying it?
And then the next day, I was reading one of the many books and I came across the I am presence.
And so that's kind of that's kind of, you know, the gist.
I've written some.
Okay, so what I wanted to do is that one of the reasons I'm doing this show is because, you know, I have a twin flame, you know, everyone does.
And so I believe that I have met them.
And it is a very strange relationship.
And I can say that most of what happened seems to have happened in the 5D.
So I've dreamed visions.
I am.
psychic as well, all those things that you're talking about.
So, and I have these synchronicities that go on and all of that.
So, what I'm trying to say is that I think that this is happening to people besides us.
And so, I thought I would do a show on it.
Long time ago, I did a show on twin flames.
You know, I don't even remember it very well.
It's years ago, but the woman had written a book and it's on my website.
So, if you want to read it, you can see that.
But I thought it would be interesting also to ask the audience, you know, because I'm noticing people are putting into the chat that they are also having experiences like this.
And one of the things that I noticed about this particular experience, unlike other sort of, you know, romantic guy things that I've had in my life, that this is, I've always been able to sort of jump ahead and have some really psychic stuff go on with when I get into a so-called romance.
But in this case, it went way over, like off the charts, like out of, and I also noticed that the Schuman resonance was deeply connected with when I was able to kind of like transfer out of this reality into that reality, into a three, I'm in a 5D kind of whatever you want to call that.
So I think that there might be that connection as well.
But aside from that, there's a story I wanted to tell people about, it's actually out there, but I don't know if it's easily accessible.
But the woman's name is Rima Labau, and she is a, or Lebeau, I'm not sure how she says last name, maybe Lebeau, because I think it's French.
But anyway, she's a famous healer, you know, health professional.
And she was married to a high-level sort of member of, I guess, the CIA and Army intelligence and so on called Stubble Beam.
But the interesting story she tells is how they met and how she had heard about him on the grapevine and so on, knew about who he was and such, and didn't like him, didn't agree with anything he said.
And that's another thing that I noticed about the twin flame thing.
It often you come from completely opposite points of view.
But in a sense, you meet in the middle.
And then, you know, it's like a wholeness scenario, I guess you might say.
So in her case, her story, in case you've never heard it, is, I think, it just cracked me up.
And I thought it was a really fun story.
She was at an airport.
She had just arrived and she was going to a conference and she was getting her luggage.
And she looked across the airport, you know, in the baggage claim area.
And she saw this man standing there.
And all of a sudden, I don't know, you know, maybe she's just like this kind of person, but she instantly like knew he was her twin flame or whatever.
And she ran across the airport and jumped into the guy's arms.
Neither of them had ever met before in this life at all.
And then they ended up getting married in the, you know, it's a lovely romance.
He has since passed on.
She tells this story.
It's so fascinating to hear her tell it from her point of view and how, you know, they came from really opposite places and ended up in this unity.
And I think that that's happening.
I want to say a couple of things.
One, this is not about a romance.
The hopium and bullshit that they pedal that way.
It's a spiritual connection and it is about loving yourself.
A lot of twin flames are on the other side because it is a psychic connection.
It's unfortunate.
They do often, there's characteristics.
So they often come from different backgrounds.
There was one time I was on the couch and I just heard, I just, my higher self was like, I bet you I'm right on top of him on the map.
And so I'm from Montreal and he's from Connecticut and it's a straight shot down.
There's 11 years between us, but you wouldn't be able to tell.
Um, you know, because I feel every time I've seen him, it's the first time and it's the millionth time.
And time and space stops, and he has had such a profound impact.
But the truth is, I don't know where he is now.
I he's taken his own substances.
It they destroy your soul.
I told him a while ago, I'm here to guard your soul.
This isn't about a Denali.
And I'm praying to God.
It's an amazing connection.
I'm not a vindictive, like one chick that he was with, and there's always, you know, there's often third parties.
I'm not intimidated because I know that this is a soul-heart love that I have no control over.
I want the best for him, but I don't want to get fucked over in the process.
This girl was energetically stalking me, was emoting me, like copying.
