Jim Bakker Show - Letting Go of Bitterness and Unforgiveness | Denise Renner on The Jim Bakker Show
Aired: 2022-06-15
Duration: 04:06


=== Forgiving Those Who Put You In Prison (03:50) ===

[00:00:00]  I want you, you talk about people holding on to bitterness when there's freedom in forgiveness.
[00:00:09]  And I've had to forgive those who put me in prison.
[00:00:12]  In fact, I didn't get out of prison.
[00:00:13]  God was very clear that I would not be released from prison until I forgave everyone.
[00:00:20]  And then he went further than that.
[00:00:22]  I had to forgive them from my heart.
[00:00:25]  Because if you didn't, Jim, this is what would happen.
[00:00:29]  Here it is, right here.
[00:00:32]  Okay.
[00:00:33]  If you're struggling in any way with unforgiveness, you need to deal with that root of bitterness.
[00:00:41]  Otherwise, it will be the wide open door leading to a defeated life, filled with feelings of rejection.
[00:00:50]  And that root of bitterness has got to be the most diabolical evil thing ever.
[00:00:56]  Talk about that.
[00:01:01]  Well, I told you that many years ago, I dealt with unforgiveness.
[00:01:07]  And I try to make it short, but you asked such a pointed question.
[00:01:13]  And so I was dealing with unforgiveness and bitterness.
[00:01:19]  I didn't know what to do with it.
[00:01:21]  I knew that Jesus was my answer, but I didn't have step one, step two, step three, step four.
[00:01:28]  And because I was in leadership, I didn't feel like I had anybody to talk to.
[00:01:34]  So then I was in isolation.
[00:01:37]  It's so bad.
[00:01:38]  It's such a trap.
[00:01:40]  And I became very fearful.
[00:01:45]  And to the point, I'm sorry to confess this all over television, but it's the truth.
[00:01:51]  I had three times where I had panic attacks, where I felt like the walls were closing in.
[00:01:58]  And I thought, I'm a Christian.
[00:02:01]  I'm a leader.
[00:02:02]  This isn't supposed to be happening to me.
[00:02:07]  And so great fear.
[00:02:09]  Fear in the morning, fear in the night.
[00:02:12]  And it was like the devil had a vice over my mind.
[00:02:18]  And so I knew that Jesus was my answer.
[00:02:22]  Actually, I didn't even know I had unforgiveness.
[00:02:24]  I just thought this person needed to change, and then my problems will be over, right?
[00:02:28]  That's it.
[00:02:29]  That's I mean, that's the truth.
[00:02:32]  That's the truth.
[00:02:33]  And then a man of God spoke to me, and I'm in the middle of my fight.
[00:02:40]  I mean, at that time, we were traveling on the road with our three sons.
[00:02:45]  And I remember one night, because I had a lot of sleepless nights, but this one particular sleepless night, I took a hold of the sink, and I said, because my hands are painfully cold all the time.
[00:02:59]  My feet are painfully cold all the time.
[00:03:03]  Fear, panic, and I'm living with this, and I'm a Christian.
[00:03:09]  And I took a hold of the sink and I said, God, I don't know why.
[00:03:15]  I don't know why this is.
[00:03:16]  I don't know what I'm going through, but I will not let go of you.
[00:03:25]  And it was after that, about two or three weeks after that, that this man of God, I'm so thankful for the gifts of the Spirit.
[00:03:34]  This man of God walked up to me and he said, he said, you're a very sensitive person.

=== 24 Hours, New Perspective (00:29) ===

[00:03:42]  And he said, but do you have some broken places on the inside of you?
[00:03:47]  He said, in 24 hours, you're going to wake up in a different world.
[00:03:52]  In that 24 hours, I was able to see from a different perspective my situation, that I had unforgiveness, and I forgave that person.
[00:04:04]  I let them go free.