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Dec. 16, 2008 - Project Camelot
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Project Camelot interviews Jessica: A Crystal Child Speaks Out
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Hi,
I'm Carrie Cassidy from Project Hamlet and today we are here with Jessica Schaub Is that how you say your name?
Yes, that's correct.
And Jessica is a crystal child, is what she calls herself.
And we're really excited to be able to talk to her today.
So Jessica, tell me a little bit about yourself and kind of a little bit about your journey.
And she's had a very interesting time growing up.
And at this time you're about almost 26, is that right?
Yes, that's correct.
Okay, so why don't you tell me like when you, like the early childhood kind of thing with the relationship with your father and how you sort of tapped into all of this.
Alright, I was very, very shy growing up.
I actually didn't fit in, surprisingly.
I didn't really have friends, but my age, I actually did have a lot of grannies, which I adopted.
I had 50, and they taught me how to knit and crochet and things like that.
I retreated a lot into cartoons, and it really came about when I was 16.
That was the big trigger, if you will.
Before that, though, I do remember saying things in school like, angels are aliens and aliens are angels.
So you would say this in school?
Yes.
And what would be the reaction to the children around you?
Oh, laughter, ridicule, yeah.
Okay.
And why would you say that?
You know what?
I really didn't know.
It was almost like channeling, but I wasn't aware I was channeling.
I just started sharing this information.
And it was even before I even knew what was going on with my father.
So just thinking back to it, that's kind of interesting and different.
Uh-huh.
Okay, so what happened then?
I mean, obviously this is what you did on the early days.
How did you progress at that point?
Because I know there's a part...
In which you actually kind of tried to reject that world.
Can you talk about that a little bit?
Well, yeah, because when you first get into this information, it brings about an existential breakdown.
You let go of everything you think you know about yourself and the world and everybody.
So it is, in a sense, a little bit of a death and also a rebirth.
You're an empty cup now, an empty vessel to be filled.
Be a little more specific in terms of your experience, because I know that you had a tragedy in your life, but prior to that, because that happened kind of like in your late teens, you had sort of a dilemma.
So can you describe what your father was like and how that dilemma kind of came around in your life?
He was very distant.
He was connected to a world that I wasn't familiar with at the time, and he spoke about things that I really didn't understand also.
But he was very, very passionate and loving as well.
Sorry, I'm getting a little nervous.
Well, I can say beforehand, I was always a little bit suspicious in school.
I felt like I didn't like being taught what to think rather than how to think.
That was always in the back of my mind.
And also just...
I kind of felt like I was coming off the assembly line.
And I remember trying to ask about things that I... I noticed that there was just stuff we weren't being taught about in school.
For example, in grade 8, they were saying the only kind of matter is gas, solid, and liquid.
And I raised my hand and I said, well, what about plasma?
And you know what she said?
Go to detention.
Go to detention, really.
Very interesting.
And you grew up in what area?
Well, I was born in Winterpeg, but I left when I was seven.
And the Vancouver area, the suburbs.
Okay.
So you were told to go to detention because you talked about plasma.
Yes.
And that's, you know, actually, I mean, so they actually didn't have any clue about that.
And we're talking what year approximately, do you remember?
I was in grade 8, yes.
Okay.
First year of high school.
Okay.
And I just started to realize, wait a second here, there's a lot they're not saying, and why can't we talk about it?
Why do we get in trouble if we bring this stuff up?
Okay.
Right?
So what happened after that?
I kind of disregarded it.
Like, I didn't really pay too much attention to it.
It was just always in the back of the brain.
And it's almost like a detective.
You're collecting all these bits and pieces as you go on the way, and still very blind.
So we always, we have a trigger.
And my trigger was when I was 16.
It was tragedy.
My sister ended up passing away.
And, um...
Her friend was drinking and driving.
And it was just my sister that went, so it was just her time.
Okay, and how did that affect you?
I mean, obviously, you know, it's distressing and we don't have to dwell on it here.
But at the same time, I think that it has something to do with your willingness to perhaps...
Let in these other worlds.
Would you say that?
Yes, because I realized that I was very depressed at that time.
And I was also very Christian thinking in the sense that I felt that everybody who parties and does drugs and things like that is bad and I don't want to converse with them.
I'm not saying all Christians think like that, but that was just the way my headspace was and my interpretation of that.