And then I told, I had told him, I said, Snuffy, do you know, like, like this chick was, she told me that she was obsessing over his ex-wife, and he even said, Are you in love with me or are you in love with her?
She lied because ended up, she got involved.
She didn't want me to be involved.
And the first thing she said was, Are you having sex with Snappy?
Well, she didn't say Snuffy, which is like, I said, you know, PP doesn't have to go into Voyoni for something to be going on.
Like, so stupid, so 3D mortal bullshit.
And when we're together, I feel I have felt that we're like superheroes.
And then I saw all the movies in Hollywood, like Hancock, where they twist it and they say that together they're destructive, when in truth, together they are indestructible.
I would agree.
So it's not, it's beyond logic and it's unconventional.
It's here.
It's like Trinity and Neil.
And I, the woman is usually the, you know, the divine feminine.
Eve, you know, when I found out that they took the kundalini and the Christians made it demonic, like I remember saying, I, I, maybe you've heard of Bruce Burgess, but I did the Ark of the Covenant in Egypt.
And he did a series on the Cathars.
And I felt very drawn to the south of France, but his producer was jealous of me and I didn't get the gig, not because I wasn't able to do the job.
She just didn't want me to be involved.
And then recently, I said, yeah, I was a Cathar.
I said to myself, I said, yeah, they torched me alive.
And then I went to look and they literally torched the Cathars.
They literally tore put them alive.
So this is a time of remembrance at this age of Aquarius.
And I believe for me, I've gotten a lot of downloads to try my best to not come back in this realm personally.
I choose that.
There's, you know, I thought actually this morning that maybe it would need, like, he may need a couple of other lives because, you know, I told him I bow to the light.
And well, one thing that happens, I believe, is that, you know, you are on a soul journey.
And so you are going to have to cover both the yin and the yang of life and in lives.
So it has to do with unfinished business in the past.
So that's another thing that I notice is that, and I'm not sure, you know, it's not so easy to figure out, you know, well, this person didn't complete this stuff and this person didn't complete that stuff.
And they're off, you know, doing those things.
But it may actually come together eventually, even in this life.
Okay.
It's, you know, I wouldn't predict it necessarily unless you think, you know, you have, if you're like a precog, like I am, then you might see the future.
But it might also be in alternate, you know, timelines.
So I think we live on multiple timelines and all of that.
When you get into this sort of situation where you're looking at a relationship and how it plays out over time and understanding that you don't always end up in the same place in a system of balance, in balance, you may actually have to, you know, take care of certain business before others.
And every claim is distinct, and you have the answers within you.
There is no guarantees.
And for me, I am being, you know, ironically, Snuffy told me to have blind faith.
And I did show him blind faith.
And it's blind faith really in the universe.
And I'm being shown surrender because I'm not also living in a sense of love and acceptance and, you know, on a level that maybe you haven't experienced before.
Absolutely.
So it's what that person brings out in you that you haven't experienced because you weren't triggered to do whatever it was, you know.
And in your case, it was, you know.
In my case, nothing's ever started.
Like, I'm not even going to have an opportunity to get to know him because I want him clean.
And there's demonic interferences.
I think I really believe with all my heart that the forces that beat, I mean, that's why they've messed with the sexes because divine masculine and divine feminine.
What is divine anymore?
What is sacred when we're replacing it?
I mean, you could argue it's all duality.
You need the dark to have the light.
And it's about unity consciousness.
I also make it became very aware that the heart is like a furnace.
Like Snuffy literally has a Christ consciousness on his heart.
Like there's so many things that he's triggered in me where it doesn't necessarily know the profoundity of the things he's told me.
But for whatever reason, it's the deepest non-relationship I've ever had.
And I don't know how it will end.
Scared to Ink 00:01:43
Do I want it to end with Miriam's credit being fucked up because she did a beautiful thing?
And when I saw him last, so when I saw him last, he's a tattoo artist.
And one of the things I want, I want him, I want his ink on my body.
I think it's very sacred.
So he's like, hey, did I show you this tattoo?
And he showed me a symbol of the earth sign.
And I'm like, Snuffy, that's the tattoo that I drew for you to tattoo on me.
And I went in my journals and I sent him like, I literally got the download of the same tattoo that he put on his own.
Like for me, those little things, they mean something to me.
I also, when I saw him, I said, I'm scared.
I'm not going to see you again.
And he said, I know that you think that.
How do you know they think that?
How did you know that?
You know, and I'm a very cool chick, and I'm basically saying, you know, this has effed up my credit.
Like, it's between you and me.
Let's like, this is between honor you and me.
But I really don't know.
I think different substances have different energies.
I think there's interference.
And initially, the first, there was one time I was still in Miami and I heard, would you die for him?
Divine Timing and Opposites 00:06:39
And it's from the seven sign with Demi Moore.
And that line had always stayed with me.
So I went to look at the movie again.
And it talks, it has a lot of Jewish symbolism.
It talks about the Guff, the Guff, the hallway of souls, and bringing about the end of life.
And Demi Moore's character in a previous life, she had not died for him.
She had not done the right thing.
So I don't know why that came to me, but I heard, would you die for him?
But then it came to me that it's not about in my life, I've been a martyr, and it's about loving myself, honoring myself.
And Also, the Chinese with a fable where maybe you've heard it, Carrie, of the man has a stallion and the king comes and says, I'd like to buy your stallion.
And he's like, I know this horse is sold.
It's not for sale.
And then the stallion leaves and the villagers come and say, oh, that's that's so bad.
You could have made money.
And he says, it's not good.
It's not bad.
And then the stallion comes back with 20 horses.
And then the villagers say, oh, you're so lucky.
And he says, it's not good.
It's not bad.
And then the son, one of his sons is on the horse and breaks his legs.
And then the villagers come and say, You have so bad luck.
And he's like, You don't know, it's not good.
It's not bad.
Then the war breaks out.
And had he not broken his legs, he would have probably died.
So you don't know how something works in this dimension, right?
Like you said.
Yeah, it's often things are often seen as their opposite of what they actually are.
And that happens in this situation.
But it also happens that in terms of like this significant other, whatever you want to call them, you know, other twin flame, whatever, there's an interesting dynamic going on where sometimes something you're doing in that area of life, they're doing the opposite in that area of life.
And yet, if you were to switch yourself around, just stand back from yourself, like, and just see, you could have been doing that in another life, and they were doing that other thing.
And like, there is a karmic thing.
If you, you know, people don't like to use the word karmic, but whatever, you know, there's a weird synchronicity that goes on.
You might have, you know, that they have wronged you or you have wronged them.
And when you're back in this life, you're kind of facing that.
And then how it's supposed to play out in order, because it all has to come into balance.
That's the sort of nature of the universe.
So I noticed that those kinds of things are really evident in this kind of a relationship.
Absolutely.
So it's about not judgment and it's not about blame.
Yeah.
And that story that you were telling about, you know, how you don't know every time, and I, I, this is so true of life in my view as well, is that, you know, it looks like something bad.
A lot of times, you know, like a simple example, I'll be late for something.
I'll be like trying really hard not to be late, but I will be late.
And then it's happened so often nowadays.
I go, okay, I'm late.
I don't want to be late.
But I know that in the past, when I've been late, there's been a good reason.
And later on, I'm really glad I was late.
So it's, it's, that's like in a nutshell, but that sort of can save your life, as you said.
It can be a simple thing, you know, in everyday material life where, you know, something just insane happens and you're not happy about it, right?
But then its complete opposite turns out to be very positive.
So.
Well, that feeds into divine timing.
Again, surrender, trust.
I know that he's been showing me divine timing.
There was one day he was supposed to come and put my desk together and he didn't come and I didn't make it a big deal.
And the ATT guy was putting my internet together and he had said he was going to come around three, which I've told him, please spare me with the times because like he works on orbital time in his own.
So it was past three and I was like, is he going to come at 333?
He knocked exactly, but he didn't do it on purpose.
And I just held up the phone.
There was another time where I didn't know anything about twin flames.
I didn't know anything about the 333 and I didn't know him.