So when she passed away and I was listening to her friends speak about her at the funeral, They're talking about this wonderful girl that I never got to know because I shut her out because I was very judgmental.
So right then and there, I just vowed to myself that I was never going to judge people by what they did that wasn't who they really were.
It's just experiences that we come here for.
It was...
A very devastating time when my sister passed away in that it destroyed the family.
My mother ended up getting worse, very bad migraines.
I mean, she had migraines before, but they seemed to be more frequent and lasted longer and more severe.
And my father ended up getting a stroke.
And family broke apart.
My brother went to university.
My other brother went to a foster home.
We became homeless.
So it was a lot all at once.
And I think I just became very traumatized.
You know, it almost didn't seem real.
Okay.
Okay, you told me that your father had a big influence on your sort of letting ETs communicate with you.
Can you talk to me about that story?
Yes.
Right after my sister passed away, My dad said she's come back and she started to speak to him.
And she said that it's a very exciting time to be alive.
The universe is like a big garden.
There's lots of tending to.
I've come back to let you know that certain members of the family have been called for a very specific mission.
And she was like the introduction towards a whole bunch of other beings coming through.
So after my sister started coming through the catalyst, then came angels, nature spirits, Ascended masters, extraterrestrials, it just got really, really out there.
Okay, when you say this happened, did this happen to you or did this happen to your father?
This happened to my father.
It all happened to my father first.
So he was very open talking to you about this.
Well, he was really shocked and taken aback, you know.
It was exciting and he just had to share with the family because he didn't really...
I don't know if he knew what to make of it at that time, but he knew that he needed to share this because it was a big thing to my sister.
The interesting thing about how she came back was mediums can only speak to people who passed away if they haven't crossed over.
She had crossed over and then she came right back.
Okay, when you say she came right back, what do you mean by that?
Do you mean she was reincarnated in another body and coming to you from there, or do you mean that she was in another dimension?
She was in another dimension.
Okay.
Yes.
The fifth.
And my dad described her as very, very bright white light being appeared to him, like an angel.
And he said it was very much her personality.
Because she's like, look, Dad, don't I look pretty?
Like a girl would say.
So, yeah, it was...
Something you gotta share, something really amazing happened.
Okay, and what was your reaction when your father talked about this?
I was very hurt.
Very upset because she's passed away.
It's like dumping salt on this wound.
It's not very funny at all bad.
Particularly because he had a stroke.
And when he had the stroke, he didn't know who we were.
He couldn't work.
I felt like I lost my father.
And so now to talk about something like this, you're crazy.
You don't know what to talk about.
So he had these experiences after he had the stroke, is what you're saying?
Yes.
So I thought.
He must have recovered fairly well, though, to be able to communicate.
I mean, he didn't have...
Like speech impairment or anything like that from the stroke?
He did, a bit, yeah.
Okay.
But he was able to communicate this to you?
Yeah.
Okay, so you rejected it in the beginning.
What made you change your mind?
A lot of things.
It was not something that I was going to quickly be open to because...
I really, really wanted to be normal.
And it was never going to happen.
I just had to.
It took me a while to get to that, but he wanted to tell me about his experiences and all these beings that were coming through and what they were saying and they were talking a lot about me.
Okay.
And I did not know what to think of this.
I really, really wanted nothing to do with it.
And so I would just go to the library or the bookstore, and books would start falling off the shelf with the same kind of context of information that these beings were speaking to my dad about.
They'd fall right at my feet.
And again, I was still very Christian thinking, so I'm like, this is a devil!
So I just ran out, freaked out.
How did you get over that, though, if you had this mindset that was Christian thinking?
How did you sort of move beyond that?
Oh, I'll get into that.
That's coming up.
I would just go walking down on the streets and people would come up to me, people I knew and people I didn't know, and they would hand me the books.
Again, same kind of information.
The ones that my dad was talking about, similar to the context of the books in the library and bookstore.
And what's interesting about this is some of the people, when I asked, why are you giving me this book?
You know, and they're like, I don't know.
How do you not know why you're giving somebody a book?
Unless you're being inspired.
Okay.
And I still would not look at the books.
And so it required those beings to be even more persistent.
I like to call it Angela kick in the butt.
Where I was working...
I've been working in the film industry right after my sister passed away.
I left school because...
My parents, they were just, you know, they weren't able to work.
So I decided that, you know, we go to schools, learn how to make money.
I'm out of school.
I'm out of this.
And I went into the film industry right away.
My very first day of extra work, I got lines.
And so I thought that was normal.
The next day I'm like, when do I get my lines?
And they're like, you don't?
So...
So what happened...
What did you do then?
You didn't get lines.
Are you saying you just became an extra?
I did extra work.
I did acting.
I did stunts.
I did stand-in.
I did crew work.
Set deck.
I did as many different things to remove...
Politics and understand where everybody was coming from.
That was something that I always was interested in doing, is learning all the different perspectives.
Okay.
And so when did the transition happen where you started to listen to what your father said?
On set, on a show called Da Vinci's Inquest, a guy came up to me I've never seen in my entire life.
And he said to me, is your name Jessica?
And I said, mm-hmm.
He said, is your last name Shaw?
Yeah.
And is your parents' name Rosanne and Terry?
Yeah.
How do you know all this?
And he's like, okay, this is for you.
And he gave me all these tapes on the CIA, underground militia, David Icke, Jordan Maxwell, Alex Collier, And then some.
Okay.
And I just kind of realized that this is never going to let up.
Something is trying to get my attention and I have to surrender.
Did you watch those tapes?
I did.
Okay.
And did it change you?
I became very, very depressed, even more so, because, again, letting go of everything you think you know, but then also it seems to be this huge, scary conspiracy, like we're doomed.
It's, you know, this huge control game going on and there's nothing you can do about it because you don't have the power or the money or say, in a sense.
Yeah.
And so, what did you do then?
How did you go from there to actually listening to your father?
Well, after the videos and after feeling the way I did about them and just constant reoccurring of Pleiadians, you know, okay, Dad, who are the Pleiadians?
Why do they want to get in contact with me?
So I started finding out now, really listening to my dad.
And I wasn't necessarily open to it, but I wasn't necessarily closed.
I was just thinking that this is my experience for whatever reason.
Life is...
I've taken this turn, and it's for a reason, so I should do some investigating.
Okay, and how old were you at this time?
I'd say about 17, a year later.
And my dad actually started to talk about his experiences, that he actually was aware of this stuff before his stroke.
It was just a bigger upgrade for him.
But I found out that when he was eight, he was taken up on a UFO. And the whole family on the farm saw this as well.
And they put a chip in his brain.
And this chip, he didn't believe that it was actually there.
He thought it was a dream or something until...
Not too long ago, before his stroke, I believe, that you mentioned, he was in the hospital and there was a woman there that, well, she seemed to be a nurse, but she wasn't, because she went up to my dad right away and she said, You have to leave.
She brought him his clothes.
She said, they're planning on scanning your brain.
If they scan your brain, they'll find the chip.
And my dad's like, wait a second, that's real?
And she said, this cannot happen.
So, come on, time to go.
But my dad actually didn't get out on time.
So, right when they were about to scan his brain, the whole hospital had a blackout.
And when the power went back on, the...
The CAT scan machine didn't work.
And then when it did work, it worked on everybody but him.
And that gave him enough time to make his escape from the hospital.
Okay, very interesting.
Now, this woman, did she disappear?
Was she still on the...
Yeah, she disappeared.
My dad went back to find if he could speak to her again, and she was only there that one time.
She completely vanished.
And there's been a few, actually, events like that where these people would come to our door, and my dad would say, Jess, go follow them.
And I did, and they just vanished.
They just famished.
Right, yeah.
So he would say, follow them, and I'd see them poof.
And my dad, he would have experiences where he could see these beings all the time.
He would be in a parking lot, and suddenly all these angels would be surrounding him.
So he had many experiences like that, and he always tried to interpret it and explain it to us, which was very fascinating.
It started to become, you know, okay, wow, something is going on here.
What did your father do for a living before he had a stroke?
My father was a businessman.
He had his own company called Beverly Hill Homes, which he ran with my mother, and it was very successful.
And then he was a master of many things, a jack-of-all-trades.
In Winnipeg, he built houses.
He designed them, architecture-wise, and he also put it together.
Carpentry.
And they're very beautiful homes as well.
One, which I have fond memories, is the castle house.
And he also was a chemist.
He invented vendable concrete.
But because he was very honest and trustworthy, he ended up getting taken and somebody stole that idea and took it to China.
And that really devastated my mother.
They ended up losing all their money, really having nothing.