And there was another one of his numbers and I texted him and I just wrote tests and it was at 333.
So deception of appearances is a theme.
Divine timing is a theme.
Surrender is a theme.
However, when there are demonic forces and interferences and drugs that come in, You know, that's that's where my fear and severe betrayal issues have come up, which I know are way beyond this life that I have been dealing with.
And he's, it's just a catalyst, it's an activation.
It's it's it's really someone, I believe, has to be very mature and evolved as far as a soul and to really look at your blind spots.
Because, like you said, let's say he's an avoidant, but I have been an avoidant.
Everything in like an inverse, I've it's just a mirror.
When initially he showed me, maybe people watching know about the pattern, which is an app, and we put he showed it to me and we put in our birth dates and it comes up the vertex.
Hilarious Connections Defy Conventionality 00:04:17
You may feel like you know Snuffy from the future, from the past.
You feel like, um, and I mean, it was pretty wild.
It's like a faded event.
And I, because we do come from different worlds per se, but we have a lot of actually a lot of harmony and synergy in our sinistry charts.
Um, I lost my train of thought, but but the yeah, when we did our charts, it's it's pretty crazy.
Oh, and he said, He said, I'm a little bit intimidated by the by the potential of this connection, and um, you know, maybe the energy is too intense, even for the 3D.
There's also a third energy, and I was shown that's the Trinity, that there's an energy.
The truth is that he's inside of me.
And I'll tell you one more thing: I don't know if you've seen or heard the movie Heaven, May Heaven Come.
It's with the chick from Top Gun and Timothy Hutton.
But I had seen that movie when I was 14.
And so, after the Kundalini, I remembered that I put a sigil in this life to trigger that I was looking for him.
So, I couldn't remember the name of the movie.
It's just basically, it's a he dies, he goes to heaven, she's a new soul, they fall in love, they're about to have a union, but then she's sent to earth.
He pleads and he says, Please let me find her.
And the gatekeeper says, Okay, you have 30 years, he's drifting, they're about to not meet, there's a lot of interferences, and they find each other.
And when I watched that movie again, because I was a teenager, I was bawling, like I was having a very visceral reaction that's like, You wouldn't, why the hell would I be crying?
And then I remembered that I used to look for four leaf clovers, and that's a symbol.
And I am convinced that I've been looking for him for more than 30 years, but I completely forgot.
I just knew that energy because, folks, it's about energy, it's not about diamonds, you know.
Like, I'm gonna love you if you buy me a $20,000 car, like superficial bullshit matrix.
We're here, these connections are here to defy the conventionality, but there's people that are watching and that are having similar things understand innately what we're talking about here.
And it's probably it would probably be nice to hear.
Um, I don't know if I see any.
If you have a question in the um chat before we shut, you know, shut this down, um, go ahead and ask it and see if I will also say, obviously, I'm not able to speak for him, and but I can tell you that he's reading my snuffy series that he's what he's reading it.
There was one day where he sent me an edit because I accidentally put his name, but I did, I didn't mean it, so he sent me an edit.
It's hilarious.
Um, it's hilarious because it looks so bad on the 3D.
I, and, and I'm more concerned with whether I'm going to see him again, more so than the fact that this car is in collection, and um, it's affected me in the 3D.
But also, there's also negativity that the interferences, like I was told not to take advice.
Tumultuous Times 00:03:27
I have defended him and this connection because it is otherworldly and it is beautiful.
And maybe it is too intense to be able to have a typical whatever relationship.
So, and there's no, there's no, you know, I don't know if I'll see him again.
I hope so.
Well, the way I see it, and I'm in a similar situation in my relationship, but I can say that it's really beyond the here and now.
So the one thing I would say is that we're in a very tumultuous time.
And I mean, someone just mailed me a letter and I'm going to be posting the letter.
You know, there's no name attached whatsoever.
So I have no idea who it is.
But they are claiming they know they've seen the future or whatever.
So they're telling things that are going to happen down the road for humanity on earth.
And look, some of it might be true, some false, all that kind of stuff.