And then my father, through the latter years, he made furniture.
Cutesy kind of furniture.
Okay.
So you're in this situation.
Your sister has passed.
You're learning about ETs.
And what happened that actually sort of progressed you to where it wasn't just your father having experiences, but you started to have them?
Okay.
Wow.
Well, while I start to learn about the ETs, I'm actually really still upset with my father because he left the church.
And I was still kind of Christian at that time, right?
Trying to hold on to this.
And so I kept going to different churches.
And I felt really annoyed because I couldn't find one where I fit in.
And so I decided to explore different religions.
And I went to those churches, still didn't quite fit in, or something felt off and I couldn't put my finger on it.
So then I went into mysticism, because this seemed to be along the lines of what my dad was talking about and what it seemed these beings were.
Trying to relate to me.
But still that didn't quite feel right and I didn't quite fit in.
And I knew that to try to...
I knew that one day I would be explaining this to people.
So I decided to even explore atheism.
Again, same thing, still didn't quite fit in.
But I couldn't deny any of them either because they all seemed to be pieces of myself.
So what I did was I started to embrace all of them and I realized that I'm not just one and to pigeonhole myself into one is a great disservice.
So these new insights started coming through.
This is really where I started to see the world very differently.
And everyday little things started to become really big.
For example, one time I came home and I was very upset about this reoccurring problem.
Like, why does this keep happening to me?
And it's funny, I don't even know what it is to this day.
So, really big, right?
But it popped into my head, Boggle.
Go get the game Boggle.
I'm like, huh?
Well, I go, what the heck does that have to do with anything?
That's kind of a weird, random tangent.
But I went and got it.
And then I go, you know, shake it up.
Find some words.
And I found, like, ten.
And I'm like, all right, well, that's done.
I don't really understand the point of this.
And when I put it down, I... Got up and I turned around and I saw the board from another angle.
And I saw all these other words I didn't see before.
And I'm like, wait a second.
And I walked around and I saw, you know, more from the other angle, more from the other angle.
Until I found, I think, 55.
And then it said, okay, well now you know why this problem keeps reoccurring.
You're only looking at it from one perspective, one angle.
I was like, oh my goodness, wow.
And where did this come from?
And then it just popped into my head.
Allow us to introduce ourselves.
We are your guides.
And every time I tried to ask them who exactly they were, I got a different answer.
And so I thought at one point they were playing with me.
But in a sense, they didn't want to be locked into labels.
In the beginning, you know, we introduced myself as a crystal child.
You know, there's Indigo, Lightworker, Starseed, and also just Jessica.
Right?
So they're all labels when it comes down to it.
They're all pieces of ourself.
I mean, in school I was always told that I was stupid and I believed it.
When you say you were told you were stupid, who told you that?
My teachers.
Why?
Because I was put in the special classes.
A slow learner.
And the students.
Because I was very dyslexic and I learned very differently and I didn't see things the way they did.
And also I didn't have an interest too.
It's just so boring.
This is not going to stimulate the soul.
It starves that part of us.
Okay, but to get back to your story, you're in a position where you're starting to hear from your guides, you've heard stories from your father, so at what point were you actually sort of convinced that possibly what he was seeing was real and those personages started to be appearing for you or become real for you?
They never quite, like, appeared to me in the way my dad did.
But it just started, like, what I was sharing with in school about being told I was stupid, it stayed like that until, you know, that was my paradigm, that's what everybody saw me as, until one day it dawned on me that You know, someone's opinion of me doesn't have to be my reality.
And when that happened, everything shifted.
Nobody saw me as stupid anymore, but it doesn't mean I still don't have that part.
Like, these are all facets of what makes us human, so I couldn't really judge anybody anymore, because I saw myself in each one of them, no matter what they did.
And what really took it to the next level, actually, was...
This is very, very hard to share, but it's very important to share.
Even though I was starting to become open to it, I was still very upset with my dad because what I wanted more than anything was just a normal dad and to be a father and not to be lost to this world even though it was exciting.
You're still a child and you need that kind of support so I might get a bit emotional about saying this.
That's okay.
On Christmas Day, the whole family was around and I just felt so hurt and upset by my dad that I told him, I hate you.
Why don't you just die already?
And he did.
Okay.
When you say he did, can you be a little more specific as to what happened?
A week later, he had a brain hemorrhage and he went in for brain surgery and he didn't recover.
Okay.
So, how did you sort of view that experience?
Well, I knew about how our thoughts create reality before What the Bleep came out.
This information was being given to me by my dad's beings as I sat, you know, and listened to what they were saying.
I knew that There's a huge responsibility to what we're putting out and how powerful it is that in a sense it is magic.
So when I said that, I was so wracked with guilt and so mad at myself and so upset with these beings who are working with me.
I felt that they chose the wrong person to do this mission because I demonstrated myself as unworthy that You get told that this is the power that you have.
Your thoughts create your reality.
Pay attention to them.
And then you go and do something like that in a so seeming unconscious measure.
Okay, but did you also allow for the freedom of the other person as a sovereign entity?
In other words, that person being your father having a choice on whether to die or not?
I didn't see that until later on.
See, what happened was...
I didn't want anything to do with the beings after that.
Just because I felt so hurt by what I did that I'm unworthy.
But they still wouldn't leave me alone.
They said, you don't understand.
You're only seeing it from one perspective.
You're feeling very hard on yourself and it's not necessary.
You don't understand on the soul level what's occurring.
Even though you told him out of anger what you told him, On the soul level, you said, it's okay, Dad.
You can go now.
We'll be fine.
And that I had a contract with him that I would help him go when the time came.
And that he did want to leave, but he didn't want to go unless he knew that we would be okay.
And I did just that.
Okay.
So you were able to kind of forgive yourself and allow for that occurrence to...
To happen and to have been part of your reality, in other words?
Yes.
Yeah.
Okay.
And what about the rest of your family?
How did they view his passing at that point?
Devastated my mother.
My mother still hasn't recovered from it.
My oldest brother just distanced himself away from the family because he witnessed that.
I don't know if he even forgives me to this day of what I said to Dad because he can't understand or see it the way I do now.
My other brother, he was upset with Dad too, so he actually talked about You know, just not being happy with Mom being with Dad.
And Steve was too young to really know what was going on.
Okay.
So your father passed on and you were having some interactions with various beings and getting information.
Yeah.
But what happened after that?
Did it increase?
Oh yes, it just kept increasing non-stop.
I felt very, very guided suddenly after my dad passed away that he planted a whole bunch of seeds within me and I needed to take care of all these seeds now.
I needed to make sure they had light and water.
Were you sharing your experiences with your family or was this just private?
I could only really share it with my mother.
The other siblings were not open to it at all.
And what about school friends, schoolmates?
No, there was nobody I had at that time.
That's why I went on the computer trying to find people.
Somebody must have had similar experiences.
Someone must know about this.
I can't be the only one.
Not just my family.
I mean, these videos, you know, they, David Icke, Alex Collier, they, you know, talk to other people, they find them, so perhaps I can do the same.
And how many people is this happening to who feel alone?
You know, who can't share this because they feel, you know, crazy or they won't be understood.
And that's really sad and not fair.
You know, we have a right to share and express what is within us.
So that really drove me, and I spent many nights trying to find others to no avail, until one night I collapsed in front of the computer, and when I woke up, it was in the middle of the night, too, there was this only computer screen that's just like, meet other starseeds and lightworkers.
I was like...
I hit the mother load and I contacted them all and we immediately had a strong connection like we've known each other all our lives and I just knew so much about them and I didn't really know how but I just was so strong and It became very exciting, and I decided I wanted to go and see them.
And so I just started to...
I kind of freaked my mother out, because the first one I wanted to meet was, of all things, a guy.
One, you know, male around my age, and you think that if they're open to this information, that they must be the one, kind of thing.
They're near your age, opposite sex, it's all you need.
So I told my mom, I'm going to France to meet this guy I've never met, but I'm in love with, and I'm...
I'm going, even though I know that it's gonna cost about, like, everybody's telling me three grand, you know, minimum.
I said I'm gonna go for less than 900.
And I did.
When I called the travel agent, she said, we have nothing available.
Oh, except this.
It just popped up.
It looks like somebody canceled for three weeks for, what was it now?
850.
Yeah.
I'm like, that was the one.
That's the one.
Okay.
And you've also done this now.
You've sort of followed this kind of pattern since then.
Yes.
In allowing things to come to you and knowing...
Sort of having a second sense about that, is that right?
Yeah, just a strong trusting.
The guidance just directs you.
It's like the white rabbit from Alice in Wonderland.