But it's kind of interesting within this time of upheaval, if you will, that I think that there are some really incredible connections, you know, where you actually could find that person, you know, in the mayhem, so to speak.
And whether or not you come together at those times or, you know, you leave or they leave this dimension, you know, it's not really kind of about that.
It's going to be, it's going to be whatever it's going to be.
You're not going to, you can't steer it.
It's not like that.
So, but it's already written in a way.
I mean, that's what I would say.
So maktub is the word in Arabic.
Maktub means written.
I was going to say, because we come from such different like backgrounds, I said to myself, I wonder what was happening in the stars, like for me and him to collide.
That dawn was a six-planet parade, the dawn of meeting and something aligned.
And maybe my interest has been overwhelming.
You know, maybe he sees it as obsessive, where it's just I've been trying to understand the connection.
And from a quantum physics, he showed, we've shown each other things like twice.
Like he ended up showing me the giza clock.
He showed me twice this the double split experiment.
Then I realized that writing this is and having observing him has changed the reality of me energetically being out there caring for him for someone I don't know, but I feel psychology, I feel like his wounds and I can understand.
Thank You, Camelot Everything 00:04:31
You know, the other day he texted and says, you're not in my shoes.
But I said, but Snuffy, I did try to be in your shoes.
That's why I showed up at that parking lot.
You know, are you in like a lot of things he's told me, I've taken.
And then I'm like, you know what?
You could be telling yourself the exact same thing because it's a mirror.
You know, it's not about ego.
I'm right.
You're wrong.
It's about an understanding and growing ultimately.
You know, that's what real love is.
Like, you shouldn't have to put the word unconditional to begin with.
Sure.
Well, thank you for coming on the show and, you know, sharing your personal journey, some of it, and this experience that you're having and the idea that you're writing a book about it, I think would interest my audience.
And that's on Substack that I'm writing about it on Substack.
Okay, yeah.
So we'll put it if you send me the links, then I'll put them under this show when it gets, I mean, it's already live.
So it's going to just, I'll just do it right after the show is over.
So anyway, I want to thank you, Miriam.
And you did a really amazing journey in terms of your investigation of the George Floyd story.
And I just want to say that in a certain sense, it's kind of cool because you did all that.
And now you're sort of emerging into another part of yourself and a more full part of what we might call the divine feminine.
And I think that you and I are in a similar journey in that way because I also feel that way about Camelot and everything I've done all these years.
That I'm sort of merging into, you know, trying to make movies now of the stories that have been given to me by the whistleblowers.
And so it's an incredible, you know, thing to be able to reach that juncture and go into a different sort of world and yet still be bringing, you know, the rest is still there with us.
It's not like it's gone.
It's accompanying you, but it's great to see you have being able to express yourself in this other area.
Thank you, Carrie.
Yeah, I thank Snuffy for putting me back on.
This is like my, I believe my soul's purpose is to help others find their soul's purpose.
And I want to live more out of my feminine and just grateful.
I feel like I've softened.
And I think a lot of us women, you know, we've were warriors, but at the end of the day, I'm still a woman.
And so I'm grateful.
I'm really enjoying writing.
I'm on part 29.
I'll say one thing that when I Snuffy said about my book, they're going to make it into a movie by George Floyd.
And I knew right away they're not going to make that.
But because he's also called things, I'm like, oh, maybe it's this book that will be, because I want to sell it to Hollywood.
I don't care.
I'll take my name off of it.
But I think this would be like a Netflix series, like involving quantum entanglement and like just a sci-fi twin flame story.
Of course, I don't know how it ends quite yet.
So we'll see.
But thank you.
Thank you for having me to speak about this.
I appreciate it.
Okay.
And thank you for having the courage to do so.
And thank you, everyone, for watching and onward and upward.
And we're on a journey.
And so it's ever unfolding.
And I think it's really, I don't see a doom and gloom personally about the future.
I just see that we're ever becoming and that we have amazing humans have amazing potential.
And so thanks for watching.
Thank you.
Thank you.
Take care.
Bye-bye.
And I'm going to run the credits.
So you don't have to hang about for that.
Thank you.
Everyone.
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