That's what it feels like.
So you just know what to do and that you'll be fine.
You know, when you can make it happen, I can use all of this stuff that I've been taught to reverse a lot of the...
Old condition programming that is put on us when we were younger, right?
It's like, it's NLP in a sense.
Programming your old beliefs and if they're yours or where they came from and using them to step into your power more and more and seeing what you can do.
If these beings say that we're infinite, you know, and that we're these beautiful balls of light, then I want to experience this.
I want to feel this.
And you can't just read about it.
You have to embody it, is what I've come to realize.
I'm not Praying or wishing or hoping for peace and love anymore.
I've decided to become it.
You know, it comes to a point in life where you decide, do you want to go home or become home?
And then will that bring home to everybody within?
That's what the shift feels like to me.
What I was wondering now, if you could talk a little bit about the messages that you were getting And the kind of beings that were coming to you, if you could describe them, maybe specific ones that have particular meaning for you.
Well, it's never been quite specific.
Like I said, they've always, just when I thought I could pinpoint it, okay, it's a place, no, it would be something different suddenly.
So it was never quite about attaching, okay, this is Jesus, this is Buddha.
It was never about that.
It was about the fusion and merging all of them together and that being God in itself, right?
Playing all these roles and speaking to us in whatever comfort belief that we had.
So that was always my approach and perspective on it, even when understanding what these aliens were, pieces of ourself as well.
And so what I started to do was not only test this stuff out of my life, and I don't mind sharing those experiences because they're quite wild and really fun, especially when people start trying it out for themselves and then calling me up later going, oh my goodness!
But...
For example, what I found with the extraterrestrials is if time doesn't exist, past, present, and future are all existing at the same time simultaneously.
And this is an illusion.
In a sense, time is just A bunch of still frames.
And this camera, you know, it's not really moving.
It's just a bunch of still frames.
And it's a trick of the eye, such as the case with going on within our mind as well, making us perceive.
Then if we've been taught to believe about time linear the way we do now, then that means there is aspects of our self that is fragmented.
So future versions of ourself, depending on the probability of our thinking.
So, for example, the greys, not saying all greys are like this, but when I learned that They actually aren't gray at all.
On a crash, they dissected them and found that their gray skin was actually our color.
And those big goggles, those big eyes, that's what they were.
They were goggles.
They were a future version of ourself that, you know, they feel, when people feel them, they feel very cold and kind of calculated, and it's almost like that version of ourself, of the collective thinking about, you know, the desensitization of war and all this cloning and genetic engineering and the chemicals in the air made us a little bit...
Disconnected from who we really were because, you know, some people say that they don't really feel, they don't have emotions in that sense, and that's an aspect of our self.
And I would wonder why those ones would, if you ask any little kid to draw a picture of an alien, it would always be the greys with the big eyes.
And what I got from them was that they came back to kind of prevent us from going down that path.
And it sounds very bizarre.
How can, you know, something come from the future and come back to us if time travel doesn't even exist?
But if an old man has smoked his entire life and he has a hole in his throat because of it, A lot of the times, they get inspired to go to elementary school to talk to the kids and say, please don't smoke or you'll end up like me.
And that's kind of what I saw with the greys.
So then I'm like, now I'm going to play with the other races.
What about the reptiles?
Why are people seeing reptiles?
And for me, everything at first exists within.
What happens inside of us gets mere reflected outside.
There is a war going inside of our mind, hence a war going on outside.
Even our body mirrors this in that what is cancer really, but one cell not recognizing another cell is on the same team.
And so they fight.
Well, that's exactly what, you know, the Americans and the Iraqis, and it's been played out over and over, and that's why the Buddhists were always saying, you know, peace of mind, meditation, clarity, because...
Oh my goodness, I'm going to not go on tangents.
I've got to watch out for that because I'm getting excited.
Okay, well, don't worry.
It has a through line, but what I want to know is...
When you're talking in this way, are you talking about information that has come to you or the information you've read on the internet?
Are you putting these two together?
No.
I couldn't really read or study this information that much.
More of it just honestly came to me.
If I did try to read, I would get other stuff coming to me.
It was almost like Whoever inspired the person in writing the literature, they were speaking through me.
In acting, there's the subtext, reading in between the lines.
A whole other message behind it.
And that's kind of what I was always picking up.
That I could never read or watch movies the same way as everybody else.
I never got what everybody else got.
I always got something completely different.
I never saw things like everyone else.
I mean, that's like even with reptiles, I don't see them like everybody else does.
I see them as a manifestation within our mind because of the reptilian brain.
That's where our ego is and where 90% of the negative self-talk comes from and the repetition and that controlling factor in our mind.
And I don't even see the ego as something as bad.
I see it as...
Something that is desperate for our attention and feels like it has a duty to keep us safe and it's doing a good job, but to the point where now it's making reasons why we need it and now we need protection from the protection, which is mere reflected in our society with our system.
It was there for protection.
Now we need protection from that.
The Pleiadians, they're another mere reflection of ourself in the future of if we step into our potential, our infinite potential, then we'll have that reality probability manifested for us.
So there's all these laid out for us and it's really up to each one of us by the inner work that we do and we're responsible.
Because we are our own self-fulfilling prophecy.
That's what humanity is, and they've been played.
Okay.
And what is your view if, you know, in other words, when the entities, I guess I want to say, when the entities come to you and they give you information, do you just accept it?
No, we have a conversation almost.
I challenge them.
I always like to challenge them and play with them because that seems to be what really stimulates them coming about in touch with your inner child, you know, and that creativity.
Wanting to understand why they're bringing this about.
Why are they sharing this?
What is your intent behind it?
I've been able to filter right away ones that are trying to sway by how they make you feel about yourself and the world around you.
Do you feel afraid and that you need to protect yourself?
Or do you feel more liberated and more compassionate and loving?
That's how you can decipher through any message.
Whatever kind of thing you're watching, Okay.
And are you finding that certain beings return to you more than once?
Would you recognize them?
Or are you talking about a general, you know, sort of heading, you know, called spirit or guides or whatever you want to call it?
I prefer to use that, even though, yeah, they are just facets of myself, you, everybody.
Right.
But given that they are, if you want to look at it that way, in terms of, you know, we can always look at the world in that term, terminology, but...
They still have individuality to some degree.
But I've never really focused on that.
That never really interested me so much because to me that seemed to be a bit of a distraction.
I mean, if we're thinking about, we argue a lot about Jesus, whether he's real or not, and it really doesn't matter.
It was the message.
That's the bigger picture.
So that's always what I paid attention to.
And I'm like, well, even Luke Skywalker, he's not real, but boy, does he inspire and reach a lot of people.
So that was always the way I would get past all these things just to get right to the focal point for me.
Okay, so what did they tell you your mission was?
Do you know?
When it doesn't really exist, when you can't go out and find a place that says, this is just for Jessica, then it's a little bit challenging.
So it was something that they said that I can create.
I can create with the pieces of what I'm acquiring, how I see my perspective, to share that with the world.
But don't just talk about it like be it, and inspire people to find their own truth.
Not to say, you know, you need to believe what I believe because I'm right and everybody else is wrong, but to honor where each one is coming from and to trust themselves that they have those answers within that we don't need to necessarily look and depend on other people for the answers because that's kind of what got us into this mess in the first place, right?
We're giving our power away to people or beings that don't necessarily have our best intention in mind.
But even that we should ask, why don't they?
Where does that come from?
What part of ourself that is so self-destructive that allows us to do this to ourself?
If you were going to talk about the future, and a lot of people are talking about 2012, as you know, and what may be going on in the future, have you been given any visions or dreams of the future or any information about it from the beings that are contacting you?
Definitely, a lot.
I always like to dispense this end of the world kind of a thing, but I can understand why people see or are perceiving it as the end of the world because it's the end of an old way of living, being, and thinking that has been around for quite some time.
So to a lot of people who don't have imagination, who can't see beyond that, then to them it's the end.
But in actuality, it It's something far beyond that we've ever dreamed.
In a sense, the best way to understand it is, you know, truth is stranger than fiction.
And we are going to experience that firsthand with these paranormal events, which aren't even paranormal at all.
It's just a bleed through of who we actually are coming out in all kinds of different ways.
It's going to be more and more frequent and people are going to start just recognizing each other and a war cannot continue because if I harm you right away I'm going to feel that pain.
So say I punched you in the shoulder, I'm going to feel it right away in my shoulder.
And it's going to freak people out at first because we've never really been, like nobody's really taught this to us in school, you know, it's kind of hush-hush, it's taboo in the world, but it's starting to come back, humanity, you know, in their state of amnesia for such a long time and now just awakening to what we've always known.
And it's very quantum.
It's very multidimensional.
It's memories not just of past lives, but future lives, multidimensional lives, interdimensional lives, lives in between lives.
We'll be able to grasp that and understand that.
Right now, what's happening is it's just stepping stones that's leading us there.
And you can't get attached or box yourself into one belief.
There are no limits, just beliefs.
So you always got to expand on that.
Okay, so...
When you say past lives, future lives, etc., have you been given vision of your own past lives, future lives?
Or are you saying that this is something that you think is going to be revealed to you eventually?
I don't have very many past lives per se because I've not been human on this planet.
Mainly I've been a guide working on the etheric so I am here to help people understand their guides and the mechanics of how they work.
And all the ways they're trying to get through to us and relay their message.
My past lives, I've had one in Atlantis and one in France, so not very many.
It is very bizarre to be in a human body and just getting used to the physical and the matter kind of thing.
But it's a huge honor to be in the physical form on Earth at this time.
And I've seen this lineup of souls that just can't wait to be here on Earth at this time.
And that's actually why the planet is overpopulated.
It's because of the excitement from all the souls.
This planet is like a Harvard University for creators in training and it's one of the greatest honors to be in physical form during this time because It's the merge of spirit and matter working together and going and having these kind of experiences because it's very different.
I mean, I can speak about this other side.
I can explain to you how they interpret us.
It's almost like we are a reality show to them.
And what we do affects them as well.
It's like a huge ripple effect.
It's all a microcosm of a macrocosm as we step into that.
Okay, so can you talk about specific events in the future, or is it completely unwritten in your view?
It's not necessarily specific events because, again, it's on the collective term.
But I just, whenever I think about it or tap into it, I just see a very different world from here.
I see people more connecting with nature.
Understanding the wisdom that's there that you know that it's never lied to you nature and it never will because it has no gain to to take power it has no desire to do anything like that it just gives abundantly and we will discover ourselves through that And it's just going to be nothing but beauty, to be honest.
There's no doom or gloom or fear or anything like that.
And call yourself on that and ask yourself, why?
Why are you getting that?
Where is that coming from?
Is that you or is that an outside influence?
Okay.
And if there was something you could tell people that, you know, because we spent almost an hour with you here and we're going to kind of wrap this up.
But if there's something you could tell people that you...
Feel that maybe hasn't been said so far, what would that be?
Be aware of what you're projecting out into the world.
Constantly be aware of your thoughts and be gentle and kinder to yourself.
It's really just that the reason I am here right now sharing is because you hear about the younger generation, the crystals and the indigos, but where are they?
Well, we're here now.
And your children, they know all about this.
And I'm also inspiring and having...
I'm almost like a pioneer that's allowing the other children to come forth and speak and share.
But it's not just children's children.
It's also each person's inner child.
and that when we balance and merge our divine masculine and our divine feminine since masculine has been the energy that's ruling the planet for quite some time and now feminine energy is starting to take back its power but no one has been you know put down more than the inner child and it's time for them to step to the plate it even mentions this in a bible only one that possesses the heart of a child may enter the kingdom And a child will lead the way.
And what I gather from this is a child is like our sunshine.
That's what we call our children.
You are my sunshine.
And when we merge that masculine and feminine within us, there is peace.
Then the union happens.
The inner child is birthed.
And that brings such a bright light within us that when I see the stars, it's a mirror of, you know, we are light in dark places as well.
And when these lights all recognize each other, we all come together in one, then it looks a lot like this big bright light like the sun or God's sun, if you will, the return of God's sun.
And the other thing I really wanted to share with is our perspective on the Illuminati or any kind of forces that are causing a lot of discord to understand that Humanity is conditioned to believe they're a worthless piece of coal under extreme heat and pressure.
And the heat and pressure can be perceived as the Illuminati or anything that causes discord.
What happens to a piece of coal under extreme heat and pressure?
It becomes a diamond.
So they're doing us a service in helping us step in and take back our power.
There's a major motivation for us.
It is alchemy, even if humanity is a seed of potential.
And in order to grow into its loveliness, it needs a lot of fertilizer dumped on it.
Shit!
I wanted to also say about the Illuminati that I really see them as a bully in high school, that they are very insecure and very afraid, more so of us than we are of them.
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